Who cares bout star signs? I'm hardwired to be with you. You're like the sunrise and I'm scared that I'll never get enough of you. Nobody called it a star fall, come out the blue. I'm all butterflies, I'm sky high for you. When it feels like this, like a light came on. And you look at me, like I'm all you want. I've got everything at my fingertips. How can I resist, when it feels like this
17th October 2019
"Good morning" Merlin grinned as he rolled over in bed.
"Good morning" Morgana grinned in response. She put the noise up on the baby monitor, Amhar was still asleep. She checked the time. 8 o'clock.
"For once, you know I'm glad that I'm awake early even though it's half term".
"So am I" Morgana agreed. "I dunno, it feels like today will be a good day".
"And I get to spend it all with you" Merlin winked.
"Now that I look forward too, Mr Emrys" Morgana teased.
"MAMA!" They heard Amhar shout over the baby monitor. The prince had awoken.
"Well, looks like we have to wait until nap time then" Morgana groaned as she got out of bed. Morgana went to the nursery and changed Amhar's nappy while Merlin went downstairs to make breakfast.
"Looks like there's been a sick bug at nursery" Morgana sighed as she put Amhar in his highchair. "You're changing the next nappy".
"Ew" Merlin grimaced. "Is he ok?".
"Not really" Morgana pouted as Amhar rested his head on her shoulder.
"Mama" Amhar cried as he tiredly rubbed at his eyes.
"Okay baby" Morgana sighed. "Think he'll have Farley's rusks for breakfast and he needs his bottle. A day on the sofa it is".
Shortly after breakfast Amhar was still clingy. He didn't seem to mind not watching CBeebies as long as he was being held and rocked while Morgana stood up, not letting her out of his sight as Merlin changed his nappies. Tired from being sick and running a slight fever, after having some Calpol Amhar quickly slept in his cot as he sucked his dummy and clutched his bat and bunny.
"Baby's out" Morgana sighed with a grin as she came into the living room.
"Great" Merlin grinned as he sat up on the sofa. "Race you upstairs".
"So childish" Morgana rolled her eyes as she went on all fours to go up the stairs.
"Says you" Merlin scoffed as he raced upstairs too.
"I'm the baby of the family!" Morgana protested as she pounced onto the bed. She lay down on her back and slowly began to unbutton her shirt. "Well, come on Emrys. Where are you?".
"I'm coming" Merlin winked as he slowly pulled her jeans off throwing them onto the floor.
"Not yet you're not" Morgana winked. "Do you have a condom?".
"Shit on it. I forgot to buy some more" Merlin groaned.
"Oh well" Morgana shrugged as she pulled Merlin's t-shirt off. "Guess we'll just have to go without. Besides, it's much better without one".
"That I have to agree with" Merlin agreed as he pulled her thong off.
"We do have lube, right?" Morgana checked.
"I think so" Merlin opened the draw. "Yup. We've got that at least". He pumped the lube out of the bottle and massaged it into Morgana's core before he stuck his index and middle finger inside her.
"Harder" Morgana moaned. She briefly sat up and unhooked her bra while Merlin began to gently caress her nipples as she touched his throbbing Manhood.
"Well, what are you waiting for?" Morgana teased. "Get inside me".
Merlin gently eased himself into her, thrusting forwards.
"Hang on, need more lube" Merlin paused for a moment and withdrew before he added more lube, as they continued to fuck one another.
"Don't stop, Merlin don't stop!" Morgana cried out as he came inside her. After he came Merlin withdrew and they lay down on their back next to one another as they lay in a post-coital bliss.
Merlin groaned at the sound of Amhar whining and shoved the baby monitor off the bedside table. He knew that parenting was hard and just wanted some time to relax with his fiancee. He rather liked the sound of fiancee.
"Well, I'd better get up then, baby's awake" Morgana sighed. She quickly freshened up with some baby wipes on the bedside table and then quickly threw on a bra, some clean underwear and her dressing gown as Amhar started to become more distressed.
"Okay Amhar, mummy's coming" Morgana called down the hall.
"Well, she was" Merlin muttered under his breath.
"Shut up" Morgana snapped as she slammed the door and went over to the nursery. "Shit...Merlin".
Merlin quickly grabbed some boxers out of the cupboard before he went to the baby's room. He could hear crying over the monitor.
"Uh, okayyy" Morgana said shakily as she held Amhar at a distance. The baby was crying, his cot walls covered in sick alongside his babygrow, with a putrid smell filling the room.
"Oh no" Merlin groaned as he made his way over to the bed, taking the towel on the bed that Morgana had put down and stripping down while Morgana changed Amhar's nappy and took him downstairs in fresh pyjamas for a bottle. She left him asleep in the pushchair while she helped Merlin to change the sheets and clean up the baby's cot.
"That was extremely dramatic" Morgana sighed as she turned the tv on.
"First sick bug. And holy shit, that was awful" Merlin agreed.
"Anyway, gotta do some research" Morgana shrugged as she lay her head on Merlin's lap and began to Google. "He's been doing extremely well, but with his CDH it's so worrying".
"Well of course it is. The baby is sick and there's nothing we can do. But he is OK, he is thriving and doing so well. He's thirteen months old, it's normal".
"Hm" Morgana mused. "Thirteen. His birthday was Friday the thirteenth. We haven't exactly had the best luck this year".
"I know" Merlin quietly agreed. "But I think things have been okay lately. We're finally at peace, everything is falling into place".
"It is" Morgana smiled. October was the prime time for sicknesses to begin, with the clocks going back and the weather getting colder. She'd had a twisting feeling in her stomach ever since she'd discovered Amhar being sick in his cot and had originally put it down to anxiety yet now wasn't too sure. "Fuck" she muttered under her breath as she ran out of the room just about making it to the empty kitchen sink in time. Merlin just about managed to get to the toilet in time as his bowels exploded.
18th October 2019
"Well, that was a long night" Morgana sighed. With all the family having the sick bug and Amhar refusing his cot, they all spent the night in bed together between the toilet, sick bowl and the warm bed.
"It sure was" Merlin agreed. "But if I'm being honest, there's no one else I would go through with it".
"Me too" Morgana smiled. Merlin leant over Amhar and quickly kissed Morgana.
"Are you not forgetting that I've spent half the night throwing up?" Morgana frowned.
"Honestly, I don't care" Merlin replied. "Cause for love, there's nothing I wouldn't do".
"Look, we've been through what no couple has before. I can't take it anymore. I don't want to wait. Let's get married. ASAP".
"I'll ring the court tomorrow" Merlin grinned.
"Look, I .. there's something I want to talk about" Morgana sighed.
"You can trust me, you know you can" Merlin vowed. "What's up? We can get through this".
"You know how uh...I guess, you know how you think you know everything about someone, that they're this really great, great person. Then you just find out something about them after they've gone and well, you just don't know how to handle it".
"Yeah ... yeah, I get that" Merlin replied. "I think, in some sense that that had happened with Arthur. I didn't know about Dylan or the twins, neither did Gwen. I mean, did anyone know?".
"I did" Morgana quietly admitted. "When I just turned three, Arthur often took me to see Dylan. Well, I remember seeing Dylan, then when Arthur told me a few years back, it all began to fall into place".
"When did he tell you?".
"Around the time I got my memories back so...Christmas of 2017. Arthur did say how he hadn't had any fertility problems".
"So that was a sign!" Merlin concluded.
"I suppose so" Morgana shrugged. "How were we supposed to know? I mean, we didn't expect things to plan out this way".
"Yeah, you just don't expect it. But life changes everyday, in many different ways. Even if you don't see it".
"I guess so" Morgana smiled. "It was the same with my mum. Morgause just told me some things about her and I used to think about her as the perfect mother until she left ... and now what Morgause told me, I just can't cope with it".
"But that's Morgause's experience. Yes it's shit, but still. We all make mistakes".
"I know" Morgana sighed. "But I haven't seen mum in what—fourteen years? All this adoption stuff has made me reflect".
"Well, you're not your mother. The circumstances here are totally different, Morgause was born when she was only eighteen and she had you later so I don't think it was inexperience".
"I just don't get how many mother could just up and leave their child" Morgana sobbed. "I mean I'm not a parent, but I just don't understand how they can do that".
"It's okay to feel that way" Merlin soothed. "And it isn't your fault. It's Vivienne's. You're not like your mother, at all".
"Now, go get me some ibuprofen, a hot water bottle and some tampons before I murder someone" Morgana muttered.
A/N: In STAGES OF MIRTH I said that Arthur had hidden the fact that he had Dylan for 18 years, and I can't remember if I specified it but cause Dylan's three years younger than Morgana he was born in 1997, so would've been 21 when he met Arthur and 22 when Arthur died as I decided to have his birthday in March. Can't remember if I specified that or not before. Also the twins were born in 2004 so they're 15/year 11 at this point