DISCLAIMER - ALL ORIGINAL TWILIGHT CHARACTERS BELONG TO STEPHENIE MEYER. I DO NOT OWN THEM EXCEPT FOR THE PLOT AND ADDITIONAL CHARACTERS FOR THE PURPOSE OF THIS STORY.

THIS IS M RATED FOR DARK THEME, MATURE AND SEXUAL CONTENT AND LANGUAGE.

Chapter 10

JPOV

I was running. The land flying beneath me, the exhilaration in my body, the wind whipping my blond curls around my face.

As the city skyline came into view, I slowed down to a walk by the time my feet hit the asphalt. I knew my way to the seedier parts of Houston; staying on the outskirts for well over 2 years now with my coven. Walking, I reminisce the day I showed up at Peter's with Rosalie and Emmett in tow.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I stopped my truck in front of the ranch house and exited the cab in a need to get away from the tumultuous emotions.

"About damn time there, Major." A dark blonde with height and slender built matching my own; quips as he walks forth and pulls me in a man hug. I clap his back tightly; I hadn't seen my brother in a long time.

"It's been far too long Captain, how're ya?" I ask Peter. "Oh! He has his days driving me up the wall with his Yoda shit. I'm glad you finally got your head out your ass Major, the tiny twat pulled a fast one on you for a while there."

I turn to the sound of the voice and see a tiny albeit busty blond in a tight denim skirt and a black wife beater paired with cowboy boots and hat.

"Charlotte, way to rub salt on my wounds." I grimaced. "I missed you too." I pulled her in for a hug and a kiss on the cheek. She giggles retorting, "Salt is the least of all you should be worried about."

I quirk my brow and look at Peter. Before I could press further, Emmett and Rosalie step out and the reunion of my one set of siblings meet the other was a sight to see…. Or not depending on how you saw it.

Little boys! I swear…. Absolutely childish behavior these 2 have from all the secret handshakes to chest bumps. Had they not looked so different physically, they would have been twins. And their women not far behind with the squealing, giggling and jumping into hugs. I felt absolutely out of place in this moment.

Turning to me "So first things first, let's start your being-a-true-vampire-101 lessons. All of you for that matter." Peter speaks with ominous voice.

"What do you mean lessons on being a vamp? What do you think we are!? Muttonchops!?" Emmett boomed with wave of hilarity.

"Remember what I said on my phone call, things are about to change and get difficult. I don't know everything but I do know is that you need to drop the human charade and become what you are, what your nature is…. A Vampire. And the first step to do that is start feeding the original way."

I was speechless. I didn't imagine that after all this time trying to stick to the animal blood diet I would have to revert to this! I couldn't feel their emotions again when I drained them….. the terror, the pain, the loss…. It was too much for me. This is why I had walked away with Alice all those years ago; to a better lifestyle choice where I didn't need to burden myself for being an empathy.

"WHAT! You know I can't do that! I can't go through that depression again! I REFUSE TO!" I yelled at him but the Major hummed underneath as if I was not making sense. What the fuck was up with that!

"Not happening! I can't go through that again. No…No….Never….. I will rip you apart where you stand Captain!" I growled, at HIM too.

"Pete, you know I'm down for all you say but this is some serious shit. You just can't spring it on us like this. Why are you willing to put Jazzman through that when you know how much he struggles?" Emmett questioned.

A vibration interrupted as Char was about to speak. Peter pulls out his cell and puts it back in his pocket seemingly barely glancing at it. He looks at me for a second before looking at Char and barely shaking his head. If I didn't know any better, I would have missed this gesture. Something was definitely up but what?

"I know you're the last one to be happy about this but believe me… it will be different this time. You won't feel those emotions so strongly that they would affect you." Peter spoke with a strong conviction that it almost made me trust him. "You will do better than ever, you'll be stronger than before…. Stronger than with Maria…. You need to heal and merge what's broken inside you. You can no longer be 3 personalities in one body and stay sane. It will break you further to the point of no return if you don't heal now. And the only way to do it is buy start feeding the original way. You can choose like Char and me; the scum of the earth and fatally ill if that helps ease your conscience."

I tune into my ability and test his emotions. He's absolutely convinced and telling the truth.

"Fine…..I'll do it just once and if the darkness comes back you will be the one to bear the brunt of it" I hiss at him knowing it was pointless arguing. He turns to Rose and Em, "You both too are going to do this and no… I'm not going to take a no for an answer! We all need to be at our most powerful for what's to come."

"What is coming? Why won't you tell us!" Rose countered him getting irritated as I was or maybe I was just projecting.

"I don't know yet." He looks at me as he speaks, "But when I do, you'll be the first to know."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Flashback Ends~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I was pulled out of my memories as I caught the scent of fresh blood and heard yelling. I converged on the scene and it looked like a drug deal had gone wrong. Perfect for me. Not that I enjoyed a druggie bag but it would at least curb my thirst. Murderers and rapists were my preferred choice as the initial adrenaline rush of their crime made their blood taste amazing before getting tainted by their fear.

Right… I was back to hunting humans. Turns out Peter was right. All I had to do was push enough lethargy to induce deep sleep and the fear was gone. They wouldn't feel a thing. Why didn't this come to us before; it's a mystery. That smug bastard. I still remember the smirk on his face from the time of my first hunt 2 years ago.

I had been slowly but surely merging with the Major and Ares. We now would share the head space constantly and be in control of each other to avoid immediate flying off the handle. We… or rather I had started to trust them both but was not completely together.

As I finished draining the last of my drug bags and was cleaning up the scene; my cell went off.

"Report, Captain." I speak into it; the Major on the forefront. He wouldn't intrude my hunt unless very important.

"Maria"

A/N PLEASE REVIEW AND LET ME KNOW IF I SHOULD CONTINUE