I wonder If he's going to talk to him like we disguised, I wondered as I went up the stair. I was just in time to see Otabek leave Yuri's room

"Hey," I say

"Oh, hey!" he said as he turned around

"Did you talk to him?"

"Uh.. yea I did."

"Well, how did it go."

"I... I'm not sure.."

"what do you mean?"

"well... I talk to him, and he seemed to get what I was saying, and he agreed to try, but- I ..."

"You're worried he's not gonna follow through?"

"Yea. I guess"

"Look, You need to believe in him. if he cares, I can assure you he'll try to do as you asked him."

"I guess your right.. but."

"Something else is bothering you?"

"... Well... don't you think Yuri's drinking is getting out of hand?"

"Well, you should say something to him."

"I kinda promised him a while back I'd stop nagging him on it.."

"Well, that was a dumb thing to promise."

"you're probably right. but I did promise."

"Sometimes, you make promises you can't keep, the best thing to do is to explain why you must break that promise and apologize."

"well.. your probably right but-"

"I know you just talked with him, right? you can maybe wait for that one a little."

"Thanks, Yuuri. imma go downstairs.. i'm hungry."

"Alright, I join you in a bit," I say with a smile as he went don't stairs.

I turned to face Yuri's door, I should check on him... I think to myself as I open the door.

"Yuri?"

"What do you want.." Yuri sighed without turning to face me

"I just wanted to check on you-"

"Well, I'm fine. You can go!"

"Yuri... are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure!"

"Ok ok, I'll go jeez.," I say starting to turn around

"...I don't get it.." he sighs, causing me to stop.

"You don't get what?"

"I don't get how he can just take it and not get mad.."

"do you mean Otabek?"

"Yes! I'm constantly yelling at him! I- Basically insulted him indirectly yesterday, yet he easily forgave me! WHY!"

"Cause that's just how he is Yuri.. he cares about you, so he's willing to take alot.. but you.. really should be nicer to him.."

"DON'T YOU THINK I TRY YOU IDIOT!" Yuri yelled, throwing his pillow at me. now that he's facing me I can see the tears roll down his cheeks

"Yuri.."

"But.. I'm... I'm just constantly so angry... And I don't really know why..."

"well, I guess we should start with.. when did you first start lashing out?"

"I- I don't know, I feel like I've been this way since dedushka took me from my awful mother.."

"you've never mentioned your mother before? want to talk about it?"

"Uh I-I-" He started, a look of true fear sunk in his face.

"Stop, you don't have to, I see it. you don't have to force yourself.. your anger must be pent about frustration from living with her.."

"But! it's been so long!"

"Yes.. but you've never got past that abuse... You learned to live with it, but you've never truly talked about it before-"

"I told Otabek the story.. it came so easy then.."

".. That's.. That's because Otabek is someone near and dear to you; you trust him."

"Maybe you right.."

"Tell me, Yuri; you like Otabek, right?"

"I.. I really don't know.. I've never been in love before.. never even had a crush.. maybe.. Maybe i'm just flustered cause I know He sees me that way? I mean, I thought maybe I did like him.. but then... I insulted Homosexuality so easily... I can't be Homosexual and homophobic at the same time, right?"

"Yuri... You aren't Homophobic.. you're just trying to work past the biases that was ingrained in you when you were young. but to answer the question... you absolutely can be both; some people are homophobic because they are ashamed.. ashamed of who they are.. and who they love... and it's sad.. that society could have that much influence to make someone hate themself that much." As I spoke, I looked over at Yuri. At that moment, I knew I had lost him. he almost seemed annoyed

"eh. Whatever why am I even talking to you? You're just victor's pig. I'm not here for a lecture, you know."

"I know that. But Yuri-"

"I'm heading downstairs; I want breakfast." He said, cutting me off as he stood up and left, honestly I was lucky he listened to me and talked as long as he did. With a sigh, I also stood up and left as well. At least I'm starting to get through to him.