CHAPTER 16 - FEELINGS WE FIGHT

When Light came to school on Monday, he got many questioning looks from his schoolmates and some of them were even asking questions. They were all curious to know how he was able to talk Lawliet into private lessons and how the headmaster could approve it. Light was prepared for those questions and said that he had an official invitation to work at the Auror's office and needed to be prepared by someone from the office. That made the job. Of course it made sense to everyone that the student who was already half a leg in the Auror's office would get special attention from an Auror. But it also made half a school crazy jealous, because half a school was crushing L Lawliet.

Light couldn't help but feel victorious about that. If someone could smell his inner omega, they would know that he is letting out a protective smell, considering Lawliet as his private property. It was making Light slightly uncomfortable but he tried not to fight it. He knew now that the more he is trying to fight those feelings, the worse it gets.

And it's not that I feel anything for him anyway… it's just my inner omega. He told himself over and over and yet… he couldn't help himself but feeling excited when he came to DADA class that morning.

But… At the class, Lawliet was the same quirky ass as always. Thanks to that, Light sobered quite quickly and his discussion with Kiyomi after the class was also a cold shower.

She was rather concerned by the news. She thought private lessons were highly improper and warned Light over and over about Lawliet. Light got very angry at her. Because what she was implying was practically making him Lawliet's bitch and he was everything, but that.

What is she thinking? That I will jump into his bed just because he is an alpha?!

Light was truly angry about that conversation and wanted to cut Kiyomi off for some time. But then he decided not to. Because she was a direct source of information from the Daily Prophet and he needed that. As well as he needed Mikami who was… currently trying to ignore him.

Mikami seemed even more pissed by the news than Kiyomi which was… not surprising given the circumstances. And given the fact that Light himself didn't tell him about those lessons. But he was not sure how back then… Light was thinking about it all Monday and he was trying to figure out how to make things right with Mikami, but his worries only lasted until the evening.

When he came to his private lesson on Monday, Lawliet had prepared a desk full of books he borrowed for him in a restricted area.

"You better not tell anyone about this." he told him with a wink.

Light never felt this happy in his whole life. He got books he wanted to study, he had a renomed Auror to ask anything he wanted to know just a few meters away, and his inner omega was happily purring about the spicy sweet scent surrounding him. For the first time after two damn months Light felt safe, protected and focused.

After his saturday lesson, he quickly figured out that when he is not trying to fight his inner omega, letting it think what it wants, he is even able to exist within that strong scent and focus on his work. Even if it meant lifting his eyes from his books from time to time to ogle his professor. But whatever made his inner omega happy, helped him focus so… yeah, no problem in studying that handsome face a few times in an hour.

L would lie if he said that Light didn't make a strong impression on him their first week working together. Yes, Light was everything he thought he was: hard headed, egoistic, overly confident about his magic. But he was also: intelligent, able of deep self reflection and he was a damn fast learner. And he was also quite pretty to look at. Especially when he was angry or ashamed.

Every single thing about that young boy was sending thrills down L's spine. The worst was when Light occasionally smiled at him. Then L found himself totally lost and his heart rate increasing.

L was not stupid. He realized very quickly that he was strongly attracted to this boy. Which was not that surprising given the fact that Light was probably the prettiest omega at school but… L needed to be extra careful with him. He knew his inner alpha was in the luck of sex and having a pretty omega so close so often definitely wasnt helping the situation. But at least, L knew why this was happening.

For the first two months he was not paying Light's beauty any attention. In fact, there were others on his mind. And now that they were in a close proximity his body was suddenly reacting. It made sense. It was just nature. And as long as it was kept in a platonic state, he didn't mind ogling the boy and occasionally let his inner alpha say some flirty shit. He was sure Light was dismissing these notes anyway.

But that didn't stop L from taking his work from his cabinet to the classroom desk, just to be close to the boy. This way, he could occasionally look at him, ask him if he needed anything and when he was fed up with his work, he simply took a book and started reading, while waiting for Light to finish his studies.

Well reading… most of the time, L was not really reading. He conjured up a small window into his book, so when he held the book infront of his face, he was actually looking through it. It was a perfect observing spell. From the other side, it looked like he was reading a book but he was really… looking at studying Light.

This way, L didn't miss the occasional glance Light shot his way. The boy probably didn't mean anything by it, he was just looking around, or he was curious what L was doing. But those amber eyes were doing things to L. Those glances were actually… making him hard.

Damn you Light… who are you really? Doing this to me just with your eyes?

Light didn't miss shifts in Lawliet's scent. It was quite alright on Monday, but when he was in DADA classroom on Wednesday, it was kinda clear that Lawliet was... horny. And not just a little, but major horny. It was making his inner omega so excited that he had a hard time to focus on his work. The scent was attacking him like a thousand needless and he was getting wet whether he wanted or not.

In that moment, he realized what Kyiomi was talking about, when she said to be very careful. But again, Kyiomi had no idea he was able to smell Lawliet. And even Lawliet wasn't obviously aware of that. Because if he knew, he would probably try to behave. At least a little.

Shit I should really talk to him about this… Light thought, but he also knew that this was not a good time. It would be damn embarrassing for both of them. Not to mention that his underwear was soaked and he had a hard on.

He tried really hard to think about something anti-sexy. But the only thing that came to his mind was surprisingly Mikami which was… weird?

Light bit his inner cheek.

Damn you, Lawliet, what are you doing to me?

Later that night, L was pacing in his bedroom from one corner to the other. He needed a release. He needed to jerk off. But he was in a battle with himself. On one hand, he had his eyes full of Light, but on the other hand, he didn't want him inside his mind in these situations. It only made things difficult.

The problem was that his inner alpha was constantly showing him pictures of Light. Which was… amazing, sexy and it was turning him on so much that he actually caught himself thinking about a short trip to Ravenclaw's tower, to look if the boy headed there tonight.

"Shit no… I can't think about this. I can't!" L told himself out loud.

Don't make such a fuss about it, just masturbate and let go. His inner alpha told him.

"Shut up! Shut up! You are the one constantly telling me not to think about him, so why the fuck do you have to show me these fantasies of him!"

Because that's what you want to see. And it's alright, as long as you don't catch feelings… he is an omega. It's just nature… So act on what you are teaching that boy and let go. It's okay as long as you won't do it in reality.. His inner alpha whispered somewhere in his mind.

"It's just nature… yeah… just nature…" L said and he was already panting. He threw himself on a bed, took off his jeans and boxers and started jerking off while thinking of Light.

"It's just nature…" he was repeating to himself like a mantra while he started losing himself in his fantasies. Light's flushed cheeks flew into his mind and he was painfully hard. His inner alpha showed him visions of Light spreading his long legs and presenting his beautiful ass which was soaking wet with slick. L saw in front of his eyes, how he was sliding into the tight hole, penetrating the boy hard. His beautiful face was flushed, his mouth wide opened and eyes closed, while he was loudly letting out sounds of pleasure.

With these thoughts in his mind L came so hard that he screamed Light's name.

When Light came to his room later that night, his face was flushed and he was panting hard. He almost started touching himself on the way to the dorm. Lawliet's scent pushed him so hard into wanting that he thought for a moment that his heat started. But it wasn't the case. He was just extraordinarily horny and he needed release.

So when Light finally got to his room, he locked the door, practically ripped clothes away from his body and he laid on the bed. He started slowly touching himself, his own nipples, his cock and then… he couldn't help himself but sliding his fingers between his butt cheeks.

It was new for him.

Light has never done that before.

Even in his heat he was only jerking off which was… making his heats painful and unbearable. But Light couldn't do it. He just found fucking himself with a toy or fingers too shameful. He needed to keep control of himself all the time.

And here he was now, with fingers in his own butt, trying to find the spot of sweet release. And though it felt good, Light knew there was something missing. That he needed alpha's cock to make him feel right. But that wasn't possible. So he fucked himself as hard as he could with his fingers. But... he still couldn't come. He needed just a little more. Just a bit more to get over the edge.

And he knew exactly what that was. Light finally let down his own guard and let his inner omega take a lead. In a moment, his mind was flooded by a memory of the most powerful scent Light ever smelled. In front of his eyes was a vision of his professor, touching him, kissing him, fucking him hard on the desk in the DADA classroom. Light couldn't help himself but moan loudly, at the vision. He had his legs around Lawliet's waist and the man was pounding into him, like there was no tomorrow.

"I am gonna fill you up with my come Light…" Lawliet told him while kissing him passionately: "... you are going to bear my pups, understand?!"

At that sentence Light came hard while yelling: "YES!"

It was… awkward.

When Light and L sat opposite each other by the desk at DADA class on Thursday evening. Light felt embarrassed when he remembered what made him do all those things last night and he felt heat in his face every time he looked at his professor. What was even worse was the fact that Lawliet's scent was letting out that he was nervous. He had no idea why, but it almost felt like Lawliet knew exactly what Light was doing last night.

What Light didnt know was that his professor was feeling exactly the same way, for a very same reason and he was also averting eyes from Light as much as possible. Looking at the boy was a pure torture.

L really felt like an idiot about it. Not that he never jerked off thinking of a student before but with Light it was a bit different. Those other students were far enough from him to make things awkward but with Light he was alone a few times a week.

Calm down, you idiot. It's not that he knows. Just act normal. His inner alpha yelled at him and L finally forced himself to focus on their discussion:

"Yeah so… you understood it right. You can find a lot about the wand and its owner just by touching it, but it takes time and practice. That's why wizards don't like other wizards touching their wands. It is rare to come across someone who can read a wand but it is still a risk." L said, to answer Light's previous question.

"I see… how long did it take you to learn this?" Light asked and he was still looking everywhere else, but not at Lawliet.

L folded his hands on his chest, while thinking: "Thats hard to count… It was a constant process and I was very close to Watari when he was writing this research so I had it all from first hand."

Light finally lifted his eyes to look at his profesor: "How do you even know Watari? His research is really fascinating…"

L chuckled: "And you only read scratch of it… I met him when I was a child. He was…" L almost said something he shouldn't and cleared his throat instead: "... he sometimes came to the school orphanage to visit professor Wammy I was around so…"

Light smiled softly: "I see… he must be very fond of you. From what I read about Watari he is kinda secretive about his magic and research…"

L nodded: "Yes… and everyone always poked their noses into his matters. That's why most of the Wizarding world believe he is dead now. Is much easier for him to focus on his things without reporters constantly behind his ass."

Light nodded and he was silent for a moment. He would never say it out loud but he was gaining better opinion on his professor by every single hour they spent together. Yes, he was driving him crazy with his quirky notes, he was making him uncomfortable for many reasons and yet… there were moments when Light felt like Lawliet was the kindest person in the world and he deserved all the respect he could get. And if a great famous wizard like Watari liked him, there must have been a bit of a truth about it. In a way, Light wanted to be like him. And he wanted to show him that he is worthy of his attention.

"Would you…" Light spoke up again: "...Let me try to read some wand, professor? I mean… if you have some here."

L chuckled at his boldness: "You only read a small part of the research. Do you really think you can do something like that?"

Light straightened his back and his eyes started sparkling with his own shining ego: "I want to try. I am sure I can catch at least something."

L smiled cockily and his wand flew up from his back pocket. It landed right in front of Light whose expression changed rapidly. Sparkles in his eyes died and his arms fell. He bit his lower lip: "Don't you have… another wand? Professor?" he asked, suddenly unsure of himself.

"What's wrong with this one?" L asked innocently but inside he was laughing like an idiot. Ofcourse Light would be scared of his wand at this point. It was understandable and L couldn't help but tease him with it.

"Nothing I just…" Light started but Lawliet cut him off:

"I am giving you the opportunity to read my wand, Yagami. That's not something I would do for everyone..." L said and it was true. He knew it was kinda risky, given the true nature of his wand, but it was not probable that Light would figure out the truth at this level. And it was too late to take the offer back anyway.

"Alright… but… tell it not to… burn me, or attack me… or whatever it could do!" Light said nervously.

L laughed: "Don't worry. You are not a threat to me, right now. She won't attack you."

Light took a deep breath and slowly took the wand to his hand. He expected a shock wave or something, but that didn't happen. He looked at Lawliet who was running his thumb at his lower lip, and he was looking at him with piercing sight.

Light looked at the wand again, took it with his both hands and closed his eyes. He cleared his mind and whispered a spell for himself. It was a one that was not necessary to say out loud. This spell should connect his mind with the wand and if he was successful, he would obtain some information about it and its owner.

At first Light thought he did it the wrong way, because he didn't hear any information in his mind, but then he caught a few words flying through his mind very fast, he knew those were not his own thoughts.

"PROTECT. SERVE. INHERIT. PLAY. GAIN."

Light opened his eyes in surprise. He expected information about the wand's wood or it's magical core but what he got were practically it's basic habits. The first two words were understandable. But Light was thinking about the meaning of those other three.

INHERIT… that might mean that it's inherited in the family. But PLAY doesn't seem like a habit of an old wand. It is actually a contradiction. And GAIN… that can mean anything.

"Well?" Lawliet asked and ripped Light out of his thoughts. Light took a deep breath and worded what he thought: "The wand is extremely old. But there is also something young about her. I don't know how to explain it."

Lawliet tilted his head to the side: "Impressive… anything else?"

Light nodded: "Yes… it's loyal and protective over you and..."

"And?"

"I think you are not its first master." Light said it with a little uncertainty, like he was saying something very bad.

L chuckled at that: "Well you are right. It's quite logical given the fact that this wand is… as you said, extremely old." L stood up and started pacing the room: "But I must say I am impressed. Those are quite precise information for someone who just started studying the topic."

Light stood up too and he narrowed so much that he was a bit taller than Lawliet himself:

"Thank you professor. See, I told you, you will not regret teaching me."

L raised an eyebrow and hid his hands to his pockets:

"Don't get too egoistic Yagami. You still have a lot to learn."

Light laughed at that and his face changed completely. His eyes sparkled and he looked happy. Almost dreamy. L's heart almost ran away from his chest when seeing Light's handsome face this way.

It suits him. It suits him so damn much.

"And I will learn! I wish I could come here everyday." Light said with a dreamy smile on his face and L felt butterflies flying in his belly. He wanted to say: "You can. Please do.", but his inner alpha quickly took control:

"Can't live without me?" L said with a cocky smile and the spell was broken at once. Light's cute expression changed into horrified and he almost jumped two steps back while yelling: "What?! No! I didn't mean it like that! I meant to study!"

"Of course you did…" L said and laughed out loud. But inside he felt strange. He was happy his inner alpha didn't let him say anything too suggestive but he also felt unhappy that he didn't say that.

What the hell is wrong with me? He asked himself.

Light folded his hands on his chest: "Don't flatter yourself so much professor. You are not my type."

L raised an eyebrow and leaned his butt against one classroom desk: "Oh yeah? I am sure Mr. Mikami will gladly hear that you are not into tall black haired alphas."

Light opened and closed his mouth.

"But him... you…" Light started and watched Lawliet's face changing in laughter: "Stop laughing at me, this is not funny! You are my teacher, you shouldn't be talking about things like this!"

L was laughing out loud: "Sorry… it is actually funny! You really get frustrated easily Light! I am just joking! Even if I was your type it wouldn't matter! You are too young for me and I am more into… well... let's say into blondes so…"

Light inhaled sharply and felt like someone just kicked his guts: "I didn't need to know that! Why are you telling me this?"

Lawliet stopped laughing and shrugged: "Because I want you to feel safe Light. We are spending a lot of time together and I was notified by a few teachers that the nature of our second genders might become an obstacle so I wanted to assure you, that you have nothing to worry about from me, okay?"

Light narrowed his eyes at him. He didn't believe a word Lawliet just said:

"You wanted to assure me, there is nothing from your side, or you wanted to make sure there is nothing from my side?"

Damn his deductions are so fast and so right, I might as well kiss him on the spot. L thought and bit his inner cheek right after that thought.

"Ahem… is there?"

Light clenched both his fists and practically yelled at his professor:

"NO! YOU ARE MY TEACHER!"

L stopped leaning against the desk and narrowed: "Good! No need to get frustrated about it! Now that we have this settled I think we can end the lesson."

Light quickly started packing his things and wanted to leave before L stopped him: "And Light… this saturday you have free. I have to prepare things for Halloween's tourney so I will not be available."

That made Light literally stop in his tracks: "You are in charge of the tourney?"

L tilted his head: "Is that a problem?"

"No… no problem at all." Light said and wanted to leave as fast as he could, but Lawliet obviously didn't fall for that.

"Stop lying to me, Yagami."

Light bit his lower lip and turned from the door to face his professor again:

"It's just… remember what level of knowledge Hogwarts students have…"

L took a few steps closer to the boy: "Are you worried about me making the tourney too hard?"

Light looked him in the eyes: "Yes… It should be fun you know."

L laughed out loud again: "Light… between the two of us, I am the one who knows much more about fun then you probably ever will… and even if I didn't… tourney should have a champion. It's not for everyone to win."

Light nodded and eyed the floor again before saying: "Okay, at least make it possible for youngers to get somewhere…"

L folded his hands on his chest: "You really have no faith in me, have you?"

Light looked him straight in the eyes and their sights looked for a moment: "No… I don't."

Merry Christmas to all! I am looking forward to see you all in new and much better year 2021! Thank you for all your support! J.