"Alexandria, I can't give you an answer." John said.

"What do you mean you can't give me an answer?"

"I can't." "You want a yes or no right?"

"Yes."

"I can't tell you yes or no."

"Why?"

"It's not that simple for me."

"I'll take it as a no then."

"You don't want to be with me."

"How long are you going to continue to punish yourself John?" "I'm sorry about Sherri, I am." "I'm sorry she died, what happened to her was terrible." "Why do you want to push away someone who wants to help you?" "Someone who... She stopped.

"Someone who what?"

"It doesn't matter." "I knew you never would."

"Why did you come here?" "Why the sudden urgency?"

"I've been seeing my ex-boyfriend."

"Landon?"

"Yeah." "He's asked me to marry him and I'm going to accept, I'm moving to London." She got up and turned away from him holding back tears. She slowly started to walk towards the door, wanting John to stop her but knowing he wouldn't. She put her hand on the doorknob leaving it there for a few seconds. "I love you John." She thought. Slowly she turned the knob.

"Alexandria." He sighed. "Wait." She let go of the doorknob and turned around. He went up to her.

"You haven't accepted Landon's proposal?"

"Not yet."

"Don't, please."

"Why?" "You don't have to say you love me, just give me a reason why." Suddenly he kissed her. He knew he didn't have the words at the moment but could express himself through actions. She still wanted an answer but couldn't resist kissing him back. She wondered if she'd ever feel his soft, warm lips again. Now that she had she didn't want him to stop. He picked her up and they went into the bedroom, kissing passionately all the way. They couldn't get enough of each other. He laid her down on the bed underneath him. Almost immediately after she felt him pulling up her shirt, he took it off. She took off his. Slowly she began to run her hands down from chest to his abs, undoing his jeans and pulling them down along with his boxers. She put her hand between his legs and lightly squeezed his erection. She was surprised by how big it was. He groaned. Reaching behind her and undid her bra taking it off. He lowered his head to the middle chest and kissed it. She moaned running her hands through his hair. "Ohhhh." She moaned loudly as she felt his tongue on her skin. He squeezed her breasts. Goosebumps formed on her skin as he continued to kiss her down her body. He undid jeans slowly pulling them down kissing her thigh as it became exposed. Next slowly removing her panties, once he did he stopped for a second and admired her naked body. He climbed back on top of her. They looked at each was passion in their eyes. "Alexandria." He groaned as he slipped inside her. She moaned at the same time. He started to move slowly. "John." She moaned. "Oh Alexandria." He groaned. For next four hours they made love slowly. Enjoying all the feelings and sensations they were giving each other. John went faster. "Oh John." She moaned. "Uhhnn." He groaned. The way Alexandria felt as John was making love to her was a way she'd never felt with Landon or anyone else. "Oh my god, oh John, yes, John." She moaned giving in. "God Alexandria." He groaned giving in. They kissed as they caught their breath.

Afterwards he was holding her. He was feeling a happiness he hadn't felt in years. She was just as happy but she still needed to know.

"You never gave me an answer." She said.

He looked at her surprised by what she was saying. "Alexandria, we just made love."

"I know but how do I know that it wasn't just a stalling tactic?" "I just need to know we could have something, that's all." "If you need to slowly work up to it that's fine." "We don't even have to label it right now if you don't want to."

"Ok." "Yes there is, because I love you."

Alexandria was shocked. She didn't expect John's response to be that. "Really?" She said shocked with tears in her eyes. "You do?" "You love me back?"

"Yes, Alexandria, I love you." "I already lost one woman I loved, I wasn't going to let it happen again." "Since you're asking if I love you back, does that mean you love me?"

"Yes I love you." "I have for awhile now."

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

"Are you comfortable with that?"

"Yeah."

"Then yes."

"Do you want to stay?"

"Yeah."

"I should warn you." "I have nightmares a lot so I might wake you up."

"It's ok." She kissed him.