Chapter 14
As the guys go to leave, Tig kisses me softly and says "Stay with Gemma." I nod and he heads out the door. Gemma walks over and pulls me into a hug and the tears start falling again. She leads me over to one of the couches and sits beside me. One of the croweaters brings me some tea and Gemma nods her thanks. I take a sip and Gemma asks "What's on your mind sweetheart?" I sigh and say "I love him Gemma." I tell her. "I know baby. He loves you too." she tells me. "I can't seem to get my head right. I keep hearing my ex over and over in my head telling me that I'm fat and worthless. I don't even want Alex seeing me." I tell her. "Honey, there's not a damn thing wrong with you. That man worships the ground you walk on." she tells me and I look down at my cup. "Baby, listen to me. That ex of yours is an idiot and you're Old Man will make sure he never bothers you again." she tells me.
Up at the cabin, they have my ex tied up and he's laying on the ground out back, surrounded by the club. "You sure are a stupid fuck." Jax says and the guy glares at him. "You keep fucking with Penny. Telling her a bunch of bull shit. Fucking with her head." he says. "That doesn't work for us." Jax adds. "What's it matter?" my ex asks. Tig steps forward and is vibrating with rage and you can see the sadist coming out in him. "It matters because she's my wife." He says with an eerie calm. Tig gets close and says "You will never fuck with my wife again." before standing back up and he starts to tourture my ex before killing him.
When the guys come back to the clubhouse, Tig looks around for me and Gemma says "She's in the dorm, resting." He looks at her and says "Thanks Gem." before walking towards the dorms but Gemma stops him. He looks at her and she says "You make sure you show her that you still want her. Baby, men need to be loved but women, we need to be wanted...needed." she tells him and he nods before kissing her cheek and heading to the dorm.
Walking into the dorm, he undresses and gets into the bed. Pulling me close, I snuggle into him and he tilts my chin up to look at him. "I love you." he whispers. "I love you too." I tell him. "He's handled." he tells me and I start to sob again. As I sob, he whispers in my ear "I love you Penny. You have no clue how much I want you. I want to spend my life with you doll. I want to knock you the fuck up. You're mine babe and nothing will change that." he tells me and starts kissing on my neck and I shy away. He puts his forehead to mine and sighs. "Talk to me doll." he says softly. "I don't want you to see me Alex." I whisper. He tilts my chin up and makes me look at him. "You are fucking perfect. You're beautiful, sweet, caring…" he starts before moving to my ear and whispers "and you have the best pussy I've ever fucking tasted." and I feel shivers all over me. I feel his lips on my neck again and he pulls me closer. "Alex...please…" I start and he stops and looks at me. "What is it doll?" he asks. I kiss him softly and shyly say "Love me?" before he whispers "Till the Reaper comes." He kisses me softly and deepens the kiss before hovering over me more and when he starts to undress me, I hesitate before taking a deep breath and nod before he start s pulling my shirt over my head. We slowly undress and he enters me. Making love to me nice and slow and when we find our release, he finds his inside me.
Waking up the next morning, I'm in bed alone. I get up and dressed before heading out to the main room and see him at the bar. I walk over and before I can sit, he pulls me between his legs. "Morning Doll." he says before kissing me softly. "Morning." I say softly. I feel him nuzzle against my neck and I start to shy away a little and he puts his forehead to mine. "I love you." he says. "I love you." I say back.
After he heads out to the garage to work, I'm sitting on one of the couches looking down into my cup of coffee when one of the croweaters walks over and sits next to me. "Can we talk?" she asks and I nod. "I know what's going through your head. I had an ex that used to tell me that I was fat and worthless. Used to tell me that he should do everyone a favor and kill so no one else would have to suffer through seeing me." she tells me and I look at her shocked. "Hearing that from someone that's supposed to love you...that fucks with your head." she tells me. "How did you get past it?" I ask. "I came here. Started partying here and started hooking up with the guys. Every time that shit would enter my head, I would grab one of the guys and hook up. After a while, I stopped hearing it." she tells me. "I'm not going to…" I start and she stops me. "No...I know. Look, we all see how much Tig loves you and we all know you love him. What I'm saying is when you start hearing that shit, take your Old Man and let him show you what he thinks. One thing I learned is that what your ex thinks doesn't matter. He's an ex for a reason and if I know the guys, you will never see him again. But that man? He worships you. So when you start hearing that shit, take him and let him show you what he thinks because the only ones who even matter in your relationship is you and him. Don't let someone who isn't even here have a say in you and him." she tells me. I hug her and head outside.
I see Alex working on one of the cars and I walk over to him and place my hand on his back. He stands up and sees me standing there and lets me make the first move. I wrap my arms around his waist and look up at him as his arms go around me. I lean up and kiss him softly and say "The only thing that matters is me and you." He smiles softly and says "Damn right." before leaning down and kissing me deeply and we hear the guys around us cheering and whistling. When we separate, he smiles down at me and I smile softly and say "I'll get there." He nods and kisses me one more time before Clay comes over and tells him to spend the day with me.