Beck threw herself into her sister's arms as Lydia entered the waiting room.

"Thank god. Lydia, I'm so sorry, but I'm so scared. Watching her fall apart like that, then start seizing- What would we do if we lost her? What would I do? The system will take in Katie and Adam, but I… I'd be alone."

Lydia pulled away to look into her sister's cloudy eyes. "You will never be alone. If something actually happened to Sonia, you could come to DC with me in a heartbeat. Please don't ever think I'd leave you alone."

"You hate me," Beck claimed. Her face was a blotchy mess and she didn't make it any better be rubbing her hands over it frustratedly. She'd recently cut her hair short, which was perhaps the only thing stopping her from ripping it out. "I've been such an ass. I wouldn't blame you if you left me here and went back to Virginia. I don't have a job, I don't have a college degree, I don't even know how to drive a car! I'm useless!"

"You aren't useless," Lydia insisted, then leaned forward and kissed her forehead. "You're stubborn. You were angry. But you know who knows even more about anger than you?"

She rolled her eyes. "I'm guessing you, you menace?"

They both giggled, Rebecca hiccuping slightly through more tears.

"So, you won't leave me to be a homeless prostitute?"

"Not this month," Lydia joked. "What have you heard? Did they dissolve the blood clot?"

Beck nodded. "It's gone. Now the only concern is figuring out how much damage it did."

"Okay. Well then, one of us should stay here and wait for news and the other has to take Katie and Adam home and get them to bed. I really think you could use the rest, but I'm okay with either."

The two twins were seated in the corner of the room. Katie was asleep across the armrest between her and her brother's chair. Adam looked bored out of his mind, picking at his fingernails.

Beck looked back at them, then bit down on her bottom lip. "I need to make sure she's okay. I don't think I could fall asleep if I went home anyway."

Lydia could understand that. She gave her sister a nod, before stepping around her and approaching the kids. "Hey Adam. Long time, no see!"

He pushed himself out of his chair quickly and wrapped his arms around Lydia's waist. "Hi Lydie! Why didn't you come home for Christmas this year?"

"I had to work," she admitted, feigning disgust for her job.

"You have to see the Legos that Becky got me! I already built them all!"

"That's so cool! You'll have to show me once we get home."

He bounced excitedly, turning around to wake up his sister. "Katie! Lydie's here!"

The girl blinked, rubbing her face where it was previously squished against her arm. "Adam," she grumbled. "What do you want?"

Lydia knelt down next to her seat. "Hey Katie," she said, softly. "I'm here to take you two hooligans home."

Katie blinked, recognizing Lydia's voice and her silly nickname for the twins. "Lydie? Mommy didn't say you were coming home."

Lydia didn't want to freak them out by making them think the stroke was a big deal, so she held up a finger to her lips and said, "Sonia doesn't know yet. It's a surprise."

"Is mommy sick?" Adam asked. "Becky said she was hurt, but when I hurt my arm, I didn't have to stay at the doctor's this long."

"Mommy did get hurt," Lydia admitted. "But she's super strong. Right now, you two have to get some sleep. In your own beds. Okay?"

They nodded and followed her out, saying their goodbyes to Rebecca as they passed. Lydia called a cab to meet them outside and take them back to Sonia's house.

As they were packing in, her phone rang. Spencer. Shit…

"Spence, hey…" she began, but couldn't for the life of her come up with anything else to say.

"Lydia? Hotch told us that you had a family emergency, what happened? Are you okay? Did you get home?"

She sighed, relieved he wasn't angry about her sudden disappearance. They'd just been talking face to face and then she was on her way to the airport. "Can we start with one questions at a time? I'm so tired."

"Yeah, yeah," he agreed, quickly. "Where are you right now?"

"I'm leaving a hospital in Oakland, California, on my way to my foster mom, Sonia's, house."

"Why were you at the hospital?"

"Sonia had a stroke."

"That's awful. I'm sorry. What kind of stroke?"

"Uh… I'm not sure? I didn't speak to any of the doctors directly."

"Do you know if she had a hemorrhage or-?"

"No. No, it was a blot clot."

"That's good!" he said immediately. "The chances of surviving a ischemic stroke are higher than a hemorrhagic stroke. There's also a higher likelihood of a full recovery."

She smiled. "Thanks, Spence. How did the case go?"

"We found and recovered all the kids, but Jane and Frank disappeared."

"Oh no…" she fretted. "I'm so sorry."

"What are you talking about? You weren't even in Nevada when it happened."

"But I was… I told him we could negotiate for Jane and-"

"You saw her," Spencer reasoned. "She was throwing herself at him. Frank would have gotten away either way and Jane would have followed him. You helped us get those kids back."

"When did you become so good at cheering me up?" she teased. He didn't reply, so she kept going. "Spencer, I should go. I'm almost at Sonia's house. Talk to you tomorrow, okay?"

"Yeah, of course. Tomorrow."

"Lydia? What are you doing here?" Sonia demanded as Lydia walked into her room the next morning.

"What are you doing in a hospital bed?" she fired back. "You went and scared the hell out of us!"

"Honey, I'm old. It happens."

Lydia rolled her eyes. "Not old enough. You're like… one of the least likely people to get a stroke. You're 50, you're a woman, you're Asain… do you have any blood pressure problems I don't know about?"

"Apparently I have blood pressure problems that I don't even know about," she chuckled, trying not to focus on how bad that could be. "Since when do you know so much about stroke statistics?"

Lydia was perfectly ready to tell her that she'd done a bunch of research at the airport, but it was a lie. Spencer had been sending her little tidbits of information all day. Some to try to cheer her up, others to help prepare her for how Sonia's recovery might go. As she thought about those texts, a smile pulled at her lips and Sonia was on her in an instant.

"What's that? That smile. You just got all blushy on me, what happened?"

"I work with profilers and somehow you're already onto my little secret, hm?" She rubbed her forehead. "You should probably go work for my team if you're going to be so observational."

"You should probably stop being so obvious," she argued. "You've got a crush written all over you. Did he tell you about the stroke statistics?"

"His name is Spencer, he texted them to me to make me feel better, and I'm not crushing on him."

"Oh please!" she cried. "Your cheeks are bright red! I know a crush when I see one. Tell me about this Spencer. Where did you meet him?"

"We work together. And I'm not lying, I'm not crushing on Spencer… because we've been dating for almost a year now."

"You what?!" she exclaimed. "Lydia, you have to tell me these things! Almost a year?"

"Yeah. It started last year in April."

"Why would you hide this from me? Look at you! You're so happy!"

Lydia bit her tongue in contemplation. Why hadn't she told her family? "Because I've been keeping it a secret anyway. None of the team knows we're together. We never agreed that we wouldn't tell our families, but… I don't know, I guess I got so caught up in the lie that I didn't even think about telling you guys."

"Why are you hiding?" Sonia asked.

"Our work." Lydia shrugged. "When we went on our first date, we didn't want the whole team to be invested in a relationship that might not last. We didn't want things to get weird. But now, it feels wrong, you know? Our boss wouldn't be happy if he found out that we've been lying to him all this time. Spencer's an agent, so in-office relationships are frowned upon for him."

Lydia's phone buzzed in her hand and instinctively, she looked down at it.

"Did he just text you?" Sonia teased.

Lydia glared back. "Fucking profilers."

"Katie! Adam!" Lydia called as she shuffled upstairs.

"Hold on!" Katie's muffled squealing came from the twin's room.

Lydia smiled at what she could only imagine to be wild shenanigans going on behind that door. But, she turned and walked farther down the hall, opening up the door to Sonia's room.

She'd been let go from the hospital after about a week, and had been recovering quickly. Lydia was glad to see her sitting up in bed stretching her arms out in front of her. Her left arm was weak and shook dramatically, but it was an improvement.

"Good morning, Sonia," she greeted, walking over to the side of her bed. "Make sure to do your leg stretches as well today. I know they're uncomfortable, but if you don't build up that strength again, you're going to end up with only one working leg. I want you to think about how frustrating that would be."

She dropped her head back. "You're right. That would be awful. Then I'd look like you."

"Very funny," Lydia deadpanned. "But my leg works fine, thank you. At this point, I'd say better than yours. But nevermind that, I won't be here and neither will the car. If something happens, Beck will handle it and I'll be back before your physical therapy appointment, okay?"

Lydia leaned down and gave her foster mother a kiss on the cheek.

"I'm ready, Lydie!" Adam shouted as he burst into the room. His backpack hung loosely from his shoulders, seeing as there probably wasn't more in it than a folder.

"Is Katie ready?" she asked.

"No. Katie's tying her shoes."

"Oh, well then she's almost ready. Let's start heading down, shall we?"

He nodded, eagerly. "Bye, Mommy!" he said, before scurrying downstairs.

"Bye, Sonia," Lydia followed suit, closing the door behind her as she left. "Beck?"

Her sister popped her head out of the bathroom, only half her makeup done, looking thoroughly unamused. "Must you be so loud?"

"Make sure Sonia gets up soon," she ordered. "I won't have my phone with me, so if something happens, call the doctor."

"Won't have your phone…?" She raised an eyebrow. "Are you not coming back after dropping the twin's off?"

"No. I thought Sonia told you."

"Told me what?"

"I'm ready!" Katie cried, rushing down the stairs to meet her brother.

"Head out to the car, little hooligans!" Lydia instructed. "I'll be out in a second."

"Where are you going?" Beck tried again.

Lydia sighed. "I'm visiting Dad today."

Not that visiting a prison was ever a pleasant experience, but Lydia was comforted to find the place exactly the same. She had enough anxiety going in as is, but trying to navigate new rules or requirements would have made it ten times worse. Her dad didn't even seem to notice her walk into the room, sitting alone at a table, staring intently at a wall.

Lydia cleared her throat. "Um, hey Dad."

He blinked at her for a moment, before pulling her into a hug. "Lydia! Look at you! You've changed so much, sweetheart!"

She shrunk away from him, slightly as he spoke, both because the guards would yell at them if they were in contact for too long and because it had been so long. It was just weird.

"Yeah," she sighed. "It's been a crazy two years."

"I hear," he said, the two of them sitting across from one another. "Rebecca tells me that you work for the FBI full-time now."

"Not exactly. I'm contracted out by one of their teams. Sometimes I'm home for a few weeks, other times we solve one case and fly straight to the next. It isn't exactly 9 to 5."

"I'm really proud of you." He smiled and Lydia's lip twitched as well. "I was shocked to hear you were coming. Rebecca says you very rarely visit."

"I'm not in California for a visit," she admitted. "Sonia had a stroke, so I've taken some time off work to look out for her and the other kids in her care."

Her dad had warmed up to Sonia over the years, seeing as she had to escort Lydia and Beck to the prison when they were still minors. He looked genuinely sad to hear the news. "That's terrible. Tell her I hope she gets well soon."

"I will. It was pretty mild it seems. She's regaining strength quickly."

They didn't have the time for this small talk. Her father knew that. But Lydia almost hoped that they could keep the conversation going. As if he wasn't an inmate in a prison. As if they weren't being watched carefully. As if she didn't have mixed feelings about speaking to him.

"So, Lydia, why did you come?"

Lydia blinked, pushing up her glasses habitually. "What do you mean? I haven't seen you for two years…"

"I know," he chuckled. "But if you wanted to come say hi to me, you'd do it when you were visiting home. Not when you're busy taking care of a whole family."

"Well… your sentence is almost done. Seven years… And I was talking to Sonia about it and she asked when the last time I saw you was… I felt bad." She waited for him to say something, but he didn't. Because he knew that wasn't it. "I haven't really… told anyone in DC that my dad's in prison. And with this new job, I talk to serial killers. I learn a lot about them, get into their heads. And in the end, we always put them away. And now I see prison in this whole different light and I think I needed to prove to myself that you… you aren't one of the bad guys."

"Okay, so… how do I prove I'm not a bad guy?" he asked.

"You don't. You just-" Lydia's eyes started to burn and she stopped herself from getting emotional. "I wanted to see you. That's all. Recently, it feels like I can't remember much about anyone in the family."

"Is this about your mom?"

"I don't know what this is about," she rambled. "I just… I was finally starting to be okay in college and then, the whole Jenna thing happened and I was an angry monster again. And when I realized I had settled down, I was a different person. I worked for the FBI for crying out loud! And I'm looking at the people around me, and they look different, too, but I can't figure out if it's them who've changed or just my view of them. And I've always-"

She was tearing up again. Lydia gritted her teeth, feeling frustrated. She came here to check up on him, not have a meltdown. But if she shut down, he would keep bugging her about it, so might as well keep going.

"I've always been so mad at you," she said, gnashing her teeth like an animal. "And then I'm looking through a serial killer's house and all I can think is, 'At least my dad didn't become this'. And I feel guilty that I've been so hard on you for seven years. So, I came here because I needed to prove to myself that this face belongs to my dad and not a bad guy."

"Could it be both?"

Lydia glared at him, but didn't have anything to say. She didn't need the ambiguous question right now.

"Lydia, I know what I did was stupid and it hurt people. And all the excuses I made for it at the time don't justify my actions. I wasn't wrongfully accused and I'm not trying to pretend I was."

"I don't want to have an argument with you," she grumbled. "I want to look at you with my new profiling eyes and determine whether it's worth rebuilding a relationship with you when you get out."

That shut him up. Lydia's face burned in shame, but there was no taking it back. They sat there in silence for what felt like years. She didn't know what there was to say. It had been on her mind for months now that his release was approaching. She'd considered Beck to be her only family for almost 7 years. Her father was a distant memory. But maybe when his time was up… maybe it'd be nice to have a dad again. But she had sworn at 16 never to forgive him.

"Did you decide?" he asked, his voice grim.

Why did she have to decide? Why couldn't someone tell her that she was going to have to learn to live with or without him and be done with it? Why did it have to be her to walk away or make the effort. Shouldn't family come naturally?

But for now, at least, she knew what she wanted.

"I want my family back. I don't want to leave California one day and never have a reason to come back… I want to know my mom… And maybe, just maybe, I want to remember my dad, too. Because somewhere in the far recesses of my mind, he was a cool dude."

"I'm sorry that I ever left you," he said.

Finally, Lydia felt a sense of relief. She stood up. "I need to go, Dad. Luckily, the next time I see you, you probably won't be behind bars." And then, she opened up her arms, welcoming him in for a hug.

For the past seven years, she'd never been the one to initiate a hug with her father, but it felt like it was time. Her stubbornness had kept her from too much. She'd missed out on so many opportunities to be happy all because she was hinged on being in complete control of the image of herself that other's saw. And she hadn't felt like she'd had a parental figure in a long time.

He accepted quickly. "Go be an amazing bad-guy-catcher," he teased.

"I will," she replied with a smile. "Keep being a neutral guy, alright?"

As she headed for the door, he said, "Lydia? One more thing…"

She raised an eyebrow in his direction.

"Happy birthday."

He remembered. She didn't expect him to, for some reason. She didn't really expect him to know the exact date.

"I love you," she told him, but didn't wait around to hear his response. She didn't plan on spilling any tears today.

"You're hunched over your computer like Quasimodo," Rebecca joked as she dropped a bowl of ice cream next to her sister.

Poor Lydia was so wrapped up in her paper, she didn't even notice the gift, ignoring the dessert completely. "I need Spencer," she admitted. "He'd be able to give me more accurate information than these pathetic websites."

"Why don't you call him?" Sonia offered from across the table.

"He told me this morning that he was leaving for a case. Really bad one, too. He doesn't need the distraction."

Beck rolled her eyes. "I can't believe you're actually going to get a PhD for this guy."

"I'm not getting this for Spencer," she tried to argue. "But I mean, look at me! I'm set to graduate in the spring. Have you ever seen someone get a doctorate in 2 years? Spencer did that for me. I could become a college professor in about a year, all thanks to him. At 23 years old."

"Don't act like you're not a genius all by yourself," Beck grumbled. "Just because he's super charismatic-" Lydia laughed out loud when she said that "-does not mean that he got you your PhD."

"I'm not saying that!" she tried to argue. "Think about how much money I've saved! I mean, I was terrified when I took that internship at the BAU that once it was up, I'd be stuck. With this, I have so many options open that I-"

She paused, noticing her phone screen light up with Hotch's name. Rebecca and Sonia gave her funny looks, but she held up a finger.

"My boss is calling me. Strange."

"If he says you have to go back to Virginia, do it. You've taken enough to time off as it is," Sonia instructed, but Lydia just rolled her eyes.

"Hey, Hotch," she answered. "What's up?"

"Lydia, I'm going to need your help with something…"

"That's fine. Is it case related?"

"No it's…" He sounded exhausted and Lydia wondered where he could be. It was 9 in California, so unless he was on the west coast, it was late. "Lydia, Reid has been taken captive by an unsub."

Her heart stopped. Seeing her family's confused faces across from her, she jumped up from the table and rushed out of the room.

"What? I- What are you… How bad of an unsub?" she sputtered.

"He's sending us a live feed of it. As of right now, Reid's forehead has a large gash in it and one of his feet is mangled. We're doing everything we can to find him."

"Is there something I can do?" Her breathing was labored and her chest, constricting. This was all wrong. Spencer had to be okay. He needed to be…

"Lydia, Spencer's strong. He'll keep fighting until we can get to him. But I have a feeling when he gets out, he's going to want to see your face."

She was far too stressed to even consider what he was implying. "You want me to- I'm not sure if I can-"

"Two days. That's all. I'll get you a ticket to Georgia as soon as possible. He'll need your support. Can you be here?"

Leaving suddenly, once again. But Spencer might need her. Hotch was certain he would. And after news like that… she'd need to see him for herself to even imagine that he was going to be okay.

"I'll pack my things now. Send me that plane ticket and the case file. I need to know what to expect when I get there."

"I'll let you know if anything changes," he assured her. "Thank you."

She heard him hang up the phone, but didn't move it away from her ear. All she could hear was her heartbeat in her ears, as if it was trying to break out. She blinked a couple of times and turned to see that her sister had followed her into the next room, eyes wide.

A tear slipped down her cheek, which she quickly wiped away. "I need to go," she told Beck and ran to her room to gather some things.