A/N : Here's a long one since it's been a little while since I've been able to update, hope you all enjoy and had a nice holiday yesterday.

XxX

She was starting to think he wasn't coming back. She'd already gone through her whole nighttime routine; washed her face, brushed her teeth, and changed into a pair of shorts and tank top she liked to sleep in. She put them on and debated changing again. It wasn't exactly a 'sexy' outfit for bed, if he did show up…

Her thoughts were cut short when she heard her window sliding open. Her heart leapt to her throat as she turned around to see Zed sneaking inside. He finished climbing in and quietly closed the window behind him.

She stood frozen as she watched his slow, calculated movements. And with a final click, he was in. He turned, immediately smiling when he saw her.

"Sorry I'm late." He apologized in a whisper. She let out a breathy laugh and rushed to close the distance between them. He gladly opened his arms to catch her as she crashed into him, arms circling his neck and lips covering his.

Her heart was racing and excitement coursed through her veins. A giggle crept up her throat when the realization of her adrenaline hit her. Zed pulled back slightly with a curious smile.

"I didn't know if you were actually coming or not." She admitted. Zed chuckled and pressed his forehead to hers.

"Needed a good place to stash my car but I'd never leave you hanging, Addy." He assured, his arms tightening around her waist to hold her closer.

The thin fabric of her tank top acting as a virtually nonexistent barrier between them, making it incredibly easy for her skin to feel every touch. Both contently holding the other and refusing to relinquish their closeness. The air surrounding them thickened as the seconds ticked by.

Addison's eyes flickered down to his lips as they drew closer, her tongue instinctively licking her own in anticipation. She could feel his breath fanning over her face. Then their lips brushed. Sparks ignited behind her eyes and she pressed into him, hungry for more.

His fingers gripping the flesh of her hips in his own excitement and restraint. He wanted to let go, make love to her in her bed, to shower her in all his affections. But he held himself back.

He would go at her pace, not his.

But he could still show her how much he loves her.

In one swift movement, Zed had effortlessly hoisted her up into his arms and guided her legs to wrap around his waist. She noted the slight chill of his fingers, probably from the cold fall night he'd had to walk through to get back to her.

Addison hooked her ankles behind his tailbone as she tangled her fingers in his thick green hair, her tongue greedily battling his for more territory. He wasn't gonna back down that easily though. A deep hum rumbled in his chest in appreciation of her challenge for dominance.

He was really enjoying watching her transform from a little, shy, bookworm into this strong, confident, sexy woman. His hands slid up her thighs to grope her sparsely covered ass, drawing a moan from her.

It was suddenly frustrating that she couldn't feel his skin under her fingertips. She tugged and pulled at his jacket, wanting it gone. He kept one arm wrapped around her at a time and shrugged out of the garment, swiftly walking over to her bed and kneeling on the mattress. He laid her down beneath him without breaking their kisses.

Her hands didn't stop pulling at his clothes, palms gliding across his tight abs as she pushed his shirt up his torso. He sat up completely, grabbing the collar from behind his neck and tugging it roughly over his head before throwing it haphazardly across the room. Then his lips returned to hers the next instant.

The now familiar coil of desire in her belly tightened almost uncomfortably as she freely explored his skin.

He rested half his weight over her, allowing one hand to roam as well. It skimmed up her side, hiking up the thin fabric of her tank top until his fingertips brushed the underside of her breast. Successfully taking her breath away.

She craved more of his touch. For him to relieve the ache building between her legs. She wanted to touch him too. Wanted to make him want her as much as she wanted him.

With just a slight shift, she let her hands creep down his abdomen, relishing in every taut muscle until she reached the stiff appendage under his jeans. Zed groaned into her mouth, bringing his roaming hand up further to palm her breast.

Addison gasped.

Her body arching off the mattress to press firmly against his touch, her head thrown back in ecstasy. Zed's lips attached to her neck, unwilling to relinquish her taste as he began gently massaging her perky mound.

She held her eyes shut, breathing accelerated along with her heart rate. The meticulous affections he was giving made it hard for her not to moan at the top of her lungs. But he was making it even harder to concentrate, her hand still planted on his rock solid manhood. She forced herself to try ignoring the amazing things his hands and mouth were doing to her and instead focusing on freeing his member.

Managing to shimmy her other hand under him, she fumbled with the button and fly of his jeans. He lifted his hips slightly to make her task easier but pinched her nipple between his fingers as a reminder of his presence. Addy bit her lip to stifle the cry of pleasure that crept up her throat.

Zed kissed up the column of her neck, across her jaw, until he found her lips again. His hand sliding out of her top to awkwardly pull his jeans and boxers down his hips further, his dick freeing from the restraints and springing out into her palm. She whimpered needily into his kiss.

Her fingers curled around his dick, stroking slowly over his velvety skin. He groaned, the noise sent excitement coursing through her veins. Every time she could return the incredible feelings he gave to her, it boosted her confidence to the next level.

But suddenly, even the miniscule clothing she had on felt like she was in a wool sweater.

"Zed," she whispered between panting breaths.

"Yeah?" He asked equally as breathless, further fueling the heat between her legs.

"I— too much clothes." She managed. Zed chuckled lightly, wrapping his strong arms around her back and gently lifting her against his chest till they were upright.

While he made quick work of his remaining clothing, she awkwardly removed her hand from his manhood, feeling embarrassed if she kept holding it in this new position. Almost turning her eyes away from his gorgeously toned body, not wanting to objectify him. But the sight of his completely bare state made her throat run dry and she couldn't help herself. Her sheepish thoughts were quickly snapped short as Zed slid her tank top over her head.

He allowed himself to appreciate her beautiful body for only a moment until he realized her fidgeting uncomfortably. His brows furrowed.

She couldn't possibly think she wasn't beautiful, could she? He's made it very clear that he finds her very attractive. But does she still have doubts?

Zed reached forward; one hand cradling her jaw, the other sliding sprawling across her lower back to pull her closer. "You're beautiful, Addy."

After sucking in a sharp breath, she let out a sigh and her shoulders relaxed. "I love you, Zed."

"I love you too." He smiled breathlessly and reconnected their lips with light pressure, teasing her tongue by pulling back just as she tried slipping it into his mouth. The little whine that left her made his smile grow wider. He indulged her desire by immediately delving his tongue against hers the next moment, greedily swallowing her desperate moan as he gently laid her back.

Her hand re-grasped his manhood, his own moan mingling with hers from the soft stroking motion sending waves of pleasure coursing through his body. Carefully, he tucked his knees underneath him to free up his hands, he slid them down her body, his dick twitching in her hand when he reached the sexy little dip between her slender waist and round hips. A shiver ran down Addison's spine from the growl that rumbled in his chest.

When he sat up and gently tugged her shorts and panties down her thighs, her heart got lodged in her throat. He's over her, eyes skimming over her naked form. Even though she knew he thought she was beautiful (and she was incredibly in love with him), it didn't diminish the vulnerability she felt being seen by a man for the first time.

The overwhelming need for his comfort filled her stomach. She grabbed his forearm and guided him back down overtop of her, their lips locking as she sifted her free fingers through his hair.

With their clothing finally gone, her body ignited with fire as soon as his solid chest pressed down against her soft breasts. She gasped into his mouth. It was an entirely new sensation to be skin on skin with the man she'd fallen for, who she intended to give her first time to.

Her whole body started to shake with anticipation and excitement.

Zed could feel her trembling but the way her mouth moved desperately against his told him clearly that she needed relief. He slid his hand down her body to the apex of her thighs, not wasting any time dipping his fingers between her folds. He swallowed her cry of pleasure to keep their secret love affair fairly quiet as his digits began by circling the sensitive nub between her legs.

"Mmm, mmm," her moans muffled by his kisses until she pulled back and brought her hand up to cradle his face, voice thick with passion, "Zed, I want you." She whispered.

He searched her gorgeous blue eyes for any hesitation, any nervousness about giving away her virginity, any reason she could have that she wasn't ready. But he only found loving excitement staring back at him.

"Are you sure, Addy? I'm fine with just fooling around if you're not totally sure yet." He assured, leaning down to plant affectionate teasing kisses to the underside of her jawline. She giggled gently pressing against his chest to force him to look at her again.

"Yes, I'm sure." She says softly. "I trust you. You're the one I wanna be with."

Zed surged forward, unable to resist her sweet lips anymore. His heart was so full of love and adoration for this incredible woman laying in his arms. She was loving and trusting and just straight up amazing! She was everything he could ever want and more.

He was sure that he finally found his soulmate. The person he was always meant to be with. All the fuck ups he'd done until this point lead him to her. She was always the one who was meant to make him want to be a better person again. He wanted to turn his life around to even remotely deserve her love.

But she allowed him into her life without hesitation.

He made a vow to himself to show her how much he truly cares about her. To make her first time as painless and pleasurable as he possibly could. And communicating was the only way to do that.

The task of taming down their fiery kisses wasn't easy but he slowed their pace to a more leisurely, passionate display of affections rather than rushed and sloppy. He was happy she was excited (and he was too) but he knew if they kept going as overzealous as they were, it would result in a rough, painful, and very unpleasant experience for her. That was the last thing he wanted.

Addison moaned, his passionate kisses making her feel so warm and loved and adding to her want to move their relationship to the next level. She ground her hips into his hand insistently, groaning even more from the increased friction. But it didn't last nearly long enough, her groan turning into a whine when his fingers and lips disappeared from against her skin. She stared up at him, desperate for more, and saw him smiling softly down at her.

"If we keep going, I want you to tell me if something doesn't feel good, okay? Even if it just makes you uncomfortable, I wanna know. I don't care what I'm enjoying, I care about what you're enjoying." He laid out for her, making it crystal clear that she was in control no matter what. "If any of it's too much, we'll stop. We stay open and honest with each other, alright?"

Addison softened, how could such an incredibly sweet and loving soul be labeled as the big bad man on campus? He has been nothing short of a gentleman since they'd confessed their feelings for one another. Always more concerned with her feelings and consent than his own. It's really no wonder she fell so fast for him.

She returned his smile and gave a nod of agreement, pink dusting her cheeks before he leaned back in to reconnect their lips. The kiss was still slow but this one felt even more intense, like she was his lifeline. Like she was the only thing keeping him from withering into nothingness. His last breath. His last meal.

He laid himself fully overtop of her, his hips gently nudging her legs further open for him to rest intimately against her womanhood. His lips moved to her neck, hands greedily groping at the soft flesh of her breast and ass.

Her body was on fire again. Her senses on overdrive. He's everywhere, everything. His touch, his scent, his sounds, his kisses, everything was driving her crazy. And she was struggling to keep quiet with his mouth so far from hers.

But suddenly, his mouth returned to hers and he was pressing into her opening. She gasped, not having even noticed when he had positioned himself there. His tongue still ravished hers, hands pawing at her sensitive mounds, the mix of sensations keeping her just distracted enough to not feel as much discomfort while he slid further inside. Of course she still felt it. Oh she still felt it. Her walls stretching to accommodate his well endowed length. But his affections kept her attention on the pleasant things as he pressed forward.

When he finally stopped, she sighed in relief, her whole body relaxing. Even her feminine muscles eased from tension since it wasn't as painful as she was always told. Zed moved his arms to wrap fully around her, holding her tight to his chest. She hugged him back, burying her face in the crook of his neck. It was a strange feeling, not quite what she'd expected, but she still felt a little more connected with Zed and she could be happy with that.

"I'm sorry." He muttered into her hair. She didn't have time to be confused by his statement before he snapped his hips against hers, breaking the thin barrier of her virginity.

Addison couldn't breathe, could barely even make a noise. Pain shooting up through her core and out to every limb. Her only saving grace is Zed; holding her tight, whispering comforts in her ear, and staying as still as possible seated deep inside her. She cried into his shoulder, unable to hold back the tears that spilled over her lids.

"It's ok, Addy. Just breathe. You're doing amazing. I've got you." Zed continued to encourage, planting kisses to her head as further comfort and assurance that he was there. She focused on her breathing, following his steady ones and trying her best to relax. She could feel the aching pulse low in her gut that's intensified by Zed's member filling her.

They stayed that way for several minutes, holding onto one another without moving. While she adjusted, her mind wondered how her first time would have been if it wasn't with someone as considerate as Zed was being to her. She winced at the thought.

Then her mindset shifted to how genuinely amazing Zed really was, and she wanted to be amazing for him too. He deserved it.

Doing a quick mental self evaluation, she realized that the shooting pain between her legs had dulled to only a mere ache. Totally bearable. She wanted to test the waters.

So, she planted her lips to the side of his neck, combing her fingers through his hair as she kissed his skin, and cautiously shifted her hips. The groan that left Zed's throat completely turned her on, making the pleasant friction she was creating ten times better. But suddenly he was grabbing at her waist to make her stop.

"Oh fuck! Wait wait wait! Adds, stop!" He whispered frantically. She pulled back, looking up at him in confusion since it had sounded like he was liking it. "Sorry, I almost fucked this up." He told her awkwardly. Her head tilted with even more confusion, making him chuckle. He sat up on his hands and slowly pulled out of her, she winced when his tip was finally free. Suddenly feeling so empty was bizarre for her, but she knew it was because she missed feeling connected with Zed more than anything.

The rip of foil brought her back to the present. She looked up and saw Zed rolling the condom over his length. "That felt way too good not to be wearing one of these." He smirked teasingly.

Still flustered and panting, she somehow managed to form coherent sentences. "A condom? But I got put on birth control." She asked, slightly disoriented.

"Yeah, like this morning." Zed laughed quietly, crawling back over her, their noses brushing. "That stuff needs a little time to take proper effect."

"Oh." She responded softly, eyes locked with an intensity that left her brain short circuited again.

Zed leaned in to close the last inch between them, stopping so close that his lips were barely touching hers. Her breathing shaky with anticipation, craving more of his affection. "And we are not ready for kids yet." He whispered sensually, covering her open mouth with his own the next instant.

Addison whimpered, her mind screaming with elation, 'He said yet!' Her heart was soaring, he really did see a future with her! She poured her emotions into kissing him, hugging around his neck a little tighter, trying her best to show him how much he meant to her.

The moan that crept up his throat mixed with the equal fervor he gave in return set her lower region burning hotter than molten lava with desire. She craved that feeling of oneness with him.

As though he had read her mind, Zed pulled back panting for air. "Ready to try again?" He asked. She nodded her agreement and tightened her hold around his neck. He didn't miss the nervous gesture and brushed his lips lightly with hers. "Just say the word and we can stop." A shiver ran down her spine with his soft, assuring words.

Damn, she never knew consent could be so sexy.

"I'm okay." She replied breathily. Zed's face softened and leaned down to kiss her again, not wasting time to reposition his covered member at her entrance and slowly started to push inside. Addison bit her lip to keep from whimpering, her opening still so tender to the touch and Zed was stretching her wide once more. He went slow though, trying his best not to hurt her too much.

But holy fuck did she feel amazing around him, so tight yet so wet that he could glide in effortlessly. He squeezed his eyes shut and buried his face in the crook of her neck as he bit back a moan, focusing on not giving into what felt good and instead on what Addison needed.

When he was finally seated fully inside her again, he stopped, sitting up on his elbows to look at her. She was so beautiful; hair tousled and sprawled across her pillow, the light of the moon spilling in though the window and illuminating her pale skin, showing off the flush of her cheeks. It still amazed him that, of all people, she chose him.

But his adorations were cut short as she pulled his face down to meet her lips. Her nails digging into his back, arms pulling him as close as she could, desperate to feel him with her. Her body shifting and squirming against his, the stillness almost felt worse than when he was moving.

She ground her hips up against his, encouraging him to continue. The movement made him moan into her mouth, starting a very slow, testing rhythm of pulling and pushing in and out of her.

"Ah fuck, Addy, you feel so amazing," he groaned between kisses. Her whimpered moan of reply along with the way her hips met each tentative thrust told him she was starting to enjoy it.

Addison relished in the binding feeling of connection, feeling like she was one with him, body and soul. Her already racing heart began to pound harder. Her thighs hugging his hips, erotically grinding against her own. The rhythm had gradually shifted from hesitant to fluid, still steady without a need to rush. Their bodies moved together in perfect harmony, she found it so easy to follow Zed's lead.

The infernal coil in her lower belly sent heat flaring outwards, creeping up her torso and making every extremity tingle as something big approached. It felt familiar, similar to the time Zed fingerbanged her in the back seat of his car, but more intense.

Zed was getting close. The way she met every drive of his manhood deep inside her tight, wet, welcoming hole was very quickly bringing him to the brink of finishing. He tightened his hold around her, embracing her and pouring his heart into kissing her, loving on her.

Addison's toes began to curl, her back arching, her breath hitching in her throat. Both of them increasing pace with desperate need, breathless and panting.

And suddenly…BAMM!

Their orgasms hit with ground breaking force. Addison started to scream out of elation but Zed clasped his hand over her mouth to keep it muffled.

"Addison! Ahh!" His own moans smothered in the pillow beside her ear, elongating her climax from the mere thought that she made him cum so hard.

Her cries died down to whimpers so Zed removed his hand from her mouth, giving her a gentle peck as they rode out the surges of endorphins coursing their systems. The adrenaline and emotions bubbling up to the surface as they laid in a mess of tangled limbs, neither attempting to move away in the slightest.

She couldn't stop the giggle that escaped just out of pure ecstasy. There she was (Addison Davis, bookworm extraordinaire) cuddling postcoital with (Zed Necrodopolous, rebellious bad boy) the man she'd fallen in love with. Even if she was already feeling sore and achy, she didn't even care. Zed was there and he loves her just as much as she loves him.

Zed was on cloud nine. Making love with Addison was definitely the most passionate and gratifying act (not only physically but also emotionally) he'd ever felt before. It was like he'd found the elusive nirvana some search their entire lives for yet never find.

In such a short time, she'd managed to completely hijack his life. Since he'd moved to this shitty little town, he had never once questioned his decisions until he met her. Every waking thought revolved around her. She'd taken his heart hostage and he was a willing victim.

He was deeply and irrefutably in love with this breathtaking young woman.

Carefully, he pulled his softening length out of her, planting a firm kiss to her forehead and whispering a quiet apology when she winced. He sat up, removing the condom and tying off the end. He leaned over to grab a couple tissues from her nightstand and whipped himself as clean as he could, then wrapped the soiled tissue and condom in the other and tossed the bundle down with his pile of clothes to dispose of. But he'd worry about that later.

Right now, he just wanted to bask in the glow that came with making love to the love of his life.

He crawled beside her and laid down, pulling her in as she scooted closer and curled to snuggle against his chest. "Wow." He breathed out a blissful sigh, kissing the crown of her head affectionately.

Addison giggled. "Yeah, wow." She agreed, just barely audible in her low whisper.

With the sudden calm settling between them, everything began to really sink in. It was like her emotions had been particularly suppressed with the distraction of the mild pain and now her hormones were catching up to her. She didn't even know why she was crying. She was just so happy that it was overflowing through her onslaught of tears.

Hearing the first sniffles immediately sent Zed into a panic. Was she in pain?! Everything was fine two seconds ago! "Are you ok, Baby? Are you hurting? Do you need me to get you something?" He questioned as quietly as he could in his slightly frantic state. She shook her head, causing his brows to furrow.

He shifted to sit up on his side to get a better look at her but she just countered his attempt by burying her face more into his chest to hide her embarrassing tears. He wrapped her in a tight hug. If comfort was what she wanted, he'd gladly give it to her.

"Addy, if you're hurting, just tell me. I can get you something to ease the pain." He basically begged, rubbing her bare back and kissing her hair to console her quiet crying.

A small laugh bubbled up and mixed with her happy sob, sounding like an absolutely ridiculous hiccup. He was too good to her, so loving and considerate. She mumbled something incoherently against his skin.

"What was that, Baby?" He asked for clarity.

'Fuck it,' she thought to herself. She'd already humiliated herself like ten times tonight in front of him and he didn't even bat an eye at them. What's one more?

She tried her best to compose herself, at least to not be ugly crying, before slowly lifting her head and finally looking at him. "It's 'cause I feel so lucky to have you." She admitted, turning her eyes away in embarrassment. But Zed was quick to use his knuckle to lift her chin.

"I'm the one who's lucky. You're the greatest thing that's ever happened to me." He told her sincerely. "I love you more than I've ever loved anything."

Ok if she wasn't already crying, she definitely was now. She choked on a sob and threw herself back against his chest. "I love you so much." She cried. It was the closest thing she could come up with in her over emotional state to even remotely describe how much he really meant to her.

Zed sighed with bliss hearing those words leave her lips. He was sure he'd never get used to it. Her love was like the best high he'd ever had. He craved it. He just happened to be lucky enough to have a seemingly endless supply. Or as long as she'd have him at least.

He held her tight, wishing away the tears landing on his skin, and laid them back down for some much needed post-sex cuddling.

XxX

"Damn, when did it get so late?" Zed muttered in disbelief, finally looking over at her digital clock when his beloved girlfriend yawned. They'd (apparently) been cuddling and talking for the last several hours. And it didn't even feel like it'd been that long. Time always flew when he spent it with Addison.

He started to sit up but the blonde squeezed his middle to keep him in place. The pout on her face when he looked down made him chuckle.

"What?" He asked in amusement.

"Can't you stay a little longer? We're not even—" her mouth suddenly goes agape with a big yawn, "—tired yet."

"Hm, is that so." He hummed humorously, leaning down to plant an affectionate kiss to her lips. Her eyes flutter closed with a blissful sigh. And when he tries getting up again, she doesn't fight.

"It's 1 am, Addy. I'm already gonna get an ear full from my dad, but hopefully he'll take it easy on me since it's the weekend." He slid off the bed and started getting dressed, glancing back with a soft smile seeing Addison struggling to keep her eyes open. He finished buckling his belt and knelt down at her bedside, tugging the blanket further up over her shoulders.

"Plus I know you're exhausted." He added playfully.

"No I'm not." She mumbled sleepily, unable to hold her eyes open anymore. Zed smiled and brushed a blonde curl behind her ear.

"Get some rest, Baby." He whispered, leaning in to kiss her lips softly. She sighed in contentment, half asleep already, attempting to deepen the contact but he pulled back before she could. He stayed at her bedside a few more minutes, petting her hair affectionately while she drifted off to sleep. He couldn't help but smile seeing her peaceful face and hearing each slow, even breath, confirming to him that she was fully asleep.

He wished he could just stay there all night, cuddle and watch over her while she slept. Maybe even get a glorious night's sleep himself with his queen in his arms.

With a heavy sigh, he stood from his crouched position, knowing that was not even remotely an option. Picking up his shirt, he quickly pulled it over his head and grabbed his black jean jacket off the floor.

At the corner of his eye, he spots his leather one draped over the back of her desk chair. The familiar warm, worn leather sounding so amazing to combat the bitter cold awaiting him outside. The only thing keeping him from just going ahead and putting it on was the sleeping girl behind him.

He'd let her borrow it last night after their movie date and he didn't want her to feel hurt that he just took it back without telling her. Though, she did try to deny it when he gave it to her to begin with, knowing how much that jacket means to him.

'She'll understand.' He decided, walking over and putting it on. Then returned to the bedside to plant a final kiss to Addison's temple and grabbed the discarded bundle of tissue to shove in his pocket.

When he started to climb out her window, he spared her one last fond glance before he climbed out and closed the window behind him. Once safely on solid ground, he made the short trek back to his car. His mood light and thoughts solely on only a certain blonde that kept his heart safe and sound.