IM BACK! I'm just going to jump back in the swing of things!

I have been hiding a secret from him for weeks.

I was continuing to have the pains but didn't want to jinx it by over thinking the worst and when the pain struck that I went thru the motions.

After a week of no pain and the all clear from the doctor entering my fifth month I was excited that the baby was bigger, almost here, and in great health, but as for me something new was happening in the pregnancy. The one thing that I hoped I would be able to control was stirring, the mood swings, the weird cravings, the puking were expected but the last change came with a vengeance, my own libido.

Blue got me excited a freaking color got me excited; I was losing my mind and to make matters worse I had a meeting with Fitz for a late dinner at his place. I am strong, but the hormones were stronger and tonight would be round one of the battles.

Fitz was outside on the step waiting for me and he looked gorgeous and it didn't help that he was in a black t shirt that clung to his chest and arms, and wearing some dark blue jeans that hung a little on his hips but were tight in all the right places.

"Hey."

"You will be the death of me," I let it slip out but he didn't hear which was good for me.

"Did you say something?"

"Just that you better have food or this will be the death of you."

"I am very sorry Miss Pope and baby Pope."

He reaches for my hand to walk us inside. Upon entering the door I could smell the food and my stomach growled..loudly.

"Wow."

"Shut it mister," but what he didn't know was that the pain was back and with a vengeance, "hey I'm going to wash my hands real quick."

"Sure but hurry, I've missed you."

Rolling my eyes to cover up the pain I walked to the bathroom as fast as I could. Upon closing the door I am hit with a white blinding pain in my head and as fast as it came its gone. All pain was gone, "come on Liv you can do this. You're a gladiator and the doctor said nothing was wrong."

After the little pep talk to myself all hell broke loose with my hormones, "you got to be kidding me now. Look kiddo I love you but I can't wait until you are out and I can control my body again."

"Livvie everything alright in there?"

"Yea I'll be right out," whispering. "and hopefully I don't strip off all my clothes and attack you."

Taking a deep breath and looking in the mirror one last time I open the door to find a pacing man looking like he was about to jump out his skin. Once he noticed I was staring at him he did something I was not expecting.

"I love you, wait no I'm in love with you and I love you. And I know I messed up my life by not waiting for you but.."

"Fitz you are pacing, sweating, and full on panic mode, slow down."

"Sorry. I haven't had a case of word vomit since I was young and asking out a girl on my first date. Let me start over. Liv what I'm about to ask you is big and I will completely understand if.."

"You are doing it again and this is starting to really start to sound like a proposal which…"

"Bear with me woman. Yes, I am proposing but not what you are thinking. Liv since the moment I laid eyes on you I felt it in my gut that you were meant for me. You had this invisible pull and I was glad to follow you wherever it may be. I knew that I had to have you in my life some way or form. Then you said you were pregnant, I was devasted because I thought that another man got to share this magically, beautiful moment with you and to have you. You explained what the situation and it eased most of the pain. I know we are new at dating, but I want all of it with you. To get to the point, Olivia Pope I never want you to be without anything, to never think that you are not loved or wanted. To never have the feeling of doubt in your self-worth or to be without having me to catch you when you are falling down. I promise to take care of you, love you, and never intentionally cause you pain. So, will you do me the honor and let me be a part of your life forever and help raise your child with you?"