That Eye You Can't Escape
13.

He doesn't know where to start, but conviction was a good place to do so. Taking stock came after that, and it was remarkable how the time had flowed by, how he'd let it flow by…

Yin was gone, but she wasn't out of reach. He wouldn't let her remain out of reach. And Mao… Mao had come back, for whatever reason, had saved him, hidden him from the Syndicate, said not one word of reproach for Huang's death, and stood by him still.

Mao, who was a Contractor in the genuine sense, who wasn't human in appearance or soul, who'd defied logic and come back for him – for them – anyway, who was defying the Syndicate for nothing to be gained in return…

There had to be something he was gaining in return.