Oh my goodness, the response to the previous chapter was amazing. Thank you!
I hope you enjoy this next chapter because there will be a lot more cuteness in here and SOFIA ROBBIN SLOAN-TORRES!
I don't know about ya'll but I love Calzona's baby.
Disclaimer: As always, I own nothing. Grey's Anatomy and all its characters are property of ABC and Shonda Rhimes. I'm just here to play and live out my fandom dreams.
mambs - Thank you! I hope you like this new chapter.
lonelykid293 - your reviews are always so polite and adorable. Thank you so much! Enjoy more cuteness in this chapter hehe
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Beeex3 - I was kinda nervous about the whole speechy Arizona thing but I'm glad you liked it!
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Guest - Thank you for pointing out the necklaces! I honestly forgot the actual colors and I guessed hahaha I edited chapter 10 thanks to you!
To the two other guests who have reviewed - Thank you!
To that other guest with the dark and twisty mind - I love the way you think, and I'm still reserving Lauren Boswell and Leah Murphy for future chapters. Big spoiler but not really spoiler but they are definitely making an appearance. I got Erica Hahn here after all, and she's more grown up in this story than she is in the show haha.
Done with my ranting and I hope you all enjoy this new chapter!
Chapter 11: The one where some surprises are revealed
Callie POV
After the emotional outburst about her frustration over her amnesia, Callie and Arizona decided to talk about the times before they met, ignoring the topic of recent memories for now. Arizona did not want to overwhelm or confuse Callie with too many recollections, it could set her back or confuse her when or if the Latina would ever start remembering. Arizona was still sitting on Callie's bed next to her, enjoying the closeness and the fact that the Latina had not pushed her away like last time.
It was just after lunchtime, and the two of them had shared awful hospital food while entertaining each other about med school stories. "I'm being totally serious here, that was the only time I've ever seen a man's… thing." Arizona scrunched her face in disgust at the memory of that one time in her gross anatomy class.
Callie laughed out loud at that. "Really, Arizona? You're a grown woman and you can't say penis?" The Latina teased, poking fun at her partner's inability to even name the male reproductive anatomy.
Arizona pouted, swatting at her wife playfully. "I have no desire at all to get near a living and functional one, thank you very much. I'm proud of my gold star!" The blonde declared, still pouting and narrowing her eyes as Callie continued to laugh.
"You're cute when you're mad," the orthopod pointed out. This caused heat to rise quickly to Arizona's cheeks, coloring her face with a deep blush. "I'm awesome! And you like to tease me, so that means…" whatever Arizona was about to say was abruptly cut off when the sliding door of their room was suddenly thrown open.
Arizona suddenly found herself with an armful of sobbing momma Robbins, while the Colonel stood just inside the doorway. "Momma? What are you doing here? Dad?" The blonde surgeon questioned as she awkwardly patted her crying mother's back.
Beside her on the bed, an equally confused Callie just looked on. These people were virtual strangers to her, but apparently, they were her wife's parents, a wife she still pretty much did not remember much of so the ortho surgeon just stayed quiet, not really knowing what to say.
"Arizona Michelle Robbins-Torres! We had to find out from the news that you had an accident and that's how you greet your mother? I've been worried sick ever since we heard what happened! Did you even plan to call your poor old parents that you and Callie were in a plane crash?" Barbara Robbins could talk. She rambled, actually. And if Callie could remember her wife and her life four years ago, she would have found it as amusing as she did when she first realized this inherited trait between mother and daughter.
Callie didn't remember them but seeing the worried mother hen fussing over a flustered and chastised-looking Arizona did make her smile, and she missed her mother as well. "Mom! We're okay. I'm sorry that I didn't call you. I really am. My plate was pretty full with my wife being in a coma, and my own injuries, mom. I'm sorry for not calling you and dad." The younger woman apologized.
"How were you able to get a flight over here, anyway? Do you need a place to stay? I can give you the keys to the apartment." Barbara waved all the questions off, sitting on the edge of the other bed after finally releasing Arizona.
"It's alright, honey. Carlos contacted us, and he picked us up with their jet. He's here, but he said he wanted to visit with Sofia first. Oh, Arizona. Your daughter has grown so much! She looks so much like Callie even more now but she definitely has the Robbins dimples. Oh my goodness…"
Callie tilted her head to the side. Did that woman just say that they had a daughter? They had a daughter named Sofia? What? The Latina couldn't wrap her confused mind around this new tidbit of information. All she could remember about the talk of children was wanting to have a child with George before they broke up, and then the talk didn't even come up with Erica. Apparently, they were parents. She was a parent. A mother. Seriously? Callie Torres, who could only remember being a fifth-year orthopedic resident and couldn't even remember the woman she married, had also apparently forgotten about her child.
Everyone turning their attention to her made Callie realize that she'd spoken out loud. The Latina froze and turned to her 'wife' with a pleading look; she didn't do well with having a spotlight on her, even if it's just her in-laws. In-laws she couldn't even put a name to. Arizona nodded and spoke for her. "Momma, Daddy. The reason why I haven't been able to give you guys a call at all is that when we arrived here, Callie needed brain surgery and she was put under a medically induced coma for a month. Unfortunately, it took another three weeks before she woke up and when she did…" The blonde reached over and grasped Callie's hand for support. "When Callie woke up, the trauma to her brain caused her to have what we hope is temporary retrograde amnesia. She can't remember the last four years before she woke up."
The silence in the room was deafening as both Robbins parents processed the information they were just given. Unknown to the four companions, someone had also heard the explanation from the door. "Calliope has amnesia!?" The outburst from the door startled everyone, making them all jump and turn their attention to the door.
There was Carlos Torres, a look of shock on his face as he distractedly tried to soothe the crying baby in his arms. Poor little Sofia had been shocked by the loud voice that her grandfather had used when he spoke, and the little girl cried in reaction. Instinctively, Arizona reached out. "Give her to me please, Carlos."
The man nodded and walked over to the blonde but Sofia had other plans. The little girl had not seen her Mami in a long time, and when little Sofia saw her Mami watching her, she immediately reached out for her. "Mami!" Callie just gave the little girl a frightened look as she once again turned to her wife, Arizona, the only familiar one in the whole room.
Seeing the fear in the Latina's eyes, Arizona took the fussing baby into her arms instead. "I'm sorry, baby, Mami isn't feeling good right now. Come on, Sof. You love cuddling with Mama, right?" The blonde cooed but the little girl refused to back down. Sofia had, without a doubt, inherited her birth mother's fiery temper and stubbornness. Instead of calming down once she was in her mama's arms, the little one-year-old baby girl cried harder and squirmed to reach her Mami on the other side of the bed.
Callie's heart broke to see this child, this beautiful little girl who was supposed to be her baby, crying out and reaching for her. Sofia's little face was scrunched up, tear-stained, and red from crying. Her little body was still struggling to reach for Callie, and Arizona was having a hard time holding her now. Making up her mind, the Latina reached out for the little girl. "Give her to me, Arizona. Come here, sweetie." The blonde looked uneasy for a second, knowing that the Latina was probably overwhelmed but her big heart couldn't stand to see the baby crying. Reluctantly, Arizona passed Sofia into Callie's arm, making sure that the Latina had a good grip with her one good arm before she let go. It didn't seem like Sofia was going to fall because the child had wrapped her little arms tight around Callie's neck as soon as she could reach it.
Still, she had a hand on Sofia's back as she scooted closer on the bed and helped Callie lean back into the pillows and into a comfortable position so she could support Sofia with one arm. Once they were situated, the little girl finally calmed down, only the occasional sniffles and muffled murmurs of "Mami" could be heard from her as she snuggled deeper into her amnesiac mother's embrace.
With the situation of Sofia's tantrum soothed, Arizona relaxed but she kept herself close to Callie so she could help if she was needed. As if by muscle memory, the Latina positioned herself so that she could run her hand in soothing circles over the baby's back, a motion that Arizona had seen Callie do every single time their baby was upset and wanted the comfort of her Mami. Arizona herself had her own practiced motions when soothing Sofia, and it warmed her heart and sparked hope in her that maybe her wife would come back to her someday, that Callie would remember her, remember them, again.
"Arizona, is this true? Is our Calliope suffering from amnesia?" Carlos' much softer voice broke the spell of silence that had enveloped the room a few minutes later. Arizona had been so focused on her family, watching her wife soothe their baby girl, that she had completely forgotten for a moment that they were not alone.
Both Arizona and Callie turned their attention back to Carlos, the Latina still soothing the now asleep baby, the child's even breathing warming Callie's neck, though Sofia's grip had slipped from her neck, little hands had found purchase on her hospital gown; thin cloth gripped tightly in balled fists as if Sofia was afraid her mother would disappear if she didn't hold on even in sleep.
"Yes, sir… I mean Carlos, Callie has what we hope is temporary retrograde amnesia. She lost her memory of the past four years." Arizona answered, her gaze falling down to her lap. Like her father, Carlos Torres was a very intimidating man, and Arizona found her authority issues rearing its ugly head along with a healthy dose of fear as she felt her eyes sting with tears. Carlos may be her father-in-law but in her eyes, she had failed to protect Calliope from this, even though there was nothing she could have possibly done because the blonde was hurt badly during the crash too.
Carlos sighed and ran his hand over his balding head. Callie watched her father walk to the other side of her bed and sit down, his eyes clouded by worry. "Oh Mija, you were finally happy. The happiest you've ever been, I am so sorry for what happened. We will make these airline people pay, I promise." A promise from Carlos Torres was not something you would take lightly, and his daughter knew that.
Callie wanted to end the discussion there but she knew she needed to tell her father everything, every single injury she currently had, especially the one that would potentially change the way she lived now. "Daddy… the amnesia isn't the only thing. I-I also… umm… apparently, after the crash… I have… I have another injury, daddy. I can't feel anything below my abdomen." The Latina stuttered through her words as she explained.
The horrified gasps of everyone, including Arizona, and the look of utter devastation on her father's face made tears well up in Callie's eyes. "Why didn't you tell me?" Hurt was written all over Arizona's face along with worry and fear.
The Latina sighed, "I'm sorry, Arizona. You weren't in the room and I was feeling really overwhelmed and then apparently I had a seizure. I just… everything feels so weird and I feel lost and overwhelmed and I don't know." The Latina kept rubbing the now sleeping Sofia's back as she squirmed a bit under everyone's gaze, looking down on the bed.
"I… I also thought… I'm broken, too broken. I can't even remember you, you have no reason to stay with someone defective." Callie turned her face towards Sofia, closing her eyes and inhaling the unique scent of a clean baby. It helped calm the Latina's anxiety a bit but it was still there, and she was still tense when a soft hand was laid on top of hers that was holding Sofia. The Latina tensed even more, preparing herself for Arizona's response. She still can't remember whatever they have had but it made her heart hurt to think that this wonderful, beautiful human could possibly utter words that could break her. Callie had offered her an out but a part of the orthopod was still hoping that the blonde wouldn't leave because right now, through all of this, she knew that Arizona could be her rock, her stability in this world that she couldn't remember right now. Living a life she couldn't remember would be hard for her, even harder with a young child dependent on you, but there was a part of Callie telling her that if she lost this, lost the little girl sleeping on her or the beautiful blonde lying next to her, there would be no reason for her to stay in this world. In this world where the most consistent thing she's had so far is the presence of this woman, even though they've only really bonded for a few hours, part of Callie could still feel a longing and a connection with this woman.
Arizona's hand gently squeezed Callie's, prompting the Latina to look up. The blonde's expression was sad but she couldn't see any rejection coming from Arizona. "The whole time we had been together, through everything, you have never left my side." Callie could see through the sad smile, that there was also love and nothing else in Arizona's eyes so she listened to the blonde. "Throughout our relationship, I was always running. I bail when things get hard, and I make stupid, irrational decisions and I realize things too late but this… loving you? It's the easiest and hardest thing I have ever done and will continue to do."
Callie tilted her head a bit, confused by the blonde's start. What was Arizona trying to say? Was this just a long-winded rejection? Something? It sounded contradictory. Easy yet hard? "What?"
Arizona laughed softly. It was always Callie's go-to word, her signature reaction to almost everything. "Listen to me, Calliope. Loving you is easy because loving you is like breathing, it's something I need for me to be alive and it's also something I do without even having to think about it. I can have the worst day a pediatric surgeon can have and all you have to do is smile and the world feels right again. I feel safest in your arms, I feel like I can do anything as long as you're right next to me, and I can live without you but I don't want to. Loving you is easy in the sense that I feel that I was made for you and you were made for me, and I will always choose to love you through everything, good or bad, sickness and health, celebration and tragedy, over never having you in my life."
Tears instantly welled up in Callie's eyes as she heard those sincere words from Arizona. The Latina watched as this woman, this beautiful, wonderful, miraculous woman next to her just delivered the perfect speech. This love that Arizona was describing was something you only find in dreams or fairy tales or for other people. It was something Callie had once dreamed about having with someone, something she had once hoped she had with George or even with Erica but here was Arizona, a woman Callie couldn't even remember, saying the perfect words with a loving smile that she somehow knew was reserved only for her.
But Arizona wasn't finished. "Loving you is also difficult because you scare me, Calliope. Loving you scares me because there is this perfect person right here who has given me nothing but devotion, pure love, and absolute protection. I'm scared because you're so brave, and bold with your love for me that sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it. I'm scared because I almost lost you, and in the past four years, I don't know how to live in a world where my Calliope doesn't exist anymore. You also infuriate me with how stubborn, loyal, and brave you are. You make me feel so safe because of it but I hate how you always put yourself between us and danger, how you take a leap and not even think twice just so you can protect us or save a life."
Arizona cupped Callie's cheek this time. "What I'm saying is, I am never leaving your side again, ever. You haven't left my side through all of it, and you've done so much for us, so much that I hope you one day remember again. I will never leave your side, Calliope. You are not broken, you're not defective. You are the love of my life, my other half, my brave, stubborn, beautiful, smart, and talented wife. The mother of my child, and I love you. Don't ever call yourself defective again or I will kick the crap out of you." The last part was said in jest but the sentiment was felt. Callie smiled at Arizona, feeling loved and absolutely cared for and safe after that long speech.
"I… I don't know what to say but thank you for loving me, Arizona. Thank you, and I hope that one day I can remember everything because I want to remember you. The way you talked just now, I've always… I've only ever dreamt of something like this, and now that it's here I can't… I don't want to just forget it. I want to remember because you deserve to be loved just as fiercely." Callie delivered her own speech, albeit shorter and stuttered as tears finally fell down her cheeks because of the loving look and the speech that her wife had just delivered.
For the rest of the day, the gathered family talked and Arizona apologized to her parents and to Carlos for not calling. Callie was just content to lay down with Sofia, the little girl not even stirring as the adults in the room continued to talk and catch up, though they did stay on safer topics that wouldn't leave the Latina out so most of the conversation was about more reminiscing about med school and internships and residencies. Much to Callie's and Arizona's shame, their parents started exchanging high school and childhood memories of them. This went on until visiting hours were over. Arizona had convinced Barbara and Daniel to stay in their apartment for the time being while Carlos would stay in the Archfield. Instead of going home with Meredith, Sofia would be spending the night in her own bed for the first time in months. Soon enough, the two surgeons were left alone.
The two stayed quiet for a while, Arizona probably waiting for Callie to speak first but the Latina didn't really know what to say. After a few more minutes of silence, Callie yawned and Arizona made to move back to her own bed but a hand on her arm stopped her. "Can you stay? Just until I fall asleep?" Brown eyes pleaded with blue. Arizona nodded and let the Latina pull them both down in a comfortable position. Callie lay her head against Arizona's shoulder and her good hand found a place on the blonde's waist.
"Is this okay?" Callie's soft voice whispered against Arizona's skin, causing the blonde to shiver as she nodded. "Of course. I waited two months for this." The blonde wrapped her own arm around the Latina's waist, pulling her closer, the two of them now snuggling closer to each other in a hold that felt new and familiar at the same time. Callie decided she liked sleeping like this, it felt safe and warm and very comfortable. The tired orthopod finally closed her eyes and let sleep claim her as she basked in the warmth and safety of being in Arizona's arms. As soon as Callie's breath evened out in sleep, Arizona's own exhaustion caught up with her and she fell asleep snuggled against her wife.
A/N: So... What did you all think? Arizona is really pulling out all the stops for Callie here, and I'm loving these cute calzona moments. They're a good break from all the dark and twisty stuff, right? AND SOFIA IS SO ADORABLE!
Anywho, talk to me in the reviews! I read all of them and I make sure to reply and I even consider suggestions in the review sections for my story. I value my reviewers! you all give me life and motivation to keep writing. THANK YOU!
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