There goes my heart beating, cause you are the reason I'm loosing my sleep. Please come back now. There goes my mind racing, and you are the reason...that I'm still breathing, I'm hopeless now. I'll climb every mountain, and swim every ocean. Just to be with you, and fix what I've broken. Cause I need you to see that you are the reason.
3rd November 2019
"It's okay sweetie, it's okay" Morgana soothed as she paced the bedbay in children's A+E. They had just seen a nurse in triage and she had given Amhar a bed, where they'd monitor him, take his vitals and decide on the next course of action. No nurse had come to check the tot's vitals. He just wouldn't stop whimpering.
"Come on, I'll take over pacing" Merlin smiled as he stood up and took Amhar. "You should rest". Morgana smiled gratefully and sat down in the chair.
"I just hope he's okay" she sighed.
"I know" Merlin agreed. They saw a nurse coming over from the nurses center and into their cubicle.
"I'm Keira" she smiled warmly. "And I'll be looking after you today. So, I've been told Amhar seems to have come down with a cold and having trouble breathing?".
"That's right" Morgana confirmed. "My partner heard him whimpering over the baby monitor so went to check on him, he was crying, obviously had a cold. When I woke up I noticed he'd had trouble breathing".
"Okay, I'll be doing his vitals to see how he is and we can take it from there" Keira smiled. Amhar cried as they took his blood pressure, temperature and clipped the oxygen monitor onto his finger. Keira went away and soon came back with a doctor who attached an Oximeter to his toe.
"So his oxygen levels are slightly lower than we'd like, we're going to move him to a ward" the doctor said. "It's just a precaution as he had diaphragmatic problems at birth. Nothing to worry too much about". The doctor went about making arrangements leaving Merlin and Morgana alone with the baby.
"They're admitting him" Merlin sighed. "He's being admitted".
"I know" Morgana sighed. "I know".
"Looks like we need to make some arrangements". Merlin put Amhar down on the bed and went on his phone while Morgana rocked the baby. "Seeing as we have work tomorrow. I'll email Nimeuh, I assume you'll be staying with him?".
Morgana nodded. "Yeah. Oh fucking hell, uh this is a mess. I suppose you could get me some things from home if that's okay?".
"Of course" Merlin agreed. "Text me a list of what you need. Should I start heading back now? Or after lunch?".
"Do you mind grabbing me something from the cafe?" Morgana asked. "I'm bloody starving".
"Coffee?" Merlin asked.
"Can't believe you actually had to ask" Morgana scoffed. "Always need coffee. And some vegan Mac n cheese". Lunch was eaten next to the bed, they tried to feed Amhar some but he just lay there sadly resting his head on Morgana's shoulder, drinking a little bit of his formula but not much.
"I guess I'll go get some things from home then" Merlin sighed as he ruffled Amhar's head. Morgana was lying in the bed cradling the sleeping baby, he wouldn't settle unless he knew either Merlin or Morgana were near him.
"Here's the list" Morgana quickly got out Merlin's phone and began to write them down on notes. "Pot noodle. Decent coffee and tea. My pillow. Those porridge pots, I gotta eat. Nappies, baby milk, I dunno if they'll provide formula now he's over one. Get me some leggings and pyjamas too would be nice but don't worry too much. Baby bodysuits, baby grows. His squeaky eggs, blanket, bat and bunny. My AirPods. Don't forget the phone charger. I think that's all, I'll let you know".
"Okay, let me know if there's anything else you need" Merlin said as he hugged his fiancé and the baby. "I love you. Stay safe".
"I love you too" Morgana replied as she kissed him. "See you soon. Take care love".
"You too" Merlin smiled as he began to walk back to the car park.
Morgana only had to wait for around half an hour before Amhar was moved over to a ward, with him in the pram still hooked up to some machines that the nurses had wheeled they made their way to the paediatric ward. Morgana hadn't been to the paediatric ward in Avalon city, Amhar was still little and they had cot's for the under two's, yet she did think the bed next to it looked rather strange.
"Also, you have a parents room" the nurse said as she passed Morgana a keycard. "So your partner can stay overnight too. Some parents find it useful to have a rest while we watch the child, and he'll have twenty-four hour care".
"Thank you" Morgana smiled as she cradled the sleeping babe in her arms. "But I think for now I'll stay with him. My partner can stay overnight?".
"Yes, as it's a double bed he can" the nurse nodded. "We're going to keep observing him, likely having to put him on oxygen soon".
"Oxygen! Why?" Morgana gasped as she gently ruffled his hair.
"Just as a precaution. He'd best stay upright in bed too, as he has bronchiolitis. It isn't anything to worry about, we see the all the time" the nurse reassured her. Morgana lay Amhar in the bed as she didn't want to accidentally harm him, watching over the rails as he slept. The day before he had been perfectly fine, only now for him to be lying in a hospital cot. She hated it. Absolutely hated it. He was a baby, he didn't do anything wrong yet he'd still ended up like this, stuck in a hospital bed surrounded by wires. Like when he was first born, first night of his life spent curled up on his own. Once more, in a hospital cot. Looking so small and helpless.
The nurse had shown her the kitchen for parents where she could get hot water and they had some tea, milk and biscuits for parents. They had an adults only room for if they needed a break from their child, an adolescent room (not that they'd be using it), baby and toddler play room, a sensory room and older child playroom. Given that Amhar had oxygen via wires going into his nose and was rather tired, they just stayed on the ward.
"Do they have TVs?" Morgana asked the nurse. She'd tried to entertain Amhar, yet he just was too tired to do so. He'd watched some CBeebies on her phone, yet it was low on battery and she needed it to contact Merlin.
"Not in the high dependency unit, although I can get you a DVD player if you like?".
"High dependency unit!" Morgana gasped. It all now made sense. Only two beds being on the ward. The unusual clinical-ness of it. The christmas tree already being up on the nurses desk. Having constant supervision. The parents room. It all just made sense.
"Just a precaution as he's on oxygen" the nurse reassured her. "I'll go get you that DVD player, anything in particular he liked to watch?".
Morgana shook her head and looked down at her phone. She needed to text Merlin, he was taking a while. 'Bed 24. Be quick. Also, you can stay the night as we have a parents room' she texted him. Merlin came back at around four, almost an hour after she texted him.
"Took your time" Morgana snorted. "Where were you? He's on oxygen, you can stay overnight as we have a parents room. Take turns in shifts".
"Okay, there was a reason I am late" Merlin admitted as he put all the bags down. "I found everything, eventually. But there's also something else".
"Oh yeah?" Morgana smirked, yet was rather annoyed. He knew she'd be worried. "What is it?".
"Morgana Pendragon" Merlin said as he got down on one knee and took a small black box out his pocket. We have been through a lot together. Death, murders, poisoning, kids. And I know, we decided on a whim and no lovey-dovey stuff, but I couldn't stop myself. If it wasn't for that car crash, if it wasn't for you and Amhar coming here to this hospital those six months ago, none of this would have happened".
"Merlin" Morgana gasped with a giggle.
"It always comes back to this" Merlin smiled. "Will you marry me?".
"You already know the bloody answer!" Morgana snorted with tears in her eyes. Merlin slid the ring on her finger and they kissed and embraced each other, Amhar happily grinning and laughing at the sight.
"How is he?" Merlin asked. Morgana smiled and slightly sighed. "He's getting there. He's getting there". Amhar lay back and smiled at his parents as they gave him a bottle of milk. They'd seen it in his eyes, he'd be alright. The doctor had confirmed that his oxygen levels had gone up, so he was likely to be released soon, although because of his lungs being underdeveloped they were being cautious.
"I can't believe that you actually proposed to me on the high dependency ward" Morgana chuckled as they went into their room.
"Me neither" Merlin agreed. "But I didn't know it was the high dependency ward".
"I didn't either" Morgana sighed. "I did think it was unusually clinical, and was slightly surprised with there only being two beds on the ward and having constant supervision. At first I thought it was because of the adoption and whatnot, yet having a nurses desk there just didn't make sense. Neither did the Christmas tree, I mean sorry for being a Scrooge but it's November!".
"I get you. But they just want to bring some cheer, I suppose" Merlin shrugged.
"Well, there are plenty of ways to bring cheer" Morgana smirked as she walked up to Merlin.
"I know" Merlin agreed as he locked the bedroom door. He quickly undid his belt and placed it on the bed as he pulled down his trousers.
"Well, let's do this" Morgana smirked. She quickly unzipped her hoodie and removed her t-shirt, tossing it over Merlin's shoulder as he took off his trousers. He turned her around so that she was facing the wall as he began to hump her. Merlin couldn't stop himself from letting out a small moan.
"Shh" Morgana hissed as she turned around and pressed her lips upon his. She could feel herself getting wet.
"But I won't be able to pull out" Merlin hissed.
"Damn the consequences" Morgana declared as he entered her.
As they lay in bed later that night, they had begun to think about it. Normally they would use condoms, although they had gone without a few times.
"You don't have anything, do you?" Morgana asked.
"What do you mean?" Merlin frowned.
"Like, any STD's, right?" Morgana checked.
"No, why?" Merlin asked.
"Cause we have gone without condoms quite a few times now, so I'm just checking".
"Are you on anything? The pill?".
"Nope" Morgana said popping the p. "Ain't got time for that shit stuff. Is there any particular method you want to use?".
"I don't like condoms that much" Merlin admitted. "So 'natural' planning".
"Okay, sounds good" Morgana agreed. "But, I think from now on, we should try to be more careful".
6th November 2019
After spending one night on the high dependency unit, Amhar was sent home. Like most kids did when ill, he bounced back to himself pretty quick but Morgana had decided to stay off work for the week to look after him before sending him back to nursery. This gave her and Merlin a lot of time to go through their options for the wedding, and who they would have as their witnesses. Later that evening once Merlin and his parents had finished work, they would be having a FaceTime call.
"Ready for this?" Merlin asked with a grin.
Morgana nodded and held Amhar close to her. "Let's do this".
Merlin propped his phone up on the table against the wall, hitting the FaceTime button and the phone began to ring.
"Merlin!" Balinor grinned. "What a nice surprise. And your girlfriend is here too. Hunith, Merlin's finally graced us with his presence".
"Ooh, about time!" Hunith could be heard shouting on the other end of the phone.
"Calm down mum" Merlin chuckled.
"Aw, the baby and your girlfriend are here" Hunith grinned. "Well, is there a reason that you're calling?".
"We have some news" Morgana grinned.
"You're pregnant?" Balinor asked.
"No, no" Morgana huffed indignantly and pulled her hoodie around her midsection. "Merlin, would you like to do the honours?".
"As I've told you, Amhar's adoption finalisation is on the sixteenth, next weekend. Well, we also have some news" Merlin grinned.
"Go on then, what is it?" Balinor asked.
"We've decided to get married" Morgana grinned. "We're eloping, and we'd love you two to be our witnesses".
"Oh my gosh!" Hunith shrieked. "Yes! We'd love that!".
A/N: Happy New Year everyone! Let's hope this year is better than the last. There is one chapter left on here before part 5, I'll probably post it later today. Thank you to all who have followed, favourited and reviewed by fic's this past year. Here's to 2021!