Truth

Chapter 11

"OH, CASTLE!" Kate was ready. Well, not ready for that. That was going to have to wait a while longer, but she could do this.

"Lunch isn't ready yet." Actually he hadn't even started on lunch yet. He walked into her bedroom and found her dressed normally and sitting at the foot of the bed; she was using her finger to beckon him closer.

There was something about how she had called for him and the look on her face now that confused him. Something was up and given that they were both still almost bored out of their minds he could only guess it was going to be bad. Still he walked over to her and instantly her hands were on his belt trying to unbuckle it.

"Kate!" Rick stepped back out of range of her hands. "We talked about this, Kate." He was touching her breast daily now. Every time he inspected her injury and surgery site. In addition to that she was kissing him now and it wasn't the little kisses to the forehead he'd been doing for a while. These were full blown kisses on the lips and recently tongues had been added. They almost reached the make-out stage.

"Get over here, Rick, I'm not going to hurt you." Kate groaned just a touch as she lifted up, reached out, and snagged his belt again. Then she sat down and pulled him to her.

"Just because I can't do anything doesn't mean I can't do something for you. Now stand still." Kate unbuckled his belt and began working on his pants.

"This isn't a good idea, Kate." His mind was saying run but his heart and his desire had him frozen to the spot.

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The following section is more M rated than T so reader discretion is advised for a short time.

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Kate had his pants on the floor and before her were his boxers where she could see the outline of his cock and balls. She'd been right earlier. He was healthy, very healthy. She rubbed her hand over the bulge, toyed with him, and maybe herself at the same time.

She was still rubbing as she watched him grow. He was responding to her touch. While she wanted to tease him and herself she really wanted to see. So she slowly worked on pulling his boxers down till suddenly the head of his cock poked free. She began rubbing the very tip of it and feeling just how soft the skin was.

Slowly pulling his boxers down she savored the slow display of his cock, till finally she let them fall to the floor and at last got a full view of just what Rick had. Damn but he had a nice cock. Way better than Josh's.

Wrapping her fingers around him so she could judge his size, she almost couldn't wait for this beautiful cock to be inside her. To feel it stretch her lips and fill her completely. He was a little thicker than normal and certainly a couple of inches longer than normal. Damn but he was going to feel so good.

Kate moved her hand to play with the helmet head while the other hand started carefully massaging his balls. She couldn't help but stare at his cock. It was a nice one, really nice.

Rick knew he shouldn't be letting her do this. It was just that he had been dreaming about a day like this for years. He'd suffered through Demming and Josh. Avoided all the temptations of other woman who had much bigger breasts than Kate did. Just so he could reach this point.

The second she took the head of his cock into her mouth he let out a low, soft, guttural moan. The heat of her mouth was indescribable. Her tongue playing with his head then finally trying to stick it into his opening had a more forceful growl coming from the bottom of his throat.

Kate was still massaging his balls while her tongue played with the tip of his cock. She liked the sounds he was making, then felt his hands running through her hair. Thankfully he wasn't trying to force his cock down her throat. She wasn't ready for that just yet, but she would try soon. She was even going to see if the could press her nose into his stomach and take all of him.

She could even smell his masculine scent so she took him out and began licking up and down his shaft while still massaging his balls. Looking up she saw a look of awe on his face as he stared out at nothing.

Once she finally had all of his cock wet she slowly worked at getting him to go down her throat. This produced a new, almost animalistic sound from Castle's lips. Taking him back out she licked him wet again and pushed him back into her throat which produced that same animal sound from him.

She had almost reached his stomach with the tip of her tongue. Just a little more work and she might reach that goal. Then suddenly she tasted him. She had some pre-cum on her tongue. So she swirled it around his cock to get him even more wet and relished the taste of him.

Then she pushed him back down her throat and felt her nose touch his body. Now his sounds were more vocal and far more from the back of his throat. His hands were actually applying a little pressure to hold her there or go even deeper down her throat.

All those times learning how to chug an entire beer were paying off handsomely now.

Kate took him out of her mouth and started stroking his cock with her hand. "Come for me, Rick. I want to taste you. I want all of it. Every last drop." Kate shoved his cock down her throat till almost all of him was in her mouth.

Rick groaned out loudly and suddenly Kate felt him climax into her mouth. She took him back out just far enough so that only the head of his cock was in her mouth as he continued to climax.

Once she was sure she had most of it she swirled it around in her mouth to taste him. It was a taste she was going to savor till next time.

Then she stood up, kissed him, and forced her tongue into his mouth. She gave him back all of his climax into his mouth and turned the kiss into a savage search of his mouth with her tongue.

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It is safe to read once again if M rated material is not to your liking.

My Apologies if it is not.

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Rick had his arms around her as he swallowed all of it. "You didn't have to do that. We could have waited." He had lasted this long, he could hold out for a while longer.

"But I wanted to. I want to be able to love you, Rick. I know I'm not an easy person to get to know and that's my fault. I don't want to be the person I turned myself into after my mother's death. I want to be someone else. I've spent months in therapy attempting to do just that. You just have to let me keep trying," Kate told him. It was either him or she might never find anyone to help her.

"I think I can help you with that." Rick kissed her and searched her mouth.

"When is November 20th?" Kate was betting sex wasn't going to be possible for her till they were in Costa Rica so just how long was she going to have to wait?

Rick gave her a quick kiss. "Still about a month away."

"A month." Kate rested her head against his chest. They'd been here about a month and they still had another month to go. It was going to be a long month. "Better be ready for a lot of blow jobs, Rick." It was the only sex either of them were going to get for a month or more.

"I'm sure I'll survive. With some tender loving care from you," Rick replied.

"Count on it." Kate held onto him and let Castle hold her. She felt great suddenly. Almost free.

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Kate was in bed later that night and watched Rick come in. He didn't really need to check her wounds and she didn't see the phone so it wasn't that. She watched as he got into bed with her.

She knew she wasn't physically ready for sex but she was grinning none the less.

"I know we don't do this but maybe something has changed, so what was that?" Rick asked.

"It was a blow job, Castle." Surely he knew that. His reputation certainly suggested that he did. She had even enjoyed giving him one. He had a really nice cock.

"Let's try this again. Why today? What's changed?" Rick inquired. "I tried years ago and invited you out to the Hamptons. We didn't really have to do anything except spend some time together. If memory serves I asked you three times and you turned me down all three times."

"The truth? The whole truth? You scare me, Castle. I'm still scared. Mom died and I began building walls to keep everyone out. Dad turned into a drunk and I built even more walls. No one was ever going to hurt me again.

"That day, that very day, I had dumped Demming and I was going to go with you to the Hamptons. Maybe just for the weekend but I was going to go. Yes, I lied and I shouldn't have done that, but you scare me, Castle. Just as I was trying to tell you and accept, your ex-wife showed up." Kate started way back then since he had mentioned it.

"Good God!" Rick let the back of his head hit the head board and looked up at the ceiling. "Some times I swear I'm the stupidest person on the planet. Gina didn't even go with me out to the Hamptons. I drove her home even though later we did try and rekindle something. But we were never meant to be."

"You didn't call. Yes I know now that you didn't know that I had dumped Demming but that was much later. Watching you walk away with your ex-wife hurt. I assumed you were with her so I didn't call either.

"Then you got even closer and that scared me then too, so I started dating Josh. He wasn't you but I couldn't date you. The NYPD has a rule about dating the people you work with so if I dated you they might throw you out and I couldn't handle that.

"I couldn't let you get close and I couldn't let you go. I was trapped. If you left my heart would be broken all over again. If I loved you and you learned I was so messed up and left me, my heart would be just as broken. I didn't know what to do.

"So I started therapy and saw Dr. Burke as often as I could. I needed to fix me. I didn't love Josh but I did like him. I loved you but I wasn't ready for you. I'm still not sure I'm ready for you.

"I'm trying, Rick, I'm really trying." Kate wiped away her tears. She hadn't told anyone this much. Not even Dr. Burke even if somehow he did know what she was doing.

"Perfection. You and your need to be perfect." Rick shook his head.

"Javi tried to get me to see. Lanie tried to get me to see. Even Dad called me out on it, but I wouldn't listen to any of them. Even Kyra long ago came out from talking to you and told me you were all mine. She didn't have any claim on you any longer. I didn't listen then either. Even Royce wrote me a letter warning me about my what if's. I didn't listen then either.

"I'm really sorry, Rick, but you scare me. I love you and loving you scares me. I've been trying to fix that for a while. I'm still not sure when that will be." Kate wiped away still more tears. Loving Castle was so scary and yet losing him would break her, finally really break her.

"Say that again," Rick asked her.

"Loving you is scary?" Kate didn't know what he was talking about.

"Not that. The part where you love me. Because I love you more than I have words for," Rick told her.

That had Kate grinning. She had said that, hadn't she? Naturally he would hear that part.

"Don't let it go to your head, Castle." She wasn't going to tell him again just yet.

"Too late." Rick leaned down, kissed her, and even places a hand on her breast like she wanted him to do now.

"Now go to sleep. You can tell me how much you love me tomorrow. Right after I tell you how much I love you." Rick kissed her again then got out of her bed and left her alone in her room.

Kate touched her fingers to her lips. She did love him and she was going to tell him again. Tomorrow or maybe the day after, but she did love him. However, she was still scared. She still needed to find a way to get over that if she ever could.

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It is now a little over 4 weeks later

Kate was almost free of pain and she was packing one of her two suitcases herself. They were leaving today. Starting a whole new adventure and she wasn't sure just what to think of it. All she really knew was that it involved Castle, his family, and her dad.

The sad part was she wasn't even going to get to talk to Lanie or anyone else. Rick had already dismantled their burner phone and thrown it in the trash. The others had orders to get rid of their phones as well.

Rick was done and walked into her bedroom. It was still her bedroom. Castle refused to sleep in her bed in her room. He was still talking about his willpower and she was forced to admit that while she felt just about perfect her heart just might not be up to the task of having sex.

That hadn't stopped her from giving Castle an occasional blow job. The last one had only been yesterday in fact. She still loved his cock and his taste and she loved listening to the sounds he made that she could drag out of him. It gave her pleasure.

"How's it coming?" He was done and wanted to see if she needed help.

"Almost done. You can start loading the Jeep if you want," Kate told him. She kissed him and watched him leave. She had come a long ways but still had a ways to go.

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They had left the food they hadn't used behind along with all of the DVDs and books. All they had were the clothes they would need.

"How long?" Kate got in the passenger seat. Normally she would insist on driving. However, if she twisted the wrong way she would get a reminder in her side that she had undergone major surgery just a few months ago.

"About 5 hours it says." Rick was using his GPS units instead of Google on his phone. He didn't even want to turn the damn thing on. It was going to get taken apart and dumped in the trash somewhere along the way.

"That will put us about an hour in front of everyone else. Maybe just enough time for lunch if you're interested," Rick offered and began driving.

Not surprisingly he went north from here and stayed in Maine for a little while.

Kate mostly watched the country side as they drove. It was still a lot of green given the number of pine trees. Most of the trees had long since lost their leaves and it was now cold outside.

The heat in the house was off and the only thing still plugged in was the refrigerator. Unfortunately Rick hadn't thought of a way to tell his friend that he was leaving his nice cabin and headed home. Still he was betting he would find out eventually and it was only the refrigerator.

County road number 5 turned into country road number 35 which turned into state route number 2 that became country road number 26 till they crossed into New Hampshire and kept going north.

The first big town, if you could call Colebrook a big town, and they were still in New Hampshire. That was when it became state route number 3.

Then they turned onto county road number 114 till they hit the Canadian border.

Unlike Mexico, most borders with Canada were wide open and this one was no exception. It was simply a stop and they asked simple questions like did they have anything to declare? Where they carrying any produce? At no time did they ask for any identification and got waved on through.

Technically there were two border crossings. First came the United States side that was about 700 feet from the actual border. It was a small single story brick building. Here they were not asked to show their identification and were allowed to pass.

The next was the Canadian building that was about 400 feet inside Canada. It was a simple enough white building and there wasn't really anything to block them from driving right through and not stopping. Though there was a Canadian police like looking car that could be used to chase them down if anyone was stupid enough.

"That was easy." Rick had hoped that it would be.

"They didn't even take notes on who we are," Kate commented which meant if anyone tried to look for them nothing would show up here that she could see.

Now they were on Canadian 141 till after several miles and easily over an hour they turned north onto Interstate 55 which ended at Interstate 10 and turned west.

Crossing St. Lawrence River and they began entering Montreal proper.

Rick chose terminal parking since that meant only a 5 or 7 minute walk to the ticket counter where they would wait for the others. This was where the Jeep would be abandoned and eventually become someone else's property after being sold at auction months later.

Rick and Kate sat next to each other surrounded by suitcases and looking around. Rick was looking for Alexis while Kate was busy looking for anyone that was paying far too much attention to them.

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"DAD!" Rick knew that voice and watched as Alexis broke away from the others and ran toward him.

Alexis slammed into him and hugged him fiercely. It had been months and even just being here meant they all had trouble and were in danger.

"God, you feel good, Alexis." Rick held her tight.

Kate watched her dad pushing a cart filled with luggage with Martha right next to him.

It wasn't until those two caught up that Kate hugged her dad. "It's good to see you, Dad."

Jim hugged her and was trying to be careful in case she was still hurting from being shot.

Rick changed people to hug. "Hello, Mother."

"You look well Richard. …Katherine." Martha changed people to hug. "You look well." She had color and she was moving around easily.

"I'm pretty good. I still have to be a little careful or I'll pull on something," Kate replied.

"Any trouble?" Rick asked, looking at Alexis since she was in charge of getting them all here at this hour.

"None. The loft is sold and the money's been moved. Your cars have been sold as well. I hope you didn't like the Ferrari too much," Alexis said, just a touch concerned.

"My cars!" Rick started kicking himself. He had completely forgotten about his two cars.

"That money is on me. Speaking of which." Alexis began searching her carry-on bag. "This one's yours and this one is yours. We already have ours.

"Don't ask me how, but Jordan got us diplomatic bags. All of your new passports and other identification along with your portion of all of the cash we have is inside them. Meaning no one is allowed to open them but us. If anyone asks you to, you can deny them access.

"I am so keeping mine forever." She couldn't believe they could ever get such a thing.

"I knew calling Jordan was a good idea." Rick was happy for that.

"Kate, your weapon with one clip of extra ammunition can go inside yours. Just like Dad's weapon from his safe is in his. My laptop holds everything and Jordan had it encrypted. Even the CIA might have trouble with it or so she says.

"It includes fake birth certificates showing that you were born in Costa Rica, as well as all the paperwork needed to get a work permit.

"I like her, Dad. She's good. Did you know she wants me to join the FBI? Once I graduate she's going to add me to her team. I haven't made up my mind about that yet." Alexis saw the face her dad suddenly made. "I'm just keeping my options open, Dad."

"I have the scrambler satellite phone too. It only knows one number and that's Jordan's. Our flight leaves in…," Alexis looked at her watch, "just over three hours. None of us have cell phones per Jordan's order.

"To buy the house we'll need to do a wire transfer from the bank in the Caymans where most of the money is now," Alexis told them. "Henry doesn't know anything really. He's presently looking for houses in Argentina. First Costa Rica, then Ecuador, followed by Brazil, and now Argentina. Jordan shredded his passports. Everyone has new first and last names. They're in your diplomatic pouch you won't need them till we reach Panama City."

"Nice work, Alexis!" Rick was so proud of her.

"It was actually kind of fun. All cloak and dagger stuff. Maybe I do have a future with the FBI." Alexis started laughing at the look Rick gave her.

"She got us here. She's a smart girl." Jim was impressed. "Can we go get our tickets and unload all this baggage then find something to eat? We haven't eaten." Jim was starving.