John was shocked to learn that Mandy had been pregnant. She'd never told him that. He could tell something was bothering her since they left the doctor. They'd just gotten home.
I'm gonna go take a nap. She signed.
Wait. He signed. What's wrong Mandy? Talk to me.
Nothing, I'm fine. She kissed him and went upstairs.
She hadn't gone to sleep. She stayed up in the bedroom thinking about when she was pregnant.
She'd acted distance and quiet for the rest of the day.
When John woke up at midnight, Mandy wasn't next to him. As he went downstairs he saw the kitchen light on. He went in the kitchen and Mandy was sitting at the island.
Hi. He signed.
Hi. She signed. He sat down next to her.
You should be sleeping. You have a big day tomorrow.
I know.
What's wrong baby?
I can't tell you.
You can't tell me? We tell each other everything.
I know.
Does it have anything to do with when you were pregnant?
Yes.
It wasn't with me, was it?
No. I can't tell you.
Why?
I never told him, that's why.
You never told Blaine?
It wasn't Blaine, John.
Oh. Oh. He signed getting it.
Please don't tell Randy. Please.
I won't, I promise.
I never wanted anybody to know about it. She signed with tears in her eyes.
Do you want to tell me what happened?
Two weeks after I broke up with Randy I found out I was pregnant. I was shocked. Part of me thought, all our problems are over, I can go back to him and give him what he wants. I was still in love with him then. I took two weeks and thought it over. I just kept thinking. I can give him what he wants, I can give him what he wants. Even though it would mean being with him again. I knew it truly wasn't what I wanted. So… I'm afraid to tell you the next part.
You don't have to be afraid.
I'm afraid you won't love me anymore if I tell you.
Mandy, nothing you could ever tell me would make me stop loving you.
I'm not so sure about that.
I am. I love you with all my heart.
Even if I told you, I had an abortion?
You did?
Yeah.
All alone?
Yeah. Do you still love me?
Of course I do.
I know I made the right choice but I still feel bad and think about it every day. It was still my baby. He hugged her.
It's ok.