Oh my, what is this fast update? I'm so proud of myself *sniffle* anyway new cover! Yay! I was bored and the old cover sucks, so I wanted to make it less sucks and viola. A less sucks cover. Here's from Lucy's pov of the fight, enjoy and don't forget to comment~

A couple of nights before the fight.

Lucy laid down on the bed, sighing. It had been a long, chaotic day. Two days had passed since Lucy and Laxus announced their relationship to the guild and they still celebrating non-stop, though for Cana it probably another ordinary day. Not to mention, they kept trying to parade both of them to the whole town. It was truly hectic. They had just got back from another party held at the guild and yet again there was another scheme that their friends came up with. This time, it was made by none other than the guild master aka Makarov Dreyar aka Laxus very own grandfather which was "secretly" trying to set them up with a priest, why the air quote? Because it was plainly obvious when Makarov dragged them to the cathedral saying it was to "bless their relationship" which was for him, another term to get married. Yes. He was trying to get her and Laxus to marry.

Well, it's not that she didn't want to. But, damn, it wasn't even a month yet.

Laying down after chaotic days and sleepless nights made her strangely feel light. Lucy felt as if a huge burden had been lifted off of her shoulders, yet something still feels amiss, like how it feels when you forgot to put on your lucky tie—no, not quite, more like when you finished a test but forgot to check whether you had filled your name or not. You felt relieved but strange. Considering how she usually spent the night, it would make sense of how something felt strange as she usually pent up in the bar, drinking 'til she couldn't stand.

Lucy glanced at the figure beside her, she could see the rising and falling of chest steadily. Not long after they got to her apartment, Laxus instantly went out like a light the moment his head hit the pillow. It was understandable, considering how drained he was as he mostly covered Lucy when the members told her to drink or do things. She gave a long exhale, one that filled with gratitude. Sometimes, she asked herself, how did she get to this point?

Those dark and heavy time seemed so long ago, despite it hadn't been over three weeks since she stopped and so, the memories still vividly engrained in her brain as the feeling of desperation. Those sleepless nights. Sleepless, dull yet full of despair nights with only alcohol acted as a catalyst for forgetting things. She could also say that it was a way to punish herself. What's better way than destroying one's liver? Haha, Lucy was so pathetic then.

That was why, staring at Laxus' sleeping figure beside her gave her warmth she never thought she could feel again. She felt so much gratitude for that person and a single 'thank you' won't even come close to how she really felt. She was glad she had another person that knows about her problem, it was too hard to confide to her friends and she was damn glad she told everything to someone, albeit drunkenly. Lucy knew, she has truly, fell for him. Truthfully, she had never fallen in love before, so she didn't exactly know if what she's feeling was love. She understood that it hadn't been too long since they got together, and it could've just been a blunder. But do blunders happen every single day? Every minute, every second she felt with him was… liberating. Feeling high, was another way to describe how she felt everytime they were together.

Even the days when she's not with him felt with the urges to go see him. She didn't know what's normal and what's not anymore. Missing him every time they parted, wanting to be with him every minute, feeling jittery when he was a bit late, was all that even normal? Despite all of that, she has yet to reach the decision—not that "love" could be decided.

Anyhow, with each day passed, she was more and more sure of the gnawing feeling in her heart. It was too surreal, having her heart beat so loudly when he closed the gap between them, or how knees got weak when he planted his lips on hers. There was no mistaking it. She definitely had fallen for him.

Which was why she was in such a huge dilemma. Even if she confessed her feelings to him, Lucy felt like it won't be enough, like something was wrong. Of course, Lucy already figured out the main problem; which what has burdened her lately. It was none other than Aquarius. Finding her key. Honestly, Lucy was tired. And these couple of days made her realize something that she, really, had been on her mind for a long time. And that was; she should just give up on finding her key. She was so close, the puzzle has yet to finished before she confessed, but that one missing piece made it so hard for her to finish the puzzle. It was like finding needle in the haystack and she had searched every haystack there is—maybe not all, but it was a lot.

Albeit guilty, the temptation to give her up was adding up with each day and she was so close to really give up. Maybe she should. After all, she's happy now. She has Laxus and life couldn't be better these days. Having him in her life really changes a lot of things. It was like bathing in the sunlight after a long time got cooped up in the dark. He became her hope. Her light. So, it made her scared. To her, those days wallowing in sadness and despair were the dark days in which she didn't want to get through it again. She was too accustomed to the warmth to ever want to go back to that cold place.

She was ready to make up her mind…. Until their fight.

Present time

'Oh so you didn't care about finding her anymore?'

When Laxus said those words, Lucy felt her heart fell. She suddenly felt heavy as her breath hitched in her throat. The urges to cry was what came first, but then she bit her lip and a tinge of anger surged through her. Those words felt like a huge spear struck her pride.

Trying to keep her emotions in check, she gritted her teeth and hissed, 'Don't put words in my mouth.' Her breath kept hitching in her throat as she felt her heart becoming more and more heavier. Lucy clasped her hands together, to stop her hands from shaking and praying to god for Laxus to drop the subject.

Truth be told, hearing that there was another chance at finding Aquarius made her happy for a moment. At first, she felt so much hope, but then those murky feelings struck her, and she remembered those dark days in the bar again and fear consumed her. Those feelings terrorized her.

Unfortunately for her, Laxus kept going.

'I thought you guys were close, I thought you were family.'

The words came without warning and Lucy snapped. The emotions that she held back before suddenly burst out and all she saw was red. The words, yet again struck a nerve. Her pride. Deep down, she knew he said all of that for her, but she was too blinded to hear reasons.

And so, blinded by the anger, Lucy said words that she came to regret. It wasn't until she got back to her apartment, that she realized what she just said. Lucy leaned towards the door after she closed it, tears began pricking Lucy's eyes as she slid down the door to the floor. The once soft sobs turned into a bawling.

What should she do now? It wasn't like she could withdraw what she said. The damage has been done. Should she come back and say sorry? Maybe that would be better. But her pride prevented her to do that. Lucy wasn't actually angry at him, more like she was angry at herself. She was ashamed of herself. Everything Laxus said was true, but she still cares. She does. But she was scared, and that made her gave up. What Laxus said smacked her back to her senses, making her remember who she was fighting for. Aquarius was her friend. Heck, she could even be Lucy's mom. Lucy was about to give up on her family.

Lucy knew better than anyone how painful it was to be abandoned by family. Her mother's death, her father negligence, it was all painful times that she wouldn't want to get through again. What she was doing was none other than abandonment and it made her sick to the stomach, realizing that she was about to do that.

The tears won't stop, and Lucy still cooped up with her arms circling around her legs and head rested on her knees. Her breath hitched each time she tried to take a breath to calm herself down. She ran her hand through her hair roughly and grabbed a fistful of her hair, pulling it frustratingly. Lucy wanted to punch herself. Granted, what Laxus said shook her so much she was forcefully made to realize who she was giving up on, making her feel disgustingly guilty and ashamed at herself for even thinking of giving up, which in turn fueled her anger. But, that anger, the anger she lashed out at Laxus was unjustifiable.

'I'm sorry,' She choked in between her sobs, 'I'm sorry Laxus…'

After bawling her eyes out for approximately five minutes, her erratic breath slowed down, leaving only the heavy feeling she felt in each breath she took. The sun had yet to reach the apex, but the light already shined fiercely through the gaps of her curtain. Strangely, the apartment felt cold to her.

Rubbing her eyes from the tears that beginning to dry, Lucy stood up slowly and groggily walked over to the kitchen. Once she was there, her tears threatened to fall again, remembering how not too long ago Laxus was standing right there, preparing for their breakfast. She was truly an idiot.

Coughing, Lucy felt how dry her throat was and grabbed a mug to fill it with water. Her hand hovered on the sink for a second, pausing to then retracting her hand and put down the mug on the kitchen counter. She walked towards the farthest cupboard and opened it hastily, as if to make sure she won't back out. Tip toeing, she rummaged through the depth of the cupboard, grazing every stuff in there until she felt with her hand a round, glass bottle. She grabbed that bottle and put it down on the kitchen counter, next to her mug.

Staring at the bottle of wine impassively, Lucy opened the screw and pour the wine to her mug fully, almost to the brim. She remembered how she said to Laxus she didn't keep any booze in her apartment, that seemed like a long time ago. She was partly lying. At the time, it didn't cross her mind as she also had made a promise to herself to never drink that wine—it was a keepsake, from her father, long before she turned alcoholic.

After gulping down half of what's in her mug, Lucy scoffed pathetically at herself. Drinking alcohol after cowardly abandoning her family with the excuse of the fear of drinking like she used to. What an irony. With one last swing, she gulped the rest of the wine until there were no drops left. She licked the excess off her lips, actually missing the bittersweet taste of wine. Lucy was contemplating to pour another glass but decided to be against it. Even though the wine tasted so well, Lucy didn't want to go back there. She knew she didn't have enough restraint yet to control how much she drinks. Lucy felt like crying again but before the tears could well up in her eyes, she slapped both of her cheeks.

'Get a grip, Lucy Heartfilia. You just hurt someone you deeply care about, you better fix this mess if you don't want to lose him.' Once again, she brushed her eyes, rubbing it clean from the excess tears and pinched her cheeks.

Thinking of how she wanted to change "care" to "love" made blush creeped up her neck. She covered her mouth with her hand embarrassedly, smacking herself internally for suddenly thinking about that. It was so not the time to think about that. She'd better do something about the situation fast or she could kiss confessing her love to Laxus goodbye.

First of all, she got to figure out about Aquarius. True, hearing about the possibility that it was indeed Aquarius' key on that place made her overjoyed as well as terrifies her. Of course, she would have to try it, right? She had to take the chance, after all she didn't have many choices. It was either trying as hard as she could or cowardly hiding and not achieving anything. The right answer was fairly obvious to her. But it still terrified her. Swallowing the lump in her throat, as well as the murky feeling from earlier that was trying to creep up on her, she decided to do the former.

Perhaps it was really right this time, and this time she got Laxus by her side. It wouldn't be bad, she sure of that. Laxus would always stand by her, after all it was her that said Laxus was her light, her hope. Surely, if she got into the dark place again after that mission, Laxus would become her light again, saving her from that cold, dark place… considering he didn't already hate her now.

Lucy smacked herself for real this time.

What the fuck was she thinking, broken off their relationship arbitrarily like that? After lashing out at him, too. It wouldn't even be a surprise to see that Laxus won't talk to her anymore after that fiasco she pulled. For the hundredth time, she was truly, an idiot.

Would an apology even cut it? Maybe she should seduce him, but then again that would be so offending. He wasn't a sex crazed animal. Should she kneel? Lucy groaned in frustration, scratching her head. At times like this that she needed her incredibly intrusive friends. After washing her face in a cold water, she ran off towards the dormitory to visit her friends.

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Sitting down in the furry carpet, Lucy leaned back towards the foot of the couch, settling herself between Erza's knees. Cana was sprawled on the carpet, her head on Lucy's thighs while Levy laid on her side across Lucy with her elbow supporting her weight, flipping over her book to mark the parts she was reading.

Once Lucy got to the dormitory, she wasted no time to assemble her friends. Thankfully, they weren't busy, so it was easy to quickly get together. All of them, besides Levy, simultaneously agreed to go to Levy's room as it was the cleanest and spacious room—not minding the books comparing to the other two. Cana's reek booze and Erza's stuff were too much they wouldn't any place to sat or laze around.

Lucy was fiddling Cana's hair when Cana suddenly stood up and fished out the flask in her pocket. Levy eyed Cana's movement carefully.

'Girl, careful not spill it again,' Levy warned, giving her a pointed look which Cana replied with a guilty smile. After making sure her precious carpet was safe, Levy turned her attention to Lucy.

'Spill.' She commanded, making Lucy sit up straight.

'Yes, ma'am.' Lucy blurted while Cana and Erza snorted.

Lucy pursed her lips annoyed at her two of her friends. She couldn't help it! Lucy hadn't gotten used to this side of Levy yet. Levy always turned curt and business-like whenever each one of them had had problems they need to confide in.

However, before Lucy opened her mouth, Cana spoke up.

'Ah, to make it easier, wanna sip? you looked a bit tense, there, babe,' she offered her flask, her face was worried.

As much as she wanted to, Lucy held up her hand, 'I'm okay, thanks. Besides, I already drank quite a bit earlier.' Cana nodded.

Lucy took a deep breath, 'We fought.' Her friends all gasped collectively.

'What?'

'How?'

'I swear to god, I'll kill him!'

The questions came simultaneously with all of her friends demanding her to tell them and a little bit of Erza getting mad at Laxus and planning to beat him up. Lucy internally cringed.

'Are you okay? What happened, Lu-chan, tell us.' Levy said softly, her hand rested comfortingly on Lucy's thighs.

Lucy contemplated for a while. Should she tell them the whole story with Aquarius or should she just conceal that part and just told them the fighting bit? She was in a huge dilemma and she got to decide, fast. Lucy was scared of what would her friends think about her after this, but still they're her friends, maybe it wouldn't be too bad. She needed to make up with Laxus and the only way for her friends to understand their fight was to tell them everything. Her priorities were clear as day.

Her heartbeat picked up a pace when she finally decided what to do.

Lucy closed her eyes tightly, bracing herself before telling her friends everything. From the fight in Alegria, how she was the only that didn't get stuck into the deep slumber and how she was cornered by two demons and the soldiers. Lucy paid attention to her friends expression, it started out as surprised, then turned to terror when she told them about the demons. Levy cringed at the mention that she had to fight them in the midst of the flood, Cana stayed silent, but listened attentively and Erza tensed. Lucy could feel Erza clenched and unclenched her hand everytime Lucy told them about the demons.

'Um… and then…' Lucy paused.

'Aquarius.' She whispered, her friends looked at her confusedly and she told them, the one thing she had managed to keep for so long. The burden that had killing her all this time.

Lucy breathed a sigh of relief after she finished the Aquarius story. One down, one to go. She stared at each of her friends faces, looking at their expressions. They were shocked, but above all they all looked sad. Especially Cana.

'H-hey… about that time in the hot spring, I-I didn't know. I'm sorry Lucy.' She stuttered out.

'Noo, Cana. It's okay, you didn't know.' Lucy assured, squeezing Cana's shoulder.

Then, Lucy heard a sniffle. She whipped her head so fast towards the sound. It was Erza, she was rubbing her eyes weakly as tears continued to stream down her face. Seeing her usually fierce friend crying made Lucy panicked.

Lucy turned around and looked up, grabbing Erza's knees.

'Why—what, why are you crying, Erza?'

Erza sniffed, 'I feel really bad. I'm sorry, Lucy. I should've noticed you were having a hard time…' she hiccupped, 'I'm such a bad friend,' she cried.

Seeing Erza's nose becoming the same color as her hair made Lucy smile. She got up to her knees and hug Erza.

'Aaww, it's fine. It was my fault for not telling you guys. I'm really sorry for keeping it to myself.' Lucy murmured, burying her face on Erza's hair.

Not long after that, another sniffles could be heard and it turned out Levy and Cana were crying too. It made Lucy chuckled, she released her grasp from Erza and extended her arms, inviting the other two to the hug.

'Aww come here,' Levy and Cana instantly run up to them and the four of them hugged while sniffling and crying 'poor Lucy', 'I'm sorry I wasn't there.'

Lucy patted them all on the backs, feeling so light as if the burden she had been carrying has vanished. She smiled to herself, relieved. Lucy was glad she decided to tell them the truth.

'Guys, but I'm not done. This is about Laxus, remember?' She reminded them.

Cana looked up, 'But… what about Aquarius? How are you going to find her? I'll help! We'll help you no matter what it takes, just say the word.' Levy and Erza nodded, agreeing to what Cana said.

Lucy smiled, 'Thank you, guys, really. My fight with Laxus actually had something to do with that.' She mused, remembering her idiocy.

They broke up from the hugs, now sitting close to each other.

'Okay, go on.' Levy encouraged.

'So… Laxus knows about Aquarius—I kinda emotionally poured everything out one night. This morning, when we were taking a walk, Laxus said something to me. He said that he has been searching for leads on the key's whereabouts from other guilds and he came across an interesting news,' Lucy sucked in a sharp breath.

'He said that, there was an S-class mission in other guild that nobody could manage to complete it because there was an unknown disturbance preventing them from doing the mission. One of the survivors said that there was a monster or a being on the path of the mission location. The person said that the monster was protecting something, or rather it didn't want anyone to get close to the thing it was protecting. That person saw the thing. It was a gold key. Granted, they could've been wrong, but Laxus assured me that he was going to take the chance with me. And that's where I fucked up.' She bit her lip.

'The truth is, ever since we got together, I've been thinking a lot about the journey to find her key. I was happy and I thought that was enough. And I… I kind of decided to stop looking for her key,' her friends gasped.

'So, when I heard there was another hope, I got mad. I was so ashamed of myself for even thinking that I would give up on the search. She was my friend. My family. So … I kinda blew up on Laxus' face. I got angry at myself but I took it out on him and…' Lucy cringed for the next part.

'And without thinking, I said something I shouldn't have. I told him to stop seeing me and to end the relationship.'

Her friends were silence for a moment, taking it all in while Lucy sat there with her head hung low.

After a while, Cana whistled, 'Damn, Luce. I gotta say, you really fucked up there, babe.' She said, looking at her sympathetically.

'I got to agree with Cana on this one, too Lucy.' Levy hummed in agreement.

Lucy threw her head back miserably, 'I know! I don't know what to do,' she whined.

'Hmm.' Erza paused, she seemed to be thinking about something. 'It doesn't matter. The damage is done. What matters now is how to get you two make up…' she muttered, in deep thought.

'Maybe… show up on his door naked? A little make up sex, huh?' she wiggled her eyebrow, but only got a smack on the head by Levy.

'No, stupid. She needs to be more sincere, more genuine. I think you should lay it all out, Lu. Like, really apologize, maybe kneel or something.' Levy suggested.

That was the last straw as Lucy couldn't hold her laugh anymore. She snorted and giggled, making her friends stared at her as if she had grown three heads.

'I'm sorry, it's just, your suggestions are what I had thought about myself,' she chuckled. 'Sorry, guys. I think that's no good... it just, missing something you know?'

Suddenly, Erza clapped her hands. 'Ah! I got it!' she exclaimed, her eyes were brightening up.

'For starters, I agree with Levy of how you should make it sincere and genuine, so seducing him is an absolute no-no. But kneeling is, I feel, a little bit too excessive. Honestly, Luce, I don't think you need some special way to make up with him. I mean, if it was me, I'd probably forgiven you in a flash if you just come clean about your mistakes and ask me forgiveness. Luce, I've seen the way he looks at you, that guy is so whipped. Anybody could tell he has fallen hard for you,' Lucy blushed.

'That's why, I think you should just go to him, admit your mistakes, apologize, and tell him what was on your mind. I may not be an expert on relationship, but I know that communication is very important. Tell him what made you lashed out on him, tell him how you feel and why you feel that way. That way, you both could work this out together. It takes two to tango, after all. So, just apologize to him normally Luce, I'm sure he will forgive you. If he doesn't then, my fist will do the talking.' Erza smiled darkly, making Lucy sweat nervously.

Nevertheless, what Erza said made a lot of sense for her. She didn't need a big, fancy apology, as long as she's sincere, Laxus would've appreciate it, right? If Erza was right then Lucy didn't want to waste anymore time, she wanted to run off and go to him now. He will forgive her because he… loves her. Just thinking about that made Lucy's inside all bubbly. She did not want to go there yet, besides, if it was true, Lucy wanted to hear it from himself in person.

I love him. I love him. I want to go to him now.

Her head was screaming at her to go now.

Seeing Lucy all fidgeting in her seat, the three of her friends all looked at each other knowingly and smiled.

'Go, Luce.' Levy encouraged, squeezing Lucy's shoulder.

Cana grinned at her, 'Go get him, girl,' she cheered and smacked Lucy's butt.

'You can do this, Luce.' Assured Erza.

Lucy smiled appreciatively to her friends, feeling tears pricked on the corner of her eyes. she looked at them gratefully.

'Thank you, guys, really. I owe you.' With that, she rushed out of Levy's room and out of the dormitory. Glancing at the clock inside the dormitory, she figured that Laxus was probably at the guild, in his office. So, she rushed towards the guild. Lucy closed her eyes and drew a shaky breath. She really hoped everything will be alright.

(a/n)

I'm planning something for the next chapter… I think it would be my favorite one, let's hope I don't fuck it up. Wish me luck! *fingers crossed*