Hi there everyone!

I was surprised to see a notification on my email that someone left me a very kind review on my old fic, Feel New. Whoever you are, thank you, because you reminded me of the wonders that I had created when I was a younger me.

I want to start off by re-introducing myself since so many years have gone by (tbh, I'm not even sure if anyone will be reading this because of the years, but well, may as well post this anyway). My name is Matteo. I used to go under the username Combustability, now I go by pittssmitts on most social medias. When I wrote and posted my fanfictions, I was a young queer girl. Now, I'm a gay trans man (lol!). It's kind of funny how badly I wanted to love and be loved by men considering the self insert fanfictions I wrote were all with male characters, and I realize now that these fanfictions helped me explore the possibility of loving men, and therefore understand the reality that maybe I don't want to be loved by men as a woman. I'm sort of rambling now, but you get the gist and that is that I am very much not the person I once was. I've been on testosterone for over a year now and I also have a wonderful boyfriend. I'm also in my second year of college. I don't write fanfiction as much as I used to because now I spend my time writing and drawing comics.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has read my stories over the years, and especially if you continued to come back and re-read them. I have a funny relationship with these fics because while they remind me of a time where I was young, free, and having so much fun being creative and "cringey"...they also remind me of a person who was sad, troubled, and didn't understand why they felt so hollow all of the time. These fics were a source of comfort for me, and I'm so happy I had a community of people who also shared comfort with the fics I wrote. It is true that I was writing these when I was in 6th/7th grade. I first posted in 2013, which would mean I was literally 12 years. I am 19 now, and Ive learned and grown so much since then. I've rarely thought about these fics, especially recently with 2020 being...2020, but I'm thankful to be back and say an appropriate farewell.

I know I posted back in 2017 that I would continue to upload, but later that year I came out as trans, and that effectively took over my life. Next thing I knew I had to apply to college, and here I am getting my degree. I'm here to say that I will no longer be updating More Than a Whole Brigade or Feel New. I do not have the time to continue these old projects, nor do I remember much of how I wanted the plotlines to continue, nor do I feel comfortable creating content for a story that has very blatant antisemitic roots and sentiments. I do, however, write and draw queerpositive comics and other art for other fandoms I enjoy. If you're interested in all of that, my links will be below. I want to say one final thank you for the community you've provided me. It was truly a pleasure to be talking with you all about the stories I wrote. I hope that you all can find that comfort in your own stories like I once did when I was a young child.

Thank you.

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