"Morning, Otabek."
"Oh Morning, sir," I said as I came face to face with Victor.
"You know. I specifically asked you before I allowed Yurio to start drinking. You said yes." Victor said bluntly
"Yes... I know, but-" I started.
"If you weren't ok with it. Why did you say yes?" Victor asked with a confused look on his face
"Cause... His face... That look in his eyes... I- I couldn't tell him no."
"That's not a good thing. You have to learn to say no."
"I know but-"
"No buts. Do you wish to pursue a relationship with him?"
"Um.. well the thing is-"
"Yes or No, Otabek."
"... Yes."
"if you want to have a healthy relationship, you need to learn to say no. Otherwise, he'll walk all over you. even if he doesn't realize it at first."
"I know. I'm working on it."
"if he gets used to you saying Yes, he won't react well when you finally say no. if you let it get to that point, your relationship won't survive."
"I know! But... it's not that simple."
"maybe it is. you're overcomplicating it."
"Well, what would you do!"
"Personally, I wouldn't let it get this far. But I'd say it as it is. I'd tell him I made a mistake saying he could drink. That I only said yes cause I was weak to him. And that I can't stand by and watch him fall down this path anymore. either he stops drinking or I leave."
"But I can't leave him alone he just suffered a loss!"
"Yes. But if he cares about you, he'll stop drinking or at least try to cut back. Otherwise. you'll have to face the facts he doesn't care about you."
"But he does care about me."
"Are you sure about that?"
"What you mean?"
"Otabek... I can't tell you how he feels. All I can tell you is what I see. Yuri has consistently disregarded your feelings since we got here. Anyone with sense could know when you said yes to him drinking, you were uncomfortable, and even if he didn't know you liked him, he knew you'd say yes to him and used that. And even now he does know, and he claims 'not to like you he continues to lead you on and let you think you have a chance. Otabek, the reason you so confused is cause he seems to be actively leading you on."
"Yuri isn't leading me on! he's just trying to treat me like nothing happened.."
"he isn't leading you on? Until last night you still shared a bed! I beg to differ."
"Guys.." Yuuri started coming down the starts "Keep it down, he'll hear you."
"Also.. we shared a bed cause there no other rooms in this house.."
"Yuuri could have easily asked for a futon sooner, you know.."
"I- I didn't think about it... besides... I.. I liked being in Yuri's room.."
"Also, if we're Honest-" Yuuri began.
"Damn, what's the heck did I walk into." I hear a voice say; my face flushed as I turned around and Saw Yuri's grumpy face. He's awake
"Oh, Yura, Good morning."
" jeez 'I liked being in Yuri's room' you really have Issued, Beka. did you guys already eat breakfast. before anyone says something they'll regret." Yuri said, walking past me and momentarily looking at Yuuri. I have to wonder.. what was Yuuri going to say before he came downstairs? Whatever it was, Yuri didn't want me to know. Victor's words gave me a lot to think about. could that bit of info maybe things clearer for me? Would it make his feelings more clear? I should respect his wishing and not pry, but. I can't help but wonder why it was he was going to say.