Close to me

Chapter 29: Chapter 29

Close to me

Category : Anime Fairy Tail

Author : MisZ Anarchy

Language : English

Rating : M

Disclaim – Fairy Tail belongs to Hiro Mashima.

Chapter 29

"I will fight, I will fight for you, I always do until my heart is black and blue" Andy Grammer – Don't give up on me

After that day I almost never saw Lucy sad again. Yes she expressed happiness with her beautiful smile, she expressed irritation with the simple roll of her eyes, anger with the frown creases on her forehead and so many more but I didn't ever witness sadness. It was like it would be the first and last time that I ever see her bear her sadness to the world.

I watch as she walks towards our office. A cool winter breeze kissing her hair as it blows lightly into different directions. It's been a week or so since I saw her in her crying state. Since then I have not witness any more tears rolling down her cheeks. When I saw her she would smile, and it was the true Lucy smile that we knew and loved. It was like that day had never happened in the first place. The incident itself had not happened.

I could hear her footsteps coming closer and closer as I waited for her in the office, watching her through the window. It was Wednesday, the support personnel could wear jeans. She was sporting this black skinny jean with some pumps and a beautiful top. She always dressed to kill. As soon as she enters the door to our office I grab for her wrist and stop her in her step. She looks a bit surprised as she stares down at me, like I caught her completely off guard.

"Hey Luce." I greet and her eyes remain on mine as she looks down to my sitting form.

"Hey… Natsu…"she hesitantly say. Most of the people were out at the moment, I knew Laxus and Jellal were out patrolling. I was posted with Gray today and he came in to complete some documents at Human Resources. In the past week, I had contemplated a lot of things. And one was I letting my self-control slip with this girl. She drove me weak and I find myself deciding to stay away only to long for her even more every time I see her.

"How are you?" I say as I touch her wrist where I had grabbed her. And I let my fingers play over her soft skin. She was becoming like a drug and my resistance was deteriorating.

She looks down to my hand and a soft smile is on her lips.

"I'm okay, how are you?" she asks as she diverts her eyes to mine. My resolve could not keep up with my mind. I knew I shouldn't and note there was more then one reason not to have any relations with this woman, but they were nil and void.

I steady myself somewhat in my seat before I pull at her, catching her off guard, as she stumbles forward and into my lap. Her eyes snap up as she looks at me, they are full of wonder as she stares at me but she makes no effort to move. "I'm sorry." I tell her as I place my other arm behind her back to support her more and have her lean against me.

"For what?" she asks and she was playing dumb because she knew what I was sorry for.

"You know, the righteous voice in my mind tells me this is wrong, but I can't help myself because what we have and what it is leading up to, I still want it. I'm at a point where I'm not going to listen to reason, because I want this so badly." I say slightly moving closer to her. Her eyes go wide as realization sets in. Was she even going to consider my apology and give me a second chance? The worst answer I could get was a no, and I felt like that was reason to not do this then knowing I am married or that my best friend is in love with her.

She inches a bit closer, her eyes meeting mine. "Natsu will you honestly be okay doing this even with what's at stake? I'm worried you might regret it and your conscious would end up eating you alive." She says and she is completely serious as she continues to speak.

"You talk like this will only effect me. What about you?" I ask and I was concerned about her and how she would end up feeling if we did do this.

"What about me?" she asks placing her hand behind my neck, letting her fingers play with the ends of my hair. "Natsu, don't worry about me. I know full well what to expect going into this. And believe me it won't end up eating me whole when it comes to an end. Guilt is not my enemy. And I don't regret anything that I have ever done." She states. I blink my eyes and stare at her because I don't buy it. I don't buy this one bit. She will end up feeling guilty, and I am sure we both were human and this urge and need that needs satisfying will end up playing on our conscious.

"How is that even possible?" I ask.

"I don't regret anything in my life, because at that time and place it was exactly what I wanted." She replies inching closer. "But also know if you want out I will understand and I won't think differently of you. We haven't really done anything that permits that we physically started something." She states and I sometimes wonder how her logic works, because touching her and seeing her on the phone was some form of initiation. But then again her logic made sense. So I did the only thing I thought was right and I set everything in motion.

I pulled her closer to me and my lips found hers, and I kissed her with so much raw passion that if this kiss lasted longer then the mere few seconds it did, then I wouldn't be able to stand up and walk till my nerves calmed down. She committed shyly to the kiss as she wiggles slightly and then pulls away.

"Our fate has been set in motion." She mutters as she rises to her feet and out of my reach. I look at her longingly as to why this was so short lived, but we both were slightly flushed and there was a red hue on her cheeks as she turns to the side, pulling at her shirt. And that's when I hear the footsteps down the hall too someone who was approaching our way. "But we can't do shit like that here." She says tucking her hair behind her ear.

I look up and too the side. She was right. The walls had ears and eyes and I doubt either of us wanted anyone to know about this or us.