(I love you guy's comments. You guys are funny and I had so much laughter from reading them . Y'all know Tucker is Wack and is not my cup of tea either.)
Miranda got into the elevator and she put her hands into her pocket as she looked back up waiting for the door to close.
Just as the door began to close she saw a face that she hasn't seen in over 10 years. Her first love. The boy, well man now that she shared her first kiss and first made love to.
"Benjamin Warren." Miranda whispered as he stared at her and she stared back. Letting the door fully close.
She looked at her fellow colleagues that were standing in the elevator with her as she checked her hair. "Who was that Bailey." Callie's whispered.
"My first love." Miranda said slowly and low.
"Oh my God. Really? What is he doing here." Callie asked.
"I really don't know I haven't seen him in over ten years. Do you think he knew it was me." Miranda asked watching others leave the elevator.
"Oh I'm pretty sure he did. He looked as if he saw a ghost and he stared at you until the door closed, stuck. Versus getting inside." Callie said smirking.
"What are you going to do." Callie asked.
"I'm not going to do anything." Miranda said. "I'm going to do my work and carry on with my day." Miranda said and she knew she was lying, she was praying inside that she saw him again. She wanted to get a good look at him. He had on a white coat. Was he a doctor. Did he do what she pushed him to do?
Miranda started on her rounds with her interns and they walked to different rooms discussing the surgery procedures. Miranda sat in the attending's lounge writing the schedule, looking at meetings for general surgeons doing her paper work.
"Miranda ?" A deep soothing voice said causing her to look up at the door.
"Ben." Miranda gasped. She didn't understand why she was so shocked like she didn't just see him two hours ago in the elevator, but to see him tall and in person. He made her heart raced and she couldn't deny how handsome he looked.
"I knew that was you. I would never forget your face." Ben said and Miranda blushed. She was exactly how he pictured she would be.
"How? Why? How are you here." Miranda asked.
"I have been living here for 13 years." Ben said
"13 years. You left to here when you were 19" Miranda questioned doing the math.
"I transferred schools. I finished my years of college and med school plus my residency" Ben explained.
Miranda looked at him with wide eyes. " Residency."
"Anesthesiologists." Ben said smiling.
"I started my surgical residency here so, I have been here for about 6 years." Miranda explained. Ben came inside fully and walked closer to her.
Ben looked at his watch.
"Dam I have to get back to work. "
"Wait you work here?" Miranda questioned.
"Yeah, as of last Monday because of the merger." Ben spoke and Miranda nodded her head. How come she had never saw him and he has been here for a week and she wanted to talk with him.
"Miranda can we go out to dinner when ever you free. Just to catch up. I know you are married and I'm not trying to disrespect that. I just.-"
"I know, Ben of course we can go to dinner. I would love to catch up with you too. I get off at 6 tonight.
"Okay perfect, how about seven." Ben said.
"Seven is perfect." Miranda said watching him turn to leave.
"Ben you didn't take my number or I didn't get yours."
"Oh right Ben." Said chuckling.
He reached into his pocket and handed her his phone. Her hand brushed across his lightly and she shivered from it. She couldn't understand why her body was acting the way it was.
"I just texted you my name. Text me back so I can add yours." Miranda said placing his phone into his hand.
He did and then smiled. Telling her he would see her later.
Miranda paced outside of the restaurant door a dozen times. She smoothed her hand over her dress more times than she could count. It took her forever to pick out a dress. She didn't know what to wear for dinner with the man she loved all those years ago. She had definitely changed from the Miranda he knew back then and for an odd reason she wanted to show him that she was even better than before. She had grew into a sexy woman. She shook her head and cleared her thoughts as she walked in. Listening to the sound of her heels click against the floor.
She found Ben sitting at a table with a nice blue dress shirt on.
He looked over at her as he heard her heels.
"Hello Miranda Bailey." Ben said saying her name as if it was a dream.
"Benjamin Warren." Miranda responded as Ben stood up.
He couldn't help but to pull her into a hug, what he wanted to do earlier today when he first laid eyes on her.
Miranda hugged him. He seemed so much taller than what she remembered. He smelled so good and looked sexy as ever. He was a man. He grew into a handsome man and she was silently sadden that she missed out on it.
Ben released her from their hug. His eyes swept over her body once more. He thought Miranda was the most beautiful girl in the world years ago but now she was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.
He pulled out her chair for her and pushed her up to the table before sitting down.
"So where do we start." Miranda asked slowly looking up into his eyes.
"I guess we start at college." Ben said.
"Uh right. Um after the break up. I took the early science program before I started freshman year. I uh met Tucker.
"Your husband?" Ben questioned and Miranda nodded her head. They paused for a minute to order their food before continuing.
"After medical school I moved here." Miranda said and Ben nodded his head.
"Kids?" Ben asked
"One. A son , William." Miranda said
"After your father." Ben said smiling and Miranda nodded her head again.
Miranda told him a bout Tuck and she also told him a bout Tucker.
"So you have been married forrr
"Um almost twelve years." Miranda said and it psychological stabbed Ben in the heart.
"Although we aren't on the best of terms right now. He is probably out on a date right now." Miranda said circling her wine glass with her finger.
Hearing those words come from Miranda's mouth angered him. Who would step out on the Miranda Bailey.
"On a date." Ben said making sure he heard her correctly.
"I spend too much time at the hospital, I'm always working. He wanted me to choose between him or my job. So we are separated right now." Miranda said softly.
Ben scowled that wasn't fair. Miranda worked her whole high school and academic career to get to this point in life and nobody was supposed to come along and make her choose between it or love. That's not love. Ben thought.
"But enough about me. What about you." Miranda said changing the subject.
Ben talked about how he ended up transferring from Howard to Seattle.
He talked about his passed girlfriend.
"Me and Chloe were together for 5 year. We had an apartment together but I never saw a future with her.
"My mom never liked Chloe." Ben said seriously.
"Aww how is Mrs. Pat." Miranda asked smiling.
"Mom actually passed away two years ago." Ben said sadly
"I am so sorry Ben." Miranda said sadly and her eyes portrayed the sadness.
" I'm sorry Ben I should have just heard you out. I know it was 12 years ago but I was wrong for just leaving you like that " Miranda said seriously. Grabbing his hand.
"I as young and immature, you were never a game to me Miranda. You weren't a pawn. I wasn't using you. I loved you." Ben said
"Why didn't you come for me Ben." Miranda asked.
"I didn't know you wanted me too." Ben said seriously
"I thought I was giving you space and when I did come, I came too late you were married." Ben said sadly.
Miranda was silent. She looked over at Ben and she stared as she began to think about what her life would have been if she would have stayed with him. They would probably have a litter of children and a huge house by now.
"You don't know how bad seeing that wedding picture of you crushed me. I don't even think now to this day, I have experience that much pain." Ben said and he didn't know he never officially healed from that broken hearted 19 year old boy until now. When ever his mom would bring Miranda up he would shut her down. He didn't want to talk about the girl who took his world and turned it up side down.
At 19 Ben knew that love could make you feel as if you were in heaven one moment and then smack you down to the pits of hell in a split second.
"Um after that. I got a home visit from the football coach from the University of Washington. He was a scout from when I played football in high school. He asked me if I was interested in still playing football and offered me a full ride to be a transfer student. So I packed up and left. My Dad always said that I left because of my broken heart but I knew that it was the best thing to do because at that point I knew I wanted to be a doctor so. If I could go to college for free. Why not go." Ben said
"Again I am so sorry Ben." Miranda said. She was so bashful in her own hurt of what she thought had happened that she didn't look at the whole picture, all that time of dating Ben she knew who he was and who he was not. She loved that young boy so much that it almost didn't seem real that they were together. She always had a little insecurity that it would end so she jumped the gun at words that came from somebody else's mouth. If only she had not been so young and really immature. They would still be together now, she knew that for sure.
"I thank you Miranda for leaving me. I wouldn't have became a doctor without you. I wouldn't have been in Seattle without you. Everything that I did and became was because of you. " Ben said genuinely.
"Well if you put it like that. It really makes me feel better." Miranda said with a slight smile.
"You are beautiful." Ben said out loud accidentally
Miranda blushed. Here it goes Miranda thought to her self. The butterflies were back like they'd never left.
"Thank you. Benjamin." Miranda said
"I'm not the same Mandy from all those years ago." Miranda said.
"I never looked at you as Mandy. You were always Miranda to me. A beautiful, intelligent, sexy young woman who is now just a beautiful, sexy, intelligent woman and by the way I love your grown woman weight." Ben said biting the corner of his lip causing Miranda to gasped and then snickered. Ben's eyes traveled across her face and down to her cleavage.
"Yes I still got it." Miranda said in her head.
"You are too much Ben but you are very handsome." Miranda said slyly.
"Thank you. So tell me more about you." Ben said.
"Uh I am a general surgeon attending, the chief just asked me to become head general attending before the merger." Miranda spoke softly
"So congratulations are in order." Ben said
"Congratulations."
"Thank you." Miranda said as she smiled.
"I know you wanted to change the subject but you are Miranda Bailey, don't ever choose between something you worked so hard far and love, because that's not love. You are supposed to have both a successful career and a successful marriage. You get to have both there is no either or. Do you understand me." Ben said seriously and Miranda nodded her head. Ben being so assertive and the fact that he was really sitting in front of her, made her clench her thighs together, he was such a turn on and maybe it's the fact that she hasn't had any since Tuck was born. Her and Tucker argued so much that she never really wanted to have sex with him. She was never in the mood.
"I chose to stay a general attending." Miranda said looking at him.
Ben nodded his head trying to understand. He just hoped down the line that she wouldn't regret doing that.
They began to talk about everything under the sun.
Talking to him now made her miss this so much. He knew her all those years ago and he was finishing her sentences now.
"So do you still keep in contact with Claire?" Ben asked as they stood up to leave.
"Yeah I do, she is a Phlebotomist back in Boston, she is married to a physical therapist and they have 3 children together." Miranda said walking to her car.
"Miranda I don't want to leave your presence yet." Ben said looking down at her.
Miranda was glad he said it because she was feeling the exact same way.
"Well I have more wine at my apartment and I have ice cream and other desserts." Miranda suggested.
"That would be great, I'll follow you." Ben said walking to his car.
He followed Miranda to her apartment complex and she lead him to the elevator. When they reached the 4th floor, they got out and walked around the hall until they reached 408.
She opened the door and let Ben inside, then cutting her lights on. Ben looked at her apartment and smiled. It was really nice, he watched Miranda continuously bend down to pick up toys. Appreciating the view.
"Sorry for the mess, being a surgeon and having a young son doesn't mix well with cleanliness." Miranda said.
"Oh no problem." Ben said he wanted to see what her son looks like. "Can I see a picture of him." Ben asked.
"Oh yeah, it's 2 in my office, come I'll show you." Miranda said and Ben followed her. She cut the light on in her office and Ben walked inside behind her. She pulled the picture from off of her desk and handed it to him. "Oh my, Miranda he looks just like you. You made a beautiful son." Ben said as he continued to look.
"You know everyone said he is a spitting image of his father, which is why his nickname is Tuck." Miranda said as she watched Ben put the picture back on the desk.
"I have never seen Tucker other than the wedding picture ten years ago, so I have nothing to make a comparison to other than you but I see all of you in your son." Ben said as he turned to look at her book shelf. His eyes skimmed over the medical text books before his eyes landed on. "Code blue prescription for trouble." Miranda followed his eyes to the book and she picked it up.
"Wow you still have them." Ben said surprised and Miranda nodded her head.
"Of course."
"I still have my key chain." Ben said sheepishly. "It's in a box in my attic but-
"I have mine too." Miranda said moving past him. She walked to her file cabinet and pulled it open before pulling out her school yearbook. She opened it to the back and then she pulled out the keychain. With the date November 3rd 1994 engraved in the puzzle. She pulled out Ben's Christmas gift to her. She loved that charm bracelet. She could never part with it. Although the silver needed to be polished now. Miranda then looked through the loose papers and pictures until she pulled out the picture of them at prom and one of her favorites, him and her going to church. She also had ones of them from photo booths making silly faces and kissing.
Ben looked down at the pictures as she did the same.
"I would have never thrown these away, no matter how up set I was, you were a big piece of my life. You helped shaped me into the woman I became and I loved you then. You were my first love, my first everything" Miranda said and then looked up at him.
Ben took the pictures out of her hand and sat them down before he put his hands on the back of her head. He stared into her eyes. Miranda's breath hitched as she knew what was coming, something that she desperately wanted to happen. Ben softly pressed his lips against hers and Miranda closed her eyes. She leaned into his arms and returned the kiss with much more passion. She opened her mouth to allow him to deepen their kiss. Miranda moaned against his mouth as she felt his tongue swipe against hers. Ben continue kissing her as his hands went down to her ass, bringing back so many memories of their teenage love story. He backed her up until her butt hit her desk. She gasped as Ben lifted her up and set her on top of it. "Wait wait." Miranda said breathlessly and Ben groaned "what what."
She laughed at him before sitting up so she could remove the keyboard from under her.
"Okay now." Miranda said pulling him back down to her lips. She wrapped her legs around his waist as they kissed.
Miranda felt her nipples harden and she was elated. She felt Ben unzipped her dress from the back and Miranda moved her arms so they would come out of it. She sat up as Ben pulled it down revealing her red panties and lace bra. "Dam this should be a painting, you are beautiful." Ben said stepping back to admire her. It was the red panty set that complimented her ebony brown skin and when his eyes swept over her thick thighs and down her smooth legs and stopped at her leather black peep toe platform heels. It was a sight to see.
He walked back into her embrace and she put her hands on the sides of his face kissing him once more before reaching down to pull at his shirt. She started to unbutton it.
"I need this stuff off." Miranda mumbled and Ben helped her.
She rubbed her head across his now naked chest and Ben fondled her breast causing Miranda to moan. His slid her bra down slightly to let her breast free. Ben licked her nipple and Miranda moaned out and put her hand on his head. "Yesss, oh Ben that feels good." Miranda said and she felt Ben reach down and part her legs with his hands. She felt Ben move her underwear to the side as he felt her wetness and she moaned once again at the contact as her body shivered. "Dam you are so wet Miranda." Ben groaned.
" I want you now Ben. Skip the foreplay." Miranda demanded and Ben chuckled.
She unbuckled his pants and pulled them down along with his boxers. Ben kept her panties to the side with one hand and position his self at her core before pushing inside of her swiftly. "Ooooo." Miranda said as she jerked forward holding onto his arms, while moaning. "You are so tight Miranda. So good." Ben grunted in her ear as he moved.
Miranda was trying to grab and hold on to anything to brace herself. She ended up knocking off paper work and books on the shelf above her head.
"Dam." Miranda said and Ben paused.
"Why did you stop keep going." Miranda encouraged.
"Books are falling on you Miranda." Ben chuckled.
"Oh really I didn't notice. It's okay. Continue." Miranda demanded.
Ben lifted her up and she wrapped her legs and arms around him. "Which door is your bedroom?" Ben asked walking out of her office.
"The one at the end of the hall on the right." Miranda breathed in and out as she moaned. Him walking with his member still inside of her was an amazing feeling. He was hitting everything.
Ben laid Miranda down on her bed before climbing over top of her. Miranda reached down to take her heels off and Ben shook his head no.
"You want these on." Miranda asked.
"Of course I do." Ben said grabbing her ankles, raising and spreading her legs in the air.
"Oh God." Miranda said as Ben pushed back inside of her. Miranda scratched his back as he began to pick up his speed. Ben and her moans were filling the silence in the room.
"Yes, right there." Miranda said as Ben moved slightly to hit her g-spot. She was in heaven right now and she honestly didn't want to come down but her orgasm was quickly creeping up on her, something she hasn't had in such a long time.
"Benjamin." Miranda moaned out and she felt his body react to her.
"Benjamin." Miranda said again biting her lip as she knew that it was affecting him. She smirked as she saw the look of bliss on his face.
"Benjamin Warren." Miranda moaned out this time as she reached her orgasm and she felt Ben Cum as his name left her lips. Miranda had her mouth gaped and ran her tongue across her lips.
"Jesus that was good." Ben said as he laid beside her breathing heavy.
Miranda was silent as she let the waves ride through her.
She felt her body jerk as Ben licked her nipples.
"What are you doing." Miranda asked barely audible.
"Oh I'm taking my time, appreciating every inch of your body. Like I wanted to do the first time. Ben said cupping her breast as he nipped and licked at the other.
Miranda woke up the next morning and she heard the door bell ring. She slid from under Ben slowly and carefully not to wake him. She looked at him for a moment and had a flash back to them as 18 year olds during spring break. The week she lost her virginity and she blushed. He was perfect then, just as he was now. Being intimate with Ben again let her see how her body was supposed to be. He took care of her needs in a special and specific way in which Tucker never even bother to do. She grabbed her light pink silk robe before scrambling to the door. Pulling it close with her hands.
"Yes- ahh hey." Miranda said peering at her son and his father.
"Hi mommy." Tuck said letting go of his hand and hugging her legs, she embraced him. Slightly letting her robe fall open and quickly closing and tying it this time.
Tucker gave her a look.
"What are you guys doing here." Miranda asked.
"remember I told you that I would bring him home early in the morning because I had a doctor's appointment and you said it was cool and you would take him to the daycare even though today was your day off.."
"Righhhht." Miranda said as it was slowly coming back to her.
"Oh okay well thank you-" Miranda started to rush him off.
"Hey Miranda I didn't even notice you got out of bed, i- " Ben started as he came to the living room with just his pants on.
"Oh I'm sorry, I didn't realize someone was here." Ben said and Miranda put her hands on her head.
"Tuck go to your room for a second for mommy." Miranda said and she watched as Tuck did what she said.
"Miranda how long have you been fucking him, is this the real reason why you were never home, you weren't working you was having sex with him." Tucker yelled.
"Tucker you know dam well that is not why. I am working. I was talking care of us seeing as you up and quit your job for a year to raise our son and then you take it for granted. I missed my babies first steps, Halloween, and so much more and you are bitching and moaning about being there by your self and then on top of that you gave me an ultimatum and now I am asking for a divorce. I won't choose between my job and we have outgrown each other. So I'm giving what you ask for, a divorce.
"Yeah and we just reconnect-
"Hush." Miranda said to Ben. She didn't need Tucker to know that she just slept with Ben, the first night after 12 years of not seeing each other.
"Tucker just leave, we will discuss everything later but what I do with my newly separated life is none of your business besides you didn't even care with what you did while we were married anyway. Go email your girlfriend and tell her that. Tell her all about me like you been doing." Miranda said and she watched as Tucker shoved Tuck's night bag into her hands before walking away. Miranda shut the door and blew out a breath. She paused as she looked at the closed door.
Ben watched Miranda standing there at the door. He walked behind her and wrapped his arms around her. She tried to shove his hands off but he wouldn't budge. "Don't fight me Miranda just let me hold you for a second." Ben said and Miranda gave in and relaxed in his arms.
"You are the Miranda Bailey. You got this." Ben said and Miranda smiled slightly.
"You always said that." Miranda said smirking. If her son wasn't here she would take him back into her bed room and have her way with him. They would have kept going until the sun came up, if she wasn't so tired from working that day.
"I have to drop my son off for daycare." Miranda said.
"Can I see you after that." Ben asked.
"I'll call you when I get back home and we can have lunch here." Miranda said looking at him.
"Okay great, I'll go retrieve my other clothes." Ben chuckled.
Miranda walked with him as she went to her room and threw on some jeans and a shirt quickly to drop him off.
"I'll see you later. Benjamin Warren" Miranda called out to Ben as she saw him walk pass her door.
"Okay Miranda Bailey." She heard him yell as the door closed.