Author's Note: Please, Please Read!
Hi everyone, I know that at least personally, I hate when fanfiction I read is interrupted by an author's note, so I'm super sorry that I have to put one here. I hope this doesn't affect you're reading, and I'm going to try to be positive and honest at the same time! Please read along if you are a fan of mine, this is a very heartfelt message I didn't think I'd have to send.
So essentially, I'd really appreciate you all bearing with me.
The first thing I'd like to say is a deep apology for my absence and my delays with uploading. I've never posted any fanfics before "Unfair," and when I'm in a creative storm, I tend to upload in a flurry because I'm so excited to show you all what I've been working on. Besides college applications, scholarship entries, and school, no one has ever seen my writing before, and it means so much to me that so many of you enjoy what I write. I try to write from as personal a place as I can, so as you can imagine, it takes an emotional toll on me that sometimes leaves me with burnout.
With that being said, I want to address something that has been, quite honestly, disturbing me both as a writer on this forum and as a person who wants to do nothing more than share her creations with people who have likeminded passions. I have been receiving some strange comments/PMs on fanfiction from readers that have evoked feelings ranging from confusion to personal hurt. I am not a professional writer at all, I am not getting paid to do this nor am I receiving anything for writing these stories (with the exception of so many of your wonderful comments).
Unfortunately, I've had to contact fanfiction a few times about readers leaving me threats about uploading, messages/comments about the trajectory of my stories that use defamatory language or other hurtful language to convey their dissatisfaction. While I realize giving any personal information about myself is probably not a good idea, I want to be very clear with all of you: I am a senior in high school. I am not Stephanie Meyer or JK Rowling, I do not have an editor, and I am just a single person trying to do her best. I have been very honest with all of you, I try to use trigger warnings as best I can, I've messaged many of my commenters to thank you all for your wonderful words, and I have said I realize that some of the subject matter may not be for everyone. Despite this, I have still received extremely inappropriate PMs/comments I've had to report for deletion.
While this is by no means the majority of you, I do feel that it's important to share with you because I feel more and more hesitant to upload. I realize Twilight fans are quite fanatical- while I wasn't old enough to be a fan during the original Twilight phase, the passion of Twilight fans is a well-known fact. But this does not mean that any reader should verbally abuse me or any other writer, simply because you do not like what I write, or you feel that I take too long to upload.
I'd also like to ask a favor of all of you. I am asking, PLEADING with you, not to leave comments for one story if they are relating to another story I have written. Please do not leave comments that say "please update story A" on story B, C, or D, with the hopes that I will see it, because quite honestly, it hurts my feelings that the writing I am doing is being unappreciated in lieu of previous writings. I understand your frustration, I, too, have been left wondering when my favorite authors would upload. But I do have to clarify, I do this for fun and literally for no other reason.
Please, please be kind in your PMs and comments. It makes me feel like I should take down my account if readers continue to leave me things that make me feel terrible about myself. I, nor any other writer, should ever have anyone PMing them threats that call me a "bitch" and a "piece of shit" because I have been trying to juggle things in my personal life along with writing.
For those of you who this does not apply to, I want to thank you for your amazing support. I wish I was the kind of person who could see past negative comments/PMs and look at all of the beautiful things you have said to me, but I'm clearly a big, fat baby who gets upset when people call her names (this is a joke! I am joking:) )
Love always, Fairylight2003