Indecision
Chapter 12
Days Later
The McFadden Household
Rachel finished the wine in her glass then poured in a second cup.
Taking a deep breath. Focusing her gaze on Brooke.
"I've caught you up on everything that's been going on with me and Lucas along with our the boys so anytime you want to tell me what you think or how you feel. I'm listening." Brooke said.
"Normally i keep myself out of other people's relationship because i don't want people's thoughts and options on my own but since you asked. I'll keep it honest as always."
"I love you and i'm glad you're back in town. But from an outsider looking in. You're allowing you're personal feelings about Lucas to get in the way of the relationship he could have with his sons."
"Yes you're encouraging them to spend time and talk to Lucas. But you know they won't because they will see it as a betrayal to you. Pair that with Peyton's lies and manipulation. Lucas is losing his sons before ever getting the chance to really be their father and that's unfair to those kids and to Lucas who already was forced to loss 13 years because of Peyton deciding to play god and keep what she knew to herself."
"Be honest with Ryan and Kennedy about what you're keeping from them. Protecting them is one thing. Using ehat's going on as a way to further the distance between you and Lucas because you aren't ready to face the feelings you haven't addressed is wrong." Rachel said.
"I needed to hear this. No matter how much it was difficult to process. Thank you Rach." Brooke said.
"Anytime." Rachel replied. Pulling her close friend into a tight hug.
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Later on that day
"All of you start on you're homework. I'll let you know when dinner is ready." Brooke instructed.
"Momma i need you're help with my spelling words." Rosemary said.
"Come on honey. We'll practice while i cook dinner." Brooke replied. Taking ahold of the girl's hand as she lead the way into the kitchen.
Rosemary took out her spelling words list from her bookbag and handed the list to her mother.
"I'm going to have to remember all these words and spell them right. It's going to be impossible. Can't i just stay home.?" Rosemary asked.
"I'll help you as much as i can. I know you're brothers will too. You have a few weeks before this spelling test comes up. I want you to put in as much effort as you can." Brooke said.
Rosemary let out a frustrated sigh.
"I'll try." She replied.
"That's all i expect from you and you're brothers. You're best effort possible. I'm making chicken parm. And you can try out one of you're new dessert recipes that you looked up." Brooke stated. Knowing that her girl struggled with Dyslexia. Which made reading difficult. She sheltered Rosemary in a way she didn't with the boys.
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Awhile Later
"I've been selfish and handled this ongoing situation with you're father in a way that favors me and keeps him out and i'm sorry for that. He's a good person. Flawed like i am. Like most adults are. He was robbed from time with the both of you. Because of Peyton."
"I made contact with you're father for years. With no response only to find out she kept what i wrote to him. A secret. She wrote that letter Ryan the one you told me about. Not Lucas."
"Lucas deserves to have a place in your life. I'll support what choice the two of you make going forward." Brooke said. Placing down Lucas's cellphone number between the boys. As she left the bedroom.
"I'm going to bed." Kennedy said. Turning his back. Then shutting his bedside table lamp.
Ryan reached over and took ahold of the small sheet of paper.
He got his cellphone and started to dial. He held the phone to his ear and put the piece of paper in his bedside table drawer.
Lucas quickly shot out of bed and reached for his cellphone.
"Hello.?" He said.
"Lucas. It's me Ryan. I know it's late and i probably shouldn't be calling. I just was wondering if you would want to hang out. Find something in town to do. On the weekend and maybe get lunch. Unless you're busy or not interested. What do you think.?" Ryan suggested. His voice brimming with hesitation.
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Lucas felt the tears falling from his eyes and couldn't care less.
"Yes i am very interested in that. I'm open to anything you want to check can figure out our plan and talk again soon." He replied.
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Author's Note : Didn't plan for this to be so long but i love it. Let me know what think.?" Review!