I do not own Hetalia okay? I know it's been a little longer updating this one than when I was working on The Longing of the Heart, but like I said in other A/Ns, I knew better how that story was going to go than this one. Anyway, enough of this A/N, on with the fic!
October 8th 1919
(from the journal of Alfred F. Jones)
Nattie was really upset today. Apparently Ernest, the guy who wrote to us when Vanya was injured came to visit him. He hadn't heard that Vanya passed so he assumed he had just gotten medically discharged and was here. Sadly he wasn't and it just brought back a lot of bad memories with her. Once that Ernest dude headed towards Mattie and Katy's I had come home to find her crying with the twins in her arms and Nikolai patting her on the shoulder saying "Don't cry Mama. I'm here until Daddy gets home." She smiled at that and kissed him on the top of the head. I then scooped up Nikolai and put him on my shoulders like he likes and asked what was wrong and she told me. "Why do I still break down like this? It was a year ago today that we put Vanya in the cold hard ground."
Well I told her it was because of that, it bothered her more. And I didn't think any different of her for it. It's just who she is because she loved him so that it hurts. The same thing for me. And apparently he's appearing to her too. She confessed to seeing his ghost sing that Bayushki Bayu lullaby and then told me I must think her crazy. Well I kissed her saying she's no crazier than I am. I swear I see his ghost now and again too. She did find some comfort in the fact we are apparently the same level of disturbed. I then explained my theory at least that Vanya can only show to those he cared about deeply in life that he knows needs him. She asked why he hasn't been seen by Katy or Mattie and frankly I just shrugged and said "How do we know they haven't seen him?" She nodded and then put the twins down saying she needed to get dinner started. Thank goodness that Nikolai didn't have a piano lesson today. I don't know if Roderich would say anything to that theory but he seems like the type to be understanding. I had been asking Mr. Seward if he had heard of any symphony openings, but none yet. I don't want to bother him too much about it. He did suggest I read some books by these guys Sigmund Freud and Carl Jung, some guys from Austrian, Switzerland, I don't remember who are big into psychology thinking it would help me understand things. All I know is that Jung guy seems a little less weird than Freud. Some of the things in his books. Then again who knows, psychology ain't my thing. Besides, it seems that Nattie cheers up and feels better when I just hug her and tell her how pretty my queen is. She still doesn't like the title but likes it a little better than 'princess' that's what Anya is and right now, daddy has to play with his princess and little princes while their queen mother is busy in the kitchen. Next month Ivan and Anya will be 2. Time sure flies doesn't it?
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