Chapter 11

After being on the road for nearly 48 hours, we finally pulled into the drive way of our house.

"It's about fucking time we made it." I snap getting out of the car.

"I know, Zona. But we would have been home sooner if we hadn't made all them bathroom stops for you." She says closing her door.

"So this is my fault? I'm sorry I had to pee ever half hour to an hour. If this child would stop sitting on my fucking bladder, we would have been home yesterday."

"Look, keep your voice down. Ok. I haven't told Tim about you being pregnant yet."

"Well I will tell him later on when I get some fucking sleep."

"Alright, here comes Tim. Subject change." I turned around and saw Tim walking toward us. I grabbed ahold of him, pulled him into a hug and cried.

"Hey, whoa, Arizona, what's wrong?" He asks me pulling out of each others embrace.

"I don't really want to talk about it right now. I just want to get my stuff out of the car." I went to walk to the back of my Tucson, but Tim grabbed me by the arm to stop me.

"No, no, It's Ok. Teddy and I will get it, you go in and try and get some rest." I nodded my head in agreement and walked into the house. I made my way into the bedroom I slept in when I was home for Christmas break. Even though it was only 4 in the late afternoon, I went and laid down on my bed. All I could think about was how my life got so turned around. I went from being a happy kid to getting drunk and sleeping with a woman who was born with a penis, then getting knocked up that very same night. My life has become such a mess. Just then I heard Tim and Teddy in the hall talking.

"Is she ok?" I heard him ask her.

"She's had it rough these last few months, so she's dealing with a lot right now. Just give her some time and some space." she tells him.

Not realizing that I had fallen asleep, I woke up to someone gently shaking me. I opened my eyes, seeing that it was Tim. "Hey." He greets me with his crooked smile. "You hungry sleepy head?" I give him a sleepy smile, then replied, "Yeah. I'm starving. What time is it?"

"Almost 10 p.m. I had Teddy run to BK to get us something. You do realize that you have been out for the last 6 hours. right?"

"Oh no. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to sleep so long." I tell him.

"You're ok. I understand. The trip was exhausting, so it's ok." He looked down at his hands for a minute, then turned his attention back to me. "So..you ready to tell me why you're home from college? After you told me that you weren't going to make it home for the summer."

Coming out as a whisper, I tell him, "I quit. I'm not returning to school."

He stood up from my bed. "Why did you quit, Arizona." I knew he wasn't too happy at the thought of his 18 year sister quitting college.

With tears running down my cheek, I finally tell him the reason behind my behavior and why I quit school. "I'm pregnant, Tim." I tell. After getting that out, the flood gates opened and I just broke.

"Oh, Arizona." He says, pulling me into a hug. I don't know what to say. Why didn't you tell me? Are you ok?" Not trusting my voice, I just shook my head no. "No wonder you have been acting so weird. Who's the baby's father?"

Father? Ha! That's funny cuz there is no fucking father. It's mine and Callie's baby.

"There isn't one." I tell him.

"What do you mean there isn't one? It takes two people to make a baby. A guy and a girl. I mean, I know you're gay and would never sleep with a man, but you had to of, otherwise you wouldn't be in this situation."

"You're right, but it wasn't a guy that knocked me up. Do you remember the girl we met at the bar on New Year's Eve?" Tim gave me a confusing look.

"Yeah, what about her?"

"It's her baby." I tell him.

"How's that possible Arizona, she's a woman."

"Yeah, I know. But she told me the night I went home with her, that she was born with a penis. An actual working male reproductive part."

Tim lowered his head in disbelief.

"Ok, well didn't you guys use anything?" I crawled out of my bed and walked to my door.

"Would I be in this fucking mess if we used anything? So apparently we didn't fucking use anything." I snapped, then walked out.

I have been home now for two months. I'm now 7 Months along in my pregnancy. I still haven't talked to Callie about it. I knew that I had to, but not today. I'm still haven't been myself since the incident with Callie on New Year's Eve and my emotions have been all of over the place. Besides, it's Fourth of July. I rather not discuss this sort of thing when we have guests in our house.

"Arizona, can you bring me out the plates of hamburgers and hotdogs?" I hear Tim call from the back yard. I grabbed the packages of hotdogs and the plate of hamburgers from the fridge and ran them out to Tim. Just as I was coming back into the house, I heard the door bell.

"I'll get it." I yell. Not really caring if anyone heard me. As I opened the door, my eyes went wide. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. or who I was seeing. There, standing at my door was Callie. The beautiful brunette I met at the bar just months ago.

"Hey." She says, greeting me.
"What are you doing here?" I ask.

"I just wanted to come by and see if we could talk. I figured, since we didn't do much talking on New Year's." She says letting out a small chuckle.

"What's there to say?"

As she look down at my stomach, her eyes went wide.

"I'm pretty sure there's something to talk about?" When I left college back in April, I wasn't showing, but now being 7 months along, you can definitely tell. Its like my stomach popped out over night.

"No, there isn't Callie. I have nothing to say." I tell her. I went to close the door, but stopped it from shutting.

"Yes, Arizona, there is. Why didn't you tell me you were pregnant?"

I didn't know what to say.

"Are you going to answer me or what?"

"I don't know how to answer that question." I tell her.

"You don't know how? Or you just don't want to?"

"Ok, fine. I don't want to. Are you happy now?"

"Look is there a way we can talk privately? That way I'm not standing out here for the neighbors to hear."

I don't think that's a great idea."

"Why not?"

"Umm..don't you remember what happened the last time we were alone? This is what happened." I say, pointing to my small baby bump. "Last time we were alone together, we ended up even more drunk than we were when we left the bar, and you knocked me up."

"Look, I'm willing to take full responsibility for what happened."

"How sweet of you." I snap. "This is my problem, Callie. You don't need to take responsibility for anything. You have done enough."

"So it is my baby?"

"Huh, ya think?"

"If it's really mine, let me be here for you."

"Why should I? I can handle this..." before I could finish, she cut me off

"Because it's my kid too, Arizona. or at least I think it is. Besides, you're not alone in this, not if you don't have to be. I'm here. Let me help."

"I wish people would stop telling me that. I'll be fine. Now, please leave. How the hell did you even know where I lived at anyway?"

"I'm not leaving until we talk. and I have my ways. Please, Arizona, talk to me."

I knew that this was one battle I was going to lose. No matter how hard I fought, she just wouldn't leave. So I gave up and stepped aside so she can come in.

"Thank you." I gave her a nod. "Now, again, is there somewhere private we can talk? Maybe your room or something?"

"Yeah, this way." I say, waving for her to follow me. I made my way down the hall to my room with Callie right behind me.

"So, how's school?" She asks as I closed the door behind us.

"I dropped out." I tell her. Apparently she wasn't expecting that answer.

"What? Why?"

"Things just wasn't working out. I wouldn't have been able handle raising a child in another state on top of going to school. Not with my brother and sister in law were in Seattle. I would have been all alone."

"Yeah, but.."

"But nothing, Callie." I say cutting her off "It was my choice. I chose to quit school to save me the stress of trying to find the time to study and work on top of taking care of a kid. It would have been too much."

"Ok, where were you attending school at?"

"Why do you care?"

"Just answer the question." She shot back.

"Fine. I was attending Ball State in Muncie, Indiana. You satisfied?"

"Wait, what? Ball State?" She asks. She paused for a moment then resumed, "My best friend Attends that school. Did you know her?"

"I never talked to anyone. I was there to get my degree, not to make friends."

"Ok, well you can go back. I can watch the baby while you attend classes."

"What? No. I'm not going back. Look, I made my decision and it's final. Besides, you don't know me well enough to move with me." She runs her hands through her hair. I can tell she's thinking about something. Just by the look on her face. "I can tell by the look on your face that you need to ask me something, so why don't you just ask.?"

"Ok, first off, this might be a stupid question, considering how your behavior and attitude is towards me, but do you regret that night? You know? Us being together."

Of all the questions I thought she would ask, the one that just came out of her mouth wasn't one of them. So I thought about her question for a minute, and as much as this is going to hurt her, I answered. "Yes, I do. Callie. I regret that night."

"Why? Why do you regret it? We had a great time that night. I mean, despite the fact that we were both really drunk and ended up in bed together, I really thought we could actually be something. But instead of spending these last 7 months getting to know each other, you regret it. Why?"

"Honesty right?" She gave me a nod. "I was a virgin that night." Her eyes got wide. I don't think she expected that from me. She probably thought that I was just one of them normal teenagers who would sleep with someone before going off to college so that they wouldn't be made fun of for being a virgin.

"I'm sorry, come again?" she says in disbelief.

"I...was... a... virgin, Callie. Do I have to spell it out for you?"

"Is this why you have been dodging my calls?"

"Yes, Callie. That's why I had been ignoring you."

"Oh god, Arizona, I wish you would have told me. I would have stopped. Especially if you weren't ready. But judging by the way you were acting with me that night, you were ready."

"You know what, Callie, fuck you. I was drunk...I..."

"So was I." she shouts, interrupting me.

"Look, doesn't matter now? It happened. Nothing we can do about it now."

"It does matter, Arizona. I know what it would do to someone who wasn't ready to have sex for the first time. I know for a fact that shit fucks you up. Seriously. Trust me, I have seen it for myself. You should have told me that you were a virgin way before we started drinking."

"Oh yeah, Like I was going to tell the one woman, whom I could have loved that I was a virgin. That's real good."

"It would have saved us both from all this." She says pointing to my bump. "Not to mention, it would have saved you from dealing with all the emotions you're going through now."

Before I could say anything to her, there was a knock at the door.

"Come in." I shout. The door opens and Tim pokes his head in.

"What do you need Tim?" I ask him.

"Just wanted to let you know that everything is ready." He says then turns his attention to Callie. "Oh hey Callie. Glad you could make it."

Callie tucked her bottom lip between her teeth and gave him a nod. Finally understanding what was going on, I hold my hand up and turn my attention back to Tim.

"Wait a minute, you invited her?"

"Yeah, why not?" says giving me a smirk.
"Why not? I can give you a few reasons why not." That smirk was still noticeable on his face. "Wipe that fucking smirk off your face, before I smack it off. What the hell Tim?"

"Is that the hormones talking, Arizona? or is the teenager in you? I can't tell which one." He jokes.

Callie turned her head away, and chuckled.

"This isn't funny."

"Yeah, neither are the pregnancy hormones, those are a bitch." He joked again.

"Tim, shut up."

"Ok, I'm sorry." he says holding his hands up in defense. "I surrender little sis."

I crossed my arms and gave him a dirty look. The room was silent for a minute.

"Why did you invite her without telling me? You could have given some kind of warning."

"Where's the fun in that?" He laughs. "I didn't tell you because If you knew, you would've taken off. Besides, I felt like you both needed to talk and work some stuff out. I mean after all, you are having a baby together."

"You're impossible." I huffed.

"No, Arizona, you're being the impossible one. Yes, you were a virgin and yes, you did something that you regret. But you can't just ignore the fact that you are expecting a child with the one person you lost your virginity too."

"So you felt the need to butt into the middle of things?"

"I was worried about you, Arizona. I still am. Is that such a bad thing?"

"Yes, it is. Because it's my business Tim. Which means, it makes it my problem. Not anyone else's. Especially not yours." I say.

"Look, I'm not going to apologize for inviting her. What's done is done. I invited her because I know that you had been dodging calls and texts from her, so I figured I'd invite her over so you guys can have a chance to talk."

"I had my reasons for not wanting to talk, Tim." I shout.

"Ok, I get that." He says moving his way into the room." You need to talk to her, Arizona. Look, I know for a fact that you are capable of raising this baby alone, but why do it alone when Callie lives here in Seattle too? You guys can make this work. So why not raise this baby together."

"It's not the easy, Tim" I say, my voice breaking. I walked past both Callie and Tim and went out to greet our guests.

"Sorry about that, Callie." Tim says, "This whole thing has been really hard on her. Give her some time, she will come around."

"Yeah, I highly doubt that." She says with a sigh.