Chapter 11: Last Hope on Earth

Bellamy's POV

I felt Clarke's body relax and knew immediately that she'd passed out. It was then that I finally let myself feel the pain that I'd made her, and the girls endure. By moving on and furthering a relationship with Echo I had abandoned three of the four women I couldn't live without.

I looked down at Clarke and saw how tired she looked like she hadn't had a moment to rest in forever. She had dried up tear marks and eyebags on her face pointing to the anguish she'd had that she had thought to resolve only with drowning herself in alcohol.

I sighed.

Life had been so much simpler when we had first arrived on Earth. Before the Ark had come down, before the Mount Weather fiasco in which we made even worst enemies of the Grounders when Finn went rampage on that village before Clarke had left for months to deal with her guilt making a deadly name for herself. Oh yeah, I wish those things had just never happened and we'd just settled on the Dropship campsite. We would have created a community and eventually would have made peace with the Grounders. Or maybe that was just wishful thinking and we would have died out the moment Winter hit us without the Ark's assistance.

Clarke snored lightly and I smiled reminiscing that sound that had always calmed me down.

"Oh Clarke, I wish I hadn't gotten on that spaceship without you." I felt the tears before I realized what was happening.

"I wish we could have been together to raise Aurora and Madi from the beginning." A tempting thought flashed through my mind as I felt the need to be closer to the girl I couldn't live without. "But that's all I can do, wish. For I can not bring myself to hurt Echo or you and the girls, despite it being all that I have achieved."

I picked Clarke's body up and carried her out of the room and into mine and Echo's. She would need to be watched over and I know the girls would be more at ease knowing their mom would be beside them.

Now how to tell Echo of recent developments.

After tucking Clarke into the bed in Echo's and my room. I decided to go join everyone at dinner and see what could be done as for sleeping arrangements.

I jogged down the many corridors in search of the cafeteria when I by chance saw Madi standing under the hole of the roof staring up.

"I thought I told you to go eat dinner," I said smirking as I got closer to her.

She tensed her body as she brought her gaze down to meet my own. Only then did I realize her eyes were bloodshot red. A feeling of protectiveness and worry overtook me as I felt my world spin o its axis. Madi was one of my princesses I had a responsibility to protect her physical body as well as her mental and psyche.

"Madi what's wrong," I muttered stretching my arms out to reach for her.

Madi shook her head in silence as she slowly stepped backward, and away from me. "Mad…"

"You know Clarke used to tell Aurora and I stories about you. In her eyes, you were without fault. Her hero, her best friend, lover, and the man with whom she shared every piece of her." She looked down as tears began to pour from her eyes, "even when the chances that you were still alive were close to none. She held hope and prayed that somewhere out there," she pointed her hand at the dark sky only adorned by the bright stars that shone lightyears away.

"She spent the last six years waiting for a sign of life, she taught Madi and me to rely on you, even when you weren't here. Hell, I thought meeting you would have been the greatest thing in my life…" She struggled with her words as more sobs broke through her and I felt my heart wreak in pain at the heartbreak I had caused my daughter. "However, knowing you have been a disappointing realization that you are human like the rest of us, that you make mistakes, that you feel pain, and burdens just as the rest of us do. And Clarke loves your humanity, she loves that you care about everyone's wellbeing above your own."

She stopped talking and whispered something as if realizing something as she spoke. Then she looked up at me with a new determination in her eyes clear as the rising sun, "I wish you were more selfish."

Then she began to walk in the direction of the rooms, "I'll see you in the room, Bellamy. I am suddenly not feeling that hungry."

"Madi!" I called out, but she just tensed her shoulders and passed the hallway without looking back.

I decided a few minutes sitting underneath the stars would do me some good and went up the entry hole and sat in the destruction of what had once been the great city of Polis.

Looking up at the stars I wondered how many times I had done so and taken it for granted while living on the Ark, then when arriving on Earth at first all I could do was look down as if never once wanting to remember again the fact that the galaxy was vax and in it somewhere there were probably other forms of intelligent life.

To be totally honest I have never been utterly religious. However, at that moment I prayed. I prayed for guidance and assistance in the choices that were fast approaching my life.

I prayed and I cried as I realized just how much I had failed my people.

Just as I was beginning to prepare to back inside. I saw a bright ball of fire entering the atmosphere and realized that Diyoza must have sent Raven and Murphy down.

I rushed inside to call people out to see what was happening. I sought Aurora knowing that I should wake Clarke up and help her sober up so she could meet with Raven after all these years.

I entered the room with Aurora on my shoulder. Walking in I noticed immediately Madi was sleeping next to Clarke, resting her head on her mother's breast.

"Madi, Clarke. Come on girls wake up, I have a surprise for you." Madi woke up without too much fuss, however, Clarke groaned and shook her head as she muttered to leave her alone.

"Come on Clarke! Don't you want to be there when Raven lands to introduce the girls yourself?" She opened her eyes and I noticed that she looked only a little bit better than she had been before when she had been extremely drunk.

"I have some water and some pain algae powder I got from your mom's clinic."

"Why is my head shaking," she said with a slur. Madi immediately worried over Clarke and began to fuzz around her. "Madi calm down sweetie I am seeing two of you."

I smiled at that and helped her sit up, "here." I said handing her the algae powder and water.

"Thank you, Bell." She took the cup with the powder and swallowed it as fast as she could before she could throw it up, she grabbed the cup with water and drank it.

"How are you feeling?" I asked after a few minutes.

"A bit better, thanks."

"Clarke, I want to apologize to you for everything. I want you to know that I am going to do my hardest to be better for you, for the girls, and for our people."

She looked up at me and I couldn't quite tell what was going through her head, although I could tell had been taken by surprise, and I too had been.

"They're landing!" Someone yelled from the hallway.

"Let's go before more people pile up there and make it harder for us to welcome our friends," I said helping her get up once more.

"Thank you so much, Bellamy."

"I love you, Clarke, you don't have to thank me for anything." I tightened my hold on Aurora who was nodding off and out of sleep and reaching an arm for Madi who was helping Clarke get up.

Within a few minutes, I found myself outside supporting most of Clarke's weight, and the rest of my family as Octavia, Echo, Monty, Harper, Emori, and Marcus stood impatiently beside us. Waiting for our friends to get down from their transport.

Then after waiting what seemed like an eternity finally the gate opened, and we all saw as Raven and Murphy stepped out with bright smiles.

Then we all were surprised by the loud words that Raven practically yelled, "We're back…!"

Raven's POV

Freefalling down the Earth's atmosphere was something I hadn't done in a long time and while this dropship was much better suited for the impact than the small shuttle I had previously used I felt the worries I had felt all those years ago resurface except this time I didn't have a boyfriend to live for. No, but I did have a family, a growing family.

"What's that stupid smile about?" screamed Murphy over the loud roar of the atmosphere.

"Shut up!" I yelled back as the heat levels began to rise.

"Raven prepare to stabilize temperature levels; we are about to be within Earth's atmosphere and must fly a bit until we can get to Polis where your people are." Shawn commanded as the ship entered Earth.

I got to work on securing that the temperature levels of the ship were stable. Then released the breath I hadn't noticed I had been holding when I saw the trees beneath me in the darkness. So, this was Eden.

The last hope of survival on Earth for us.

"Are you seeing this Murphy?"

"I am. Can you believe it? When we first arrived, we didn't truly appreciate the value of life as we do now huh?" I nodded and smiled through the tears. There had been so much blood loss in our lives in the last years.

"I honestly can't wait to see Clarke or Polis," Murphy to which Shawn responded with a grunt.

"What is it?" I asked him, noticing how tense he'd become after Murphy's comment. He shifted his head to look into my eyes.

"I think you'll find that the city of Polis is nothing but a bunch of rubble, and I as someone who never saw it as anything else wept over it, so I cannot imagine how you guys are going to feel hen you see it. I advise that you prepare for the worst and not compare to what you just saw there below. This is the only remaining semblance of what Earth once looked like." He didn't speak again after this and focused his eyes on the view in front of us.

"Then I will sacrifice myself for the bettering of the human race and so we do better this time on our planet."

I felt someone's intense stare and turned to see Murphy staring at me intently with a smirk, "what?"

"Nothing just you sound just like Monty with all his sappiness about doing better and all." I smile at this and smirk as I realize he was insinuating that Monty had rubbed off on me way too much.

"Well I rather Monty rub off on me, that you with all you 'I have a stick up my ass behavior,'"

"I do not behave like that." He muttered defensively.

"Sure, you do, that's why we all ran away from you on the Ark.," I said becoming more serious and realizing we were getting into a topic of discussion that would be tough for Murphy. After all, it was his behavior that had led to his breakup with Emori.

Murphy apparently recognized the train of thought I had, when he said "no matter what she thinks I love her more than anything. If I ever offended her or exhausted her emotionally, I was honestly trying to do my best by her." He looked ahead and gulped which led to me looking up and seeing in the dark a pile of cement buildings remnants. "Look, Raven. I love her. She was the first person in a long time for who I cared more than myself. I can't imagine living without her and if I ever caused her to feel cornered while on the ark it's because I wanted to keep her safe despite what I had to do."

I realized he wanted to get things cleared up before we were thrown into the despair in which we would find our people. "I believe you, Murphy. But I hope you can also understand that I was only teaching her how to control a dropship in the scenario that it would be necessary as it proved to be, and you were overbearing. That's why she ended things, but I know she loves you just as you love her. Now relax and prepare for meeting Wonkru at last."

"Everyone prepared to land?" asked Shawn looking at us and the other men Diyoza had sent with us. When we all nodded. He began to land the dropship.

Clarke's POV

Seeing Raven and Murphy again after the long six years made my heartache. Finally, at last… my family was complete, whole, and safe.

They were all here except my mother and Jackson who I am sure would be joining us soon.

"This is it, princess. Our chance to do better," Bellamy whispered as he held me up.

"No daddy, it's our time to do better," Aurora whispered groggily from where she rested on his shoulder.

"It's the hope of our people that we do better," Madi said smiling at me.

"No sweetheart, it's the hope of humanity and for humanity that we do better," I answered as tears clouded my vision as I remembered all the times, I had failed humanity.

Bellamy immediately rubbed my back to calm me down successfully.

"We will do better, whatever that looks like we are on the right track," Monty said beside us as our friends all nodded.

Author's Notes

Hello there my people,

I am so eternally grateful to each and every one of you who has been commenting during this month and sometimes long draught from updates. It is because of those comments that I muscled whatever little time I had this past week to write this short chapter. I hope you guys are all pleased and that it didn't disappoint.

Honestly, I felt kind of heartbroken after the season finale and for some time found myself without much inspiration. I am hoping to get back to my regular schedule of updating twice a week again soon.

I hope everyone had a great Halloween and well wherever it is that you fall on the political spectrum I hope that we can all agree that above all policies are humanity and our respect and love for each other.

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Love each and every one of you and hope that you're all doing well.

Keep safe!

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