MIDORIYA

TUESDAY EVENING

My classmates know something happened but don't know what. I could feel their eyes on me all day. I kept my distance from them as I have been doing but I guess Kirishima had enough of that. Even Bakugou and he has been ignoring me. I have my bag in tow as I'm on my way to the dorm when Kirishima stops me.

"Don't touch me!" I shout before closing my eyes reminding myself that Kirishima is a touchy kind of guy. I hold on to my backpack straps tightly shifting my eyes down for a moment. "Um….what is it."

"What the fuck is your deal?" asked Bakugou. "You have been acting like an asshole for months."

"So?" I reply starting to walk across the yard. "You act like this every day."

"That's who I am," he replies. "This….this isn't you." I look at Bakugou because he sounds concerned.

"We wanted to give you space," explains Kirishima. "Um I know you don't want to talk about him." Oh yeah, the last time we spoke is when Todoroki ended our relationship. I hold in a smile since we're together now.

"Thanks," I reply. "I appreciate that. I mean nothing is wrong."

"You haven't been talking to anyone," says Kirishima. "It is very unusual." He isn't wrong. I don't even know how to explain this. I need some guidance on this.

"I can't go into details right now," I mutter as I continue to walk. Bakugou rolls his eyes.

"Well were going to go to the coffee shop," says Kirishima. "Want to come with?"

"Maybe another time," I reply. "Thanks though….." I walk off quickly wanting to speak with Todoroki. This is his evening off, but I know he is not home yet. I pull out my phone.

Midoriya: I need some advice. People are asking me to hang out. I don't know what to say.

I know this sounds like a weird problem but as punishment I can't leave campus. The only time I can is for school events or staying with my parents. In a sense I'm grounded. They don't want the students to know about the incident with the League of Villains so I can't tell the truth.

"Wait," says Bakugou running behind me. "I want to talk to you Midoriya." I look at him because he used my last name. I sniffle and he rolls his eyes. "Don't teary eyed on me nerd." I nod continuing to my dorm. Kirishima looked like he wasn't sure if he should follow but he did. We are quiet all the way to my dorm. I appreciate the silence. I'm thinking about what I am going to tell them. By the time we arrive I know what I am going to tell them. I allow them into my room closing the door locking it.

"I know you get tired of hearing this," says Kirishima. "But seriously man, are you okay?" I sit my stuff on my desk before sitting on my bed.

"I'm getting there," I admit.

"You know you can talk to us," says Bakugou. "Well at least Kirishima if anything. You know how I can be, but you pushed me the last time."

"I know and I'm sorry for that," I apologize. "I took my breakup really hard. Like I said I loved him." Kirishima reaches out touching my shoulder. I flinch a little causing him to remove it.

"We know dude," he says. "Why weren't you in school yesterday?" I'm trying to decide do I want to tell them I am in therapy. I think I do. I am going to tell the half truth. I take a deep breath.

"This stays between us," I say lowly. "I'm enough trouble as it is." Kirishima and Bakugou nod. "This past Friday I went to the bar. You know the one behind the liquor store. I got sexually assaulted and the school found out."

"Holy shit," says Bakugou. "How the hell did you even get caught?"

"Doesn't fucking matter!" exclaims Kirishima. "Sexually assaulted, how the hell did that happen?" I think carefully.

"I couldn't use my quirk," I mutter. "I am in therapy for it or whatever." I can hear my two friends swallowing hard. I cover my face to keep from shaking. "I just want to forget the whole thing happened. Oh god…"

"You won't have to talk about it again," says Kirishima. "At least not with us."

"Who the fuck is this person?" asked Bakugou balling up his fist.

"Doesn't matter," I reply. "They are in jail."

"They need their ass beat!" exclaims Bakugou in a way that makes me chuckle.

"I got in a few licks before the police got involved," I explain. I smile remember that ice spear piercing her chest. Fuck sympathy in this case.

"Good!" hisses Bakugou. "I would give you hug but it seems like….you don't like being touched or whatever. Makes sense why now."

"Yeah," I sigh. "Sorry, I just…I just need some help moving past it." They both nod.

"What is your punishment?' asked Bakugou. "Cleaning the dorms like we did our 1st year."

"No," I reply. "They want my punishment to be on the low. I am not allowed to leave campus unless I'm going to therapy or going home to see my parents."

"Damn," says Bakugou. "No wonder you couldn't join us for coffee."

"Yeah," I reply. "I would love to have gone. I could use a change of scenery, but I must pay for my mistakes."

"You at least seem like you are feeling better," says Kirishima. "Despite everything that has happened."

"I do feel better," I admit. Todoroki helped. I swear he makes everything better. "I need to make a call so you guys can enjoy your coffee."

"Are you sure?" asked Kirishima.

"Don't baby him," says Bakugou. "He's fucking fine." Kirishima looks like he wants to say something but doesn't. He nods and they wave goodbye to me. I go up to my door locking it. I pull out my cell phone ringing Todoroki.

"Hello," he says softly. I get a little nervous.

"Um hi," I reply.

"Are you okay?" he asked. "I'm just leaving the school."

"I had a mini crisis, but I took care of it," I explained. "I told Kirishima and Bakugou about the sexual assault and being caught by the school drinking at the bar. I didn't tell them about everything else or who caught me. It was enough to shake them."

"I'm glad," says Todoroki. "I was secretly pissed off at the fact that you guys had fake ID's living this night life like you weren't doing anything wrong."

"I never really used mine until that night," I reply feeling bad all over again about lying to him.

"Um hm," hums Todoroki. "How did therapy go yesterday?"

"It wasn't so bad," I reply. "The guy was super nice. He wanted to get to know me before diving into anything heavy. Which I like. I still feel like an idiot about….."

"No more pity Izuku," says Todoroki. "You did not ask to be assaulted okay. I still want you to talk to me about anything, everything. Just please….if you can….stop blaming yourself." I swallow hard as it is difficult for me to move on. I got reckless, got kidnapped, it's so complicated….. "I love you and I want you to be happy." I cover my mouth because usually I say it first.

"Babe…..I love you too," I say with my voice low. I miss him so much. I know not to say his real name while I am here at school. Todoroki sighs but I don't think it is because of me.

"Go ahead and get started on your homework," he suggests. "I know you have a lot to do missing class yesterday."

"Just a little," I admit.

"I will be taking a shower when I get home but after that I will be in my office if you want to see me," he explains. "I will be grabbing my afternoon snack but other than that I will be there."

"Okay," I reply glad that he is explaining all of this to me. He didn't have to. I end the call closing my eyes wishing I could be with him. I feel my arousal increasing but I get a flashback of Toga causing me to open my eyes. Despite Toga appearing as Uraraka all I can see is Toga face. I begin to pant trying to get her out of my mind. I mean Toga could have certainly done much worse, but I belong to Todoroki. I can't…..I can't stand that she touched me in the way she did. I pull out my schoolbooks wondering how long is it going to be before I get better.

Author's Note: Happy New Year!