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The end in the beginning ch.13
Usagi POV
Using the backdoor they all slip in having used the lesser amount of news vans to their advantage to come in. Ami is looking upset and fired up that our school sent me home instead of trying to help me better while the others are sympathetic knowing that things have only gotten worse and not better as we were hoping. Almost as if they were wondering if this was going to happen the rest of them or not.
I couldn't blame them, so far, they were fine from their own secret identities from being out there but with this new enemy there was no guarantee that would work. I could see the doubt begin to creep up within everyone. I see my parents greeting them though their unsure as to why, "So I guess Usagi going to be explaining herself to you to." my father assumingly asked as my mother called Shingo downstairs.
Mamoru stood by my side as I sat on the couch. I was glad that I didn't have to work a shift at the arcade again till tomorrow since I knew this would take a while, considering the information bomb I was about to drop. I was hoping I could still keep my job at least; that Motoki would let me still work there despite everything going on. Even if he placed me around back for cooking or something, cleaning but let me keep it.
When I saw Luna and Artemis pop in, giving me encouraging glances I knew it was time. A long one coming to. I squared my shoulders and with the girls surrounding me for support and comfort I began, "Mom, dad, Shingo…" I watched them sit down together, with Shingo sitting in a chair further from everyone. Like he wanted to hear it but wanted to have a quick exit in case it got too intense for him.
It almost felt like it was us versus them bit and I didn't like that. I didn't want this to continue on so I tried to relay everything out the best that I could. "I don't really know how to start this off so I'm just going to jump on in." and so began the incredibly long story of how this journey, our journey began. from Luna's discovery of me as a senshi, my first transformation, to discovering the girls as senshi.
My parents looked at them on that one, one by one as if seeing them all now in a new light even as they continued to listen on as I explained how I found out Mamoru was Tuxedo Mask, not relaying the part where I was on Mamoru's bed when that happened, I had a feeling my dad might get a little hung up on that part and misconstrue that noting beyond a kiss had happened beforehand or afterwards.
We had had a few more pressing things going on. I told them that how despite our civilian verbal arguments that resulted between he and I that we wound up confessing that we loved each other, and the arguments were more of us trying to fight our feelings for the other cause we didn't want to admit that we liked each other. That prompted mother to smile between the two of us. That was a nice little treat for my parents to hear.
I told them of the enemies we had faced, how they related to the natural phenomenon's we had dealt with, nearly dying several times over, though I was wincing when I admitted to that since both of my parents looked horrified that I technically did die at least twice. I probably should have glossed over it, but dad insisted on the truth and nothing but it so when a few things got mentioned I kinda had no choice but to be truthful on all of it.
To hear that we had been reborn from the past was a hard pill to swallow especially since they didn't believe it. At least not until Mamoru and I transformed into our past selves then the totally belief happened. I think my parents were glad they were sitting down for that. We only let the transformation last a few minutes before going back to our regular clothes. I'm just glad that we kept the future stuff to ourselves.
That was one pill that was just to much and not necessary to tell. There was only so much that was needed to know at this point and to tell them about time traveling into the future to save my future self, or to find out what really needed to be saved was the future world that Wiseman had tried to convert into a wasteland for his world as the Doom Phantom, or that I was a Queen in the future world either.
Plus, I wasn't in the mood to try to go into that or that Chibi Usa was Mamoru's and mine's future daughter and not a cousin that they never questioned who in the family gave birth to her. I was always glad for that since no one in this family had her hair or eye coloring. That was a gift she received from my grandmother on the moon. It was also too much to go into and that part for now wasn't necessary.
I didn't see her dropping back here anytime soon or at all again unless I delivered her into this world myself naturally so it wasn't necessary to get into it, plus as it stood everything I was telling them was already a lot to devil into and admit to. The emotions that were going back and forth on all of their faces to hear what they heard and see what they saw was an incredible amount to bear. To be honest it was hard for any parent to hear what they were hearing so I understood the silence.
I let them have it so they could process it all. To take in so much information about what went on right under their noses as parents and didn't know about. Something no parent wanted to admit to or know was the case. To see my dad, look at me with such disappointment and sadness, and anger. Then to see my mother with similar features as she tried to understand why I kept this from them all to Shingo's resigned expression as he seemed to be opening up to what he was being told though seemed upset about not knowing beforehand.
It was a lot for any one person to take in let alone a family who had no idea that their daughter and sister, was indeed sailor moon, nor that her friends were her guardians sworn to protect her on a thousand-year old oath and ended up becoming the best of friends while I met my one true love in Mamoru, my past love, and was able to find him in this life again to how we only wanted to protect our loved ones.
By the end of our story as well as the parts the girls added in here and there, to help balance it out with the details we were all tearing up a bit as we watched the reactions on my parents and in a sense their parents face's to. They have grown up with my parents for the last few years as adoptive parents or secondary parents to. Mother quickly took to them as did my father as they were seeing them as not just my friends but another addition to the family.
It didn't matter that Ami had a loving mother and father, despite their separation, or that Minako's parents were there to, despite their constant travels all over, or that Rei's grandfather was a kind good man, they all saw my parents as someone to go to and come to for wisdom and guidance, Makoto even got close to my mom as the two bonded over cooking…my parents were seeing them, us all in a new light now.
"This is a lot of information to take in..." My father said trying to compartmentalize it all as my mother asked, "This is just such a dangerous job for you girls…all of you." My mother began amending when she saw Mamoru, "It is but it's our duty." He replied without blinking. "Have you tried not being a senshi...? Or a guardian. Any of you?" she asked us, none of us got upset by it, especially since we did just throw a lot of information their way.
"No..." Makoto said soundly first as she looked to her with resolution in her eyes, "And even if there were a way..." Minako sat up, looking very serious as she looked at my parents, "We wouldn't change it for the world." we all looked unwavering as she seemed to be trying to retort to her. My mother didn't have a response though, instead my father reiterated, "But your just kids…" he looks and see Mamoru and how were looking at him.
"Teenagers." he amends, we were definitely NOT kids. "You're too young, you shouldn't be fighting evil, that should be left to the military, the government. Can't you give them what they need to fight? Let you lead normal lives." I was trying really hard to express myself without becoming upset. Yes, there was a time when all I wanted was a normal life. I had nearly lost a battle once because of that need.
I had to have a heart to heart with my moon mother to know that it was possible to still have what we desired and still be senshi. I took her words to heart and became stronger for it. I had accepted what my life was and now I wouldn't change it for the world like Minako said this was a part of us now. "It's a part of who we are dad. It's in our blood, our DNA as it were." I explained to him.
"She's right, being a senshi isn't just a career path we picked up one day." Ami began, "It's not like we went to the 'secret senshi installation' and 'signed up for it' out of the blue." That got a smirk from a few of us as well as Shingo. I hoped she'd leave Luna out of the equation as I didn't want dad to kick her out as a way of blaming her for it when this was something that went past her to begin with.
She couldn't have given us the sticks or compact to activate it unless we were senshi. "The powers can only be activated by someone of our genetic lineage. We can only pass them on through...maternal form." we were all hoping that they would get it, "So only if you were to have kids would this be out of your genetic line?" My mother asked, "No...it would always be in our blood, there's no changing that." I tell her.
"So, there's no way to stop this." She confirmed as I responded, "It may not be something we picked, but it's not something we can give up either or would want to give up. Its who we are...were...always will be." I tried as I saw their faces change in reflection of emotions as if trying to combat what we were telling them and see if there was an alternative. The problem was it really felt like what they wanted was to stop us from being senshi merely for their own parental struggles rather than what was for the betterment of others.
On one hand I got that they wanted all of our safety. They were concerned for all of us, they cared deeply about all of us. After all we were still teenagers, we were still young and had so much ahead of us still, so yeah, I agreed, I understood their view point…but we were the only ones who could stop the evil from hitting this planet and decimating it. I couldn't stand by powers or not and do nothing. It was when Shingo stood up that he was finalizing things off for himself now, "So your all senshi, my sister is your leader..." Ami nodded.
"So, since I'm her brother does that mean that I have powers to?" Shingo asked looking between 'awesome' that he might have super powers to and 'weird!' cause he wouldn't know how to respond to that. "That's ironically the same expression I had when I found out I was a senshi." I chuckled as dad glared at me. I swallowed. Not the time for a small joke I guess. It was Ami who assured him, "No."
He looked to her in question since he was my little brother. We shared a genetic code in this timeline yes, but it was the genetics of our past forms that held the powers, not this one, "Unfortunately no. since it's the genetics of our past lives that were senshi, it carries on for us from then, there's nothing in this life that makes us senshi. In fact…" Mercury pulled out her computer and showed everyone the DNA genetic modules.
"Seeing this diagram shows how even though we come from our original planets…" we saw them all lined up, "It's the DNA markers that come from them that make us senshi, that give us our powers. The genetic markers that we have from earth…" she shows us those now to, "Only have partial power since were on another planet. Usagi's since she's from the moon and the moon is closer is able to tap into more power." Everyone was enthralled by Ami's little show as she motioned and moved it around.
"Now despite you being her little brother in now, you weren't in our past lies. Usagi was genetically an only child back then. So, there's no genetic lineage that links you to the moon." Shingo was obviously torn between being happy and disappointed at the same time. "Besides that, only a female can be a senshi. Males are seen as guardians or knights." she indicates to Mamoru who nods.
"Like when Mamoru turned into the moon light knight for a while." he nodded again, "So I was passed over cause I wasn't reborn like you guys were." Now he looked torn between being relieved and pissed at the same time, "It's a blessing and a curse to be a senshi." Makoto told him as he looked to her next, "How's that?" he asked as he was trying to keep his understanding open to the girls. She sighed, "Cause, you get to have powers yes, but they come with a great responsibility to bear."
He nodded, "I could have - " that's when my dad seemed to have snapped listening to all of this, "Enough!" he stood from the chair he was on. His form was upset and whatever he had been processing before was now gone. It was as if he went from trying to understand to instant rejection of the concept. "There will be no more talk of this. Usagi…" he turned his rage towards me and suddenly I was hoping mom would calm him down.
"I don't know HOW this activated just from meeting a damned cat, but I forbid you from continuing to fight." He pointed his finger in my general direction as I pursed my lips trying to be the rational one here. "You're too damned young and I will NOT bury a child before me." his emotions were raw as I saw a great fear within him at what my duty was in life and how it could take me from him…from them all.
I saw there were repressed tears in his eyes at the thought of losing me or any of us. Now I knew that telling them that we had nearly died a few times was a mistake. I should have found a way to avoid telling him about those instances. He wasn't seeing it through our perspective. Only in his parental viewpoint and he needed to understand as we were taking in his view. "I promise you dad, we always work to NOT get killed." I stood up to now.
Both of us to stubborn to back down, its why mom needed to jump in. Like father like daughter right now. "We fight all the time, we train hard, we make sure that no one stays down for long. We always have each other's backs. We always get back up and keep going forward. Its why we've lasted as long as we have. We're not just sisters on the battlefield, were sisters in life to." I tell them.
"We care and love each other very much. Mamoru himself is always there to have my back, I can't tell you how many times we've had each other's backs. We work like a well-oiled machine. Dad you will not lose me or any of us." I point out and convey to him. He's still upset but distances himself as he walks over to the window and peaks through the curtains to see the many reporters still there.
"Your right I won't..." he looks back to me, but his face doesn't make me feel better, if anything I think it's getting worse. I know that look on my dad's face. "Cause you're not fighting anymore." I straighten out my back knowing this is going to get rough, "I love you dad, but this is one decision that you can't tell me what to do on." I state with firmness in my voice as Luna then voices herself.
"She's right sir…" my dad I could see pursing his lips thinly like he was trying to not drop kick Luna from across the room. He wouldn't normally hurt an animal, not for any reason but Luna was no ordinary cat and right now she was creating a target on her back by simply talking and directing his anger towards her. "I do realize this is a lot to take in and handle, trust me I know." She begins.
Her tread with him is slow, "I've been watching her fight and been there for her since day one in all of this. She's grown so much since she began on this journey. All of them have." It seemed to tap into his resolve just a bit, "But she is the last of the moon line, just as they are the last of their family lines to." He looked at the rest of the girls and Mamoru and saw their nods as mine was to, I hoped she was getting through to him.
"It is up to them to fight the enemies that the earth armies cannot. No offense Mamoru." She amends as he looks away knowing that the armies of earth from our pasts differed greatly from now. My dad looked over at him, "Why did she say that?" Mamoru looked over to him, "Because back before earth changed over after the great battle that took place, we had different forms of fighting that took place." He explained.
"We didn't just have hand to hand combat or swords and knives, we had alchemy, we had different types of magics to that have been long since forgotten and been made into nothing more than folklore and mock entertainment for deluded people and for those that are to amateur to know what they can really do with it and are unable to do anything really with it." He tells him as my father looks away.
"Earth would have stood a small chance back then since their methods of fighting was unconventional. Earth now, while we have some of the most advanced weapons man has ever created, our enemies still have powers that could wipe them out. They use more advanced methods of those attacks and can fling people away with a flick of the wrist." It seems to get my dad to thinking about how things really are.
I could see how Mamoru was affected by the words to considering he was flung himself recently by our new enemy. "Sir…" Luna begins again. "Even if it was all of the countries standing together as one, they're not equipped or prepared to be able to handle a full-on fight with any enemy we've encountered. I did the statistics way back when Usagi and the others were done with Beryl." The girls and I looked to her as did Mamoru.
I had been unaware of this, "What?" I asked her. She looked to me with sorrow on her face. "I wanted you to be able to try to have a normal life still, especially after you defeated Beryl and had..." She didn't finish the thought though seeing my father there and readjusted herself, "But the computations I saw…" the expression she had on her face was as if she hated to give me the news she had.
"Had Ann and Allen been left without anyone to stop them you would have died. Mamoru would have died. They would have sucked you dry and since you were without your memories as senshi still, you wouldn't have known you could transform. They would have gone on unnoticed and more would have perished. Then had the dark moon come in during that time…" I stopped her not even wanting to think about the devastation that that would have been if we hadn't been around to stop it.
"Wait how is that, Allen had a huge crush on Usagi and Ann on Mamoru. If anything wouldn't that have kept them safe." Minako asked, "The calculations detected that their own ambitions of hate towards the other's crushes would have killed both of them." Artemis indicated between myself and Mamoru. "He's right, remember Ann hated me with a passion and Allen hated Mamoru." Minako nodded at my words, "Therefore causing us all to lose to them since we didn't know, therefore didn't fight."
"Not just that, if the armies caught wind of it, since Ann and Allen were under the influence of evil energy, they would have gone loco and without anyone to save them they would have begun to topple the armies with their chaotic powers." Luna then turned back to my dad, "The armies wouldn't understand what they were dealing with in time. Ann was becoming slowly unhinged and with the cardian monsters that they had at their disposal…" I could tell my dad wanted to be argumentative but wasn't.
At least not at the moment he wasn't. "Then with other enemies coming in the armies, all of them would have been destroyed and earth would have been destroyed along with them. Usagi and the girls with Mamoru are the only ones who can handle the enemies that come to earth." My father looked at her with anger in his fears as if he was trying to convey his feelings on the matter towards her to see what he was trying to say.
She continued on, "In fact her moon father was a battle-hardened warrior, she has strong blood within her. Both he and her past mother Queen Serenity were fierce fighters. You yourself from what I've heard are very strong, stubborn and willing to fight for your family. Yes, Usagi as you've seen her has been one to be clumsy, tripping over her own two feet, unable to walk and eat ice cream at the same time..." I looked to her, "Not helping on that front." I remind her. She switched gears realizing how I used to sound.
"But that's the persona that your given to see so that people don't see who she really is and don't make that connection." he didn't seem to change his view though, if anything he seemed to want to shut down now and not bother any further with the discussion at hand. "I know you think your helping..." he told her as he shut her down, "Don't...I'll be in my study." he stormed off away from us and past her.
I looked to my mother as Shingo decided to take off to at this point, "Just give him some time to process this. He'll come around...eventually." she assures me as she hugs me tightly. I hug her back as she leaves off to. "We should probably leave to." Minako says, though I can tell she doesn't want to have to. "It's fine, with today's emotional outpour I could use the rest. I think I'll turn in for the evening." I admit as I say good night to everyone.
As Mamoru goes to leave out, I give him a kiss, "Let me know how work goes for you tomorrow. If Motoki gives you flack let me know. Maybe I can talk to him." I smile, "No don't do that, if Motoki doesn't want me to work then it's his choice as an employer, just like it was the principal's choice as being the head of the school." he smiles, "You're getting more mature and wiser Usako..." he kisses me once more. As he walks out the back I go to the front door and see the reporters still outside as I wonder if this will ever blow over.
Kenji POV
This all feels so overwhelming. I listen to my daughter saying goodbye to her friends from my office and hope that they leave soon. I love them as my kids to, but I need time to think about the overwhelming amount of information I've just been given about my own blood born child and everything she's had to deal with for the last few years and there's to many people in the house which doesn't help.
Not especially them right now. The girls…correction the young women…The senshi. Her friends are the senshi…and my daughter is their leader. She's Sailor Moon and she's been fighting evil all this time without anyone being the wiser till recently. My daughter. I just couldn't process all of it right now. AND she was some sort of former princess from this moon kingdom that I had been told about as a kid myself.
I remember that being a fable of sorts, Serenity of the moon, though apparently it was modified over the years cause she definitely didn't mention giving birth to 50 daughters for Endymion or else I might have passed out. I had heard of people with past lives before. I just figured it was that new age stuff that I couldn't get my head wrapped around that one could easily dismiss and go about their day, but for it to be this in depth was a whole new level of…I just felt mounting frustration adding up.
The more I thought about it the more I wanted to swipe at the contents on my desk and hit something from it yet I knew that wasn't the answer and all that would do was create more problems for me in the long run. To know that she had had parents before us in the past that these powers came from, that this destiny of hers came from. That she had met her past life mother a few times.
I could only imagine how Ikuko must have felt at hearing that. I mean her past life father passed away early on before she could really get to know the man, but still this was a lot for all of us to bear. How could I have missed this? Any of this? To know that she nearly died on several occasions while we were worried at home sick that she was in danger out there only to have her show up without a care in the world.
Remembering all the times she'd come home and how often it was after a possible attack and she would simply smile, hide the truth of whatever she'd seen that day from us and help her mother with dinner or do her homework. There were so many signs to and yet we missed them all. From the moment Luna came in Usagi was different. I just didn't know how, and I was too busy to try to figure it out.
I merely thought she was growing up a bit. That she'd finally decided to apply herself. When I remembered seeing her near Mugen Academy I thought perhaps she was looking to go to University there, that Ami talked her into going. Then I remembered the fight that happened there shortly afterwards before Ikuko said she had a gut feeling about Usagi. We had called her but no luck and hoped she was okay.
Go figure it was because she'd nearly died that day. She'd come home looking happy to see us but otherwise we were none the wiser. Now I knew why. Who knew that all this time it was something else entirely? Who knew that my daughter was the renown sailor moon who's name struck fear in the face of enemies that weren't from earth. Usagi couldn't even strike fear in the eyes of bullies in her school yet when she was a senshi monsters feared her. She chased after them in her line of work.
I was in total disbelief over this as I tried to compute it. When Ikuko came into my study well more like my office I looked up to her, "How are you taking this?" she asked. I was an emotional mess. I just wanted to ground our daughter till she stopped being a senshi then ground her some more for lying about having been one for so long. That wasn't practical though. I was just upset and thinking irrationally which is why I had to leave. Hearing the truth from that cat didn't help matters any better.
That's when I noticed Ikuko's calm state. I know she was supposed to be the more rational calm one but there was almost no reaction from her on this. "How are you not freaking out that our daughter is a senshi?" I demanded, needing her to be as out of sorts as I am. Needing to feel that I'm not alone in this maelstrom of shock that we were going through together. I didn't get how she wasn't.
Till it occurred to me. "Wait a minute…did you already know?" I asked feeling a sense of betrayal growing within me. She was my wife and was supposed to tell me important things like this. She was supposed to tell me if something was going on with our children, it was my right as a parent to know. So when she crossed her arms over her chest I knew I over stepped a line somewhere, "No I didn't know but I was suspecting that something like this was going on." I was stunned and angered for a new reason.
"When? HOW?" I asked her, "When I was attacked by a monster after I got groceries once. This weird red headed guy came up to me. the details are fuzzy, probably for a good reason, but he was after my dreams which didn't make any sense to me. The next thing I knew I was trapped against a circus looking dart board. I remembered when he tried to pull it from me I passed out." I remembered her telling me a bit about it.
"But you said that you were fine." I state, "Yes, cause I though, I could have sworn that day that I heard our daughters voice, shouting at him. It was so faint, yet I remembered feeling comforted by the voice. He was beaten that day and I was returned home, everything was fine, but something had nagged at me that day that I knew the voice. When Usagi mentioned the fights with Nehelania and her remlins or whatever she called them I knew…I knew I had been saved by our daughter." She was getting teary eyed.
"I know it's supposed to be the other way around for us to protect our kids but there does come a time when our kids will be able to fight not just for themselves or each other, but for us and others to. Usagi is truly a great fighter. She threw herself into danger without a second thought just so that she could save me. We've raised her well Kenji." She points out yet I'm feeling a bit livid by this.
"Why didn't you put a stop to it?" I demanded. I wanted her to stop fighting. This wasn't something I wanted for my daughter and I wanted it to end. "Because, their right." I was stunned that Ikuko was not with me on this. I thought she'd want them to stop fighting to. Usagi is my baby girl I wasn't ready to see this level of maturity yet. I was having a hard enough time knowing she has a loving boyfriend.
That she has a part time job…this was to much. "You've seen what those enemies were capable of." Ikuko goes on, "You've seen how our government didn't know what to do with them. Holding back for 'observation' while they tried to figure it out." She wasn't wrong. When that black crystal looking thing was in the heart of Tokyo there were choppers going around it, yet no one knew what to do with it.
One day it was growing huge and destroying buildings and the next it disappeared in the span of a few minutes. Go figure that again was because of Usagi and her friends. "While Usagi would go in there and with her friends eliminate the threat. Did you never notice that she was ALWAYS out there whenever the attacks took place?" I looked away noticing this as I tried to not think about how often I had missed things.
"Of course I did, I just thought she was with friends…studying." I tried, "Well she was with friends, but it wasn't for studying." She amends. I didn't know how to react to this, "This is just a lot to handle. She's supposed to be our fun loving, doing better in school, steady job holding Usagi. Not…" she holds me in comfort as I take it in and sigh a bit. Letting her hold take away my frustrations.
"She may not be what we thought she was, but she is still our daughter…and she helps to save the world." I rolled my eyes only for her to admonish me for it, "I don't like it myself but look at it this way. She's not out doing drugs…she's not out partying till all hours of the night. She's fighting for our survival. Darling I couldn't be more proud that she fights for all of us." She then pulls my face into hers as I sigh knowing she's right.
"I think Luna had a point, Usagi is very protective of others, you know she would do whatever she could to protect those that are innocent." I know there's validity and truth to it but I'm not ready to accept parts of this yet. Just because it was right and truthful didn't erase the years of deceit and lying she did to me, to us to this family. I was still highly upset about that and wouldn't be letting it go simply due to what she felt was necessary for this family. I'm the head of the household, that's my decision to make not hers.
I head out of the office to go confront Usagi on this. "Usagi!" I call out to her before she leaves for upstairs. Seeing Luna doesn't change my regards in this, "Listen, you may be a senshi, but that doesn't disregard the fact that you lied to this entire family for years." I could see the guilt on my daughters face as well as resolve to, "I know it may seem that I should have said something sooner but would you have ever allowed me to be a senshi?" she asks, so factually it's as if she already knows the answer and is just confirming.
"Not a chance in hell." I tell her as truthfully as possible, "Then you left me with no choice. I couldn't have you stopping me to go save people at night. There were innocents in need of saving." She combats me and for the first time in ever, I feel like I'm talking to adult Usagi and not my sweet innocent child Usagi. It was too much. "You had a choice! You choose to defy my rules about this house the moment you started to lie." She knew it.
It was one of my cardinal rules. No lying. "No, I choose to protect those I love and care about by NOT telling you what was going on." She countered, "Dad do you have any idea what would have happened earlier on with any of our previous encounters if even ONE of our enemies had found out the truth about who we were? Of whom our family members were?" I stopped short seeing the dilemma there.
"Can you image the hostage situations that we would have had to deal with? The possible loses we would have encountered? We came close several times and it was only due to extenuating circumstances that we managed to avoid those that we loved from becoming targets." I hated to admit she had some good points. "The amount of times that I wanted to tell you is something I can even begin to go into." She admits.
"I wanted to tell you so much, yet I knew why it was right to keep it a secret. I knew that if I told you, that somehow you'd follow me out one time, see what I did and try to drag me home and get hurt in the process." I reacted out of anger, "Well it stops now!" her reaction was that of a grown version of my daughter I hadn't seen before till today, she reminded me a lot of myself which made this that much better and worse.
I was a good thing don't get me wrong but much like Usagi was stubborn and willful especially when I felt I was right and right now we were both coming from other sides of the spectrum where we both had valid points. This was a first for us both. "No, it never stops. Not till our enemies stop and right now we have a hell of an enemy that wants my head on a pike!" just that image alone sent my parental gears into overdrive.
"You're my child and as far as I see it, you're NOT going to be fighting anymore!" I snapped, "I'm NOT a child anymore. I haven't been one for a long time and its time you see that dad." Her voice went form high pitched to match mine to a subdued 'this fight is over and no you didn't win'. She went to head off upstairs as I told her, "Your grounded till I say otherwise." I needed to regain control over this.
There was no way in hell that my own child was going to pull the rug out from under me. She stopped at the top of the stairwell, "Ground me all you want, it won't change anything. Not on who I am or what I have to do." Her words were said with a solemness that made me more upset as she made her very clear and very tactically precise points and all of them were valid which just pissed me off more and more as I turned around to see Shingo looking at us, "You know she's right dad." He said.
I knew she was right. They were all right. If she had said something to us not only would I have banned her, but I would have tried to deliberately go out to haul her ass home. Damn when did my little girl grow up? It was when Luna at the top of the stairs looked back at us that she said, "You may not see it now but trust me I made them keep the secret for good reasons." I grumbled towards her retreating form.
So, it was her idea to keep it from us. Somehow, I knew most of this was because of that damned cat. I needed time to think about this. I head off towards my study to bury myself into some work to take my mind off of things. Maybe then after I've had some time, I can look at this personal problem with renewed eyes and not those of tired angry ones that are simply feeling one way. I feel my wife's gaze on me as I enter through as she remarks, "Take some time but not too much." As she kisses me before going into the kitchen.