When Fin arrived in New York, the first thing he did was call Olivia to ask where Amanda was. When he found out she was in the hospital, he nearly lost his mind. He wanted to ask why no one told him but, obviously, he knew why. He took the first cab to the hospital to see her.
"I need to find Amanda. Amanda Rollins."
"And you are?"
"Her boyfriend."
"Can I see some ID?" The front desk nurse asks making a disbelieving face at him. She clearly didn't trust him for whatever reason.
"I've been here with her before. She's pregnant with my kids." He says, clearly annoyed.
"And you won't give me your ID because...?" She asks with an attitude. She understood that it was her job to keep her patients safe but it was kind of annoying. He hands over his Law enforcement ID and he sees the regret in his face.
"Sorry, Sir. I didn't know."
"I get it. You're just looking out for her."
"She's down the hall in 413."
"Okay. Thank you." Fin says and takes his ID back. He heads down the hall to the room. He opens the door and sees an empty bed.
"Amanda?" He asks and then hears the sound of running water in the bathroom. The door or the bathroom swings open and he sees Amanda come out in a hospital gown. She is looking at the floor, watching her steps carefully so that she doesn't trip over the IV. "Amanda." He says and she shoots her head up. Her eyes lock with his and he sees her thinking of her next move. She rips the IV out of her and walks towards him. She takes a few steps and then hits him repeatedly. She hits his face and his chest over and over again. He grabs her hands and tries to hold when back.
"Fuck you!" She yells.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I am. I mean it."
"You left me!" She screams and he just wraps his arms around her and pulls her to his chest. She pushes him away and takes a step back. Her sobs were all over the place and her breathing was becoming rapid. She suddenly feels like she's drowning. "I-I...help." She says and puts her hands on her chest. Fin jobs to the hallway and stops the first nurse that he sees.
"She can't breathe." He says and the nurse is quick to jump into action. She comes into the room and walks over to Amanda, she helps her sit in the bed. The nurse fumbles around on the end and grabs the call button. She presses the button and a few more nurses rush to the room. Amanda continues to hyperventilate even when they put an oxygen mask on her. That's when Arizona comes into the room and rushes to side.
"What's going on, Amanda? What's happening?" Arizona asks and all she sees are tears streaming down Amanda's face and her loud breathing. "Okay. You can't talk and that's okay. We're here."
"I think she's upset because I'm here. I haven't seen her in a while and she just didn't react well. I can step out if you need me to." Fin says.
"Dr. Robbins, what do you want us to do?"
"Um...can everyone just step out?" Arizona says and the nurse reluctantly leaves the room. Amanda whines when she sees Fin head towards the door. "What? Do you want him to stay?" She asks and Amanda nods her head while trying to slow her breath with the oxygen.
"I'll stay." He says and comes to her side. She grabs his hand quickly and pulls him to her. "Amanda, I'm not getting in the bed with you. You're the one who is sick."
"Actually, go ahead. If she doesn't care then I don't either. If it helps calm her down, I'm okay with that." Arizona says. Fin gently gets on the bed next to her. Amanda holds into him for dear life as her breathing slows.
"How are you feeling, Amanda?" Arizona asks. Amanda just shakes her head and says nothing. She takes the oxygen mask off and puts her face into Fin's chest.
"I think she's okay. I'll call you back if something changes." Fun says, hinting to Arizona that they wanted to be alone. Arizona nods and steps out of the room. Fin and Amanda lay together in silence for almost 40 minutes before Fin finally breaks the silence.
"Amanda. I love you. I know you hate me right now and I'm sorry for leaving. This is all my fault. If I would have been here, you would be okay. I'm sorry."
"I love you too," Amanda says and kisses him. He looks down at her stomach and places a gentle hand on it.
"I can't believe you're really having twins."
"How did you-?"
"Olivia. She sent me a letter and some pictures. I know you hate when people go behind you back and do things but I really was happy to see the pictures. Don't be mad at her."
"I'm not. I'm just...happy you're back. Nothing else matters."
"I'm happy to be back. I've missed so much already. I refuse to miss out on anything."
"Good," Amanda says and smiles. She puts her hand on top of Fin's and they lay together, just enjoying each other's presence.
XxXxX
"Boss?" A man asks as he steps into an office. The office was dark and Blake could be seen sitting at the desk on his laptop.
"Yes?" Blake asks.
"That woman you wanted me to check up on. Apparently, her boyfriend is back in town and he's a detective with sex crimes. She's probably going to tell him what happened." The man says. Blake feels his blood boil. No matter what he did, she never seemed to take him seriously.
"I thought she finally understood. Guess not. Release the video. The edited one, obviously." He says. The other man looks at Blake nervously.
"I thought you that was our last resort?" The man asks. It was supposed to be their last resort but he couldn't take any more chances. He had to get his story out there before Amanda did.
"Do it! I'm not paying you to question me. Post the video on as many porn websites as you can find."
"Yes, sir." The other man answers and leaves the office. Blake slams his computer shut
XxXxX
"Finally," Amanda says as she plops down on the couch in the apartment. It had been a long day of testing and figuring out whether or not they would send her home. Other than migraines and neck pain, there were no other symptoms that she had and Arizona deemed her healthy enough to go home. Amanda's gaps when she is greeted by a cold, wet sensation in her cheek. She opens her eyes and sees Pistol happily wagging his tail.
"How did you..."
"It was me." John says. "I'm sorry, I just wanted to drop him so that he could be here when you came home."
"And you are...?" Fin asks immediately getting defensive. There was some random man in his apartment and he was slightly intimidated by it.
"John. Sorry. I'm John Funic. I was working with Amanda in the K-9 unit. You must be Fin."
"Yeah. I am."
"Anyway, I'm gonna head out. See you around, Amanda. Enjoy maternity leave. It will end sooner than you think."
"Thanks," Amanda says and gives a small smile. He heads out and closes the door behind him. Amanda looks over at Fin and sees the jealousy.
"He's just a friend."
"Uh-huh. Right. Why does he have access to your apartment?"
"What gives you the right to say ANYTHING about what I'm going to? He's been here, you haven't. I haven't slept with him nor do I plan on it. You've been for a day and you're already giving me shit about this."
"I'm sorry. You're right."
"I gonna go take a shower. I'll be out in a while. Don't do anything to provoke the dog or he will try Q my and kill you."
"You can just put him somewhere?"
"No. He's been living here longer than you."
"Right...even the dog knows you better than I do." He jokes. Amanda just stares at him for a few seconds before heading to take a shower. Fin sighs and sits on the couch. He felt horrible. He thought that everything was supposed to be better when he came back but he honestly just felt out of place. He was walking on eggshells around her to try and make her happy. He knew she was happy that he was back but there was clearly some tension between them.
XxXxX
When Amanda comes out of the shower, she puts on pajamas and takes a few of the pain meds from Arizona. She gets on the bed and sits right in front of Fin. He smiles at her as she blocks his view of the TV. He grabs the remote and turns it off. He is sitting back against the headboard with both of his legs out in front of him. Amanda makes her way into his lap and he lets out a groan.
"I am not that heavy." She says pretending to be offended by him. She just laughs and wraps her arms around his neck. She kisses the side of his face over and over again making him laugh.
"Amanda, I'm not going anywhere."
"I know." She says and kisses his lips gently.
"How's your head feeling?" He asks and gently rubs his fingers through her hair. She winces slightly and leans against his shoulder.
"It's not as bad as it was. She said it wasn't as bad as it could have been. And the babies are just fine."
"I don't want you working the streets anymore."
"I'm on maternity leave."
"I mean at all. I don't want you working K-9 unit even after you have the babies."
"It's not up to you."
"You're not going to control me. I don't care if we're in a relationship. You don't get to make decisions for me. At all."
"And what if something happens to you. You could have died today. You have two babies to think about now."
"I'm not talking about this right now."
"Fine." He says and sighs. He didn't want to argue with her anymore. They had only been back together for a few hours. There were so many feelings and emotions that they both had. They were both hot-headed people and sometimes it was hard for them to agree on things peacefully.
"I missed you," Amanda says and puts her face in his chest. He feels her back to shake as she cries. He tries his hardest to stay strong but he can't. He lets a few talents fall down his cheeks as she sobs in his arms.
"I know. I'm so sorry for being gone so long. I'm not going to leave you again. Just try and get some sleep. I'm right here." He says.
"Okay."
"You know, I was thinking. We should pick out names. I have a few that I like. Have you thought of any?" He asks. He's greeted by silence. He just smiles and rubs her back. She was tired, it had been a long day. He gently moves her off of his lap to the spot next to him. He fixes the blankets and pulls them over both of them. He doesn't even have the chance to get comfortable when she reaches out for him. She grabs his arms and turns over. She pushes her back flush against his stomach. His arms rest on top of her stomach.
"Goodnight." He says.
XxXxX
Fin wakes up feeling really hot. Amanda's body was just radiating heat. He gently moves backward and slides out from under the covers. He almost manages to get away but a hand grabs his forearm and pulls gently.
"Where are you going?"
"To get some water." He says. Though it was dark, he could see the fear in Amanda's eyes. She thought he was going to leave again. "You can come with me." He says and she nods. She gets up and walks with him to the kitchen. He pours a glass of water and drinks some of it. Amanda reaches for it and drinks some of it.
"You go back to bed and I'll be right there." She nods and heads back to the bedroom. Fin furrows his brows and looks at the bedroom Forrest. Was this going to be their new normal? He hated to see her like this. She seemed so worried about him leaving or disappearing again. He felt like complete shit for what he had done. He hasn't gotten a chance to see her so broken like Olivia, Carisi, or John did.
He wished that he could fix her pain.
Hey, I hope you liked this chapter. He's back. Why do you think? How do you think this will play out? Thanks so much for reading. If you have time, please leave a review. They keep me motivated to write.