My dear little broccolis💚💚💚

💚 So, it has been brought to my attention that some of you don't have access to Facebook and can't read Clary's diary entries. So here they are, just for your enjoyment. Remember that this is a diary, that must be read in addition to Sweetie, Let Me Give You The Daddy

This is the last entry of Ana's diary ... Please pay attention to how it ends ...

‼️DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T READ CHAPTER 23 ONWARD‼️ ️

~ 25th of January ~

Affirmation 1: I am happy.

Affirmation 2: All is well.

Affirmation 3: I am happy.

So Dubai wasn't what I thought it would be. Though I don't know why I put so many expectations into it. It's not like Christian ever hid his priorities to me. I'm just happy that he shifted them a little so Grace can fit in them as well.

I spent most of the couple of days on my own, but it was fun. I really want to come back and go camel riding with Amina, just to learn another way to ride a man she said. Which really surprised me, I never thought that she would say something like that, given her culture and religion.

Whilst in Dubai, Christian explained to me that Hassan was the first person he partnered with, outside of WEH. He did it when his company was still at the very bottom of its rise, and Hassan was more than a partner to him, he was also a mentor.

In fact, Christian had been invited to several important life events of Hassan and Amina's life, but Christian being the asocial bird that he is, never went to any. Which I think is sad. I mean, I understand, Christian is not a people person. Even when his family talk about his childhood, he was always more of an introvert, only interested in socialising when he was a teenager and understood that it was the only way for him to be in a loving relationship. But still, I feel that many of his business partners would love to count him as friends if he just let them.

I guess it's just the way he is.

Christian made a point on talking to Grace every time we called her, asking her what she wanted from Dubai, and for the first time, he told her no. She had just seen Aladdin with her cousins, and she wanted a tiger, like Jasmine. Christian settled on bringing her a rare flower.

Jose also contacted me whilst we were in Dubai, which was odd. We always call each other on Saturdays during the spa day with Grace, and Grace has a rundown with him of everything he missed in the week.

- So, I was thinking of coming next weekend. Just me. I kind of miss your face. Maybe we can hit the bar and enjoy a nice couple of drinks. ~ Jose

- That won't work. We'll be in HK, remember? Do you want me to ask Christian if he can send his plane to pick you up for the weekend? ~ Ana

- No. I can't take that much time away from work. And I wanted to spend time with YOU. I feel I hear less from you now than when you were in London. ~ Jose

- Sorry. I got busy with work, and school, and the different tutors, and adjusting to the new city. Didn't mean to make you feel bad. ~ Ana

- Sounds like BS. And I want to see your face anyway. When can I come? ~ Jose

- No. Really. I just got caught up in the moment. But I love it. We're all so happy. But you can come any time, you know that. ~ Ana

- I have to work on the first, and I'm pretty sure you'd rather spend the weekend after with your boo. I'm free last weekend of February. You good with that? ~ Jose

- Of course Jose. I told you, you can come anytime. Grace adores you, and Christian likes you too. ~ Ana

- Of course, everyone loves me. What's not to love. ~ Jose

- The way you can burn a kitchen by making cereal … That's something not to love … But more seriously, bring Karl as well. We miss him too. ~ Ana

- No. This is going to be OUR weekend. Karl can come for Grace's bday. Gotta go. Pin me down for the last weekend of February. Love you, Biscuit. ~ Jose

To be honest, I would rather not think of Grace's birthday. She is set on having a big birthday party because she has been invited to two of them, and rich kids have parties that can rival Amina's wedding. But Christian promised her she could get whatever she wanted for her birthday. And since Jason and Julian did share tales of their extravagant birthday parties as well, I guess we will have a big birthday party.

I just hope that the SRBC will behave. Gossiping is their second nature, but I just pretend I don't hear them, and for the two parties, I stayed in my corner, reading my book whilst they kept spreading vicious lies about me. I don't care anymore. As long as Grace doesn't hear them, I don't care.

Right now, we're on our way home to Seattle and we just made love, giving Christian that huge grin of satisfaction. He looks so happy, sprawled on the bed (yes, he has a fucking bed in a fucking jet). He took us helicopter riding yesterday night, and it was beautiful. I love the city by night, and I know Christian loves a view. We also went shopping in the morning, and I let him buy me whatever he wanted. I don't care anymore. If it makes him or Grace happy, it's all I care about.

But as he's sleeping, I can't help but wonder if I'm normal. We just had a conversation, makes me feel … odd. Or maybe it was my timing. I mean, this wasn't great after-sex talk.

"Christian …" He hmms, his fingers gently tracing my skin as his eyes are closed, ready to take him to slumber.

"Do you ever feel … lonely?" This makes him stop, and he frowns, looking down at me, naked in his arms.

"Why would I?"

"I don't know. You don't actually have any friends and … I don't know, I was wondering …" I shrug. I know he says he's happy, but … I don't know. I miss having a friend with whom I could actually talk. Jose, Karl and Andrew are all in New York. Mia is all the way in Canada, and she's not comfortable around Christian anyway. And Christian doesn't like Jamie.

"I don't care about that. I didn't become who I am today by making friends. And I like who I am. especially now that I have Grace and you in my life. I told you, I'm the happiest I've ever been, and I love you both. It's all that matters."

I nod, looking down. "I … I do feel lonely sometimes …"

He frowns and tilts my head up so I can look in the deep of his golden eyes. I can see all his love for me, and now, I suddenly feel bad for ruining our beautiful moment in the sky. With love, he caresses my face, and kisses me,

"It's just the change of scenery, babe. I told you, you can fly your friends in anytime. Use the jet or book them a ticket on whatever airline. Even Andrew. And anyway, you can't feel lonely, I'll always be by your side," He adds, grinning before giving us a repeat of what happened earlier.

So now, I'm just trying to dismiss those stupid feelings. Grace is happy. Christian is happy. They both love me, and I love them both as much. I should stop caring about the rest and _

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Love, Mina💚💚💚