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Chapter ten: frustrations
It felt oddly claustrophobic when everyone returned after the holidays. Alicia was so used to wandering the halls alone, that she was surprised at how annoying it was when a group of slow-walking students were in front of her. She also had the irrational fear that her new secret was easy to spot and that everyone would know before long. She had a little panic attack when she entered the Ravenclaw common room after their first day back to classes. It was so full.
'Happy new year Alicia! How was your holiday? Did you do anything interesting?' Elena asked cheerfully when Alicia sat back in her usual seat by the fireplace. She had to stifle a chuckle at her own thoughts. No, I didn't do anything interesting, I did someone interesting. 'Nothing that would interest you guys. I was mostly a loner. Did spend some time with Harry, Ron and Hermione though on the last weekend. They were bored too so we played some games. Oh and I studied thestrials in the forest. Or well, I tried. It's very difficult when you can't see them. What about you guys?'
Elena launched in a story about her parents and how annoying they were during Christmas. Then Sophia proudly told them everything about her relationship with Jared, the boy who had send Alicia a Christmas card. 'I really hope you don't mind,' Sophia said worried. Alicia held up both hands. 'You have nothing to worry about. You guys seem great together. I'm happy for you!'
When it was Michelle's turn she got quiet. She looked out in the fire and her mind seemed far away. In the end she spoke softly to the others. 'It wasn't a lot of fun to go home. My father nearly stopped me from going back to Hogwarts. Since that murderer is still out there they are so worried. Ha! I don't blame them. I am worried too.'
Alicia agreed. Remus seemed to think that Black was innocent, but she couldn't bring herself to believing that. After her talk with Remus she had searched the newspapers for the whole story about Black. There were witnesses on the evening he killed all those muggles. There was just so much evidence…and he said himself that Black was the only one who knew the location of the Potters.
'He won't get into the castle again, I'm sure! Even if he does, he's not after you, is he? You should be fine,' Sophia said, trying to sound reassuring.
Michelle sighed and turned around to face Sophia. 'No, I'm not his target. But should that mean that I don't do anything about it?' she spat back at her friend. 'I feel like we are sitting ducks in this castle. At some point we need to stop waiting, and start searching and attacking.'
All three girls were surprised by Michelle's sudden anger. Alicia wanted to ask her a follow-up question but Michelle had already left her seat. Before long she was in their dorm, out of sight.
'What was that all about?' Sophia asked, looking startled. Elena shrugged and Alicia tried to look reassuringly. 'Don't worry. We'll give her some space and figure it out later.'
Elena leaned forward. 'She didn't actually mean she wants to…find Black…or something?'
Alicia raised an eyebrow. 'I don't think so. But something clearly happened over the holidays. We'll ask her when she is ready.'
Following a routine of classes was starting to get boring again. Alicia never really cared too much about high grades or house points. She cared about magical creatures, about learning new spells that she deemed interesting to learn and she cared about one particular teacher who hadn't send her any word just yet. Two weeks had already passed and he was either very busy or he had forgotten her. She couldn't stay behind at the end of the classes with him anymore, her friends were already too suspicious. She hadn't passed him in the hallways and hadn't received a letter from him as he promised he would do.
When their third class had ended Alicia was so anxious that she nearly ran over to him at the end of the class. Michelle had given her a questioning look when Alicia had stood behind her desk, rooted to her spot. She had stared at Professor Lupin until she could burn a hole in his head. When he finally looked up he seemed annoyed and conflicted. Alicia was about to take a step forward when he slightly shook his head in a clear warning signal.
She had spun on her heals and was out of the classroom before he could explain himself. Michelle was at her side.
'Wanna talk about it?'
'Wanna talk about what went wrong during Christmas?' Alicia spat back, not in the mood.
Michelle remained silent after that. They still hadn't spoken about her problems. Both girls were happy now just evading these subjects.
That same night an owl came to the window of their dorm. Alicia had been reading in her bed. The others were still in the common room. She opened the window and allowed the pretty owl in. It was carrying a small piece of parchment. When she opened it, it was blank.
Alicia looked around to make sure she was alone. Then she said to the parchment 'tell me Moony'. Ink blotched across the surface as if the letter was written right in front of her.
I miss you too, but you have to stop staring at me like that.
Come to my office after 11 p.m. Try not to get caught.
Moony.
Alicia rolled her eyes in annoyance, but ended up preparing for her departure. Everyone was pretty occupied with homework so no one noticed one more Ravenclaw student slipping out of the common room. She tiptoed down the halls. She was wearing dark trousers and a hoodie, so she could hide her light hair. Sneaking around was not something she did very often, but whenever she did it she was good at it. Lots of students got caught by prefects doing their rounds. Most of those students were trying to find a broom cupboard to kiss in. How wonderful to have privet chambers, instead of a dark and uncomfortable cupboard, Alicia thought.
She was near the stairs that would lead to the DADA classroom when she heard someone coming down them. She turned around and dived behind a statue. The person coming down the stairs was Harry. He looked kind of tired and was eating the remainders of a chocolate bar. When he stood in the hallway, he checked his surroundings. He missed Alicia sitting behind the statue right in front of him. She hoped he would simply walk away.
However, he did not. He pulled out a piece of paper from his pocket and put the tip of his wand against it. Alicia was intrigued to see what would happen next.
'I solemnly swear that I am up to no good,' Harry said to the parchment. From her position, Alicia couldn't see what Harry was looking at, but this all reminded her of the spell Remus had taught her to password-protect paper. Funny, because he had also mentioned that not a lot of people knew how to do that. Apparently Harry was an exception.
If she hadn't been surprised already by the Boy Who Lived, she was positively shocked when he suddenly looked straight at her hiding place and called out 'Alicia?'
It took her a solid minute to step out of the shadows. 'How did you know I was there?'
Harry seemed to remember the parchment he was holding. He crushed it against his chest and tried to shove it in his pocket. 'Uhm, I saw you move,' he said.
'I didn't move,' Alicia replied.
'Well, you did.'
'You were looking down at your paper and then suddenly looked up at me! That was strange!' She accused him, trying to read the red letters on the parchment. However it was a dark hallway and she couldn't make out anything but shapes.
'Well you were hiding behind a statue in a deserted hallway! That is strange too,' he said back. He turned his back to her quickly and mumbled something. When he turned back he had stuffed the parchment in his pocket.
Alicia sighed. 'Fine. How about we both don't explain further and just continue our ways from here.' Harry did seem ready to ask her more questions, but realised that he had to explain as well. In the end he nodded and started walking away.
She watched him go and mentally heard Remus reproach her for getting caught. Usually she was very sneaky. Harry had a trick up his sleeve that she didn't know about.
When she stepped inside the classroom she could relax again. She had made it without trouble. Well, without much trouble. Remus was dragging a big box across the room to stuff it in a corner.
'Hello Alicia,' he said without looking up. 'I'll be done in a minute.'
She walked over to help put the box away.
'You shouldn't strain yourself,' Alicia reproached him. 'Here let me help you.' After the box was back in its place, Alicia turned around to get him a glass of water that he had placed on a student desk. However, before she could reach out he had grabbed her arms from behind and was holding her body to his. He snaked his arms around her to hold her tightly in an embrace. It took her a moment to realise what had happened.
'Don't treat me like an old man. I might be weaker but I am not weak. If you doubt me…' one of his hands found its way under her hoodie and shirt and made its way up to cup her breast 'I will show you,' he whispered. Alicia gasped as he grabbed her boob and started massaging it. She felt his breath on her neck and then his tongue flicked past her ear.
'I'm sorry professor. I won't doubt you again. Is there any reason why you are so wild tonight?' she asked with a chuckle. Remus spun her around in his arms and crushed his lips onto hers. Alicia felt her lips being parted by his tongue as he dove in and kissed her deeply. She moaned in his mouth and she knew the sound turned him on. 'The look you gave me today after class. You were ready to jump on me, weren't you?' he said with a rumble in his voice. 'You were driving me wild. If I had allowed you to come closer I might not have been able to stop myself. You looked so ready to be taken by me…'
His words were having a great effect on her. She could feel a wetness starting down there. Her knees went a bit weak as she leaned more into him for support. His smell was intoxicating. She kissed him roughly, needing more. 'I want to be taken by you.'
She saw a flash of a smirk before she was flipped and thrown over his shoulder. He carrying her up the stairs to his office and private chambers.
'Remus Lupin this is no way to handle a lady!' Alicia protested, slapping him on his back. She heard him chuckle. 'You are many things Alicia, but a lady you have yet to become.' She yelled back several curse words at him but it only seemed to improve his mood. When he finally reached the bed he put her down.
'You are insufferable,' she stated. 'You clearly have bad intentions,' she said with a little smile, hoping to egg him on.
He laughed deeply and looked her in the eye. 'I solemnly swear I'm up to no good.'
So he had given that parchment to Harry, was her last thought that wasn't naughty. Because even though she recognised the saying from earlier, she wasn't interested in discussing that now. The deep, hungry look he gave her in combination with a promise to ravage her was enough to make her burst of sexual frustration.
She took her wand from her pocket and waved it at Remus. His clothes started to leave his body in a slow motion. Within a minute, he was completely naked. He stared at her with shock and admiration. 'You have to teach me that one.' Alicia took her time to admire his body. Last time everything was new and she didn't know where to look. But now she wanted to study him for a moment. Her hands snaked around his neck, where she caressed him. She kissed his collarbone and his shoulder. Her hands travelled over his skin, finding the way his muscles flexed and all the little dents and cuts he sported. He had quite a lot of thin silvery scars on his arms, shoulders and back. A bigger one, two inches wide, ran from his back to the front over one shoulder.
She also noticed in delight, that he had quite a young and agile body. It was easy to think him weak and scrawny with those large shabby clothes he wore. He wasn't trying to show off how toned and muscular he actually was. Her hands travelled down to rest on his hips, where she massaged him. His hips were narrow and around them she could feel more sharp features. He was slightly underweight around this area.
Remus was standing very still as she watched and explored his body. He had even closed his eyes. It was an opportunity she had to take. She crouched down and sat on her knees, her face right in front of his cock. It wasn't yet completely hard, but she could fix that. Without warning she leaned forward and licked along his entire length. He inhaled sharply. 'Merlin's beard! I didn't realise you were down there!' he yelped, but at the same time he didn't make it sound like he wanted her away from that position. She chuckled lightly before doing it again. His cock responded to her touch, hardening and twitching. She placed two fingers on top of the tip and felt the first wetness of his body. She used it as lube as she started placing her hand around his member.
'You are pretty wild Moony. But I'm sure I can tame you,' she teased before wrapping her lips around his cock. He cursed again and moaned after that when she started taking more and more of him in her mouth. She felt a hand on the back of her head as he softly thrusted against her face.
He suddenly stepped back, leaving her with nothing to touch. She got back to her feet where Remus made quick work of her clothes. Before she knew it she was naked too and he was pushing her on the bed. Alicia wanted to lie down on her back, but Remus made a disapproving noise and grabbed her shoulder. She wanted to ask what he wanted, but he was already showing her. He was sitting on the bed and pulled her into his lab, with her back to his chest.
'You want me like this?' she asked a little confused. He growled in her ear. 'I want you in every way. But for now…' He reached around her body with his hands and grabbed her wet pussy. She gasped and let her head fall back on his shoulder. 'For now I will take you like this,' he finished. He sounded very wild, like an animal claiming what was his. She felt first one, then two fingers slipping inside her, thrusting in and out. She could feel her body responding to the pleasure he was giving her.
'Remus,' she breathed. He responded by softly biting her neck. He continued to push his fingers in, now three, and groaned deeply whenever she made sounds of pleasure. She felt very exposed like this, her legs being opened this far, and it gave an extra edge of naughtiness to her already increasing horniness.
'Remus if you don't stop I will…' she tried to say. He withdrew his fingers right away and put them in his mouth. He moaned. 'You taste great Nessie,' he purred in her ear. Once again she felt a wave of pleasure at the way he used her nickname.
He was pushing her forward so she had to place her hands in front of her on the bedspread. Now she was on all fours in front of him and she realised this is what he wanted all along. His hands travelled over her body, from the inside of her thighs to her breasts. She could feel his body above hers as she felt more and more anxious. 'Is this okay with you?' he asked. Alicia nodded quickly, just wanting him to start taking her. So he did. He placed himself behind her. She could feel his cock rubbing against her pussy and her clit. The feeling was wonderful and she moaned deeply.
'Fuck Remus. You feel fucking amazing.' He groaned again and pushed inside of her in a swift motion. She had to bite down to keep from waking up half the castle with her screams. From this angle, he was hitting a whole other spot and a whole other feeling of pleasure. But it wasn't just that, she also felt extra horny because of the way he was fucking her from behind. Just the thought of how this must look for a bystander was driving her mind to the edge of extasy.
He was thrusting harder now, and if the sounds he made were anything to go by, he was greatly enjoying it. He leaned forward and cupped her breasts with his hands as he continued to fuck her. He was rubbing her sensitive nipples so wonderfully.
'You feel so good Alicia,' he told her. She gasped in response. 'So do you Remus. Now, fuck me harder.' He complied and started going faster and deeper. They were both panting like crazy now. The bed was creaking and she heard their bodies slapping against each other. But all that was background noise to his moans and the amazing feeling in her body.
His breaths were getting shorter and she realised he was coming soon. She took one of his hands and pushed it down to her clit. He understood and started rubbing her with the same intense passion as he was fucking her. Both of them were screaming out their climax.
Alicia had lost all strength in her arms, and was now laying face-first in the bed. Remus had collapsed on top of her. They were both trying to recover from their shared orgasm. 'You are really okay with me taking you from behind? If you feel uncomfortable you should tell me,' Remus tried to say between gasps of air. Alicia just chuckled. 'Do I not seem completely okay?'
He rolled off her and summoned two glasses of water to fly over. As she drank he replied. 'You do. But I want to make sure. I don't want to hurt you or make you feel like there is something you can't tell me. But you are right, I know that you would tell me if something was bothering you. Just…just checking.'
Alicia pecked him on the cheek. 'And that makes you a good man. Thanks for asking. For your information, that was incredibly hot and you are so doing that again to me.'
They laughed together. After a moment they were getting colder and decided to climb under the sheets. Alicia was snuggled up against his side when a question formed in her mind. 'Remus?'
'Hmm?'
'Does the moon effect your…well your mood?'
He laughed. 'You mean how wild I am? Yes, on the days around the full moon most of my senses are heightened. Hearing, smell but also sexual drive.'
She frowned. 'Smell? What, you smell more than regular?'
'Yes. I smell the food from the Great Hall when I leave my classroom. I can smell sweat when someone is scared. I can even…'
He had stopped. He looked unsure. 'What is it?' Alicia asked, curious.
He looked at her. 'Don't get mad. But I can smell arousal as well. Today for example. During the class, I could smell you. It was very distracting.'
Her mouth hung open. 'Merlin's beard! That is so embarrassing! I'm sorry. Maybe I can learn to stop it-,' He had turned on his side and had her cheek cupped in his hand. 'Don't. I love it. Do you have any idea how good it feels to know how much you want me? Even in an unromantic setting like a lecture where I talk about the Patronus charm? Alicia, I love it.'
She was holding her breath until she was sure he was done talking. 'Okay,' she breathed. 'But it's still a bit weird.' The smile on Remus's face widened and they laughed together.
They stayed in bed for a while longer and talked about the time that had passed in the last two weeks, and Remus asked her a bunch of questions. He wanted to know more about her family, her time in Hogwarts and her bond with Hagrid. After that he told her more about himself. Random moments in their lives. Alicia was so comfortable next to him she nearly drifted off to sleep.
Unfortunately she couldn't do that; she still had to go back to the Ravenclaw dormitory. But for a while she pretended to forget that and just enjoy the time they had together. It was frustrating to know she had to go and pretend like nothing happened, but it was worse that she knew it would be another couple of weeks before she could be back with him.
Remus yawned and stretched. 'I think you should go back, I'm about to fall asleep and so will you.' Alicia sighed as she rolled out of the bed. 'Will it be two weeks again before I see you like this?' she asked as she dressed herself. Remus was laying on his side, face propped on his hand as he watched her move around the room. 'I don't know. Not to sound like a teacher, but you shouldn't be too distracted from your N.E.W.T.S. coming up.'
She gave him a wicked grin. 'Yes, Professor Lupin.'
He growled and jumped out of bed. He took her arms in his hands and held her close to his body. They stared into each other's eyes before Remus leaned in and kissed her roughly. When he stopped the kiss he said: 'You can't say that.'
'I can't?' Alicia asked as she cocked an eyebrow.
'You drive me crazy when you do that,' he whispered as he got closer and kissed her again. Alicia reciprocated the kiss eagerly. She was starting to get lost in his scent again, but realised she didn't have the time for another round in the sheets. She pulled back, biting his lower lip in the process.
He whined like a hurt animal and Alicia smiled at that. She kissed him on the nose once more before she got her wand from the bedstand and was ready to go.
'I guess we part ways for a while again. But it is good to know I'm not the only one who will count down the days,' Alicia said, knowing that her last actions had done exactly that. Remus smirked. 'You cheeky girl.' She giggled in conformation.
'I'll send you another owl when I find the time. I hope it is soon, Alicia. I'll miss you,' he said sincerely. Her heart was very full in that moment. She smiled and turned around, but when her hand was on the door handle she remembered something.
'Hey I didn't know you were sharing our secrets with Harry by the way. You know, the password protected messages on paper,' she said as she turned around.
Remus looked confused. 'I didn't. I told you, not a lot of people know how to do that.'
Alicia shrugged. 'Well Harry had a piece of paper that he spoke to. And I am positive it came from you.'
He crossed his arms and raised his eyebrow. 'And why is that?'
'Because it was the same password you said to me when we were uhh… about to have sex. I solemnly swear I'm up to no good,' she replied. Then Alicia left the office and went back to her own bed, leaving Remus looking perplexed.