A/N: I hope you have a fabulous week because you're a wonderful person! Our next update will be on Friday, October 2nd!
"Have you been reading my detailed comments?" Ted asked as his thumb drew patterns on the back of Vic's hand. He'd read straight through her novel two weeks ago, then went back and had been spending the last week adding comments to her document.
Vic rolled her eyes as they walked up the drive to the Potter's home and tried to calm the nervous feeling that was trying to overpower her. Nervous because knowing she and Ted had been invited as a couple seemed to put a feeling of dread in the pit of her stomach.
"Ted, you're leaving comments on every paragraph. How do you expect me to read that many comments? It's a hundred-thousand-word document! Especially with starting my new editing job on Monday?"
"You're an author, doesn't that mean you love to read every critique of the work you create?" He teased.
Vic shoved his shoulder with hers but smiled.
"You're ridiculous, you know?"
"Yes, but you're the one holding my hand, so where does that leave you?"
"Nervous about being here tonight as your girlfriend rather than only their niece," she admitted quietly.
"Hey," Ted stopped them and pulled her into him, "Harry and Ginny love you and there is no way they aren't happy for us, so please try to trust that they aren't out to get you."
Vic nodded but she couldn't shake the feeling that everyone was out to make Ted see what a bad choice he made in giving her a chance.
Ted rapped his knuckles against the old door and they were both swept into a warm hug once Ginny opened.
"Vicky! Teddy! Come in, come in!"
"Thanks, Ginny," Ted grinned as he kicked off his shoes. "You should know that Mum and Dad are going to be supremely jealous when I tell them I brought Vic here before I brought her home to meet them."
Ginny shook her head at his teasing. "Teddy, dear, Victoire is my niece. I knew her for two decades before you did."
"But you also knew me for the same time before Vic knew me, so I'd say it cancels that out." Ted grinned.
Ginny looked heavenward and laughed. "Why do the Marauders have to leave their mark on every male in this family?" She turned to Vic. "Would you believe that even my sweet Al was trying to be a smart mouth the other day?"
Vic laughed, feeling the nervous pit in her stomach start to ease just a bit.
"Al? Really?"
"Al's better at it than the rest of us." Ted walked with them into the kitchen. "He's more like my dad, and Dad always manages to get the best of the other three brothers."
"Heaven help me, then," Ginny chuckled.
"Why ask for heaven's help when I'm right here?" Harry winked at her as she moved to help him with dinner.
"You're a legacy of the problem, love." Ginny leant over and kissed his cheek.
"Ginny is bemoaning the way the Marauders are rubbing off on Al." Teddy sat down at the table and pulled Vic down with him.
"Bemoaning?" Ginny's eyebrows shot up and she turned to glare at Ted.
Vic covered her smile with her hand.
"I'm a simple man, Ginny," Ted grinned, "I use simple words."
Harry turned and Vic could see he was putting a great deal of effort into not laughing.
"You're in an odd humor today, Ted."
Ted shrugged, "I'm happy."
Then he grinned over at Vic and squeezed her thigh. Vic felt the shy smile break across her face and knew there was no way she could stop it.
"Hands above the table!" Jamie shouted behind them, causing Vic to almost fall off her chair.
Vic turned to glare at her cousin feeling her face heat up, unconsciously directing some of her anxiety into the anger that bubbled at his surprising her.
"Are you going to make a habit of tormenting us every chance you get?" She shot at him. Why couldn't Jamie just leave her alone?
"Whoa," Jamie held up his hands, "I'm just playing Vicky, you know it's all in good fun."
Vic huffed, "You've never done this to me before."
"Yeah, well, Sean was a bit of a prick."
Vic felt like Jamie had just kicked her in the chest. She knew she and Sean hadn't been right for each other, but she hadn't thought he was an awful person.
"James!" Ginny gave her son a pointed stare.
"What?" Jamie defended as he pulled a soda can out of the fridge. "We all knew he was; it just took Vicky a while to see it. But she saw the light in the end and now she's with Ted and we can all breathe easy again."
Vic dropped her eyes down and realized she was wringing her hands. Did everyone feel that she had been dating a prick? Was the whole family talking about her poor choices behind her back, not saying anything because they all believed she wouldn't listen to reason? If everyone knew Sean was awful, why had no one made a point of showing her?
"Why don't you see if Al or Lily needs anything, Jamie?" Harry stepped between his eldest son and his wife, who was staring at the teen with menacing eyes.
Jamie glanced between his mum and Vic and then looked at his dad. "Yeah, good idea."
"Are you going to talk to him?" Ginny turned her dangerous glare to Harry.
"I'll talk him through it, love," Harry soothed, giving her a quick kiss. Ginny pursed her lips before seeming to decide to let it lie for now.
"I'm sorry," Vic kept her focus down at the table. "I shouldn't have goaded him."
"You're fine, Vic," Ted moved his arm to wrap it around her shoulders. "We're all a bit difficult when we're teenagers."
Vic bit her lip and leant into him, trying to take as much comfort as she possibly could in the warmth of his embrace.
"Are you excited about your new job?" Ginny asked in an attempt to change the subject.
Vic smiled, "I am, but I'm a little nervous too. I didn't really think that I'd get this one when you sent it to me. Most people I know write for a long time before they become assistant editors."
"But you have been writing dear," Ginny handed Harry the oven mitts and he pulled out the shepherd's pie that Grandma Molly made him teach her how to make. "You were the sole creator of Ron's initial website for his new company, all that text was put there by you. You handled the blog, you handled the page information, that site was all you."
"Plus your book," Ted added. "That's a lot of writing experience."
Vic started to object again but Ginny held up her hand.
"You'll do just fine, dear. I've known Emmeline for almost as long as I've known Harry, she wouldn't have hired you if she didn't think you were right for the job."
Vic nodded, but she still felt nervous. Why did it feel like everything made her nervous these days? Harry moved the large pie to the table and Vic tried to use it as a way to change the subject. She was done having the conversation revolve around her questionable life choices
"This is one of my favorite meals." She gestured to the shepherd's pie.
Ted hummed his agreement. "Aunt Lily's shepherd's pie is pretty amazing."
"I thought it was Uncle Harry's recipe?" Vic turned to him, grateful that Ted pushed the conversation away from the topics that made her stomach clench.
"Who do you think taught me how to make it?" Harry chuckled.
"I guess I forget sometimes that you and my aunts have families outside of us." Vic felt a bit sheepish. "I'm sure Aunt Hermione and the rest of them have recipes that are their parents' too, huh?"
Ginny laughed loud and Harry smiled at Vic's confused face. "Have you ever noticed that your Aunt Hermione doesn't tend to cook much? Yes, her parents have recipes they've passed down, but they've passed them down to Ron. Hermione hates cooking."
Vic chuckled and was grateful when Ginny suggested she and Ted collect her cousins for dinner. And thankfully the Potter brood managed to keep the conversation spinning well enough that Vic was able to just sit back and enjoy. But her initial feeling of dread seemed well justified when Uncle Harry asked her to help him with getting the pudding out later that evening.
"Vicky," Harry handed her a stack of plates, "How are things?"
"Fine," Vic took the plates and set them out on the table, trying for all the world to look unconcerned as she pointedly ignored the clenching feeling in her stomach and the way her heart beat harder in her chest.
"Vic, we love you, you know that, right?"
She nodded, still refusing to look her uncle in the eye.
"Then what's going on? You've been really reserved and jumpy tonight."
Vic bit her lip and tried for boldness, but when she met Uncle Harry's gaze, she realized how foolish an idea that had been. She was not strong enough to shrug this off while looking him in the eye.
"Are you unhappy with Teddy?" Harry pressed.
"No!" Vic felt the air rush out of her.
"Well, then what's going on?"
Vic bit her lip before falling into one of the chairs and wrapping her arms around her waist.
"You know what happened before we got together. Aren't you worried about Ted being with me?"
Harry stared at her blankly. "I'm sorry, that one completely missed me."
"Harry, I was encouraging Ted's flirting while I was dating and engaged to Sean. Wouldn't you be worried if Jamie started dating someone you knew wasn't faithful to their previous relationship?" Vic didn't dare look up at her uncle. She almost expected him to go talk to Ted then and now and convince him to wash his hands of her.
"What does Teddy say about what you're getting at here?" Harry came to sit across from her.
Vic shook her head. "He keeps telling me that I'm crazy."
"Then I'm going to side with Teddy."
Vic squeezed her arms tighter around herself. "You mean how everyone sided with me while I was in a relationship that I shouldn't have been in?"
Harry sighed. "Vicky, we love you, and if you had decided you did love Sean, then we would have done what we could to support you in that relationship."
"Even though everyone thought he was a prick? Even though it would have been bad for me to stay with him?" Vic finally looked up at Harry.
"Vicky, one of the things that come with being an adult is that the grown-ups that raised you have to back off and let you make your own decisions, and let you deal with whatever those consequences happen to be. We all still want to help you, and we may make suggestions along the way, but we can't dictate your lives. How else will you learn other than having to make your decisions and live with the consequences of them?"
"So, even if being with me is bad for Ted, you'll not try to stop him?"
Harry chuckled, "I've not seen Ted happier than I see him now with you, but yes, even if he was unhappy, I wouldn't try to sabotage your relationship with him. If he came to me for help, I would definitely try to help him find happiness, but I would never tell him to break off a relationship. Those sorts of decisions are personal ones, and they have to come from the individual."
Vic took a deep breath and forced herself to ask one last question. "What about the rest of your family, would they do the same thing?"
"Who do you think taught me that when a kid becomes an adult the grown-ups have to let them learn from their own choices?"
"So, no one is going to try and talk Ted out of being with me?"
"No, Vicky, I think the only person you need to be concerned about in that area is yourself."
Vic blinked, "What?"
"If you can't believe that you're worthy of being loved, then sooner or later, you'll be the one to walk away."
Vic sat in stunned silence as her uncle's words washed over her, but before she could respond, Lily came bounding in asking if it was time for dessert yet.
Uncle Harry's comment felt an awful lot like the list that her mum had written several months ago. She really wished that everyone would stop trying to vaguely point her in the right direction and just tell her what she needed to do. But Harry's comment about loving herself made her feel suddenly exposed in the worst way. She wanted to put on a sweatshirt and curl under a blanket. Why did the concept of loving herself make her want to find a rock to hide under? Vic realized it was probably close to the same reason that her mum's list made her want to tear the page out of her notebook and burn it.
"You ok?" Ted pulled her into him as they walked from the Potter's to his car. "You've been pretty quiet tonight."
Vic rested her head against his shoulder and sighed, "I'm starting to realize that I might have farther to go than I think I want to."
"You missed me," Ted leant back against his car and pulled her close to his chest. Vic let her arms snake around his neck and tried to enjoy the feeling of being wrapped up in Ted's embrace.
"My mum, and Uncle Harry, both seem to think that I've got some personal growth I could be doing, and I'm feeling like what they're suggesting is more than I might be able to handle."
"How can I help?" Ted dropped his face and nuzzled her cheek with his nose.
"I don't even know where to start, Ted, let alone how you could help."
Ted pulled his chin down her cheek, his five o'clock shadow pulling a giggle out of her.
"Well, maybe we sit down together, look at where you are, and see if between the two of us we can find a way forward, along with how I can help."
Vic bit her lip and pulled back to look at him. "This is scary."
"My mum says that most things that are worthwhile are scary." Ted soothed as he rubbed his hands up and down her back. "But you don't have to do it alone. Scary things aren't so bad when we do them with other people."
"Are you some self-exploratory expert then?"
Ted laughed and brought his lips to hers. Vic pulled closer, pressing up on her toes to deepen the kiss.
"There's the real Vic, I knew she couldn't have gone far." Ted murmured against her.
"What does that even mean?" She chuckled.
"You go get things, Vic. I'm not a self-help expert, but I know that you go get what you want, and that's the only thing you really need." Then he nipped at her ear. "And I'm never going to turn down excuses to spend more time with you."
He kissed down her neck and Vic hummed as her fingers moved through his turquoise hair.
"We should probably stop snogging out here," she sighed as he slowly moved his lips closer to hers. "I'm waiting for Jamie to come out and yell at us to stop."
Ted smirked as he pulled back, "You're probably right, but this is why I have a flat of my own."
"Why don't we take advantage of that before you take me home?" Vic finally started to feel more herself as Ted's appreciative hum vibrated in his chest against hers.
"See every now and again you have these amazing ideas and I end up wondering how I ever managed to make it this far without you."
"You're ridiculous," she pressed forward again, running her tongue against his lips.
"And you're kissing me," Ted murmured, pulling her flush against him and moving a hand to her hair.
"Will you two get a room!?" Jamie yelled from his bedroom window, looking down at the two of them in the front-drive.
"We were just on our way out, Jamie," Ted called back up to him as he reached behind him to open the car door.
When she finally made it home, Victoire opened up the notebook that had her mum's notes in it and read them again.
You and your desires are important.
You are a good person.
You are brave.
You must decide your life's story.
A few lines underneath them she added Uncle Harry's advice.
If you can't believe that you're worthy of being loved, then sooner or later, you'll be the one to walk away.
She didn't feel any closer to finding herself, but seeing it all laid out in front of her, she realized that Uncle Harry's words had given her a bit of direction. Maybe if she could just believe these things, then maybe it would help her see the way forward. And knowing that Ted was going to try and help her made her feel a little less like she was floundering.
Vic was pulled from her internal struggle by the chime of her text message notification.
Ted: Have you read my comments yet?
She laughed and pulled her laptop to her.
Vic: I was just about to start.
Ted's typing bubble made her giddy.
Ted: Good. I think you're going to like what I've put so far.
Vic typed in her password and waited for her computer to log in.
Vic: I'm sure that I'll wonder if we're reading the same document.
She bit her lip and smiled. Teasing Ted was almost as much fun as kissing him.
Ted: Stop that. Go read my comments and you'll see this story of yours is going to be big.
Vic rolled her eyes and opened her browser.
Vic: You have to say that, you're my boyfriend.
Ted's response was almost instant.
Ted: No, I have to say it because it's true. Now stop texting me and start reading. ;)
Vic opened the document and sighed. She hadn't read through her story in almost a year now. It felt like going back to an old childhood favorite food and it made her nervous. She'd liked some pretty awful things when she was a kid, some good things too, but a lot of things that now she found repugnant. Was she about to find out that she had spent three years on something that she now hated? Vic tried to breathe through the anxiety and took a deep breath.
"Let's get this over with." And she started reading.
