Hi everyone. I'm not sure why I'm writing so many songfics right now, but I hope you enjoy them. If you don't then please tell me so I know what not to write. This is inspired by Lewis Capaldi's 'Someone You Loved'. It's a great song and if you haven't heard it, you should definitely check it out. (The tiktok mashup with Heather and Thousand Years is great too.)
This one-shot is a Hayleo one as requested by izzyace1234. It is set between S02E16 and S03E01, so basically the time we were left in the dark as to whether Hayley chose Leo or Daniel. I know this isn't exactly a point where Hayley and Leo are together but I just wanted to write on Leo's thoughts about everything. This briefly touches on Leo's perspective on Hayley's arrival and their relationship, and I probably shouldn't spoil this right now...
I hope you guys enjoy this and don't forget to send in your prompts.
Leo's POV
For the first time in a long time, the music room at the Greenhouse doesn't bring him peace; it isn't a solace from everything that's going on around him. Instead, it only brings back painful memories.
He's all alone now, Aspen having gone back to England and Hayley choosing to be with Daniel during almost all their free time. He knows how pathetic it sounds, to feel like he has no life without a girl by his side, but it's the truth.
Having been around Aspen most of his life, and being with Hayley in her brief-yet-not-so-brief absence, left him with little time to himself, and he's not sure if it's a welcomed solitude.
I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to save me
This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy
He finds himself drowning in the sound of silence. He feels so alone and it's ironic that he went from having two beautiful girls by his side, to none. He guesses that's karma.
He knows he shouldn't have done what he did. He was disgusted by all the two-timing jerks in the shows Aspen made him watch with her. Who knew he'd eventually become one too?
In his defence, Aspen hadn't left him on good terms, she was there one day and gone the next. She had told him her family was simply going on a holiday in England, not that she would end up staying behind in order to pursue a music career.
It had hurt at first when she told him over text that she was staying at that school. He felt betrayed. She was the one who asked him to join her, accompany her to this prestigious school all the way in California from their hometown in Michigan, and then she left him alone.
I need somebody to heal
Somebody to know
Somebody to have
Somebody to hold
It's easy to say
But it's never the same
I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain
Hayley came in at one of his lowest points. He had been walking from the examination room when he first heard her voice. It was like a fresh melody, a song he wanted to hear more of. He was disappointed when he found out she was only there as a moral support for her brother and not to try out for herself; he was sure she'd fit in from the get go. Nevertheless, he decided to get close to her.
It was a pure coincidence that she happened to be in the stadium when he decided to watch the Eagle try-outs. He wanted to scope out the new competition, pick up on their strengths and their weaknesses before the beginning of the new year's rivalry. He definitely didn't expect her to be there.
But since she was, he decided that no harm could come from talking to her. If he was lucky, maybe she'd come visit her brother often.
He sat beside her, watched the pair on the court before warning her. From the few years that he's known the rival's captain, he could see the determination in the way that he set his shoulders, and the challenging look on his face. He was up to something and it wouldn't end well for the other boy.
Of course she brushed him off, only to go defending her brother a minute later. He watched her stand up to the main authoritative figure of the school with admiration. Sure everyone respected Louis and could hold a decent casual conversation with him, but no one, at least not in his memory, has ever outright stood up to him.
He watched her with wonder as she ran out after her brother and had been pleasantly surprised when he found himself being called to play for the last two candidates of the day, with her being one of them. He felt as if his world had lit up when he saw the smile she threw at the other girl before asking him to turn the volume up. Maybe he'd finally have someone who could see him eye to eye.
He let her be for the first few days, let her adjust to her new surroundings, but when he saw how depressed she was after being blown off by her brother, he knew he couldn't go another day without seeing her smile.
He extended his hand to her and it just felt so right. Her hand fit perfectly in his. Her warm fingertips brushing against his cooler ones made him feel as if the ice in his heart was beginning to melt and he were in heaven.
And the first time she hugged him, the first time he held her, it was as if Aspen became nothing more than a mere memory. The pain she left in her wake was nothing but a memory. Hayley hadn't just numbed the pain, she healed him.
He knows he should've felt the overwhelming guilt early on, but having her with him made everything better. And he just couldn't let her go.
Now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
Then, seeing her freeze like she did when she met Aspen, saw her walk up to him and kiss him, broke his heart. He never wanted to hurt her. But he did.
Her heart had bled and so had his. The wound she patched up reopened and blood was gushing out in torrents.
He tried to reconcile with her, apologise to her, make her understand. But she refused to even talk to him. He knew that was completely understandable. He had been in a relationship, albeit an LDR, when he kissed her. And she doesn't deserve that. She doesn't deserve to be the other woman.
Not having her with him was absolute torture. He had to watch as she flourished in the Greenhouse without him. He couldn't be by her side like he wanted to. He couldn't be the first person to congratulate her whenever she led the clubhouse to victory.
He had let his guard down, hurt her, and now he's falling. He doesn't know who he is if he isn't with her.
I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to
This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you
When he saw her in the water, trying to find a way to shore, he didn't think, just reacted. He knew it was dangerous, that he could drown along with her, but he couldn't stop himself from jumping in after her. He didn't know what he'd do if something happened to her, if he lost her completely.
He used all his strength, ignoring the aching of his muscles and the water he felt entering his lungs. He ignored the feeling of himself drowning, if only it meant she was safe.
He watched her struggle to walk on land; she refused his help after that so he quickly went to find Jackie. The hike back up to the Greenhouse from the beach is steep and he didn't need her losing her balance and falling.
Later that night, he had committed the feel of her in his arms to memory. She had clung to him, relying completely on him to save her. And he wants to remember that moment forever because it could very well have been the last time she willingly held onto him.
Now, I need somebody to know
Somebody to heal
Somebody to have
Just to know how it feels
It's easy to say
But it's never the same
I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape
It, of course, wasn't the last time he held her, but it was the last time he had her to himself. Somehow in the midst of the magnetite fiasco, Daniel fell in love with Hayley, and for some reason still unknown to him, she felt the same.
He had been heartbroken. He knew he hurt her by being with Aspen while they were together, but the fact that she willingly got close to his arch rival hurts even more.
The wounds she had mended, the stitches she had so carefully sown, were torn at the seams, leaving his heart a gaping hole of nothingness.
He had gotten to know how it feels to have someone, to hold someone, to love someone, and now everything was just ripped away from him. He knows he has sinned, but do his sins warrant this magnitude of heartbreak?
Now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
He sits in the music room now as the day turns to night. He's rarely seen with anyone anymore, Hayley's constantly with Daniel; Jackie and sometimes Max and Emma right by her side. The Ravens and the Eagles seem to be getting along better than ever, willingly sitting together during meals and even helping each other with their assignments, but he still feels so alone.
It's probably unhealthy for him to constantly need someone by his side, but what can he do if it's what he's used to. He always had Aspen, and then Hayley. He's never been alone in his life for more than a few minutes, the girl he's with always taking him on a new adventure or showing him something to discover. Never has he felt this way before. Felt so alone and unloved.
And I tend to close my eyes when it hurts sometimes
I fall into your arms
I'll be safe in your sound til I come back around
He closes his eyes, taking himself back to the day when they first kissed. He regrets taking that moment for granted, ignoring her feelings as well as his own, and hurting her in the process. The minute her lips touched his, everything had evaporated and it felt as if they were the only two people in the world, a world in which Aspen had never existed.
He had regretted it immediately because how could he tell her he was still with someone when he had kissed her?
But he had loved every second of their kiss. Her soft buttery lips tasting of chocolate and her warm hands wrapped in his own. He was in his personal paradise and he didn't want it to go away. He couldn't lose her. He felt safe with her, he felt safe with her in his arms.
For now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
It was his mistake, he acknowledges that. It's his fault he's all alone now and as much as he would like to, he can't blame Daniel nor Aspen. It's all on him.
He now no longer has someone to keep him company through the day. No one to sing songs to until they're both exhausted and decide to retire for the night. He's alone after getting so used to being in love.
But now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
He hears the voices outside the music room, students heading back to their clubhouse after dinner to wind down, maybe do some homework before going to bed so they'd be fresh for whatever classes they have the next day.
He should probably head back too but the thought of bumping into the happy couple, the thought of seeing them together, makes him want to stay down here for just a moment longer.
They mostly keep to the rule of no Eagles in the Raven's clubhouse and vice versa, so they tend to find other places to hang out. The old Biology lab is one of their favourites but he knows Hayley doesn't like smelling the smell of Formaldehyde for long so Daniel frequently brings her to new rooms in the Greenhouse to explore.
He doesn't want to risk it, especially since his anger decides to rear its ugly head each time he sees them. He can't count the number of times he couldn't stop himself from hurtling insults at the pair. He's pretty sure Daniel hates him even more now because of how the insults hurt Hayley.
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
He had let his guard down, he admits. He let himself be swept into a romance without a care. And now, he's lost the two most important people in his life. And he has to get used to being someone she loved.
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