Santana groans waking up in the middle of the night and turns on her right side trying to cuddle closer to her wife as she shivers against the cold breeze coming through their open window, she rubs her eyes as she is met with emptiness where her wife normally would be and leans up on her elbow. '' Babe?!''
She rolls over slowly slipping out of bed and walks to the bathroom peaking in frowning as she is met with darkness, she slips out of the room glancing into their kids rooms and tiptoes in Val's room as she sees her blanket laying on the floor.
She walks down the stairs after tugging her daughter back in and follows the sound of children laughter coming out of the living room, she leans against the doorpost watching the TV smiling sadly as she sees Susan play with Britt and Heather around the age of six in a pool and glances at the couch.
She sighs sadly as she sees her wife sitting on the couch with her knees pulled up to her chest and walks over to her as she sees her shoulders shake a clear sign that she is crying, she slowly sits down next to her and folds her legs under her ass looking at the TV silently showing her wife that she is here if she wants to talk.
'' I miss her.'' Brittany croaks out after sitting in silence watching the home videos on the TV for ten minutes, Santana slides closer as she breaks down and pulls her in her arms. She kisses her head as she nuzzles her face in her chest and sighs sadly.
'' I miss her too, mi amor. Today just made it feel even more real.'' She slides her hand under Britt's tank top as she nods her head in agreement and rubs the small of her back knowing that calms her down almost immediately, she moves them into a laying position and turns to the TV as she hears her Susan's voice filter through the room.
So you and Santana huh?
She watches Britt freeze on screen while she makes herself a sandwich and smiles lovingly as she sees the tips of her ears turn a light shade of red, she pulls her wife closer kissing her head as she hears her hum on screen and continues rubbing her back.
Yeah me and San
She must be special, she is the first girl that made you fall head over heels for her and who makes you so happy that it looks like you are walking on clouds.
Brittany turns her head looking at the screen sniffling as she sees her mothers teasing smirk and slides her hand under San's tank top covering her heart.
She really is mama, I don't even know how to describe whatever I am feeling for her.
Does that mean that I have a wedding to look out too in two years?
Ma!
Santana chuckles softly as she sees her wife's shocked teenager face on screen and kisses her head as the camera shakes a silent sign that Heather tries to hold back her giggles. '' She was always ours and our sisters biggest fan.''
No need to be so shocked honey I can see the connection between the two of you and between Heath and Nay, in five years from now on the both of you will be happily married and I hope I get to hold my first grandchild by then.
Ma it's too early to think about that.
Brittany sighs sadly as she watches her mothers loving smile on screen and kisses the underside of San's jaw. '' Yeah she really was, I hated it back then but now I am glad that Heath made many videos of us.''
You think that it's too early but Maribel, Lio, Brad and I all see the connection between the four of you, the both of you found your soulmates at a young age and I couldn't be any happier for you. Santana and Naya are amazing and they bring out the best in the both of you, I am glad to see Heather cheer up again and I am so thankful for Santana that she managed to pull you out the darkness.
Santana tightens her hold around her wife as she hums in agreement even though the teenager on screen rolls her eyes and kisses her head, she watches Susan hug Brittany on screen and smiles lovingly. '' I had a similar conversation with her and she thanked me hundred times for giving her, her cheerful and loving daughter back.''
'' You really managed to pull me back to reality and to stop hating everything, I think ma, Heath and I are all glad for that and mom was right.''
'' With what?''
'' Well with slight delay we are here married and she watched her five grandchildren grow up for a bit, we will all miss her presence around but I am sure she is still near us and will celebrate every milestone and holiday with us.''
'' Yeah Liv, our boys, Faith and Val all loved spending some alone time with her, they love all four of their grandparents but I think mama P was their favorite because she told many stories of you and Heath when you lived back in the Netherlands.''
'' That and the cookies.''
Santana laughs and nods her head in agreement. '' Yeah the dutch treats were amazing, I still can't believe she her recipes to me I thought you or Heath would become them.''
Brittany shakes her head and sighs softly. '' Ma loved to watch you bake and she knows that you will use some of her recipes, she was always happy when you offered to join her in the kitchen when we were still in high school because Heath and I just cooked when we were hungry but we didn't want to stand in the kitchen for hours.''
'' Yeah back then, last week you kicked me out of the kitchen and cooked for three hours.'' Santana mumbles chuckling, Brittany shrugs her shoulders and sighs softly.
'' You worked your ass off the whole week and wanted to cook for us, you know that I can make us dinner too babe.''
'' You had a lot to do too babe.''
'' Yeah but I was at home to plan ma's funeral, Puck, Heath and dad were here to help me so it didn't really stress me out.''
'' No but it powered you out because it was emotional, I didn't expect you to cook mi amor I am still kinda sorry that I couldn't be there most of the days.''
Brittany leans up on her elbow and looks down at her wife cupping her cheek. '' Babe you had a shitload of orders and your team needed you, you don't have to be sorry for not being around for the planning I had dad, Heath and Puck around for support. You were home at night to hold me and to let me cry on your shoulder, you functioned on maybe two hours of sleep the whole day because I kept you awake and you never even complained about that.''
'' You need me and sleep can wait, I took a few power naps during work so it was okay.''
Brittany chuckles and pecks her on the lips. '' I love you Santana Lopez, I know that I blocked you out more than once a day this past week and that I was a bitch sometimes but you still silently showed me your support and let me scream at you when everything became too much.''
Santana pulls her close kissing the tip of her nose and smiles lovingly. '' Babe you were never a bitch to me and you only screamed once, you are always the strong one in our relationship Britt-Britt but I want you to know that I am here to catch you whenever you need me.'' She cups her cheek and leans their foreheads together gazing in her wife's eyes silently thankful that she can see the spark again after a week of gazing into dull blue orbs. '' You don't always have to be strong mi amor, it's okay to let go because I will always be there to catch you just like our family will be by your side the whole time.''
She pulls Brittany back down so she can cuddle into her chest as she yawns and runs her hand through her blonde locks kissing the top of her head. '' Try to go back to sleep mi amor.''
Brittany hums softly nuzzling her face in her chest and sighs softly. '' Sing something?''
Hands, put your empty hands in mine
And scars, show me all the scars you hide
And hey, if your wings are broken
Please take mine so yours can open too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Oh, tears make kaleidoscopes in your eyes
And hurt, I know you're hurting, but so am I
And love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine so yours can open too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
She pulls Brittany closer as she hears her sigh softly and kisses the top of her head as she runs her hand over the small of her back, she pulls the blanket around their waist up their bodies and places her lips on her head knowing she is on the edge of drifting off to sleep.
Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
She smiles lovingly as her wife nuzzles her head under her chin and tightens her hold around her as she sighs contently letting sleep take over, she looks up at the ceiling and sighs softly.
'' Te amo mi amor, even though times are hard now and this year is a bitch our family will overcome everything we will make sure of that.''
She reaches for her phone on the table and unlocks it immediately dimming the brightness of the screen, she turns off her alarms and quickly sends Liz and Bren a text.
Hey girls I am gonna call in for today, we have one order that needed to be done by me but I won't leave the house Britt and the kids need me. I trust the both of you and I know you can do the order just like I can so go ahead and do it without me, I owe the both of you big time for everything you did this past week. Dinner sometime next week?
She opens her Instagram after sending the text and smiles sadly as a her wife's post about Susan immediately pops up, she runs her finger over the picture and turns her head looking at the sky out of the window. '' We miss you mama P.''
After scrolling through Instagram for an hour she turns her head as she hears footsteps coming down the stairs and smiles as Nico walks into the living room tiredly rubbing his eyes. '' Buenos dias mijo.''
Nico freezes in the door opening his eyes widening and frowns as he sees his moms cuddled up on the couch. '' Buenos dias mami, is mommy okay?''
Santana sighs sadly running her hand through her wife's hair and looks up at her son kissing his cheek as he leans down to wish her a proper good morning. '' She will be mijo, it was a hard week for all of us but mommy took it a lot harder then any of us.''
Nico nods his head in agreement and pouts. '' Yeah we know, but she will be okay?''
'' She will be mi corazón, I think she would love a pajama movie day today.''
'' Can I cuddle with you?'' Nico asks softly, Santana nods her head and lifts the blanket.
'' Come here, it's still a bit early for you to be awake. Are you okay?''
Nico climbs up on the couch cuddling into her nuzzling his face in his mothers chest as she wraps her arm around his waist in her sleep and kisses her cheek. '' Didn't sleep well last night, I was too concerned about mommy I never saw her cry this much.''
'' Yeah me neither baby.'' Santana murmurs kissing his head, she rubs his back with her free hand keeping her left on her wife's back and smiles lovingly. '' You are such a mommy's boy, you can feel her emotions it's quite scary sometimes.''
'' I am your boy too.'' Nico quickly whispers trying to lean up, Santana shushes him kissing his head and smiles.
'' I know smiley but since you were born you are attached to your mommy's hip and Happy to mine, we know the both of you love us the same amount but you are calmer in your mommy's presence and Alex in mine.''
'' And Val?'' Nico asks softly his eyes slowly drooping as he enjoys the loving embrace of his mothers, Santana chuckles and runs her hand through his hair.
'' Val loves the both of us but she is attached to you and Alex, she knows that you are her big brothers and that you will protect her no matter what.''
'' We really will.'' Nico mumbles tiredly.
'' We know you will, go to sleep honey your brother and sister will probably wake up in about three hours.''
Nico nods his head and tilts his head up kissing her chin. '' Te amo mami.''
'' I love you too mijo, now and forever.''