I always knew that Kensi and I were meant to be. And I started thinking about marriage really early into our relationship, but I know Kens needed some time after all that she went through with Jack. She's definitely afraid of commitment and I needed to give her some space. But it's been around 9 months now and if I do say so myself we've been perfectly perfect together. Kensalina is definitely opening up more, she's letting me in, which I take as a good sign that she's commiting to us. So for the last couple of weeks I've started looking at engagement rings. And I've found the perfect ring today. Understated yet elegant. Just like her. But now I have to figure out when to ask her. Because I know that even though she's opening up and commiting to us, there's still a trauma when it comes to relationships. And I want us to last, not for this to be the last straw...
My Kensalina is strong, loving, caring and a kick-ass agent, but she's also afraid of giving her all in love. Maybe I should wait for a special moment, like when we celebrate our first anniversary. But knowing Kens she will think that I feel like I need to on such a day. Okay, I figure I might as well start planning my proposal. Because either way this is our make it or break it moment. I can't propose in public, too much flight risk. But I want to propose over a romantic meal, because I do need to keep myself occupied and eating will do that. Hmm, maybe I can make all of her favorite foods. Light some candles, soft music. Nice tablecloth. Okay that is my how. Now for the when. I think it shouldn't be a significant moment for us, that's not us and will lead her to doubt my intentions. And since I don't want to lose my nerve I've got to do this pretty soon...
This saturday night it is! I started writing a list of groceries I would need and what supplies I need to give her a restaurant experience at home. The ring is hidden in my gun safe and I will get everything on my list during the week. I've got a good feeling about it, now I just have to ask Kensalina the most important question of our lives...