Renesmee

I stormed up to the front door of Jacob's house just as he stepped outside.

"Nessie, baby, I can explain... Please, you know we don't have control over it. I didn't know what was going on at the time." Jacob had his phone in his hand so I knew my mom had called to warn him about what had just happened.

"Jacob, you better explain fast. Why the HELL didn't you tell me you were in LOVE with my MOTHER!? My MOTHER! Jake, how could you!? What, you couldn't have her, so you just settled for the next best thing!? Her daughter!? That is just SICK Jacob!" With every word I hurled at him, I saw Jacob's face fall, but in this moment, I was so pissed off, I didn't care. He needed to hear what I had to say.

"Baby, please..." He moved to take my hand but I jerked away from him.

"Jake, don't fucking touch me right now, I'm pissed, but I don't want to hurt you. But you DO need to explain to me just how you think this whole situation is not royally FUCKED!"

"Okay, but why don't you come inside, I don't have neighbors, but this is quite a long story, so why don't we go in, I'll make coffee, and I'll explain." I nod my head, and follow him into the house. Quickly, he starts the coffee, and I sit down at the kitchen table.

He sits across from me and begins the story.

"Years ago, when I was little, your mom began coming to visit during the summers. Because my dad and your grandpa were close, we used to play together. Then, after a while, she stopped coming and I didn't think I would ever see her again. Until Charlie told my dad that she was moving here in the middle of her JR year. Dad convinced me to fix up our old truck because Charlie wanted to buy it to give it to your mom so she'd have a way to get around.

Well, when she finally moved here, things were fine for a while. We hung out whenever Dad would go to Charlie's to watch the game. Suddenly thought, we noticed that whenever we went over there, Charlie told us that she was out with some new friends from school. We didn't really think much about it until we were driving to the house one day and saw your dad driving away. A few weeks later, we heard about how Bella had run away, apparently after some big fight with your dad. We know now, that was when they had had to run to protect Bella from James and Victoria. They killed James, but Bella had broken her leg.

Then, when your mom turned 18, that's when we really started hanging out. See, there was a big issue with the fact that Bella was still human and apparently there was some kind of blood spillage issue with Jasper. So, your dad convinced the family to leave. He wanted it to be as if your mom had never met him. So, they left without a trace. That's when your mom broke.

He left her the day after her birthday, but she didn't start coming to the Rez until January when she brought me some old rusted broken down motorcycles. We worked on them and got them running again. Slowly but surely, she began to come alive again. She began to smile, laugh and tell jokes. And yes, I began to fall in love with her. By this time, she had seen the pack cliff diving out by the bridge, and she decided she wanted to give it a try. So, she did. Luckily, I was able to pull her out of the water that day, or she would have died.

Later, Alice told me that she had had a vision that Bella would try to kill herself, so she came to either confirm that she was dead, or try to convince her not to try. Well, when she got to your grandpa's house, she saw that Bella was obviously not dead. But that's when your dad called.

Harry Clearwater had just died that day, so Charlie and my dad was helping Sue, Seth and Leah get things ready for the funeral, so when Edward called, I told him they were planning a funeral, I just didn't tell them whose funeral it was. So, he decided that if Bella was dead, he had no reason to live, so he went to the Volturi to try and convince them to kill him.

Long story short, they told him no, Bella and Alice went to Italy to save him, and then your dad came back, thus putting an end to most of our quality time together."

"Ok... well, you just said, putting an end to MOST of your quality time... What do you mean MOST of it?"

"Well, after a while, Victoria started showing up, and the newborn army was going to be coming, so for added protection, Bella spent some time with me when Edward and the others needed to either hunt or look for Victoria. So, we hung out. About that time is when I had shifted, and Bella found out about werewolves, and all that. Then, when the newborn came, the pack and I worked together to fight the newborns. The day of the fight was when I found out that your dad had proposed and your mom had accepted. I was pissed, but I knew that I had pretty much lost her, so I did what I could to move on. I even tried to imprint on someone else, anyone else.

After your parents got married, I really did everything I could to forget her and everything she had meant to me. When they came home from heir honeymoon and she was pregnant with you, the pack had decided to try and kill you because they weren't sure that you were going to be able to control yourself. So, I left the pack to protect Bella and ultimately you. After you were born and I looked in your eyes for the first time, I felt everything change. Suddenly, every single thing I had felt for your mother fell into place as it became clear to me, that the pull I felt toward her was because of you. When I imprinted on you, everything made sense. My life was complete. But when your mom found out what had happened, she was PISSED! I mean she all but tried to kill me. The rest, you know because you were there. But it was always you. I just didn't know it at the time. I thought I was in love with her, but in truth, I was only ever drawn to her because you were a part of her and she was a part of you." I could see the desperation in Jacob's eyes as he explained everything as well as he could. That was when I knew what I needed to do.

"Jacob, I just don't know what to do or say. I still can't wrap my brain around this. I need time to think. Nahuel asked me to travel with him because of my promise a couple years ago to give him a fair chance. I am going to take him up on the offer. I need to get away to process all of this. Plus I owe him this. I told him I would give him a chance, and I haven't. All because of this imprint shit. I thought I was just supposed to accept it all, but I really need to think through all this stuff about you and my mom." I watched as Jacob went from shocked, to confused, to angry.

"You're going to WHAT!? Travel with Nahuel!? For how long!? Renesmee, are you fucking kidding me!? You're going to leave with Nahuel just because I have a past with your mom?" Jacob jumped up from the table and began pacing.

"Jacob, you cannot just dump all this shit on me and expect me to be okay with it. You were in love with my MOTHER!" All of my anger at the situation came flooding back, and I just exploded, "It's not like you dated my best friend and then started dating me, you wanted the woman who gave birth to me! I am really trying not to be disgusted by the thought of you and my mother!"

"You KNOW we don't have control over it! I tried! I really tried to move on. I didn't expect to imprint on you. Honestly, I came in the house that day to kill you! The packs didn't know what you were, and I was tasked to take care of you. But in one single moment, you changed my whole life!" Suddenly, Jacob fell to his knees in front of me, "Nessie, please, don't leave me, I can't take it if you do." Tears welled up in his eyes as he laid his head in my lap. "Please, give me a chance to prove to you that I love you. And only you. You are the only one for me."

I ran my fingers through his hair, but responded, "Jake, I love you, and I know you love me, but this is all too much for me to handle right now. I need time. Please, Give me that time. Let me think it through. Nahuel has asked me for six months. Give me those six months to fulfill my promise, and I promise I will have your answer then." Pushing him off of me, I stand up and walk out the door. Leaving him kneeling in the floor like that was the hardest thing I had ever done, but I had so many questions and issues that I needed to work through, maybe the time with Nahuel was just what I needed. I didn't intend on spending the time with Nahuel doing much of anything other than fulfilling a time frame anyway. So why not?

I walked slowly toward Grandpa Carlisle's house where I knew Nahuel and his sisters would be waiting. I knew it was time to let the family know my decision.