A little warning about the sex scene in the chapter because ... well, Levi deserves it.
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When I grow up I want to be powerful.
"Dance with me." Elizabeth smiled softly after finishing their hot tea. Levi had leaned back on the sofa, eyes closed, to relax after some hellish days.
He was grateful for all the work Hange had done with her, she really helped saving her life; he could not think about what he's life would become without her, he could just not imagine it. Nor did he want to.
"I do not dance."
"Come on, this is a birthday party. At parties we dance." she exclaimed, standing up and extending a hand to Levi so that he could join her.
"There is no music."
"I don't need the music. I need you to get that sexy ass off the couch."
"Are you serious?" Levi opened one eye absently, his Elizabeth was back exactly as before, she had recovered completely.
"Yes."
"Fine." he conceded, only by virtue of how he had been in pain in knowing her far away and in danger. "But if someone finds out, I'll make you regret this."
"It will be our little secret."
Levi put his hands on Elizabeth's hips, letting her lean on his shoulders and make their bodies adhere.
He let her move slowly leaning his forehead against hers, inspiring the scent she emanated.
After a couple of steps she lifted her chin just enough to make their lips meet and kissed him with all the love in her body, feeling the grip on her hips increase.
Elizabeth smiled against the Captain's lips, which began to get hungrier. That softly initiated kiss became a struggle for domination, which he won when she allowed him access to her mouth, letting their tongues brush against each other.
Six months without hearing her voice, her smell, her laugh; all things he had gotten used to by now and not having them as part of his daily life was strange.
Without them he felt that something was missing. And it was her who was missing.
He tightened his grip on her hips a little more, lifting the edge of her shirt with his fingers so he could feel the skin beneath his fingers.
She pressed more against his chest without breaking away from his lips. Her hands had begun to caress his shoulders with one and the nape of his neck with the other, feeling the texture of that black hair under her fingers and ruffling it slightly.
Without her realizing it, the two had reached his bed, feeling it only when he made her lie down on it.
Levi's lips had begun to descend down his neck, working their way around his collarbones and over what the shirt allowed.
When he decided he didn't want to resist anymore, he lifted her arms slightly to take off that now useless garment and float over her breasts.
He tested them slowly, feeling her writhe beneath him and groan with pleasure as her hand continued to caress the back of his neck.
He lifted up just enough to take off his shirt and drop it to the ground, regardless of where it would end up.
Elizabeth could not explain why but she perceived everything with a disarming slowness, it seemed that time had completely stopped and was no longer flowing; every emotion tripled, every single heartbeat thundered in her ears and her lower belly began to burn with desire.
His lips ran down her trained abdomen, paying some slight attention to the scar that now marked her skin. He deposited a light kiss on it, so delicate that she hardly even felt it, then a second and a third, as if that light touch could be enough to erase it.
The bruise around the wound had almost completely disappeared, leaving only a faint yellow halo around the bleached skin, she had lost some weight from the mission with her ribs now more noticeable than before, her bones were just more protruding to the touch and her hair was tousled. Yet to him she was still beautiful. She was alive, in his hands.
She breathed, moved, and responded to his every attention.
In time she would be back in top shape and resumed training and fighting but at that moment nothing was more important than making up for the time they had lost.
He went down even further until he reached the button of the trousers which he opened with two fingers before letting the fabric run down her legs, making her shiver a little from the winter cold.
Elizabeth only needed one look to guess that this was one of those times when he wouldn't let her go.
But that day he didn't want to dominate. He wanted to show her how much she missed her, how much he cared about her and how much she mattered to him; he wanted to show her that he really meant those three words he said before the mission.
He took a few moments to observe her; she was on his bed, completely naked, looking at him with eyes shining with pleasure and expectation.
He smiled mischievously before lowering his head to hes still partially closed thighs and, with one hand, made his place between them passing to kiss the skin of the inner thigh.
She writhed slightly, pushing her hips upward in search of a contact he purposely avoided.
He went down the leg until he reached the ankle and then switched to the other leg, giving it the same treatment.
She sighed when he, from her knee, with his lips went up along the inner thigh to stop just where Elizabeth wanted.
She felt his warm breath on her throbbing opening; it was just waiting to be filled.
And it was in that moment that she understood it.
She did not perceive everything slower, it was he who made it so; he was taking time not only for the wound she had in her abdomen but also for all the time apart.
He ran a finger over her swollen lips, brushing her clit with his thumb and making her suddenly moan.
"Levi!"
He had missed that sound!
The way she pronounced his name, in that hoarse, lustful tone; or with a slightly dry throat and a tired but satisfied voice after finishing when she leaned against his chest.
He penetrated her with his finger, touching the walls with circular movements but holding her firm against the mattress with his free hand.
On her belly, he ran his thumb up and down in a few light strokes that made her shiver.
After all that time without him, Elizabeth no longer wanted to wait and took advantage of Levi's slight distraction to pull herself up and, with a single leap, force him with his back on the mattress.
"You could have let me finish." he whispered as he sat down and she reached down to give him another kiss on the lips. "After all, it's my birthday, isn't it?"
"Just because it's your birthday, now it's my turn." Elizabeth answered with a hand on his neck and her lips still too close to his to ignore them. She captured them again with her own, tasting them once again and running her hands down his bare chest to the trousers he still wears, quickly shedding them.
When he too was naked, proudly erect for her, he ran his hands over his member, sliding up and down slowly.
He grunted, not giving her the satisfaction of hearing him moan but she knew how to make him give in and the hand was soon replaced by something wetter.
When Levi opened his eyes he saw her lowered to him, while she took it all in her mouth and began to pump. That was the most erotic vision he had ever seen.
She had done it only once, confessing that she had never done it before, but she had a daring to experience with him that it still surprised him. There were things that, in his own inexperience on the subject, he did not believe possible, yet she always managed to leave him breathless.
Her tongue teased him properly until he felt her throat.
Levi was slowly going mad; he closed his eyes again, leaning his head against the keyboard of the bed and giving her a few soft moans of pleasure that made her realize she was doing everything right.
He was so lost in his own sensations that he didn't notice that she had pulled away, crawling on him to position herself on his lap.
When Levi opened his eyes he found her leaning towards him as she rested her hands on his shoulders for stability and a sly look on her face as she licked her lips.
He raised his hands on her hips to help her move and she took the opportunity to kiss him once more while letting his member fill her, sitting on him.
The moans died in their respective mouths with tongues intertwining and dancing eagerly and only breaking away when she got used to the intrusion and began to move on him.
He ran his hands over her back, lifting her just enough for their bodies to come into complete contact and began to push towards her, hugging her.
His right hand went up to her neck, pushing her against as far as possible while the left still aided her in her movements.
The only sound he could hear was her moans of pleasure, now free to go out.
And he continued to hold her tight even when they came, she just before him, gasping satisfied in search of oxygen and yet another kiss that would express their feelings for them.
Levi smiled as he felt her snuggle up to his chest, then resting her chin on her hand to look into his face, smiling.
He gave her the freedom to move and settle down as she pleased while holding one hand behind his head for support and brushing a strand of rebellious hair from her face with the other.
Her air were shorter than when she left, but that length didn't bother him. Before they reached just below the shoulder blades while now just above the shoulders but for him she was still beautiful.
"I haven't asked you yet if you've read what I left you from the notebook." she asked quietly, relaxing from the warmth that his body gave off.
"I did. I didn't give them to Erwin, don't worry."
"I know." Elizabeth smiled, suddenly feeling all the tiredness of the past days on her. "I left it to you just because I trust you. I wanted to know if it could be possible for you that I am a good soldier just for that experiment."
Levi seemed to think it over before answering. "No. Based on what it says, the serum has helped your reflexes and stamina, but the skills are completely yours. If you are a good fighter it's all your doing."
"Yet their words made me feel like I was just an experiment."
Levi saw sadness in her eyes, it was evident how that subject disturbed her and she also seemed to fear that someone might find out. She never cared what people said about her but she lit up when her team members were brought in. And he agreed with her that it was best to avoid throwing more meat on the fire.
"You are not. You are what you have decided to be." Levi replied with such sincerity that it hit Elizabeth deeply. "Or whatever you decide to be in the future. The important thing is that you never have regrets."
"And you, since you started following Erwin have you ever had any regrets?"
He just looked at her, taking her hand and intertwining their fingers, letting the moonlight shine upon them.
"Never."
Elizabeth hesitated barely on the threshold of the door. She had talked about it with Levi and he himself had advised her to talk to her but now she was no longer sure.
Sure, she wanted the truth and she wanted to know how far what she had in her body could push her, but a part of her didn't want that answer.
She had always lived with the knowledge that she knew perfectly well who she was but now she was no longer sure.
She just knew that she was strangely powerful for a woman, according to what she had always been told, that she was not like any other.
She took a breath and braced herself, watching the team leader study probably something about titans from some book.
The reflection of the light scrutinized her lenses slightly as she realized she was no longer alone.
"Elizabeth hi, what are you doing here?"
"There is one thing I should tell you about but I must ask you to keep it a secret."
"Is this about Levi?" asked Hange on seeing her friend so reluctant.
"No." the blonde hastened to answer confidently. She then reached into her pocket and pulled out the sheets of the notebook that illustrated the part of the experiment that concerned her.
Hange read them silently and carefully before looking up at the blonde.
One glance and it seemed to have understood everything.
"Do you want me to test you?"
"Yes."
Elizabeth eliminated from her body all that was superfluous for Hange; left only with pants and a band to cover her breasts, she made her do exercises and tests that pushed her beyond her limits.
Hange's mind, for Elizabeth, was amazing: she was a born curious, fascinated by everything she did not know and eager to learn every single facet of something.
When she was faced with an anomalous titan her gaze filled with light and that same light Elizabeth saw her while she was studying her.
A strange shiver struck her back at the thought that there might be something of those creatures inside her.
Her skin was covered in sweat, and her hair, too short to be pulled back, curled lightly over her face.
The team leader made her stop, leaving her a chance to hydrate with some water she had left on the table.
"Well Elizabeth, you are not a titan but something inside you fascinates me equally."
Elizabeth raised an eyebrow, as if Hange had read her mind and had given her a direct and targeted answer.
She was relieved to know she was still human, but if there was a part of her that she didn't want before, now curiosity had taken over.
"What did they do to me?"
"What they injected into you is what Erwin was talking about that day. The search for the perfect soldier. It looks like a set of supplements and substances that the blood does not excrete, rather it has made it part of itself, and gradually releases it each time your body is put under strain." Hange began to explain, handing her a towel so she could wipe the sweat off her shoulders and cover herself. "Your body has recognized that substance and continues to produce it when needed into the blood itself."
"So, in summary, I can't expel it in any way?"
"No. The fascinating thing is that your blood shows no trace of it until you reach your physical limit. It seems this Kenny has managed to create a perfect soldier after all."
Elizabeth put her shirt back on, covering herself from the cold air that began to make her shiver in contact with her skin.
After a full three hours of work locked in, Hange had figured out how what Kenny had injected worked. Elizabeth had told her everything she had discovered.
Kenny, on the other hand, had been kind enough to reveal to her when he injected her, thus giving Elizabeth an even better picture of the situation.
Hange was beyond amazed by her.
She leaned her side against the work table, crossing her arms over her chest and smiled at her friendly.
"The first time I was fascinated by someone's physical prowess it was Levi, he was incredibly fast and talented. Then I saw you training. I couldn't explain why but there was something in you that had struck me and now I know why."
Elizabeth smiled to see her soften her tone as she spoke to her from her heart.
"I've heard all my life that I'm too much to be a woman, you know. You were the first to not have."
"You are incredibly powerful. But you remain our Liz, never forget that."