Chapter 14
"Kara…"
"Mhmmm…"
"Kara, wake up. Breakfast is served"
"One more minute, Lena…"
"I'm not Lena…"
The pregnant woman wildly opens her eyes when she realizes that once again she called Alex, Lena. Her sister doesn't take it badly, to be honest, she's just happy to have Kara in the house again.
"When you feel ready, there are pancakes for you on the table"
The blonde smiles, stretching over the bed under the thought of eating delicious pancakes. She gets ready to stand off the bed when she realizes that Alex is not going to have breakfast with her.
"Where are you going?"
"Sam and Ruby are finally arriving today. I promised them to see them at the train station"
Kara smiles when she sees how happy Alex looks when the name of Sam is mentioned. The idea of seeing Sam and Ruby makes her happy too, but, sad also because somehow, thinking about them, it makes her think about Lena. She left the city, trying to bring some peace to her mind. She wasn't sure if going back to Midvale was the best idea but when she stopped to live with Lena, she started to reconnect with the Danvers.
They say that when a door closes, another gets open. And, maybe that's what happened to her. Lena's door got closed to her, but the one of the Danvers got open again. Taking it as a sigh of fate, Kara decided to accept the proposition and live with the Danvers.
Kara was happy to be back, Eliza was thrilled with the idea of having her girl home again. From cookies to sweet pies and the most fluffy pancakes that Kara has ever tasted. Eliza was doing all that was possible to make her happy. And yes, sweet things make her happy, but no matter how many sweet things she could eat, she didn't feel completely happy.
"Kara, sweety. You're spacing out again and your pancakes will get cold…"
"Oh, yeah! Right!"
Eliza smiles when she sees her devouring the plate of pancakes but the old woman can't stop wondering why there's so much sadness in Kara's eyes.
"You've stopped calling at L-Corp…"
Kara nods, filling her mouth with food.
"You're giving up on talking with her?"
"I think it's clear that she doesn't want to have any contact with me. I should respect her wishes…"
"And, what about the baby?"
"She has made it very clear that she will provide me with everything we might need, so, it's gonna be okay…"
It's not okay, a child needs more than a comfortable life. He needs love, he needs parents watching over him. And, she would like to have a bigger talk with Kara about it, but she decides to drop it when she sees how sad Kara looks when the name of Lena is mentioned.
Without the CFO position at L-Corp. Alex proposed to Sam & Ruby to move to Midvale. Sam is not sure if it's a good idea but when Alex shows her a diamond ring, she realizes that Alex is being serious about her. And, somehow the ex CFO finds no reason to say no.
"Alex asked my help with the move. It's okay if I let you alone for a couple of hours?"
Kara nods, she can't believe that Alex quit her job in the city so she could stay close to her and Eliza. Following the family tradition, Alex became a doctor, that's how she met Sam. One day in the ER, there was an hysterical mother who was going to murder any intern if her daugther wouldn't be take care immediately and that was for Alex, love at first sight. All the personnel of the hospital found the brunette irrational and crazy while Alex couldn't stop thinking what dedicated mother she was.
"They will be our new neighbors, I don't know if that's a good or bad thing, Eliza…"
"Well, I just know that I'll not hesitate to drop the cops to their house if Alex keeps hearing that noisy music she likes…"
Eliza chuckles after saying that, she loves Alex, but she never liked her taste in music. The days pass by and Kara starts to like more and more her new normal. Having Sam close it becomes something wonderful for the blonde. It's always nice to share some thoughts with another woman who went through the same as hers.
"You're completely right, Kara! The swelling of the feet, it's unbearable!"
"You see, Alex! I'm not crazy!"
"I never said you were crazy. I just said it doesn't look such a big deal for me…"
"You say that because you haven't lived it…"
"Sam, it's that your way to tell me you want to see me pregnant?"
Sam spit out her cocoa and the rest of the family just laughs at her reaction.
"Relax, Sam. I was just teasing you."
"Not funny, Danvers…"
Alex shrugs and Sam rolls her eyes, how did she accept to marry such a snarky girl? Maybe Alex's humor is not her best quality but, the dear Danvers has so much to offer. Kara has seen a new side of Alex since Sam and Ruby moved in. Going to all the soccer games of Ruby, baking and cooking for her family, getting the coolest decoration for halloween and the perfect family costume, it's just a few things that Alex does and Kara likes this homie version of her, it suits her well.
They keep talking, drinking their cocoa till the night arrives and Alex carries a sleepy Ruby to their house. Sam stays for a moment before saying them good-bye for tonight.
"I'm sorry you lost your job because of me, Sam"
"Kara, I told you before, you've nothing to apologize for"
The blonde nods, but she's still wondering if she could have done something to fix it. And the truth is that…
"To be honest Kara, I felt a big relief when Lena fired me"
"What?!"
"As CFO, yeah, the pay was good but the sacrifices were too much too. Honestly, I didn't quit first because I didn't want to leave Lena alone…"
Sam misses her friend, she's not angry with Lena. She understands why she reacted the way she did, she just hopes they will get the chance to meet again and repair their friendship.
"Sam, can I ask you something?"
"Sure"
"Do you think you'll ever be able to forgive Lena?"
Sam smiles and replies there's nothing to forgive. Kara seems happy with the answer, she's happy that Lena has such a good friend in Sam. Alex is waiting for her at home, so Sam leaves and Kara waves her hand. The blonde is really happy to see Alex & Sam as a family, but it's also sad to wonder if she will ever have that too.
"Don't worry about anything Kara. I'm sure you'll get a happy family too, one day…"
Kara chuckles when Eliza says such words. It will never stop to surprise her how well Eliza gets to know what she's thinking and find the perfect words to make her feel better. She wonders if she will have the same special superpower when her kid is born. Going to bed, thinking about what kind of a mother she will be, Kara closes her eyes and dreams with what would be her perfect family. A tear drops from her sleeping eyes when once again, Lena appears in her dreams. Being the lovely parent, Kara knows she will be one day.
We have dreams, we have fantasies we never believe will become true, till they do.
"Trick or treat!"
"Awww, Ruby you look adorable as a superhero…"
"I'm Supergirl!"
Kara chuckles when she sees the sweet kid making the classic pose of her favorite hero. As Ruby is dressed as a hero, Alex looks like a secret agent while Sam has a villain outfit because Alex says it looks good on her.
"Stop eye-fucking her, Alex! There are kids around!"
Alex tries to excuse her, but she says that Sam looks super hot as Reign and she cannot stop looking at her the way she does it.
"Seems like Agent Danvers will need to be taught a lesson later tonight…"
"Oh, Sam, I love when you talk dirty to me…"
Kara and Ruby cover their ears and throw them candies because they condemn their behavior.
"Fine, fine, fine, we will behave! Now, Kara stops eating all the candies and gives us something…"
The blonde giggles and she gives them some candies she has in a big bowl. Eliza takes some photos of them and when Ruby insists to drag her with them to trick and treat, Kara is left alone.
"It seems it's gonna be just you and me tonight, buddy"
The blonde talks to her belly and deeply exhales when she thinks that from now on, it will always be just the two of them. Alex might be close, but she has her own family and Eliza. Well, Eliza will always be a great mother and Kara has no doubt she will be a great grandma, but, Kara wants more than a cool Aunt and a great grandma for her and her kid. Yes, she wants more that's what she tells to herself when she hears the knock at the door.
"If you don't sing the song of trick and treat, you'll not get any candy!"
The blonde is already scolding whoever is knocking at the door without saying a word. With the hand on the door, Kara hesitates on opening it. What if this is a prank? What if when she opens the door, there will be a teenager throwing her eggs or worse, putting a poop bag at the door. If this is a prank, she will be so pissed because right now her hormones are going crazy, and, really, whoever is behind this door, they don't really want to mess with a hormonal Kara Danvers.
The ring of the bell sounds again and Kara takes a deep breath before opening the door. To her surprise, when she opens the door, she doesn't find any kid asking for candies nor any teenager making a prank. The only she gets when she opens the door is…
"Lena…"
Yes, Lena Luthor is in Midvale, standing in front of Kara. And, looking at her, the blonde wonders if this is a prank from fate because she was finally making peace with the fact of not having the dear brunette in her life. So, why? WHY?! Lena is here now!
"You shouldn't be here, Lena"
The raven-haired woman gulps hard when Kara says such a thing. But, what was she expecting after pushing her away and never taking her calls?
"Please, leave…"
Kara wants to close the door, not because she's angry, not because she's not happy to see Lena again. But, because she's too afraid to let her in again, just to be crushed and abandoned some months later. The blonde is not taking any risk, she will not give Lena another chance to break her heart. She's ready to close that door for Lena but before she gets the chance to do it. Lena puts her hands on the door, trying to keep open the door for her…
"Lena! Leave!"
"NO!"
"Why not?"
"Because you need to hear how sorry I am!"
Kara stops trying to close the door, she looks at her in the eyes and wonders if what she's hearing is the truth or she's daydreaming again.
"You're sorry?"
"Yes, I am. I'm very sorry for the way I have been treating you."
Kara nods, she knows Lena meant no harm on her behavior, but even then, she did hurt her. She deeply hurt her and Kara's not willing to take the risk of getting hurt again. And, that's why she tries to close the door to Lena, once again, but, once again, Lena stops her.
"No, wait! Actually, it's not even that, the reason why I'm here… I'm the one who pushed you away and you have every right to not want to see me but you should understand I never meant to hurt you. Pushing away. That's what I do. I push people away… especially the people I love…"
'Love', the word hits Kara's core when Lena confesses her love. It's the first time that the dear CEO has said it out loud and really meant it. It's scary, it's a foreign territory for Lena, to expose her feelings, her heart like this, but she has to, she needs to make sure she says it all before...
"It's too late. It's too late to say such words but, I love you, Kara. I love you with all my heart…"
Kara gulps hard, looking pale and Lena doesn't know if that's a good or a bad thing at all, the brunette is to the point of crying, thinking that coming here, to Midvale is a lost cause, but, before she decides to walk away again, her heart compels her to keep going, to keep trying till she lets out everything she has to say.
"I was scared of hurting you. I'm a Luthor, and, after finding out what my father did to yours, I was sure that you and the baby will be better without me in your lives. I didn't lie to you when I walked away and said it was for the best…"
"You hurt me, Lena. Even if you didn't want it, you hurt me…"
Lena closes her fists, her hands shaking by the frustration she feels by her actions. She regrets what she did, she regrets she didn't know better back then but, she's here now. And, even if it might be too late, she has to try to make it right because after all, we don't live forever. It's now or never. There's nothing else to say than the truth…
"I know but I love you Kara, even if I don't know if I can love properly, nor if I can be loved, actually…"
'Oh Lena, if you knew how loved you are, actually…' Kara thinks, her lips quiver, the vulnerability of Lena, it hits a soft spot in Kara's heart. Lena is exposing her heart, her insecurities, her soul for the first time in her life, and Kara wishes she could hold her, make her understand why she shouldn't be afraid to love or be loved but in the end, Kara doesn't move, she just says...
"You're not easy to love…"
"What?! Does that mean you…?"
Kara nods, she's also done with ignoring her heart. She loves Lena, she has been in love with her for long and they chuckle, blush spreading over their cheeks. It feels silly to use the word 'love' till now, they don't make it easy for each other, Lena knows that and that's why the thing she says is…
"I know… I know too that I'll keep messing up again and again. And, you have every right to push me away this time, because I'm too late, a few weeks too late perhaps, but, Kara…"
Their eyes met and it was like time stopped for Kara, like if there was nothing more than those green eyes, pleading in tears for a chance to love and be loved…
"I love you! Even if I'm scared, even if I'm a Luthor, even if I've pushed you away, I LOVE YOU! So please, please! Give me a chance! I'll always make it for it, again and again because…"
"My water just broke..."
"What?!"
They look down and their eyes get big of shock when they see the pool of liquids around the blonde.
"The baby is coming… OMG! The baby is coming!"
The CEO should be the one comforting the pregnant woman but, it's Kara who's trying to calm down the brunette.
"Breathe, Lena. Breathe…"
Lena has no idea how Kara looks so calm right now. But, she's glad to see that at least one of them is keeping it together. Kara calls her family as Lena drives them to the hospital. And, if Alex looked lethal in her outfit of secret agents, she was more than lethal when she got face to face with the last person she was expecting to see that night.
"What the hell are you doing here?!"
"Alex, calm down!"
"No, Sam! She has no rights to be here!"
"You're wrong! This is my baby and I'm not going anywhere!"
Alex angrily groans, she's more than ready to kick Lena out of the hospital and their lives but when the big contractions start, the only name that Kara is able to say like a broken record is…
"LENA! LENA!"
The labor of bringing life to this word starts. And, Kara smiles, feeling complete for the first time in weeks because Lena is at her side, she's here, she's not doing this alone because her home is back… her home is here.
Everything gets in place to welcome their little angel they can't wait to meet. Looking each other in the eyes, they smile when they understand what it's to come. Looking back, they have grown together, they have become these strong women who have been able to face their past and heal their open wounds because there's no better motivation to keep going than love, the big love they have for each other and for the crying baby that a nurse is putting on their arms.
"OMG! It's a boy, Kara! It's a beautiful boy!"
Holding her son for the first time, seeing this beautiful tiny human being she created, it's the most wonderful feeling that Lena has ever experienced. And, she cannot imagine a more wonderful path than being here. And, that's why, some days later...
NEWS: Lillian Luthor becomes the CEO of L-Corp and Lena Luthors goes MIA
Lillian reads over and over the header of all the newspapers and magazines of National City and a big smile spreads over her lips.
"Look at you, you're able to smile after all…"
Lillian rolls her eyes and pushes away the newspaper she was reading.
"You know. Just because you're the Queen of media, that doesn't give you free access to my office…"
Cat Grant laughs at the words of her old friend. She makes herself felt as home and serves two glasses of the expensive liquor she brought with her.
"Here, I was keeping this for a great occasion…"
"And, what is this great occasion to make a toast?"
"That we don't live forever. But, if we're lucky, we live enough to see our kids live freely & happy…"
"I'm not revealing you where she's…"
"I know. But, it's okay. I've other news to tell…"
Lillian smiles, raising her glass, she toast with Cat Grant.
Spending her last days taking care of a company her husband built and her daughter rebuilt, it was never the path she would imagine for her. She doesn't like to deal with the board, she doesn't like to spend all her days in an office. It's stressful and tedious. She wonders why she doesn't quit. Why she should be here.
It's in that moment when a new message appears on her phone, a message with a picture attached, a picture of a beautiful boy with black hair and green eyes. And, just like that, Lillian remembers why she's in this office, why this is the path for her, so this child can be free and left alone to live a happy, normal life, with Lena at his side.
"You chose your path, Lena and, I couldn't be more proud"
The END? Not yet...