It's so cold in here.

The rain making patterns on the window.

I should turn on the heat

But I don't want to.

The chill permeates my bones

As this fog does my mind.

It's like a sinkhole

Pulling me down.

There is the sound of pattering drops

But it's not from the rain.

I can see their faces in my mind

The people I've killed.

Why is there no remorse?

Why is there no guilt?

I would do anything to feel again.

Something other than this grey blank my mind has become.

I'm so sorry Ahsoka

You must hate me now.

What I've done.

The years of friendship, thrown away.

You called me isër.

Sister.

And I framed you for murder.

We're in similar positions now, aren't we?

Curled up against a wall in the cold.

But you're in a prison cell.

And I'm in the Temple.

You don't have heat, or a window.

Maybe not even a blanket

I have all three.

I just want to know.

Did you hear me this time?

Did I scream loud enough?

When people look at me, will they see the cracks now?

I'm scared.

I don't want to know what will happen if I break.

If these cracks get bigger and I fall through

When I look in the mirror, I see broken glass.

Do you?

Do you understand what it means to break?

To feel the world fall out from under you and everything you knew plummet into darkness.

I'm hanging on the edge, calling desperately for help.

Stretch out your hand, anyone.

Save me from myself.

Make me feel again.

It's so far, so far back up to the light.

I can't get there on my own.

Help me.

Help me please.

Show me there is hope.

Show me there is something more.

Tell me that you understand.

Tell me that you know this pain.

I don't want to feel this suffocating loneliness.

Please tell me there is someone who understands.

Please tell me there is someone who cares.

I'm slipping.

Farther and farther into the darkness.

Is anyone going to come for me?

Does no one see how deep the damage goes?

Little by little, I lose my grip.

Piece by piece my soul is breaking.

There is nothing left but darkness.

And I plummet into it.

I can't get out.

I'm trapped.

Please help me.

Tell me I'm not alone.

Tell me I'm not worthless.

Is there anyone who will listen anymore?

Is there anyone who cares enough to give me a second look?

Please, just turn around.

Look in my eyes and tell me this blue isn't cracking.

Splintering out from a broken soul.

Help me, I'm sinking.

Help me, I've fallen.

Help me please, help me where I can't help myself.

Ahsoka please.

Help me.

If you wanted help you should have asked!

You killed people Barriss!

There are families grieving because of you.

I almost died because of you.

Maybe I should have paid better attention,

Maybe I should have been a better friend.

But you made that choice.

You chose to set off the bomb.

You chose to frame me for it.

You chose destruction.

But I can't make myself hate you.

You were my sister.

And you still are.

Why didn't you tell me?

I would've helped you.

If I'd just known how much you hurt.

How deep the damage goes.

Maybe you deserve that fate.

No, not maybe.

I know you do.

You deserve whatever sentence the Republic will give you.

I try so hard to make myself hate you

But I can't.

Even after all of this

You're still my isër.

Sister-in-all-but-blood.

As I watch Thebeska shrink behind me

I wonder what happened to you.

Maybe you're still alive.

Or did the clones kill you too?

I wish I knew what happened to you

As the last snippets of the Republic crumble.

I miss you, Barriss.

I miss my sister.

I don't want to be the last of us.

I don't want to be the last Jedi.

I want to believe you're out there somewhere.

Maybe looking for me.

My head says that's not possible.

If you didn't get the death sentence, you got life in prison.

There's no reason for the Empire to let you out.

Or keep you alive.

Even if you managed to escape, they'd hunt you down.

And you don't have the skills to survive I've accumulated.

The last time I saw you was when you confessed to the crime I had been accused of.

Logic says I will never see you again.

My heart says have hope.

Maybe, against all odds, you've survived.

And maybe I'll find you again.

It'll be just like old times.

Doing something stupid just because we can

Even when we knew better.

I try to wipe my tears off the display and convince myself not to shed more.

What is there to cry over?

A convicted terrorist?

Who almost killed me?

As usual, my head doesn't win this fight.

I curl up in the seat and weep for everything I've lost.

My sister.

Barris, if you're out there, please be safe.

I'm sorry Ahsoka.

I failed you. I failed everyone.

No Barriss.

I failed you.

We failed you.