Why did I think it was a good idea to leave the girl I love? I know I've said some bad things to Carlisle and Emmett about her her but they weren't true: I love her and it's clear that she still loves me. My Bella's scent is all over the place it's like she's physically here. I look at Carlisle and Esme, who is on the counter after finding out that Bella plans to jump from the highest bridge in Forks and letting the water overtake her. "Are you okay, Esme?" I ask my Mom. Esme looks at me. "Well I just found my youngest daughter is planning on jumping off a bridge almost similar how I did all those years ago. I just.. I don't know. Read your letter so we can safe her before we lose her forever." I nod and start reading my loves letter.

(Letter) (thoughts)

Dear Edward (my vampire)

I am your vampire

You know that I'll always love you right? Even though you crushed me that fateful day in the woods, I've never stopped loving you, Edward. I've always loved you, Edward even when you didn't love me. I've always loved you. I've never stopped. You, Edward Cullen, are the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. I can't thank you enough for bringing yourself into my life. Edward, before I met you, I didn't know what love was because my parents divorced when I was a baby and my parents abandoned me. I'd never felt love until you showed up and showed me what it is. I'll forever be grateful for that. Your 'love' for me proved that while you might be a vampire, you're capable of having human feelings. Even if those feelings weren't real to you, they were to me.

They were real to me too, Spider Monkey.

They've always have and always will be real to me.

I can't tell you how much I still love you even though you left me alone in the woods after you told me those things. Three months after you left, Charlie said your name and I lashed out at him for saying bad things about you and your family. It felt as if I were a newborn vampire, ironic isn't it? I wish I was a vampire but I know what you'd say instantly. Why couldn't turn me into one of you, then I wouldn't feel like an outsider.

Not this again, Bella.

I wanted to spend all of eternity with you, with the guy I love so much but that's not possible seeing as you left me. Why did you leave me, Edward? Am I just a toy? Did you even actually love me or was it just pretend? I don't know what the answer to that question is. Did you love me at all? Because I don't think you do.

I do love you, Bella. I know it might've not looked like I did but I did, I do. You have to know that.

I'll always love you even after I'm dead. I don't want to die but it's for best for everyone: Charlie, Renèe, the bullies at school and you guys. Edward, when I'm dead, don't do anything reckless okay? Keep on living your life without me in it. I'm thinking of writing a few songs for you guys but I'm certain about it. You'll just have to raid my room after I'm dead.

I'll never go into your room again if you're gone, I won't be able to handle it.

I love you, Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, don't ever forget that I love you. I'm always gonna be your Spider Monkey no matter if I'm alive or dead, there's only gonna one Spider Monkey and that me.

You're damn right it's you, Isabella.

I love you forever, my vampire,

I love you too.

Isabella Marie Swan.

We need to go now. Luckily they already know what I'm thinking, we'veall been thinking it ever since the letters arrived. "Everyone, grab what you need in a small backpack and meet outside, we'll come back for the rest of the stuff once we've stopped our Bella." Esme says as Carlisle helps her off the counter. We need to get to Bella fast. Before it's too late!