I didn't help.
As time went on, it happened. The massacre, almost every member of the clan died. Itachi and Sasuke were the only survivors. Well, I knew there were Obito and Madara hidden in a cave somewhere, but still. The panic that flooded the village was huge. And then it happened.
It has been four days since the incident when two ANBU came for me and my brother.
We ended up standing in front of the Hokage, who looked really old with all that stress, next to him stood Danzo and the other council members (Mitokado Homura and Utatane Koharu, yup, learned their names), and two ANBU members, one being Kakashi (I was pleasantly surprised by that). I looked at Kakashi, or, well, Captain Hound-13, trying to understand what was going on, but he was unreadable, the only thing I saw was a slight twitch in his right hand, which happened twice, during the time I watched him, he was nervous or tired. Probably both.
Next to us stood others, I saw Choji, Hinata, Kiba, Shino, Ino, Neji, and three more children.
The Hokage explained that since what happened with the Uchiha clan was devastating, they had to make sure it would not happen with other clans as well. So, we all had to go through a psychological test, we were chosen because of our clan and/or our scores at the Academy.
Well, since I watched the anime, I knew that the massacre wasn't just because some genius snapped. Neh. It happened because Itachi had to choose between his clan and his village, he obeyed the council's order. But the only that knew about all of that was the Hokage, Danzo, Homura, and Koharu. If they did the psychological test, Danzo would know who to hit, which one of us is ready to just run to him and be part of his organization, fucking Root.
The Hokage told us that the ANBU would escort us to the Academy, where we would take the test. So, when all the four ANBU (two who were next to the Hokage and two that got us there and stayed) began moving I managed to get close to Kakashi. He was in the right-back, so I stood next to him and looked at him, but he didn't react in any way.
Honestly, I felt afraid. There I was escorted like I was some kind of criminal and with nowhere to run. I was afraid that maybe they'd find out, that I was different, or maybe if I scored too high I'd end up as Danzo's brainwashed soldier. I was panicking inside, but I kept my cool façade, or, well, tried…
We were in the class in no time and the ANBU told us where to sit, we weren't allowed to sit next to each other, so we had one free seat between us. I ended up sitting close to Neji, what a coincidence. Another character I liked in my past life was sitting close to me. Was I a magnet to those I liked?
The test was a written paper, some easy math problems, some riddles, some questions. I was trying hard not to overdo it. Two ANBU were walking constantly in the class, while one was staying next to the windows and one was guarding the door. The math was really simple, I did it in no time, the riddles were easy as well, the questions were psychological. 'Write what death means to you in three words. Write down how you feel about Konoha in three words. Write down how you feel about your clan. Family life. Academy. Shinobi system, etc.' geez... Anyway, I was honest, death? Cold, fright, darkness. Konoha? Loyalty, home, protection. Clan? Family, love, expectations. Family life? Love, acceptance, happiness. Academy? Excitement, friends, learning. Shinobi system? Dream, loyalty, aspirations. Well, I wanted to write killing at the shinobi part, but then that would be a red flag.
I saw Shikamaru and Neji getting second papers after they finished the first, so I rose my hand and I got the second paper.
'If a fire starts who will you save? a. Konoha shinobi b. Family member c. Civilian d. Hokage.' The fuck. 'If you have to choose between your family or your village, what would you choose and why?' The fuck again. 'If your Hokage would order you to kill your family would you do it? Why?' THE FUCK!
I leaned forward and rested my head against my hands. I didn't know what to answer, damn it! I closed my eyes, trying to calm myself down.
"What are these questions?!" I heard Neji hissing.
"The hell?" that was Kiba.
"Silence!" and that was Kakashi ordering in a cold and emotionless tone, well more like Hound. I looked up and leaned back on my chair, I saw Ka-Hound move his head, giving every single one of us a look, then he looked at me. I didn't look at him, I felt vulnerable, I didn't want his lifeless mask to look at me. I sighed and with a trembling hand, I took my pen.
If a fire starts who will you save? c. Civilian
Hound walked around and stopped, watching me and what I was writing, but I didn't look at him.
If you have to choose between your family or your village, what would you choose and why?
Village. As a shinobi, my loyalty to my village comes first. Family comes second, I live to do as my Hokage orders and endure for the better of the village.
Hound walked away and I felt sick. I wasn't lifeless! I could not just abandon my family! But the family wasn't the answer they needed. They wanted us to be loyal. Loyal to the Hokage, the Hokage who was vulnerable to the council. A vicious circle and cycle. Hokage gets nominated, Hokage gets controlled by the council, Hokage does as the council orders, Hokage orders shinobi, shinobi kill without remorse. My future will mold me into a tool, a shinobi loyal to the Hokage. I felt really bad. Then I looked up at the first question. Was the Hokage the right answer? But I wanted to save my family. Yet, I could not let civilians die, those civilians could be children, but then, what about my fellow shinobi?
If your Hokage would order you to kill your family would you do it? Why?
No! But I had to… I couldn't… Why. Why would they… What would they want me to answer? What would I want to answer? My head throbbed. And there I gave up, I decided to give an honest answer.
Yes, because it was my duty to follow orders.
I felt cold and sick.
Yes, because it was my duty to follow orders. But I would rather die myself as well.
Here we have the first bigger part of the story, keep in mind this chapter is a really important part of the storyline. About the test they took. Well, I thought that it would be logical that after the Massacre they started to take 'measures against' geniuses. After all, I think after the Massacre villagers began to be frightened by the prospect of some genius shinobi children running around them.
And I still don't own Naruto and never will...but I think I own Shikanai.
Originally I wanted to post this chapter tomorrow, but I found out that I have the current virus and so I don't know how I'll feel tomorrow, maybe I'll be so unwell I couldn't post, so for precautions, here's the chapter.
Hope you like it, have a good read!
For those who celebrate Halloween, well, Happy Halloween to them, oh and I have a question for them. What does candy corn taste like?
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