Disclaimer: I do not own any of J.K. Rowling or Stephanie Myer's characters. Although at times I will insert my own original characters periodically to move the story forward.

Warnings: Strong language, mental health, sexual situations, alcohol, nightmares.

Author's notes: This is my first story and I welcome all reviews, please be kind and respectful. This story takes place just a few months after the Battle of Hogwarts and moves the Twilight timeline back to 1998. I am writing in the first person from Harry's perspective throughout. Enjoy!

Note: Sorry for making this chapter a little darker, but it will all lead to later events in the Twilight book timeline. At least Edward is there to make him feel better.

Chapter 16- Vampires and Nightmares

I was running fast and hard down the street, and I had no intention of slowing down. I rounded the corner and ran right into someone knocking me to the ground. I saw his red eyes and pale skin; I drew my wand and backed up as he looked at me. "Impedimenta!" The jinx hit him square in the chest, but then he sprang at me knocking me to the ground hard on my ass. I could feel my arthritis locking me up, fuck not now. I slowly raised my wand as he stood over me, and then he was down on me pinning me to the ground. I couldn't move, all I could do was scream as the pain overwhelmed me and he sunk his teeth into my neck. I weakly put my hand on his chest as he started to drink deeply from my neck. "Avada Kedavra!" I said weakly. He stopped drinking and fell limp on top of me, he was dead.

Then someone pulled him off of me and threw his dead body on the ground beside me as I locked up and started to cry from the arthritis pain. "My turn!" They said.

I woke up screaming and crying and grabbed my wand from the nightstand. "Lumos Maxima!" I threw the ball of light high up into the room illuminating my bedroom. I grabbed my glasses and shoved them on my face, I was alone, and then I heard a knock on the door.

"Harry are you ok?" Sirius called sleepily from the other side.

"Yeah" I said canceling the ball of light that illuminated the bedroom. "It was just another nightmare, I'm going to go for a run."

"Ok" He yawned, "Be sure and take your potions before you go."

"I will" I said jumping out of bed and turning on the lamp on the nightstand illuminating the room. I grabbed my potions and downed then one by one. I had been taking them as soon as I woke up ever since Carlisle unlocked my joints last weekend; I had no intentions of making myself an easy target for the vampires in my nightmares. Hopefully I wouldn't have to face them and could just let MACUSA handle things. The prophecy that Mother Evans made on Tuesday had been echoing inside my head and causing me to have the same nightmare every night since. At least today was Friday and after dark Edward would be here for the weekend. Next week was an American holiday they called Thanksgiving so at least the school week would be short by three days.

I headed out the front door and down the street. It was raining lightly and I could feel that I was glad I took my potions. Rain always made me hurt and ache ever since I was tortured by Yaxley and Dolohov. I ran as fast as I could, it was five am and as I passed Bella's house Charlie had already left. I kept running letting my breathing and the pounding of my feet on the wet pavement push the nightmare from my mind. I felt as free as I could be, and then I rounded the corner and ran into something hard knocking me to the ground. Oh fuck, not now. I looked up at the dark figure in the streetlight and saw a man. He was tall, shirtless, and had long hair braided behind his head. I caught his red eyes and I panicked. He advanced on me quickly, but I got to my wand first. "Impedimenta" The jinx hit him square in the chest knocking him backward several yards. He tried to come at me but I hit him with the same jinx sending him even farther back. As he sprang at me again I used the only spell I could think of "Sectumsempra".

The deep cuts appeared on his bare chiseled chest and he stumbled backward, but that didn't stop him or slow him down. "Sectumsempra!" It hit him in the face this time causing him to scream in pain. I kept hexing him over and over until his face and torso were covered in deep cuts causing him to bleed like a stuck pig. I kept going until he collapsed onto the ground, and then I hexed his backside until he stopped moving. I could feel the panic rising up in me. My heart was racing and I was sweating hard. I scanned the area for more vampires, but I didn't see any. I disapparated from the spot apparating into the kitchen in a full blown panic attack.

I threw up hard into the floor and collapsed next to my sick barely able to breathe. I heard a voice asking if I was ok, I bloody wasn't. I continued to throw up eventually dry heaving and crying from what had happened. I curled up into a little ball hugging my knees to my chest as I tried to breathe deep and calm myself down to no avail. I heard Sirius talking and after I don't know how long I felt a cold hand on my shoulder, I reacted instantly pulling out my wand and pointing it at the cold hand "Sectumsempra!"

I heard a scream and turned around to see Edward collapsed on the floor bleeding from a large gaping slice on his chest. I panic and sobbed the counter curse until the bleeding stopped and the wound closed, and then I tried to throw up again but ended up with more dry heaving. "It's ok Harry, I'm here now and everything is going to be all right." He said softly rubbing my back comfortingly.

"I'm sorry" I said as the sobs faded and the tears remained. "I thought you were him and I panicked."

"Who love" He asked softly

"The vampire that attacked me while I was out on my run that I left bleeding in the street." I said softly

"What!" Edward yelled making me jump, "Where?"

"I don't remember" I said softly trying to stand but having no luck and just falling back down. "I just ran into him as I rounded a corner and he attacked me, and I used the same hex that I just did on you on him until he quit moving and lay bleeding in the street. I panicked and disapparated back to the house, and then Sirius called you."

Edward helped me to my feet and moved me to an empty chair at the table. "Did he hurt you, or bite you?" he asked softly rubbing my hand soothingly.

"No" I said summoning the bottle of fire whiskey and downing it until he pulled it away. "I'm such a fucking coward, I should've just used the killing curse and been done with it."

"Shh, its ok love your safe now, and I'm here" he said softly rubbing my back.

I reached for the whiskey again, but he slid it across the table to Sirius who put it back away. "I'll go get your potions." Sirius said, "You threw them up so you need to take them again before the arthritis gets to you."

I started to cry again when he said that and left the room. "I'm fucking useless." I cried into Edward's shoulder. "I can't kill a vampire that is causing us all problems when he tries to kill me. I can't do anything without those fucking potions. I hate being useless."

"You're not useless." He said moving me into a soft kiss. "You're just scared, and I'm here to keep you useful. Someone has to help you keep your eyes on the prize."

I laughed softly and kissed him back. "Here you go Harry." Sirius said, "Drink up."

I made a pouting face and Edward handed me one of my potions. "I will hold you down and force these things down your throat you know." He said sternly, "I'm not watching you be sick for a whole week after Carlisle has to line you back out again, even is the sex was that good."

I sighed and downed each of the three potions in one gulp each, at least Carlisle has started to figure out how to make them taste slightly better. I saw the clock on the wall showing seven thirty and I jumped. "Fuck, I have to go to school today!" I said stumbling over the chair next to me as I felt the alcohol hit my system.

"No you're not." Sirius said bluntly, "You're in no shape to go today, especially since you've been drinking. I'll call the school and say that you're sick again and you can spend the whole day with Edward working on feeling better."

I heard Bella's truck pull up in the driveway and Sirius beat me to the door. When I heard Bella's truck pull away he came back inside and called the school with some bullshit excuse and started making breakfast. Edward ended up trying to feed me when I refused to eat causing me to snap at him and go upstairs and curl up in my bed. I was scared to go back to sleep because then the nightmares would come back.

"Want some company?" He asked softly as he appeared beside me. I reached my arm over and pulled the covers back on his side of the bed. I heard him get undressed and felt his cold body curl up next to mine. I used my energy to show him how I had been having the same nightmare ever since my visit with Mother Evans, and how it scared me to death that it finally came true. I showed him how bad I felt that I couldn't bring myself to kill the vampire that attacked me, and how Mother Evans' prophecy concerning me being the one to kill my attacker in the end scared me even more. In fact it reminded me of how I had to be the one to kill Voldemort.

I cast a warming charm under the covers when I started to shiver. "You can't keep blaming yourself for everything that goes fucked up around you." He said tracing my cheek lightly. "You were thrown into a situation from the time you were born that forced you to grow up so fast that you never learned how to process and deal with the complex emotions that came with it. You spent years not knowing if you were going to live or die, and then you actually tried to kill yourself just to make it all go away. You don't have to be the strong one right now, you can lean on me and we will get through this together. The last thing I want is for you to do something crazy and hurt yourself."

I turned to face him and saw his thoughts in his eyes, he was scared that I was either going to go on a murderous warpath and find the vampire that attacked me and his coven, or that I was going to fall apart completely and go down a rabbit hole of dark emotions and unhealthy coping mechanisms. "There's one thing that you're forgetting." I said seriously

"And what is that?" He asked softly as he gently moved a strand of my hair out of my eyes.

I reached down and grabbed his cock and started to stroke it. "You took your eyes off of the prize." I said smiling and enjoying the feeling of his cool cock in my hand as Edward moaned in pleasure from my touch. I was going to be ok, I just had to keep leaning on Edward and we would get through this together. I had to practice the Quileute magic and use it to get stronger though. If I learned one thing from The Professor it was that I have to be the most powerful person I can be so that I have all of the resources at my disposal to protect those that I love the most.