Numbness.
It's all Sylvie felt for days.
She was so thankful for Kelly, Stella and Foster. They all helped her get Matt's Funeral together.
Kelly made sure he got the proper farewell he deserved.
The house wasn't the same anymore.
Sylvie told Chief that she couldn't go back after the baby was born, as she could never go back there without Matt. Boden understood, and was fighting for her to get the best pensions possible.
Sylvies parents came to Chicago and stayed with Sylvie for a while, they are gonna stay after Matt's funeral, then come back when the baby is born.
It's the day of Matt's funeral.
Sylvies stands by the window looking out to the passing by cars as Kelly approaches her.
"The limo is here, Sylvie." Kelly says laying a hand on her shoulder.
Sylvie starts to sob and says "How am i supposed to do this without him?" Sylvie asks and then she adds "I keep praying this is all a bad dream because I don't know how to live without him, Kelly. How does one go on after a loss like this? My son will never know his father, and that kills me. I'm so angry and hurt and sad."
"I know it hurts, and I don't know how you are supposed to move on from this, but I know Matt would want you to." Kelly says as tears start to stream down his face.
Stella comes over as Sylvie starts to sob, and her legs threaten to give out on her.
"Shh, we got you girl." Stella says as her and Kelly both hold on to her.
"We have to go, unforatantially." Foster comes over and tells the three friends.
"Okaayy." Sylvie sobs and Foster takes Kelly's spot and helps Sylvie out of the house, all of 51, Christie and Violet and Sylvies parents waiting by the limo.
Numbness is all Sylvie feels its heart recking to know she's about to say goodbye forever to the love of her life.
All of 51 tries to be there for Sylvie but she just closes in on herself.
Once they reach the firefighters church where they were supposed to get Married at last week, she falls apart in Kellys arms and Herman comes over to try and help console Sylvie.
"I know kid, it's not fair." Herman says as he rubs her back.
Herman wishes he could have taken Matt's place, he had so much to live for, so much life left. It just wasn't fair. They all felt that way even Sylvie.
They walk in the church and the song shine your light on me, starts to play.
The cry of the city like a siren's song
Wailing over the rooftops the whole night long
Saw a shooting star like a diamond in the sky
Must be someone's soul passing by
Chief speaks first.
"Matthew Casey, well he was the best man i have ever had the privilege of knowing, he was an exceptional firefighter and leader, Friend, Almost husband and brother. He was like a Son to me, and it kills me to think he will never meet his own son." boden pauses as tears start to fall.
"He was such a kind soul, he would do anything for anybody no matter who you were.
Matt we will miss you, 51 will never be the same without. We love you Captain Casey."
With that Kelly goes up to the podium to speak next.
"I have known Matt since the academy, he was the bravest of the brave, the strongest person i knew. Life just kept throwing him curve balls and finally when life was going good for him, he got taken away from us way too soon. " Kelly had to pause as tears started to roll down his cheeks.
"Brother, I promise you I will take care of Sylvie and that son of yours. I promise he will know you and how much of a hero his dad was. Rest in peace matty, we love you."
Sylvie walks up to the podium and hugs Kelly and whispers in his ear "Thank you, stay with me please, i dont have the strength to do this alone."
"Of course." Kelly says and stands by Sylvies side as she reads from her letter to him.
"Matt i , i don't know how to say goodbye, we were supposed to die of old age in our bed together with the children and grandchildren surrounding us. I still feel like this is all a horrible nightmare that I'll wake up from. But with each passing day I know it's the frightening truth. My darling I love you, I don't know how to do this without you, but I promise I'll keep fighting everyday for you and our son. I know you wouldn't want to be sad, you would say something so selfless and right in this moment but I want to be selfish Matt I want you back so bad.`` Sylvie says and the sobs start to wrack her body.
Kelly takes Sylvie back to her seat as Herman rings the bell.
These are the streets
Where we used to run where your Papa's from
These are the days
Where you become what you become
These are the streets
Where the story's told
The truth unfolds
Darkness settles in
Ding, Ding, Ding
Ding, Ding, Ding
Ding, Ding, Ding
Foster takes over, consoling Sylvie as Kelly, Boden, Stella, Herman, Mouch and Cruz carry Matts caset out.
Sylvies barely keeps it together as she sobs into foster's shoulder, Cindy, Trudy, and Chole come over to try to pay their respects and \console the frantic widow.
Shine your light down on me
Lift me up so i can see
Shine your light when you're gone
Give me the strength
To carry on, carry on
Don't want to be a hero
Just an everyday man
Trying to do the job the very best he can
But now it's like living on borrowed time
Out on the rim, over the line
Always tempting fate like a game of chance
Never want to stick around to the very last dance
Sometimes i stumble and take a hard fall
Loose (?) hold your grip off the wall
Shine your light down on me
Lift me up so i can see
Shine your light when you're gone
Give me the strength to carry on
Carry on
I thought i saw him walking by the side of the road
Maybe trying to find his way home
He's here but not here
He's gone but not gone
Just hope he knows if I get lost
Shine your light down on me
Lift me up so i can see
Shine your light when you're gone
Give me the strength to carry on
To carry on
Matt casey 1980-2020
Forever Loved
Forever & Always
The End.