Sorry this chapter is a little on the short side but I thouhgt it was a good place to end it. Also its holidays so hopefully I will have more time on my hands to write more chapers. Hope you like it.

Disclaimer - I don't own divergent

Tobias POV

I hurry out of the science lab as soon as the end of day bell goes. Coach Amar made me strap my ankle after Gym which has helped a lot the swelling and pain was making it hard to walk. I shove my stuff in my locker and head to the entrance where I met Zeke and Uriah.

"Hey, you ready?" Zeke says, raising an eyebrow.

"As I'll ever be."

"Meet you at the hospital, Four," Uriah says waving goodbye.

They get in Uriah's ute as I put my helmet on and get on my bike waiting impatiently for the congested traffic to get out. As soon as I can I slip in a gap and drive off not too far behind Uriah and Zeke.

When I get there I park and head to the hospital entrance to meet Zeke and Uriah again. Then we go inside and sign in. We walk quietly down the white, hospital staff filled halls to Tris' room. As we get there I see Andrew and Natalie walking out of Tris' room.

"Hello, how are you, boys?" Natalie greats us.

"Not too bad how are you going with all this Natalie must be even harder for you then it is for us?"

She takes a deep breath, "I won't lie, it's hard but Tris is strong, we know that and the doctor is keeping us updated we're just taking it one day at a time." As she finishes, Andrew takes her hand.

"It will be alright, dear I know it will." They share a smile before turning back to us.

"We won't keep you any longer, see you soon."

"Yeah, see you soon Natalie, Andrew can you say hi to Caleb for me," Uriah says.

"We will bye." Natalie waves. They walk off down the halls so we head into Tris' room, this is it.

I take a seat next to Zeke Uriah on the opposite side. Looking around I take in my surroundings it is the same as before machines, tubes, screens, white lights and walls and Tris laying motionless in a hospital bed. None of us says anything for a while. We just sit there staring at Tris.

After several minutes Uriah breaks the silence, "This reminds me of Dad. I know this isn't him, it's Tris, but every time I go to the hospital I get reminded of him," his voice begins cracking as he speaks and his eyes become glassy, "I can barely remember him all I remember is that he used to pick me up and swing me around every time he came home and he loved basketball. And he used to call me 'his little snake'. I can't remember why but that's the reason I got this snake tattoo. " He turns to show me the tattoo behind his ear of a little snake curling up in a spiral-like shape, "I miss him." As Uriah finishes he wipes at the tears trailing down his cheek. Zeke walks over to Him and pulls him into a hug rubbing his back.

"I do too, Uriah, I do too. I miss him so much." He lets Uriah go sitting in the chair next to him, "It was so hard to see him like that, like Tris is now," as Zeke says that I look at Tris laying there before me and take her cold hand in mine, "I still get dreams about it. As time passed I have found a little light, sometimes where I can think about the times I used to spend with him and smile. It will be alright Uriah, Tris will be all right she will wake up. I know that Dad didn't and I wish with every fibre of my body that he did, I do I really really do, I miss him so much. But we have each other and Mom, Tris, Four," he looks at me and winks clearly holding back tears, "And all our other friends. And we have to live life. I know how cliche it is but that's what he would have wanted. He always encouraged me to make the best of things and live with no regrets and that's what I'm gonna do. And I will always be there for you too. Promise."

Uriah and Zeke hug again crying quietly, "Thank you, Zeke, you always have been there for me."

"And I always will."

I watch as Zeke comforts Uriah feeling like I'm intruding on a private moment. Zeke has obviously been more of a father figure than a brother to Uriah since… their father passed. I have rarely seen this side of Zeke all broken but strong and comforting. He is usually so happy and joking. It makes me see that everyone has been broken or is broken. It's just how they choose to put themselves together that we really notice or care about, not what they have been through or are going through. We just judge based on what is there in front of us. I never want to be like that. I want to see people the way they truly are and accept them no matter how broken and bruised.

Zeke and Uriah break apart patting each other on the back, "No more sappy stuff about us Four doesn't want to see any of that and we can here to see Tris." Zeke jokes changing his demeanour and the sombre mood.

I let go of Tris' hand, "You two are so cliche." We chuckle, "I'm joking, I understand what it's like to lose a parent and feel like…"

"You don't know what to do with your life. Like a part of you is missing" Uriah fills in.

"Yep."

"Did you lose your Mom, Four?" Zeke asks.

"Oh yeah I don't talk about it much but it was a while ago and I am fine now."

Zeke raises an eyebrow but says nothing about what I know he was thinking, "What's the time?" he says instead.

"4:06 pm, we should probably go," Uriah says.

"Yeah, you coming or staying, Four?"

"I'll stay for a bit, I'll see you two tomorrow then?" I say needing some alone time with Tris to say goodbye.

"Okay, then we'll see you tomorrow. Bye Tris, see you tomorrow too." Uriah says.

Zeke nodds at me knowingly, "Yeah see you tomorrow Tris. Bye Four."

"Bye." They walk out the door leaving me to say goodbye to Tris. I sit there staring at her, I'm probably weird but I don't care, she is beautiful. Even with all of the tubes and machines around her, she is still so beautiful and strong and perfect. That is why I have to let her go, she can't be roped further into my life, she doesn't deserve it and I don't deserve her.

Taking a breath I compose myself, the faster I do this the easier because the more I stay here the harder it is to leave. I close my eyes and relive the few moments we were together in each other's company. The first time we met was when she spilt coffee on me at the cafe. When our families had dinner together and she found out my name, all those times at school that we sat around joking and talking with each other and the rest of the gang. When I told her about Marcus and my past by the Chasm I was so vulnerable then but she thought I was strong and she made me want to be strong for once. When I kissed her at the party it was the best moment of my life and when we found her that night at the Chasm lying motionless on the moist, cold rocks I don't know what I would have done if we didn't find her. But now I have to stop spending time with her to keep her safe all because of Marcus and because I let my walls down and put her in danger.

I clench my teeth and open my eyes looking at Tris. This is about saying goodbye to her, it's not about Marcus it's about her. I have to do it now, stop stalling, I tell myself. I lean down and gently kiss her forehead. I open my mouth to speak but nothing comes out, it is so hard just to say one word but that one word changes everything. Come one you have to do this I will myself.

I sigh knowing how pathetic I'm being but this is so hard. I grab her hand and try again, "Hey Tris, you probably can't hear me but I need to say this anyway. I'm sorry that I got you into this mess, you don't deserve it. You are so fierce, strong, brave, loyal, understanding, smart, selfless and so many more things. When I met you that was the first time I had smiled in weeks, all of a sudden I finally had something worth living for and that was you," I smile.

"When I kissed you at the party that was the best moment of my life, you made me forget everything that was wrong in my life and you helped me see the good. I liked you from the moment we met in the cafe, the fire in your eyes made me want to know more about you."

I sigh, "You were never meant to mean this much to me, I was never supposed to fall as hard as I did. But you know what? I did. I don't regret liking you and that's the truth, you are my light but if I stay with you and keep you shining in my life you will go out. I don't want you to go out because of me, you are to special and that's what keeps me holding on because it hurts like hell to let you go," I feel a tear roll down my cheek and I don't even bother whipping it away, I don't care if I am weak now because this is even worse then the hell that Marus gives me.

"I really like you Tris a lot but everyone that I am ever close to ends up getting hurt. I tried to stop myself falling for you but you made it so hard and when I found out you were missing there was no way in hell I wasn't going to find you. I let you into my s*hole of a life, I let my walls down and that made you a target for Marcus. I could just defy him and become even closer to you but he knows that I would never let any harm come to you, I need to protect you, Tris. So I have to do this I have to let you go," I am sobbing now the tears blurring my vision of her.

"Even though it breaks me into a million pieces to do this I have to because I would never forgive myself if I let any harm come to you. I want to be there for you especially when your Mom is battling cancer and there are so many bad things happening in your life but I would only make it worse because Marcus would hurt you. I hate, hate that he has so much control over me and that he would threaten you just because I care about you. If I could hurt him I would but I've tried before and that only makes his torment worse.

"So when you wake up we will go our separate ways and I will try to distance myself from you and we will be strangers again." I half laugh half sob, "It's weird having to let go of you when we weren't even dating but the little time we spent together was one of the happiest times of my life." I almost cringe through my crying at how cliche and dramatic I'm being but I don't really care because this is so hard for me and I like Tris so much that nothing else matters but her. "You probably won't remember any of this but I will never forget it. Bye Tris," I kiss her on the forehead one last time and leave before I let go of her hand and stand up. I try no to look at her as I leave because I don't know if I could force my concrete feet away if I did.

The song is 'Let Her Go' by Passenger.