Chapter Ten

I slept the whole ride home so driving through the gates of Neverland is hard, to say the least. All of my dad's fans are here in multitudes in support of him during this time. When we're behind the gates I see ten to fifteen cars parked outside of the train station. The whole family must have shown up to support dad.

Going through the whole train and golf cart ride I sigh as I walk up to the house. What am I gonna do or say that won't hurt his feelings?

When I walk into the foyer a huge grin comes to my face for the first time all day. " Uncle Jermaine! " I say excitedly before launching myself in his arms.

" It's good to see you too Cheeky Monkey! " He says pulling me away.

I take a good look at him and it looks like he hasn't slept. " How is he? "

" Not good princess. He really thought he could trust Martin. " He tells me.

I growl. " I knew he couldn't. Did he listen? Nooo. "

" Do me a favor and don't go in swinging. " He pleads.

Narrowing my eyes I say " Why not? I begged him not to do it and now look! "

" Do you really think he wanted this? " He asks me seriously.

I give him a disgusted look. " He should have known better is my point! "

" I know. " He says defeated.

I start my search for him in the kitchen and found my granny. " My baby! " She cries before crushing me in her embrace.

" Hey, Granny I missed you. " I tell her.

She chuckles and takes a good look at me. " Bibi every time I see you, you look more and more beautiful. "

" Thanks, Granny. " I say blushing. " Where is everyone? "

She goes back to cooking. " Your Aunt Janet is upstairs with the children and your uncles are out back with your dad. "

I kiss her cheek and go out back. I see the group of Jackson men and almost smiled. I clear my throat and everyone looks at me.

" Bibi look at you girl. " Uncle Randy says smiling.

I don't acknowledge him. I'm too fixed on my dad.

" Are you happy now? " I ask.

He put his head down and his shoulders start to shake. It makes me feel bad that he's going through this. Me being a bitch isn't needed but neither is what is happening.

" I'm sorry Bibi. I should have listened to you. " He cries.

Tito and Marlon rub his back and glare at me. I pay them no mind.

" I'm not trying to be disrespectful, but I begged you not to do it and now your whole family will suffer not just you. " I say before walking away.

I'm laying in my bed that night when a knock sounds at my door. " It's open. " I call not wanting to get up.

" Bibi are you hungry? " My Aunt Janet asks softly.

" No, I just want to lay here. " I tell her.

There's a pause before I feel her poking my side. " Listen Bibi, I know the path life just took seems dark right now, but it's always that way before the dawn. "

I resist the urge to roll my eyes. " I love you Aunt Janet, but I don't think even your wisdom can make me feel better. "

" Okay... How about I lay down with you? " She asks smiling.

She gets in next to me without waiting for an answer. I laugh at her and we both got comfortable. " I'm glad you're here. "

" Family is the most important thing. I couldn't not be here right now. " She says with a sigh.

I turn on my side and look at her. " Titi what do you think is going to happen to him? "

She frowns deeply. " I don't know. The scariest part of this is waiting for the other shoe to drop. "

I hmm. " I feel like 10 shoes were dropped. He didn't just drag dad through the mud, he didn't have any nice things to say about me either. Just because I refused to be filmed by him. " I say angrily.

" Yeah but you have thicker skin than your dad. He's much more sensitive. It hurts him much deeper. It makes you mad but you don't care what they say. That's why I don't worry about you being in the spotlight. " She says nudging me.

There's a knock in the doorway and we both look over to friend her boyfriend JD smiling at us. " Janet your mother needs you. "

She gets up and looks back at me. " You will be just fine chickadee. Don't Worry, Be Happy. "

I laugh at her as they leave. It's funny how some relationships work. I'm sorry but that man is not attractive in the slightest. He makes her happy though so I'm happy for her. Hell, at least she has someone to romance her. It makes me miss private moments between me and Prince.

Flashback

Spud threw a party at Paisley and everyone in the city was invited. Yes, he seriously answers to it I swear. There were a lot of celebrities there and everyone was fighting to get to him on stage. After two sets he grabbed my hand and let the band play during the intermission. Pulling me into the back he then let his hands slide all over my body. Once we were behind a locked door he hiked my dress up and found my secret place.

" Could you be, the most beautiful girl in the world? " He sang to me while rubbing me tantalizingly slow.

My legs shake as two fingers slide up and down my slit, getting coated with my juices. When he felt they were he slowly enters my dripping core and pumps in and out in a mind-numbing pace. " Fuck me Spud, please don't tease me. "

He lifted my dress all the way up with no hesitation and unbuttoned his pants. " You have no idea how fucking sexy you are right now." He growled before slamming into me hard against the wall.

" Oh yes! " I screamed. " Deeper, please! "

All I had to do was say the word. He started slamming into me hitting my G-spot over and over.

" Yes, Prince! " I screamed in intense pleasure.

He spanks my ass hard and I realize my screw up. " What? "

" Oh fuck Spud don't stop. I'm so close. " I begged as he went deeper than ever.

His body trembled. " Yes, Mama get your nut. Oh, fuck! " He said pumping into me harder and harder.

We both came together in hardcore Bliss. He rested his head in the hollow of my throat breathing heavily. I clung to him trying to do the same. When our heartbeats slowed down he helped me fix my dress and buttoned his pants back up.

" Woo! I'm ready to do three more sets after that Mama. " He said making me grin.

" We'll go out there and give the people what they want! " I told him.

End flashback

The Next Morning

I walk down to breakfast with my head full. Aunt Janet's words from last night did make me feel better... But a part of me still feels guilty because I know my dad is going through it ten times worse. What I said to him yesterday was uncalled for and didn't help to say the least.

When I walk in the dining he stands up from the table and looks at me wearily. " Bibi we need to talk. "

" Not before breakfast. " Granny says setting a plate with waffles and strawberries down. My fave.

Breakfast is quiet with the exception of the two lovebirds Janet and JD. Granny's chocolate waffles are amazing as usual. When I'm done I drink my daily cup of orange juice and look over at my dad. He's done as well and looking right back at me. Standing up he holds his hand out for me to take.

" Walk with me? " He pleads.

I take it and he leads me outside. We walk in silence for a long while neither of us knowing what to say. Finally, after what seems like hours, he speaks.

" I'm sorry you were right yesterday. I didn't think about what this could do to you and the kids. I was just too focused on my image. " He said looking out at the vastness of the ranch.

I sigh. " I'm sorry too. I know that my attitude didn't help. I can only imagine what you're going through right now. "

He pulls me into a side hug as we walk further. " You're my number one girl you know that? "

" As much as I love hearing that I wish another woman could take that role. It's exhausting. " I joke.

He chuckles. " Yeah, me too but it seems that in life we rarely get the love we want. "

" Not all of the time... " I say mostly to myself.

He stops walking and looks at me in surprise. " You've never mentioned a man Bianca. Is it Tupac? Are you seeing him again? "

I shake my head. " No daddy. Tupac and Kidada are " happy ". "

" Then who is it? Why haven't you said something before now? " He asked.

It's now or never. With everything on his plate, it can't get any worse. " Well, I don't know how you're going to take this... but I've been seeing Prince again. "

For a second I think he's going to combust so I mentally prepare myself for impact. " Again? When were you seeing him before?"

" Umm... Nine years ago? " I say quickly.

He exhales through his nose. " Well... That's not something I was expecting to learn today. " He says trying to hide how much it hurts him to be left in the dark for so long.

" I'm sorry Dad I didn't want to hurt you so when I found the engagement ring back then I ended it. " I tell him.

Dad grabs my face making me look in his eyes. " Do you love him? "

I close my eyes and nod. " Yes, daddy. " I whispered.

" Even when you were with Tupac and Corey? " He asked.

I nod again. " I tried to get over him so many times. "

He pulls me into his arms and rests his chin on my head. " Who am I to keep you from the happiness you deserve? " He asks to no one in particular. " I just have one question, why him? "

I laugh. " I wish to God I knew Daddy. Love doesn't care about age or rivalries. "

" Then go to him. Blank it him with your love. I don't want you to be as lonely as me. I wouldn't wish that on anyone. " He tells me.

I shake my head. " He doesn't trust me. It could never be like it was. Besides I'm needed here more. "

" Now wait just a cotton-picking minute! " My eyes bug out.

For my dad, that was practically cursing. " You have always been here when we needed you! There's nothing you can do here besides be miserable with me. Go back to Chanhassen and be happy with him. " He orders sternly.

I know better than to argue. So we head inside and I call the jet to take me back to Chanhassen. Baack to the love of my life.