Day 4
Caelyn Watson 16, District 2 Female
I look at the canister in my hands flinching as I hear Maverick smash something outside maybe it's because his getting tired all I know is he just growled at me walked out and is letting the anger out, it's getting concerning
Last time I didn't see this anger but this time I am, his emotions change almost every second, one second he says something cold and heartless then he panics and begs for me to apologise because he knew it was hurtful, some times he says things and I don't even understand, yet he hasn't tried to hurt me, even if he wants to but it feels like that day, the day where he died, I thought he could handle it for longer, but not this time, and once again he barely remembered killing that boy
I should open it it's the first gift Everett has sent me since the bloodbath, I thought he got angry and left me when I ignored what he said about Luca but he hasn't and I need to know he is there for me because every minute that the time goes past the more I loose maverick and it is only the start of day four I should run I can handle being alone I don't want to but I can handle it but I can't do that to him, I can't loose someone when I don't have many people in this world
My hands shake as I slowly open it open seeing black liquid as I quickly throw the canister in the fire putting the vile and note in my pocket when I hear the door open, I know why he sent it and I can't do that, I would rather die the same way I did the last time then hurt Maverick I know he might be better of dead because he is suffering, but we are closer then we were last time, we know we are falling or have already fallen in love with each other, unless Everett gave me the poison for myself or another mentor did, unless I could use it on Luca but getting the poison in his mouth his like putting your hand in fire
Won't end well
"Did you hear it" he say softly
"Hear what" I say
"The cannon" he shouts I just stand up and he winces
"I didn't mean it, I didn't mean to kill them" he stutters, I haven't heard a cannon not since late yesterday but that was before the anthem, it's obvious the Capitol did something to him or maybe because he was already mentally broken, maybe he should sleep could be that too, he hasn't slept for five nights or maybe it's because of the constant sounds and banging here, the blood splattered on the walls even where we are I still hear it
"Kill who" I say
"The person outside, I I killed them and don't you see the blood" he says
I look at his hands, his clothes there is nothing no speck of blood, I even grab his wrist looking at his watch, only one kill, his hallucinating killing people, maybe he always did but I know that wasn't true he has over a hundred kills to his name and he probably wouldn't be able to name half yet he has remorse, I see if it lets me know there is humanity in there and that's the side I have fallen for, yes he sometimes screams at me, pushes me but he straight away apologises, I know what emotions do to people, that's why spent years blocking them out
I guess what we did in the sibling hood you wouldn't survive if you were sensitive, vulnerable yet we knew by blocking them out fully he did more harm then good, I just nod and he steps closer "Your lying aren't you" he growls
Stay calm, he just grabs me by the end of my top bringing us face to face "Caelyn" he growls
"I don't see anything, I didn't hear a cannon" I say
"Why did you lie to me, you don't trust me don't you, don't you" he says, I just put my hand on my sword on my belt as he just throws him self away sobbing and I just close my eyes for a moment, why did I do that, why did I make him feel like I would of attacked him
"Please don't be scared of me" he says
"I'm not, okay it was just a reaction, I would never hurt you" I say
"Yet you killed me" he yells, memories flood back of the day he died, it feels similar, he starts screaming at me, starts getting violent, but instead he just closes his eyes putting his hand over his ears for a brief moment as he walks over to me and I just stay still and he wraps his arms around me as I rub his back
I don't know what to do, he is already so fragile and there still could be a week left and I don't want to die again, I need to start worrying about life but I care for maverick more then anyone would understand, it broke me to leave Aden last games but I didn't feel this attached to him Everett wants me to kill him and I can't do that, it would be easier get rid of my biggest road block to victory but he is more then that this relationship with Maverick isn't a game to me
I'm worried if I leave him, I will never see the old Maverick again he will become a void like luca, and then again I will be forced to put him down, sometimes it was easier being away from normal society it saved the pain of my what needs to be done
"Did you use to see things, think you killed them" I say
He shakes his head "I use to hear screams, see blood, taste it in my mouth but normally when I saw my self covered in blood it was real, and a body was found and I was the killer, what if those memories are coming back to me, because I barely remember some people I killed, like the mayors son" he says
"You killed the mayors son, they said it was an animal attack" I say, Maverick just chokes
"Is that why I always taste blood in my mouth"
"I taste blood in my mouth to its alright, could be because of our blood type" I say Everett said his blood disorder could be a reason for his mental illness, plus a incident he doesn't remember from his past would of triggered it, and that's what it is a illness he isn't this way because he wants to, he has no control and that's dangerous because control is what keeps people from giving into their inhumane instincts
"I like the taste of it" he says softly
"Didn't need to know that buddy" I smile, as he just smiles back
"What was your sponsor gift" he says I freeze for a moment, fuck
"Just medicine, I hurt myself last night it's okay though" I say
"Did I hurt you, please don't tell me it was me" he says
"No it wasn't, when I went out remember I fell on something sharp, cut my ankle my pants hid the blood" I say I hate this lying to him, yet if I tell him I betray Everett not that I will use the poison first chance I get I'm smashing it unless I put it on a knife and throw it at luca but he would know how to heal himself from poison
Kellen and Harrison, tempting, very tempting but wanting to kill luca got in my head last games and I don't want to be a killer, I never did, he just nods even if I'm worried he doesn't believe what I said but he trusts me maybe too much and if I did care about my life the way I should I would of taken advantage of him but I can't, he means to much to me and it shouldn't be the case not here, not when only one of us is getting out of here
"When do you think he is coming for you" He asks
"I have no idea, Everett said to wait, make him come to me, I want you to run if he does" I say
"Im not leaving you, you can't fight him alone, I'm stronger this time I can't let him get to me" he says
I almost scoff if any one else said something that was further to the truth I would of but I can't do that to him, I mean he has shown cases where he has, when we ran into the fours, he didn't rip them apart, yet he killed Parker without hesitating them broke down after wards, it's like he didn't even know what his doing in that split moment in moment
"You know what he is waiting for" I say
"I want to slaughter you I won't deny that but I'm doing everything in my power to ensure I won't" he says, like the last time too I see scratch marks in his hands, the hand of his sleeves are wet probably by chewing on them since he didn't go outside just to the lounge area, I don't even want to know what he did in there probably broke some capitol properly not that it matters they have more then billions, they could probably buy all 12 districts maybe about 100 of the 12 districts they are that rich
And in this world the rich get richer, the ones with more power get more power, and the ones with hope loose it but I haven't, I should and I don't actually know what to hope for but I still have it
"Thank you" I say softly as he just grabs my hand that's the only thing that makes both of us feel warm, he doesn't mind being affectionate and deep down I'm scared of it because I know I'm too deep to escape, I'm too attached but I'm worried our friendship, will be used, I don't want it to make us look like targets, and I guess I have already broken the code of no romantic feelings, I sort of forgot that code
I'm forgetting my code in general and maybe that's better yet I feel like some lost girl, even I chuckle at that joke and finding the funny things of life isn't really in my serious and withdrawn demeanour, but sometimes you have to laugh at stuff it's the only way not to fall in a dark hole
Maverick would know, maybe that's why he is afraid of the dark, or being alone in general, they do take care of the special units, I remember Payton trying to murder me a few years back, now he was nice and tried to comfort me at times, after he did threaten me but that was because he cared about Maverick , so if Maverick wins he will get the help and support just means he has to move on from me, Aden clearly moved on it's what you need to do in life, you can loose someone ever day and the only way to keep going forward is to move on and let it go I know it won't be as easy for Maverick since he hadn't really had anyone beside family me too but I had the sibling hood and they were my best friends but they were still emotionally distant
"We should move, this place is scaring you a little bit" I say
"I'm not scared" he growls I just put my hands up and he just frowns biting his lip
"But maybe your right, soon it will be only the 12 who were brought back from a reason, then it will be harder to kill and protect you" he says
"You don't have to protect me" I say softly
"I mean protect you from myself" he says just opening the door, he is adamant he won't be able to hold back from hurting me yet I know he will maybe I'm being stupid and trusting a boy who clearly isn't stable enough, he wasn't seen stable enough to go through the trial
"I told you a hundred time I trust you" I say
"You shouldn't even now I want to strangle you to death" he says turning around and looking at me wide eyed
"Go ahead" I say
He just looks at me then whimpers shaking his head "Why aren't you scared of me, why don't think I will kill you" he says softly stepping every closer but I don't step back finding comfort in him, feeling safe and I know I shouldn't maybe I am delusional or maybe I put to much trust in people I guess you had to in the sibling hood
And here too, if you trust the wrong person it will get you killed
"I know you can kill me but I'm not afraid there is no point" I say
He just grabs my hand as we just keep waking through the small village the rain now turning to snow
"Can you hear anyone" I say, he has the hunter inscint, tends to always know when someone is around, I don't know how, but it's a gift, they did teach tracking I believe in the academy but like we were in the sibling hood we are tight I aways to know when someone is close but because I wasn't a guard I didn't go through the real training, we all had roles whether it was to guard our camp, to be one of the fighters, because of the leader I was protected from the physical fighting, I would never do something that was unsafe
I guess in a sense they still saw me as a vulnerable young girl "Nothing, this must be a area that was effected by the apocalypse" he says
I look at him confused "People believe it was a ghost town but yet isn't their are sprits but ghost can't destroy buildings write on walls and leave claws marks, they can't cause physical damage like they did, this arena was invaded by zombies or more looks like it" he says
Another folk tale I look at my hands "Don't worry we aren't zombies, I cut a chunk of my palm off yesterday and it didn't grow back" he says, I look at his hand
"That explains the scar" I say softly
"Look at your waiste I don't think the medicine fully heals us" he says I lift up my clothing his right, it was different last games every wound was healed apart from the real damaged ones
"Are they real" I ask
He shakes his head "I one day killed this boy and buried him, I sort of kept feeling guilt because I know no one could find his body so I dug it he a year later and he was still there decayed because I buried him in a lake under the dirt but didn't come back alive" he says
I just nod, Everett said our bodies didn't decay that the Capitol made sure of it in case they wanted to bring us back, I'm hoping they don't do it again
"Pre-school" I say softly at the little building with balloons in front, pictures of smiley faces in the sign as a few more starts exit the sky, colours everywhere ones that respect who is alive and who is dead
"I never went to school did you" He asks as we walk in
"Yeah when I was a little kid, I was rich kid" I say
"Hated rich kids" he chuckles
"You hate me" I say
"Na your different you always were to other girls" he says
"I get that a lot actually" I say I mean it's not often we get born, in two girls are almost rare, I remember before I was originally chosen we had a year where no baby girls were born that's why the Capitol were so concerned yet here I am, Everett said after Alyse they finally put boys in because they had no extra ordinary girls
Yet Sometimes I wish I was still ordinary
Kellen Morris 18, District 10 Male
"I wonder why the rain doesn't hide the footprints" I ask, after Harrison looked at the tracker to ensure Luca's was the same one as ours we have been going on a sheep hunt, yet we also know that the sheep are running into a pack of wolves, so we know to keep one alive because we don't want to run into them
Plus Aden did threaten to scrounge me if I kill my district partner, I don't really understand that word but considering I need him I will follow his stupid wish and Harrison won't kill a girl that's if we are going for the right ones, hopefully this isn't some dumb trick and it is actually Maverick and Caelyn
"It hides ours" he says I look back, it does too, they clearly aren't doing a good job with favouritism, and we have been quiet since day one and I do need blood, because for some reason Harrison is the only one who I don't want to murder and drain of blood maybe I do have human emotions inside me and can attached to someone because we are similar
And I can speak without him judging me, calling me crazy or looking at me like he is scared because I hated the look maybe that's why I reap-
Res p e cut
I can't say the worse without wanting to vomit but that's how I felt towards Aden which is why I listen to him, and he tortured a girl, I like torture, it's a art that not many find beauty in but I do, sadly most most my victims cried and forced me to cut their throat out and ended up choking because they are weak so it was hard to show my torture skills
Reason why I want Caelyn so bad, not that she knows it, I told Harrison and he said as long as he isn't involved I can do what I want to her
"You sure it's the ones we believe" I say he shows me his tracker, like it didn't show us Luca was literally right next to us, it had him on the other side of the map, Harrison was just able to hear him because he knows when evil is close by just like how I know someone that is bleeding is close by or wounded, I prey upon those people
"There are only two girls left and this pair don't seem to be running, if it was Caelyn and Maverick they would of heard us plus ten and five" he says I just count the little lines watching the blood from my broken finger nail wash into the mud it's why I enjoyed the trenches so much
"Kill then test the heart and soul of the boy trio" I say, we plan to attack them later, wait until a few of the weaker links after these two die, which will most like be rayden who I practically broke last time and the fours who clearly have wedge between them then split the glue of the boy duo and see if two alpha males can still keep their loyalty, Aden said I need to seem like I'm doing something Harrison and I are playing chess master since Luca isn't really doing anything
He is waiting to hunt the wolves, waiting so he can fight Caelyn to get avengence for his past failures, but we all failed that's why we died, I admit I failed, I was too caught up in the blood rather then realising this is a killing game, and I met peace it was quite comforting hugging death knowing I'm no longer a slave to this cruel world
"Its always the the most perfect ones that will crumble" he says
I smirk "I was never fond of my District partner" I say as we just follow the footprints
"Luca seemed overly interested in Me" he says
"You are a puzzle of a thousand pieces" I say, like I am, if someone were to try and put me together they wouldn't understand, they would probably throw the puzzle away
Even I don't understand my brain, how I want blood, don't even remember why I ripped off half my finger nail maybe because it is the best way to get blood, I don't know but having the blood run down my throat makes me less shaky and less feral minded, last time in the games when I was alone I didn't even remember how I felt all I know is I heard things, saw things, was out of my mind, at least with Harrison I don't feel scared, maybe having him right next to me know I'm not alone
I haven't once wanted to kill him, and that's something that confuses me but maybe I'm not the cold blooded serial killer everyone believed I was maybe
I have humanity
Or I just don't feel like killing him probably just the second option since we are hunting down two teenagers right now and I haven't once wanted to turn away, Mila or Maya or Mia I don't know which name, never made a effort with me maybe if she did I would show more mercy
That fact I can't even name her shows me that and I am good with names well in most cases depends on the person, sheep come and go but if it's one of the strong I make sure to pay attention to them because I know they could be the ones to stab my back and end my life not that dying concerns me but I still
I don't know what I want to be honest I just really want a human heart "Are tou still confused by your eventual fate" I ask
I don't know if I could kill him even if by some weird way we make it to the end which would actually be amusing in the sense we know the Capitol won't both of us dead yet if they wanted that they would of burnt our bodies to ensure we can't be revived sadly this time they took the bodies straight away probably because they thought Harrison and I would do something but maybe that's why I lost it last time, I ate flesh and organs from the dead and they cursed me
Harrison said that could be true reason why he burns most bodies to ensure spirits and ghosts can't come back but we realised this isn't a ghost town, it's a zombie apocalypse I mean one day out of curiosity I did cut a boy off then sew him back together to see if he would come back as a zombie but he didn't, because human hands can't do what is against nature, science every fucking thing shows the dead can't come back
And I know death better then anyone, I have been coated head to toe in blood "Im concerned where the afterworld is last time was peaceful yet clearly we aren't entirely normal" he says
My blood is better then the blood of the boy I killed and normally I hated to drink my own blood, I don't want to hurt Harrison by drinking his and Aden slammed my head into the wall when I asked him, shows that maybe the strong their blood is more powerful and strong they say female blood is better
I guess I only really targeting boys because they were the runts of the earth but there was this girl Lila I believe, sweet innocent girl who has a love for baby animals, wounded animals we did connect she was fascinated by me the mysterious young man, didn't even care I was a butcher, she use to walk late out nights saying the moon was beautiful, I guess I did enjoy walking with her, hearing her believes, the only time someone made me feel normal, then one day when we were walking, talking about what our futures would look like not that I really knew she fell over a rock, and her hand started bleeding, it was one of the times I lost control, after I finally knocked out of it I was on top of her death body, neck ripped open blood coating my face
I didn't feel a thing
It was rare I killed a female but when I did it was better, she showed that the innocent ones don't belong in this cruel world
I just suck my thumb again "You can have some of my blood I trust you" he says
I look at him "I don't hurt friends, fuck did I say that" I stutter
He just smiles the first time he actually has when it hasn't be out of callousness "You two, they still don't believed we are here" he says
We are both quietly spoken, but clearly neither understands where they are, we need to ensure all the weak girls are dead, to make sure one won't float on but would also make Caelyn more nervous about her fate and nerves will make her stronger
There is also a little notable issue with Maverick so clearly the mentally weaker become more mentally weak not that I have it be concerned about that my phsycitriast (I had after my mum forced me to go while being concerned my fathers physical abuse mentally damaged me) did write me a very good letter how I was mentally stable, even though it was hard to write while holding someone's cut off hand and ensuring blood won't get in the paper because that may have set off a few alarms
I grab a rock throwing it in the distance as a few more lights turn on and Mia yells in shock and when they see us they bolt
"That was rude" I say as Harrison and I both take off, I mean I get that a lot well not really because no one knew I was this crazy cannibal not that I am a cannibal they really need to change the description if that
He takes out a knife as I nod and hear the familiar crashing of a body as the knife goes into Cillians shoulder, his the distance man and I'm the executioner, that's how our alliance works so well we both know how role, both have the same goal
We run over as Mia tried to help Cillian up "Make the right choice, you don't want your body to be cut open again do you" I say fingering my cleaver as Harrison just tilts his head at her
"Just run it's okay" Cillian says
"You are just letting me go" She stutters
"Letting you go, leading you into a trap for someone else to end you wasted life, same thing isn't it" I say
Harrison just steps closer and that makes her run away as Cillian tries to run but I just grab his arm as he swings the knife that was in his shoulder as it slices my chin open but I don't even feel anything just some blood running into my mouth as I grab his wrist twisting it and throwing him to the ground as he smashes into sharp rocks,
He just whimpers but doesn't scream or cry "If you beg or scream it won't be quick" I say just zipping my jacket open
"Just do it I had no hope anyways" he says
"You can die knowing you were the second last sheep to die" I say just looking at my cleavers picking the sharpest one the one I know will do the most damage, I will keep the blood drinking from a live human to one of the stronger ones, because this isn't actual blood
Harrison realised that even though he barely slit the boy from 14 or what ever districts throat, he still died, means they want them to die, I just step kneel next to him as he panics a little but I just slam my knife hardly into his neck, feeling the blood splatter in my face
BOOM
At least he had the decency to not loose his head, beheaded bodies safe more because I'm worried their head will talk, and talking is a weapon people can use to hurt the strong reason why I barely speak I find other ways to scare people, stronger ways
I just lick the blood "He is is a little darker then The others" Harrison says as I just bring my teeth to his neck
"Taste like normal blood interesting" I say just biting down on his throat
"Not as good as sone though" I say
"Wouldn't know" Harrison says don't know if it's a joke or a insult but he can be a little black and white that's why I find him so calming
I look at my tracker smiling to my self, I could of killed Mia but I didn't really feel the need to have many kills to my name means nothing to me because I don't get any satisfaction from killing honestly I feel nothing, Harrison is the same but he said it's because he knows it's for a good cause, even what I did I know it helps this crap earth by getting rid of stains
This year?
Make the Capitol suffer, I know he isn't black listed but clearly they would want one of the street kids or precious and innocent Caelyn to win
Make sure that doesn't happen, don't know why I have a obsession with District two girls so much maybe because I'm still angry I let Aelia kill so I want to take it out on Caelyn or maybe I actually don't know
We walk the opposite way "Who is next" He says I look at the tracker
"Wait and see what occurs for the lovers normally a full on mental break down will occur on the fifth day after the trigger, see where Caelyn goes and if she runs into someone, then we start with plan kill the king snake" I say
Harrison smirks we both want luca dead any sane person would want that boy dead, he is a danger to everyone
Any sane people would want us dead because we have no fear, if Harrison had to die, he has to die even if it will leave a emptiness inside me but I won't kill him, if I die then I will welcome death with open arms
Because I want peace again I guess I always did and the Capitol didn't want me too
"You sure she will run" he says
"History repeating it self will scare even the most strong and withdrawn" I say
I don't see myself as strong which is why history doesn't scare me, nothing really does
Cohen Haden 18, District 7 Male
"Funny story bro, so I went to the park right, like this park well I think it's a park we call car yard parks by yeah anyways we went there and there was this chick and I was like you got any morphling ya know and she was like don't talk to me and I was like what ever ya bitch, like girls this says aren't right man, hey hey you got any morphling"
"Who is he talking to" I say quietly to Axel, we haven't really done much, Axel said to watch the amazing character of Maxen who has spent the last hour talking to a thinking some bobble head of some man, but honestly considering he was talking to the floor last night I wouldn't know
It does distract me from the games, from what could happen, what will happen, loosing them, dying my self
We haven't bumped into anyone yet but no doubt we will soon all the ones who were expected to just get picked off have and soon it will be the battle of the big dogs, the street boys, the looney tunes, the ones who turned their back on normal society I guess that's what they wanted the pattern has occurred every year
And probably won't change any time soon "Who bloody knows, it's funny" Axel says
Things seem to perfect and it seemed like that with Xander too until Cian murdered me, I'm scared the same will happen and I am not ready to die yet but I'm also not ready to test my humanity yet, that's what they want from me, Talen said they see Caleyn and I as the most mature ones left but also the ones most withdrawn but also the ones who might not put themselves first and they went to test that
I don't know if I ever seen myself as withdrawn
I care for people and I show it, but maybe in a sense I am too, I try to hide from emotions, I don't know if I would sacrifice my life for others I guess I hide from that too, big words aren't really my thing since I was too poor for school and to cool, full school
"OIII UGLY HEAD TALK TO ME" Maxen says grabbing the toy
"Wait for it to break, he will cry throw it then go back to normal him, he hasn't really changed" Axel chuckles
I wonder if I had, I mean I don't really know what I am, I was in the background last time, I was seen as Xanders allie nothing else nothing more but now I have the chance to change that, but it would mean loosing Axel and Maxen
They aren't Xander we had a bond even I can't explain but they are close, it feels more like I'm back home with the boys and I never thought I would go back homes I don't think I will but weirder things have happen
"OIII OIIIIIII" Maxen says shaking the head as it rolls off, I swear that's the president so I almost laugh, almost but I bite lip kip as Maxen starts sobbing
"it's okay Maxen, he wasn't real" Axel says, I hope they dont Murder the kid for calling the president ugly head, he just pouts
"I WANT MY MORPHLING" He screams as he throws the headless doll at me and I duck
"Cohen I'm sorry, that wasn't meant to hit you I'm sorry I'm sorry" he says running over to me and throwing his arms around me as I just pat his back and he falls on the ground laughing and Axel winks at me as I smirk
He was right, I don't know why I trust him so much when his behaviour is so erratic but it isn't violent and that is a positive means I can trust him but I still do worry who would he choose, who would Axel choose
I'm the new guy to this alliance yet me and Axel knew each other since we were kids
Who would I choose?
It's something I don't want to answer
"It's okay" I say
He just slaps me gently like his trying to make sure my face is fine "Fuck when did you become blonde" he says
"The day I was born" I chuckle
"FUCK WHEN DID YOU BECOME BLONDE WAIT AM I BLONDE" Maxen says to Axel
"Again since the day I was born and no Maxy you are dark brown" he says
"That's a yucky colour, WHY IS THERE A HEAD ON THE GROUND" he says throwing it in the fire as Axel just laughs
"I didn't like ugly head" He says, neither of us mention it was the president but clearly it was harmless and he had no clue, well I hope
Maxen screeches when the cannon booms as I raise an eyebrow "Thunder yeah yeah thunder" he says skipping to the bedroom
"He was allowed to have sugar pills this time, sorry about him" Axel says
"Keeps me amused, what if that's one of cillian and Mia, means you know" I say
"I know, we might have to move too make it look like we are trying to do something, I am seen as the second weakest of the 12" he says
"Predicted places mean shit, and it's not like it's your fault, two trained careers, Camden and Maxen are the more rough and tough street boys, Caleyn a youth group member, Luca a assassin the the three crazies, are age stronger then me but they put me there for the sake of it" I say
"You are stronger then me but thanks, just means we need little Maxy to keep up the comedy show and they should keep us alive, but I don't want to feel like I'm forcing you and you can say no but are you willing to end someone's life, because I'm worried about how much it will damage him and I uh-" he says stumbling
That's what Talen warned me about, that I may be used, but I'm use to it if your in a gang you have to carry your weight we have roles but considering Maxen got confused thinking his the brawns when I think his the brains and then thought I was the brains it's all of the place but I do know my main role and that's being a tribute
"Of course" I say, because that's what we need to do, Xander protecting me from it the last time but I know I would if I have to it's the invisible contract you signed the second your name is called out you have to be willing to do anything to win as much as I might end up hating my self
I probably will because I have never ended a life in my youth years and it does scare me that may have to, Maxen skips but in sitting in the ground nodding, I want to ask him, what it's like since Axel wants to walk away from that memory but I don't think he remembers or cares yet he has shown he cares for us
He put his hand up to be the one wield the blade so we don't have too, for some people it changes him unless his brain is blocking those memories because deep down his ashamed and I can respect that, sometimes it's better to hide the pain makes life easier
"What now I think we should move ya know because it's getting less people I think 50 left we should try to move away in case mr bobble head comes back" he says
"Good idea" I say Maxen claps excited as I just smile at him, we grab our weapons, as I make sure I keep the knife in my pocket, it isn't that I distrust them but in the streets you always learnt to sleep with a knife under your bed, even in a gang because it's a dog eat dog out there and if some one believes you are going to break the bro code you become enemy number one
We all fell asleep at the same time last night, who knows if someone could of come in we probably should of had someone guard but it's hard to sleep here and we just couldn't stay up any longer, we were lucky, if what Maxen and Axel says about Kellen and Luca is true they would prey upon sleeping targets, even if being a sleep would certainly be less slow and painless then my last death
Not that I really felt pain, it was more numb and like my body was cold as ice
I don't think I can handle that again, but nice guys always fishing last and as much as I don't want to I know I am one because I don't have the heartless to be a bad guy, we walk out "I'm cold" Maxen says as Axel just grabs his hand
"Thank you, fuck you Mr rain cloud" Maxen says
I just put my hands in my pockets trying not to be cold myself, even though it's the side effects even deep down I feel different like something isn't right
I don't even know who I am anymore "Cohen smile mate it will be alright" Maxen says slapping my back
"Just lost in my thoughts" I say
"Tell me about it the little purple man on the bike in my head is whizzing and whizzing like a helicopter" he says
"What's a helicopter" I say, Axel nods like he has no idea
"I don't know, oh what's that HELLO" Maxen says taking off as we both run after him, Axel also said when ever he runs off doesn't end well, I'm hoping it's not a tribute but I wouldn't be shocked either we aren't in the most unknown area in the arena
More lights turn on "Maxen wait" I say when I see Mia turn around but he already launched as they crash into ground, and she screams in shock trying to push him off accidentally poking him in the eye
"Ouch that hurt me ouch" Maxen says as she uses that to push him off running away, I just panic throwing a knife in her knee and she trips down Maxen just runs over to Axel
"What do we do" he says looking at me
She is the last one left who wasn't bolded, I see her get up again "Go in that cabin over there I will be back" I say, I know that this is a moment I have to step up, I can't hide, I can't just be this bystander, I don't want to kill, not someone innocent not someone who was in my games, but I don't want to die again, I am ordinary there is nothing special about me I'm just some street boy, I need to show them I'm not just some bystander, I don't want to hurt Mia she did nothing wrong but in this scenario I have no choice
"Cohen" Axel said
"I have to, I'm not like either of you I wasn't special in my games" I say
"You are though, I can do it it's okay" Maxen says
"His right Maxy, his right" Axel says
"You better be back big dog or I will hunt you down like a baby giraffe" he says
Ah uh, that sounds so scary I just nod, running off into the forest area, as I see the trials of blood my hands shaking on my axe, I see her in the distance Cleary struggling With the pain in her knee as I almost turn back
This doesn't feel right, she is innocent, yet I know I have to and I know I will give her a quick death not that I killed anyone before, I just throw my axe hoping praying it with lodge into her head and she wouldn't even of seen it coming but instead she screams ducking out if the way like she heard it
"Cohen" she says
I just look at her, we didn't talk, didn't even cross paths yet she knows me "You don't have to do this" she says
I look at my axe away from her then her as I wait for her to stand up, if I back out now it will show everyone I'm a coward and a fool
I never backed from a fight, she tried to run again as I throw myself at her, grabbing into her as we roll into the mud, she slaps me in the face trying to run off but I grab a fist fall off her hair, dragging her down, and forcing myself on top of her, as I grab her hands, twisting them wincing when I hear a crack as she whispers and I do what Xander told me, pin the hands under the knees because I'm scared if she keeps running that I will back out or she will kill me but she is fighting a lot more then I expect to the point I have to slam my fist in her nose
"Please stop fighting" I say
"Your just as bad as the rest of them" she says softly, I just flinch getting her hands under my knees as I just push my weight against her, bringing my knife out my grip shaking
"You don't want to do this Cohen and you don't have to" she says
I look at the knife then her as the rain hits me in the back, I take a deep breath "I'm sorry" I say, she tries to move, to scream but I shut my eyes slamming my knife in her heart as she wriggled out the way just in time as the blood cuts her chest
"STOP MOVING GOD DAMN IT" I yell angrily slamming my knife day as the blood splatters on my face as I just bring it down over and over again as a cannon booms and the screaming stops
"Cohen" I look back as Maxen looks at me wide eyed as I see the blood pour through my finger I just throw my self off her body vomiting on the ground when I see her body, guilt flooding me
I wanted, all I wanted was to stab her heart, her death be quick and painless not destroy her whole face
"It's okay, you had to" Maxen says wrapping his arms around me as I just stare at my hands
"I didn't have to do that" I say
He just looks at me and I'm worried he will scream but he doesn't as he just grabs some of the rain water smearing it on my face as I just bat his hands away "Just get the blood off your face and hands so Axel doesn't know the damage you did" he says spitting in his hand and trying to rub my face again as I grab his wrist
"It's okay I will use my drink bottle" I say as my hands keeping shaking
He just nods kneeling next to me "Do you hate me" I say
"I have done the same, I watched the whole thing it was a reaction reason why I used morphling it drowned the pain wish I could give you some" he says
I just smile at him, drown the pain because deep down I feel something in me break
Day 4
14th: Cillian Bankcroft, District 5 Male- Killed By Kellen Morris, District 10 Male
13th: Mia Kingsley, District 10 Female- Killed By Cohen Haden, District 7 Male