Heeeey guys,

It's Chrrristmasssss!

Merry Christmas to you all. As this is my favourite time of the year I thought I would upload a chapter for you to read on this festive day.

I am sorry that I have been very late on my updates, but things have been hetic alot lately. Thank you all for being so patient.

So here it is... ENJOY!

Senior year. It was that time of the year. Our first day. Now I'm going to see Julian everyday. I can't pretend that I wasn't shutting myself because I was. I've been dreading this day since I called it quits with him for good. In this mind we should be back together now. It's our senior year and we were meant to do it together.

I stood in front of my mirror in my room and took a deep breath before grabbing my bag and car keys. I can do this. I know I can.

I pull up into the head cheerleader's spot and turn my car off. I see Rachel, Haley and Peyton all waiting for me by the steps. I can do this. I get out off my car and swing my bag on my shoulder.

"Brooke" I turn my head and see Lucas running over towards me "hi"

And just like that all my nerves and worries vanished. I smile at him "hiya Luke"

"You doing okay?" I nod and then I see Julian getting out of his car. He looked to me and the stern look on his face gave me this awful feeling in my stomach. I knew he wouldn't let me go. Lucas followed my gaze and then saw the look on my face "don't worry Brooke, I'm here okay" I slowly nod. Lucas took my hand in his and we headed towards the girls.

"Breath Brooke" Rachel suggested when she saw the look on my face "he has to let you go eventually"

"Don't worry you don't have any classes with him"

I looked to Haley "I don't?"

She shakes her head and passes me my class planner they collected when they got there's. I glanced over it and was relieved.

"You have classes with me though" I open my eyes and Lucas smiled at me "see I told you, I'm here now"

"Okay okay you two are cute, but so cringe" Peyton says rolling here eyes "let's head to registration"

My first senior year day was going okay. I was doing everything to avoid Julian. If he walked down the corridor I would turn the other way or go into an empty classroom. I know I don't need to avoid him, but it's easier that way. I didn't want the drama he would give me. I didn't need it.

It was now lunch and unfortunately we had the same lunch time. I took a deep breath before walking into the cafeteria. I instantly felt eyes on me and I knew they were his. A few whispers were heard, but I ignored them and confidently walked over to grab my lunch. I felt a presence beside me and yes it was him.

"Why are you avoiding me Brooke" his voice sent shivers down my spine and my body seemed to go cold just by his voice.

"I don't think you understand what's going to go on here Julian" I let my confident side take over. I needed it too. I can't let him know he has gotten to me as much as he has "we no longer have anything to say to one and another. We have this last year in high school then we go to college and I won't have to see you again"

"We had this whole year planned out Brooke. Better yet we had our whole future planned out" he says in a bitter whisper.

I spin on my heels to face him "yeah we did and you" I dig my finger into his chest "ruined that by wanting that break you asked for at the beginning of the summer. You know where you slept with half the girls in our year"

"I thought you were okay with that. You seemed okay at the start"

I let out a bitter laugh shaking my head "you have got to be kidding me" I look back up at him "you thought I would be okay with you sleeping your way through this town and then what you and I run off into the sunset together. Julian please wake up, like anyone would ever do that"

"You weren't saying that when you was warming my bed at the start of the summer" he smirked back.

I nod he was right. I was still sleeping with him, but the important thing is that I ended that "yeah you're right there Julian I did, but I also stopped whatever that was between us because I began to want my self worth instead of you"

"Brooke come on, it's our senior year. We were going to do it together. Stop being so stubborn" I roll my eyes at him and turn to walk away from him "Brooke don't walk away from me. Brooke" I get to the middle of the cafeteria when he grabs my arm letting my tray of food drop to the floor getting the attention of the whole cafeteria "I said don't you walk away from me"

"Julian let go off my arm" I plead "Julian you're hurting me" his grip got tighter and I knew he was going to leave a bruise "Julian"

"You can't just walk away from me Brooke. We were doing this together" I could see he was getting angrier by the second. I have never seen that look on his face before. This isn't the Julian I fell in love with all those years before.

"Julian please let me go, your hurting me"

"Julian dude let her go" I saw Felix running up to us from his seat "Julian man come on let her go"

"You heard him Julian let her go before I make you" I heard Lucas say "now man"

Julian looked around and saw everyone was looking towards our scene. He finally let my arm go with a little push, but luckily Lucas was there to catch me before I fell to the floor. I rubbed at my arm and stared back up at Julian. He has never put his hands on me before. I don't know who that guy is, but he isn't the guy I once knew.

"Oh my god what happened" Rachel and the girls came running over.

"Brooke are you okay?" I slowly shake my head as a tear slowly fell down my cheek.

"Oh my god Brooke I'm so sorry I didn't mean that" Julian says and I saw the look he now had it was sorrow and apologetic. What the hell was going on with him?

"Don't come any closer Julian" I finally find my voice "I don't know what is going on with you, but we are done okay. We are over and I didn't know how else you want me to say it before you finally get it"

"But I love you" was his only defence.

"You didn't love me that much when you called for a break after I pleaded for you not to" I say back "just leave me alone" I then turn and walk out of the cafeteria still felling eyes on me.

"You heard her Julian, leave her alone now" I hear Rachel tell him.

I walk down the corridor and to my locker leaning against it feeling the pain in my upper arm run through my body. I slide down to the floor bringing my knees up to my chest and resting my head to my knees. All my confidence took my energy as I sat there with tears falling down my cheeks.

"Brooke" I don't say anything. I just sit there "oh Brookie" I felt Rachel's two arms wrap around me as I sobbed in the empty corridor by my locker "its okay, its going to be okay"

"Why can't he just let me go?"

"Because he realises what he has lost"

"I just want him to leave me alone"

"Well after that performance in front of everyone I don't think he will be bothering you anymore"

"What if he doesn't stop?"

"Well by the look on Lucas's face I think he would sort him out" Rachel replies "I think Lucas is the good guy in this Brooke"

I pull away and look up at her wiping at my eyes "I think so too"

Rachel and I stayed on the floor for a little longer and then we headed to our next class when the bell rang.

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Hope you all have a good Christmas and let's hope 2021 brings us a better year.

Love you all so much

Roch xoxo