Hey guys, I have been waiting so long since I started this story to drop this chapter so I hope you like it as much as I do~
AMY POV
My feet walk with a different confidence this time as I run out of my last class and I head for home. My hair bounces with me as I hop down the stairs and then I continue to confidently stride out of the school. It seems like I was the first person walking out of school based off how quiet it was, but the quietness didn't last long until the building started having people leave.
Everyone spilled out like ants as I walk farther and farther away from school. The humid wind blows in my face and I look up to the grey sky above me as it becomes stingy with the warm sun behind it. My eyes travel back down in front me and I push on towards my apartment.
As soon as I get inside, I place my things on my couch, and I walk into my room to get changed. I put on some black comfy sweats outlined with white with white drawstrings and I also put on a charcoal shirt with a random rock band name on it and around the name is covered in roses and other flowers. I tied it around my waist, and I reach down in my closet and I sit on the floor, putting on some black tennis shoes. As my hands move around my shoe, tying my shoelaces together, I feel my anxiety creeping over my shoulder. I try to ignore it, but I also think of it as an inspiration reminder to go all out.
"I have to apologize to him."
I stand up and I feel my curls rush to my face as they slip past my ears.
"I should probably put my hair up too, so it won't get in the way, of me talking."
I start to walk out until the jar of beads of my broken bracelet shines on my bookshelf. We both share a good luck to each other, and I scurry to the bathroom and I put my hair in a high ponytail. Moving all of my hair out of my face and I look at myself as my face is more revealed. My eyes are still red and look kind of swollen from crying a lot yesterday.
"Well… I'm pretty sure he is going question my face. Yikes… it looks like I have been having major allergies." I touch my face looking at my swollen eyes and I sigh.
I walk out of the bathroom and then I walk out into my gloomy living room. I cross my arms and my eyes hit the clock above my T.V.
"Maybe 3 hours or so… what to do while I wait for him to get out of practice."
My puffy eyes move around the room and I notice that I left some sheet music out on my coffee table. I move over towards it and I sit on the floor. A small, loose curl falls from my ponytail and gently rubs against my red stained face as I look at the music. I pick up one of the sheets and I stare at the notes.
Lyrics I wrote way before we even moved into the performance room runs in my ears and I smile softly at the memory of when I was just starting to be the leader of the band.
"Must keep on movin' ahead…No time for guessin', follow my plan instead…" I sing softly and I place my elbow on the coffee table and I read over the notes and more lyrics.
I hum the song and then I look back at the time to only see only a couple of minutes have passed. I sigh and I stand up. I walk over to the couch and I plop face first on it. I lean my head up a bit and I look at the time again.
"Anytime now…" I say as I close my eyes.
When I open them back up, I notice that the time completely jumped, and I lean up quickly.
"W-what? But I just closed my eyes- "
I look at the time again and I notice that more 3 hours have passed causing me to spring up. I grab my keys and my phone, placing them both in my pocket after locking the door.
"How did I sleep for 3 hours that fast?!" I think as I make my way down the sidewalk towards his house.
"Oh… well I definitely couldn't sleep because I was so nervous… I forgot that."
Shrugging it off, I walk a bit quick down the sidewalk. I question my legs moving so fast and I try to slow them down but afterwards I would end up continuing to start walking faster. The humid winds push my body back and the air is cool in a way, making me look up at the sky in confusion.
A drop of water hits my forehead causing me to flinch and close my eyes quickly. Suddenly I hear wet plops hit the sidewalk in front of me and it slowly starts to come towards me as I walk in the rain. The raindrops are fat and heavy, hitting me on the arms, face and head.
"Ah, shit. I didn't know it was going to rain!"
The rain kicks up a tad and I start jogging which only causes me to walk deeper in the storm as I make my way towards his apartment. I hear a burst of thunder causing me to jump and I start to take off faster and the rain gets heavier.
I finally make it to his apartment and I quickly move to it trying to get out of the rain. I breathe heavily after running for so long and I turn around looking at the rain, creating puddles in the grass and sidewalk.
Rain trickles down my semi-soaked hair and I turn around to look at the door. My eyes go to his door and I shyly walk up to it. I reach my arm out but then I hesitate.
"I haven't even thought about what to say first… "Hi Sonic!" no that sounds to carefree. "Good afternoon- "ew no, what am I? A teacher… it has to be something… fitting. Maybe just a small hello and a bow and tell him why I am here… yeah I can do that."
I nod my head after having a conversation to myself mentally and I step up to the door. I bring my hand up and I press on the doorbell. It rings and I bring it down quickly as I feel a blush rise already.
"Okay… Okay… just be friendly and nice." I tell myself silently and I try to stand up straighter as the humid wind blows on my wet arms.
I shiver a bit and then I stand back a bit since I didn't want to make Sonic uncomfortable or anything. A few seconds pass and I bite my lip.
"Okay… maybe he didn't hear that one."
I click it twice this time since I thought he should hear that instead once and then I step back again. More time passes over and I start to feel confused. I step up and I look into his window to see if he was home. The windows are dark and there are no signs of life.
"But he should be here?"
I pull out my phone out and I look at the time to make sure I didn't get it wrong, but it wasn't wrong. I carefully click on my messages and I look at his name.
"Maybe I should text him-
Loud voices come from one of his neighbors making me look to my right and then they barge out of the apartment. Three tall young men walk out talking about the rain and then one of them looks at me.
"Hey." He says to me with a fake deep voice and I just look away as I had no time for this.
"Damn, I can't get a hey back? What happened to "Love your neighbor?" he says and then his other friends laugh.
I continue to ignore them, but it was pretty hard since they all were talking about me out loud.
" . See, cute girls are always like that. They like being hard to get." Says his other friend and another scoffs.
"Mean girls aren't cute. I simply said hi and she couldn't say "Hello" back. He says and then his friends points at the door I was looking at.
"Haha, no way. It's because is waiting on our neighbor to come to the door." He says and they all "ooh!" and start to get louder.
A blush rises on my face as I click on the doorbell again and I try to hold words from flying out of my mouth.
"Haha! Oh it is! Ayo, beautiful! You waiting on Sonic?" he asks, and I pick my head up and blush.
"Wow, I didn't know Sonic even had a girl. He never talks when we invite him to smoke but he has a girl… Wow, Sonic is mean too." He says and they all agree.
One of them walks closer to me and I eye him up and down making him stop.
"Woah, sorry. I was just trying to look through his window." He says and he walks up to me and then he looks in the window.
I watch him carefully as he leans up and then he looks over at me looking at me seductively.
"It seems like he isn't here? What if you come sit down at my place and wait for him to show up? I can keep you company…" he says and then he reaches up to touch a curl that was stuck to head and he places his hands in his pockets.
"And warm- "
I push him hard making him stumble back a bit and his friends laugh behind him making him blush. Suddenly he walks up to me looking kind of ticked off and I take some steps back.
"Hey! I was just trying to be- "
"What are you doing?" Says a deeper recognizable voice behind his rude neighbor.
The guy slowly turns around and I peak from around his body and I look up at emerald green eyes, looking very annoyed. His eyes move to mine and he seems shocked at first but then it comes back to being annoyed as his neighbor turns around and talks to him.
"Sonic. Why are you leaving your girl outside. I was out here protecting her from these idiots." He says pointing behind him.
His friends' gasps and then they all start to argue and Sonic sighs heavily and places his hand on his face.
"Sonic, wait! He was the one hitting on her! All I said was "hey"- "
Sonic walks past them as they try to explain themselves and they continue to argue with each other as well.
He places his key in the door and his eyes move to mine and I blush.
"You look like you got rained on. You didn't think about checking the weather?" he says to me and I blush even harder.
"Well- I didn't think about it… it hasn't been on my mind lately to check it."
Rain drips off his rain jacket and he stares at me for moment and so do I. I notice he has small amounts of purple around his eye from getting punched from Scourge. Also, he had on a dark grey rain jacket and some shorts and tennis shoes with his backpack on his back.
The neighbors behind go silent as well until Sonic looks at them and then I am sure he is giving them a death glare.
"Okay, boys. Let's go, so Sonic can spend time with his GIRLFRIEND!" one of the neighbors says.
"She isn't my girlfriend." Sonic says and then he goes back to unlocking the door.
"Oh… right. I'm not anymore. That one… kind of hurt, coming from him… but Sonia told me he gets like this, so I am just going to shake it off and continue going."
"What? She isn't your girlfriend?! Then what is she?"
"Bro, side chick. Sonic got hoes." Says one of them and they all start laughing as they walk back.
"Can you guys go." Sonic says annoyed and they walk off.
"Yeah, whatever. But hey! Yo bipolar ass needs to come hangs out with us soon! We got that good shit…" his neighbor says and moves his hand in a motion like he was smoking a blunt.
Sonic rolls his eyes and I watch his neighbors leave and then he looks back down to me.
"Do you need something?" he asks, and it starts to rain harder.
"Oh… right! Um… I wanted to t-talk about somethings." I say nervously.
Sonic takes a deep breath and nods his head.
"Okay."
Sonic opens the door to his apartment and turns on his light. I follow him quietly and for some reason I don't want to make a lot of noise, so I quietly take my shoes off and so does he. Silence echoes in the house besides the hard rain from outside. Sonic leans up and I do as well. I look up to him and he takes his hood off and then he faces towards me making me look off a bit.
"Ugh, why did I look off like that- "
"I'm going to go change out of these clothes. I feel like I smell like sweat. Just give me a second." Sonic says and I hear him unzip his raincoat.
"O-Okay. That's fine." I say and he unzips his jacket all the way.
Sonic walks off and I watch him walk away. He takes his jacket off fully and I notice he doesn't have a shirt on, exposing his muscular back and I blush quick. Sonic stops and then I look away as I am sure if he is looking at me.
"Also… feel free to make yourself at home. I'm sure you know the place." He says and I hear his footsteps move and then I listen to him open his door.
Watching him disappear, I take a step up on his floor. I slowly walk around, and certain places bring back memories making me look at something else to keep my mind off of it. I enter his living room and I look at the couch. My mind quickly wonders to other things as well and I turn around from it. My face heats up and I stare at my socks as my mind tends to wander.
"Okay, Amy. Just calm down. Stand strong and take all the wrath he has to throw at you until you get him to understand you side. You can do this. Just remember everything Sonia said- "
My thoughts come to a halt as the door close behind me. At first, I become afraid but then I remember my goal and I fully turn to him. Sonic has on a white shirt and some grey sweatpants now and I try to avoid looking at his muscular chest as I look at him. Sonic looks at me he smiles slightly making me take a breath.
"Um… I'd like to- "
"I'm going to make a protein shake. Do you want something to drink?" he asks as he walks past me.
I watch him as he passes me and he looks at me confused, since I said nothing and I was just staring at him. A blushes rises my cheeks and I respond.
"No. thanks."
Sonic nods his head and enters his kitchen. I walk after him and I enter the kitchen. Sonic already took out a blender and he starts to make his protein shake. I watch Sonic places some kind of powder, spinach oats, cut up apples, vanilla yogurt and some water which made me cock my eyebrow at him.
"How have you been?" he asks.
"Fine…. Fine. How have you been?" I ask and Sonic shrugs his shoulder and then he shows me a plastic container that was shaped odd.
"I've been well. I started working out with Knuckles and he told me to start drinking protein shakes if I want to gain more muscle. I guess I'll trust him, but you know Knuckles. He is kind of an airhead." Sonic says and I laugh softly.
"Yeah, he is…oh also. Thanks for letting me into your home, I didn't really expect you too- "
"Ow, fuck." Sonic says cutting me off.
"I cut my finger." He says showing me and then he places his finger back in his mouth.
"Oh… be careful." I say and Sonic goes back to making his protein shake.
I stand behind him quietly as I try to think of a way to bring up the elephant in the room.
"Okay… I think he is still mad… or annoyed since he interrupted me, but I have to keep on going."
"So, uhh…" I step closer behind him."I came over too apologize- "
"OH! That's what I forgot. Cinnamon." Sonic moves to his cabinet and he grabs it.
Sonic walks back over to the blender and shakes it in there and then he closes the top. I shake it off and I still try to push the subject on him.
"I know it's been sometime but I really want to talk to you about what- "
The loud noise of the blender covers my voice and I stare at the back of him as my voice can't compete to the loud blender mixing his protein shake ingredients together.
"Okay, well that was just plain rude." I think and I frown.
Sonic blends it for some more time but I look over to see that his protein shake is fully blended, and his facial expression looks infuriated in a way, as he concentrates on his shake that is making around in the plastic blender.
I walk up and I yank the cord out making the loud noise of the blender stop and also having Sonic look at me.
"I want to talk!"
Sonic looks away from me and rolls his eyes. He grabs his cup and starts to pour his protein shake inside it.
"Please." I say lowering my voice.
"About what?" Sonic asks me, acting clueless.
"About what happened… Please, I just want time to explain to you what happened."
Sonic places the blender cup back on its platform and then he turns to me.
"Please… I just- I just need to talk to you about it."
"Okay." Sonic walks off leaving me and I follow him.
Sonic walks towards his couch and he sits down on a single couch chair. He doesn't look at me, but I sit down on the big couch and I place my hands in my lap.
"Speak." He says as he drinks his protein shake.
I take a big breath and I nod my head.
"Okay… here goes nothing."
"Okay, well. I want to start by saying everything that is going to come out of my mouth is going to be one-hundred percent true and if you want to ask me about anything then feel free to stop or cut me off, because I really want you to understand everything I should have told you from the start." I say and Sonic nods his head but still doesn't look at me.
"Al-Alright. So, I'm going to start with how me and Scourge got in the place we were. It happened when were at the party store, getting supplies for the club festival." Sonic looks over at me and then he looks away." Remember when I ran back in because I forgot to get a blank CD and during that, Scrouge and his friends were there. It was really startling and scary so I was going to run back to go get you but- "
"But you didn't. You stayed there and talked to him." he guesses, and I nod my head agreeing.
"Yeah, and I was afraid and shocked at the same time so I couldn't move or really say anything. So he talked to me and apologized over and over again and explained somethings he said wasn't trying to do or say that night he pushed me into the bathroom and fought you. Also during the talk he took my phone from my pocket and… unblocked himself from my phone. After all of that he told me that he would call me so him and I could really get a understanding of the situation. I didn't even agree on if I wanted to talk to him, but it just happened… I let it happen because I was dismayed and then…. For some reason after all that happened, and I went outside. I wanted to tell you, I did but something in my head told me not too because I knew if I did you would go inside side the store and fight him. I didn't want you to get arrested or- or anything because of me." I say and then I look down to my hands.
"Which backfired because I forgot that I was technically hiding something major from you. Which I would never do, I-I- I didn't even know I was doing it-"Sonic scoffs and nods his head slowly, drinking more of his protein shake and I just look at him.
"Sorry, continue." He says and he moves his eyes to me this time.
"…uhm. I was trying to protect you from not knowing about me and him. I did do that. Another time we did talk again." I say and Sonic looks at me more irritated at the information I could have told him way before.
"It happened before you showed up to my house and then we went to your mom's surprise party, I was waiting for you to call. Impatiently waiting, so whenever my phone rang, I would pick it up like it was you, but it wasn't and this time when I answered it, it was Scourge." I scratch the back of my neck and I sit up in the seat as I noticed how uncomfortable this was to tell my side.
"Scourge… he thanked me for answering and not blocking him and our conversation went on to talking about that how I let go of what happened and that I forgave him. But, the most important thing I made sure to do was that I wanted him to know that I was dating you and if me and him were going to be friends then he would have to respect that and you. And he did. He never called me or texted me until the day before we were heading to Ginza."
I stop talking as I think about how everything could have been different. I squeeze my hand as I try to soak the tears back away and I continue to talk.
"He texted me good luck while we were leaving the school, to head to the hotel and then I said thanks. Then fast forward to the club. I didn't know he was going to be there, and I swear. I didn't invite him or anything, but he was there. I saw him after going to the DJ booth to find the list and this girl, was singing on stage at the time and she caught my eye. Then he showed up. He surprised me and I was happy because everyone was there supporting us. I see him as a good friend at this point and I still do. I… um. I did hug him because I was happy to see…him. Which you saw that and I'm sure I would be mad too if I saw you hugging… well…"
I look up from my palms to his face and he looks normal as he just stares at me.
"Moving on, the question you asked me over and over again and I should have just answered it, but I didn't. You asked me why I didn't tell you and I had no excuse and I still don't. Even if I was afraid of you being mad at him, I could have told you later or when we weren't around him, but I didn't, and I am super sorry. If the word sorry even works. But I just want to let you know that I would never hurt you, Sonic."
I sit up taller and I look him dead in the eye as he does me.
"I mean it. I would never hurt you, but I did and I'm sorry. I would never do anything bad to you Sonic because I care about you so much and when you were yelling at me and saying all those things… I just want you to know that its' not true. That's why I had to come over here you because I don't want you to think that-"
"I don't know… after hearing you explain everything and me looking back at our relationship, I feel like you basically treated me like an object." Sonic says and I shake my head no and I scoot closer to him.
"No, I didn't, you were so much more to me than just an object Sonic. I'm… I'm in l- "
"Then, why was Scourge still getting more than me. Yeah, you hugged him out of friendship. Cool. You talked him because you didn't want to lose someone close to you. Awesome. But at the same time, he was still getting so much more than me." Sonic says.
Nothing comes out my mouth as he is right. I try to search for something to say but I can't think of anything.
"It's whatever though. It's all cool. All is forgiven."
Sonic stands up and starts to walk towards his kitchen and I just watch him. I flip over on the couch as I watch him walk away in disbelief.
"Where are you going…is, that's it?" I ask him and he gives me a thumbs up.
"You aren't going to be angry or even ask anymore questions?" I say and Sonic shugs his shoulders.
"You said you are sorry. That's all you can be and I'm done talking about this." Sonic says back to me it feels like I just got hit by a bus.
"Why… why is he acting like nothing never mattered? I thought if I explain then he would talk back to me. Or want me to explain something else. Why is he acting like he doesn't care about anything."
"So… you aren't going to even talk about anything?" I say confused and slightly mad.
He doesn't respond right away and that makes me clench the couch.
"To be honest. I let this whole parade go a long time ago. Sorry, if you were still sad but I'm over it."
I stare at him like I have no idea who he is and then I slowly raise up.
"His words… they are cutting into me like a knife."
"Sonic… I've been crying about this for weeks, just for you to say it's okay and you don't care?" I say angrily as I feel some tears pop into my eyes.
Sonic walks back over to his living room and his same nonchalant stupid face makes even more furious.
"It's not that I don't care. It's just I can't make you do anything. So, now I'm over it." He says normally.
"Make me do what?" I question.
"Be honest and open with me. But, its fine. Do what you want to do." Sonic says unworriedly.
"Why are you acting like… you are calm and okay?... You were practically a bomb when you saw me and Scourge hugging each other." I say and Sonic sighs heavily because I won't let it go like he has.
"Well, that what happens when you get your heart broke… just like how you probably feel now." He says and he walks up to me closer.
"Angry. Confused. Sad. That's called your heartbreaking." He says and the look in his eyes, makes me clench the couch harder.
"Pain changes people- "
"Okay! And?! At least I am not ignoring the pain like you are- "
"Who said I ignored it? Look at my eye." He says and I look at his eye that was still sort of lazy and bruised but it seemed like it was healing.
"Did you forget how mad I was? If I ignored the pain, we probably would have won that competition and then you probably wouldn't have lost all you friends but since you wanted Scourge to care about you so so so much and hide secrets from me when you didn't have to. I had to endure this pain." Sonic says "But hey, it's cool now. You move on and I move on- "
"No." I say, and Sonic shakes his head and laughs.
"No? Why do you still need me when you have everything you need- "
"I-I-I don't." I say as I feel myself getting more upset.
Sonic notices my tone and reaches up to my head, causing me to close my eyes and then they open once I feel his fingers in my hair.
"You still want me? For what? Sex? -"
I grab his shirt making him drop his hand from hair and I stand up on the couch getting to his eye level and I'm sure I look the maddest I have ever been.
"You idiot! Isn't it obvious that I still have feelings for you!"
Sonic seems amused at the sound of my voice as he grabs my hands and removes them from his shirt. He examines around my face and he touches my chin.
"How cute."
Sonic lets go of my chin and he starts to walk off again towards the kitchen. I watch him disbelief.
"Why… why is he cutting himself from me like this. I thought if I explained myself then he would at least understand. He isn't understanding at all. All he has been doing is saying mean things to me and shutting me down. I thought I could take this, but I can't."
I step down angrily from the couch and I feel hot tears run down my face.
Watching him walk to the kitchen, I bawl my fists up as I feel myself about to rupture.
"I feel so frustrated. Even though we are in the same room, I feel like I can't reach him at all. But the way he walked away from me… is making me so… angry. I just…"
Wiping my tears, I take a couple of breaths.
"I just love him so much- "
"YOU CAN'T JUST COME INTO MY LIFE, MAKE ME FEEL SPEICAL AND THEN LEAVE!" I yell out and Sonic continues to wander away.
"I think I finally figured out what love is and right now I am feeling how much it can change a person."
"Why… WHY WON'T YOU EVEN TRY TO BE MAD AT ME! OR SOMETHING!" I say as he takes another step.
Tears fall out my face and I take another step towards him as he keeps on going.
"I want to tell him how much I do love him."
"SAY SOMETHING! I SAID I WAS TRYING AND I STILL AM SO CAN YOU EVEN ATLEAST HAVE A NORMAL CONVERSATION WITH ME INSTEAD OF HOLDING IT ALL IN! "
Sonic almost turns the corner into the kitchen and that's when I feel all the flames ignite.
"I love you."
"I BET IF I WAS SALLY THEN YOU WOULD HAVE FORGAVE ME!"
Those words that came out my mouth tasted bitter as they spread across the room to him. Sonic stops walking and I shakily bring my hands up to my mouth as I said something so unspeakable. I look around in shock, trying to make sure I said what I said.
"Did… did that really just come out- "
I look up to Sonic and he is still frozen.
"I… I don't know what I just said… I wasn't trying to- "
Sonic starts to walk towards the door and my mouth starts to shake.
"I-I-I. I didn't mean it. I take it back… I don't-" I stop talking as I bring my hand up to my shirt to grab it.
My eyes move across the floor in disbelief as what I said was so vile and evil. Tears continue to flow from my eyes as I try to find another way to fix what I said.
"… I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm… I'm still so horrible in the end." I say looking at him and he is still walking towards the door.
"I don't know what came over me… I wanted… I wanted to say that I lov- "
"Get out."
My eyes come up to his aggravated voice and then to his eyes. His looked cold and his face read "hurt" all over it. My breath is shaking coming out of my mouth as more tears run down my face.
"I… I-I-I didn't mean it- "
"Get. Out." Sonic says sternly and he stares into my eyes.
"No…" I say as I walk backwards.
"Amy… I am asking you so nicely. To leave before I- "
"I won't." I say and my shaky legs move over to his couches and I sit in his single couch chair.
"I'm sorry and I didn't mean it- "
Suddenly he walks up to me quickly and as his angry face approaches me I shrink into my seat. His eyes make me cower in fear and then he grabs my arm.
"Amy. Get out."
I look at his hand on my arm and I look back at him.
"No… I won't leave until we talk about this- "
Sonic tries to pull me up out of the seat but I grab it just in time before he can yank me up from it. The couch moves in the process of him trying to get me on my feet and I place my feet on the ground trying to stay on it.
"S-Stop, Sonic. I said I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bring Sally up- "
Sonic then grabs my torso and rips me from the chair. I freak out and I grab the arms of the chair causing him to pull at me again. I wouldn't let go until he drops me to the ground causing me to pull myself back to the chair. Sonic then places his hands on mine and rips them off the chair and quickly moves me away from it by throwing me over his shoulder on my back.
"Ahh! Sonic Stop!" I say as I freak out as I try to think of something.
My eyes hit the long couch and I try to reach for that, but I miss by an inch. My eyes dance around for something else to grab on and I see a wall we are passing. I grab onto it.
"Amy! Just stop!" Sonic yells
"You stop! You are trying to shut me out of your life, and I won't let you!" I say as I cling on the wall with my whole life.
Sonic rips me from the wall as he pulls at one more time, but I take advantage by placing my hands over his eyes. Sonic stops walking and then places me on the floor. He grabs my legs and starts to drag me out of my house. I kick my feet back and forth making him struggle a bit, but he just readjusts his grip and pulls me further towards the door.
"LET GO!" I yell and then Sonic pulls me harder making me slide quickly on the floor.
"NO, YOU LET GO OF ME!" Sonic yells and his words just influence me to fight against him more.
"NO! I WANT TO BE WITH YOU AND ONLY YOU, SO STOP AND JUST LET ME FIX IT!" I yell and Sonic doesn't respond.
Suddenly I hear the rain and I notice that I am getting super close to the door. Sonic gets me halfway out the door until I grab the edge of the door. Sonic pulls at my legs but I don't let go of the wall. Sonic then let's go of my legs and I take this time to try to crawl back to the living room.
"I… I can't let him throw me out of his life."
My palms and knees touch his cold floor as I try to scurry deeper in the apartment, but he catches me before I can do so. Sonic grabs me by the torso and my arms still reach out for something to grab but I notice nothing is there since I was outside. He places me on his front porch, and I stumble a bit.
The sky thunders and rains hard and I jump at the sound, but I turn my attention back to Sonic. I practically throw myself at him and I wrap my arms around his torso. My face touches his body and I shake my head back in forth as I don't want him to push me away.
"No, Sonic… please don't kick me out. I'm sorry. I swear I am." I say as a hot tear leaks on my cheek.
I press my chest on his and I move my legs closer to him like I am an afraid child holding on to their parent.
"Please stop… I'm sorry. I really mean it- "
Sonic touches my shoulders and continues to push me away from him. I grab onto his shirt as his strength increases and increases. My face start to slowly leave his body and then only thing I have left of him is his shirt that I am holding into. Sonic starts to take steps forward causing me to lose my balance a bit, but I still try to hold on.
"AMY LET GO!" he yells as he grabs my hands that was holding onto him.
"N-NO, I STILL LOV"
Sonic removes my hands causing me to stumble in the rain. My feet hit the slick puddles under me causing me to slip slighty but I catch my balance. I try grab him again but he moves back to quick. The first step I take I feel the water on the ground take my foot and I slip. I feel myself falling backwards and I look back up to Sonic to see him reach out for me.
"SPLASH"
My eyes open slowly as I feel a thick wetness slide down my face. I look down to the ground and I notice that I am in a muddy puddle, being rained on hard. My hands sink a bit and so does my bottom as I sit in the cold, muddy puddle. Tears still fall from my eyes from the pain of my butt, that just collided hard to the freezing, murky, puddle, to my heart. The raindrops smack my body and legs as I stare at the puddle below me.
"Amy…" says a distressed voice and I look up squinting a bit and I look at Sonic.
He has tears in his eyes, and he moves closer to me. I scoot back and Sonic eyes broaden.
"I'm… sorry. I… I lost control and… Amy, I'm sorry- "
"SHUT UP!" I yell at him as the rain continues to drop on the both of us.
The rain sounds run over us, getting in our hair and eyes but I'm sure both of us don't feel a single drop.
"STOP BEING SORRY FOR WHAT I DID TO YOU! THIS WAS…. THIS IS ALL MY FAULT!" I wail and my tears mix in with the rain hitting my face.
"I DESERVE THIS!" I say backing up from him and scooting more into the rain.
"Amy, stop. Let me get you out- "
"NO!"
I look over his face and then I sniff my nose.
"I don't deserve anything from you… you were right. I took you for granted and now here I am being a spoiled brat trying to have you back when I don't deserve you… especially when…"
I choke on my tears and I move back farther even more.
"Especially when nothing has changed in me at all." I say and I say as the mud covers my pants.
"I brought up Sally, because I was angry… what's wrong with me?" I say to him.
Thunder booms over us again and I don't jump this time as I feel the water soak through my hair.
"I end up failing at everything I do…all I wanted to do was apologize but…"
I shrug my shoulders and I let my pants get soaked even further as I give up finally.
"You have already begun to hate me… haven't you?" My words feel like dry air as the wet cold rain touches me.
Sonic moves towards me again and leans down to me but this time he goes for my arms. I move them so he won't help me out of the mud and then I start to get more upset.
"Amy… just get out of the- "
"Stop trying to help me. I don't deserve it." I say lowly.
"I'm clumsy and stupid. I'm not smart and I'm too slow to realize things. I'm dense and insensitive. So, stop trying to help me when all I do and STILL DO IS HURT YOU." I say breathing heavily
"I DESERVED THIS- "
Sonic places his hands on my cheeks and then kisses my forehead, making me stop talking. His warm lips make me calm down and the rain silences as he slowly removes his lips from my wet forehead. I look at his face and he has tears in his eyes as well. He looks panicked and upset as he kneels in the mud with me.
"Amy, stop…look. I'll listen to you okay. I'll- tell you how I feel. Just please let me get you out of this mud. I promise I'll listen, okay?" he says, and I look over his face.
I want to say "no" again, but his face makes me want to stop fighting so he wouldn't have to look like how he is now.
Frightened and terrified.
"You can get sick and I… I don't like to see you like this so please, just let me get you out. We can talk when we get inside. I promise so let's get you out the mud and the rain, okay?" he says trying to sound the nicest he can sound but I could tell he was freaking out a bit.
I nod my head softly and Sonic stands up and helps me out of the mud by putting his hands under my armpits. Sonic carefully holds me so I wouldn't slip since my socks were practically covered in mud. I slip a bit and catches me before I fall again. Sonic then just picks me up bridal style and he brings me back in his cold apartment. I shiver as soon as the air hits me, and Sonic carefully carries me inside. He closes the door and then he walks to his kitchen to grab a wooden chair. A sneeze leaves my body causing Sonic to move a bit quicker.
He sets the chair in the living room area but behind the couch and then he sits me down. I just noticed that Sonic was drenched too, and he stands up. My legs start to shake as my clothes make me colder and Sonic kneels to me.
"I'm going to get you some of my clothes to wear- "
"No… Sonic you don't have to do anything for me this isn't about me- "
"Amy, stop. Let's stop talking about this for one second. I'm getting you clothes and you are changing." He says to me sternly still kind of irritated about the whole situation.
He gets up and walks off quickly. I watch him walk off and I look down to my arms that were splattered in mud and grass bits. I also notice a small cut from the mud, and I think I might scratch my hand on some pebbles when I fell down. I hear footsteps coming back and I hide my palm as he places a fresh pair of clothes on the couch.
Sonic kneels down and he touches my socks. I lean down instead, and I take off my muddy socks.
"I… I can do it." I say as I am still angry.
Sonic steps back but he watches me take them off and then notices that my feet are dirty and so is the rest of me. Sonic looks back up to me and I look at him.
"You should take a shower- "
"No."
The words hit Sonic and he sighs angrily.
"Why not."
"I just said… this isn't about me. I don't need you to be kind to me because- "
"Okay, Amy you are right. I shouldn't be giving two shits about you right now, but I care about you. Okay? I do and I don't care about what you did to me right now, I just want you to take a shower, so you don't get sick because of me." Sonic says and I look at him.
"So, please stop talking and stand up. Go take a shower before I wash you myself." Sonic says sounding like an angry parent.
By his tone, I try to decide if I should argue but I don't. I stand up carefully making sure not to slip and I walk towards his bathroom. I turn in and I shiver again as more air vents hit me. I wrap my arms around each other, and I turn on his bathroom light.
His bathroom is decorated in black and white and I step on his black rug and I feel my ice-cold feet warm up as the rain drips down my back, from my hair, and into my soaked shirt.
"Here.' He says offering me the pair of clothes he brought out earlier.
I take them slowly from him and then he looks over me.
"Have you eaten? When I picked you up, I noticed you lighter than the last time I held you." Sonic question makes me roll my eyes and I am sure he is rolling his too as I place the clothes on the sink.
"Why are you… ugh, never mind." I say trying not to start another argument.
"It's a simple "yes or no" question, Amelia." Sonic says getting annoyed.
"Why are you calling me that!" I say walking back up to him.
"Because you are acting so childish! All I did was ask if you were hungry. Just answer the simple question." Sonic says.
"Yes. Now get out so I can take this stupid shower and you can stop being nice to me."
Sonic mumbles something under his breath and he closes the door behind me. As he leaves, I shiver hard since I remember I was so cold. I turn on the shower. I undress and I take a shower, using Sonic's bodywash and I slightly start to smell like him which throws me off a bit.
After my shower I get out and I still sneeze. I sniff my nose and then I look at Sonic huge clothes. I put them on one by one with his random huge orange shirt that smelled like him and then some grey pants that didn't fit my hips at all. And those also smelled like him
"I need to get out of this bathroom."
I walk out into the bathroom with my hair being sort of damp and I was also holding into the pants that he gave me that didn't fit at all. As I walk out I carry my wet clothes in my other hand and I look into the living room to see Sonic placing a container of something and some streaming tea in the a light brown mug, on the coffee table and I noticed that he changed clothes as well. He now had on a black hoodie and some grey shorts.
Another sneeze comes from my nose and that alerts Sonic, letting him know that I am back in the living room. He looks at me and frowns his eyes as he probably thinks I am coming down with a cold. He stands up and approaches me and for some reason I blush slightly as I listen his feet thump on his floor.
"You are sneezing." He says coming up to me and I look away.
"I feel fine." I say as he looks at me carefully.
Sonic sighs and the he holds his hand out.
"Let me get your clothes for you. I can dry them and bring them back tomorrow"
I hand it to him, and he takes it. As I bring my hand down, he catches it as he grabs my wrist. He turns it over and reminds me that I scratched my hand up. Our faces meet and Sonic already looks annoyed but disappointed at the same time.
"… Where you not going to tell me about this?"
I shrug my shoulders and I try to bring my hand back.
"It's nothing but a scrape." Sonic continues to hold my wrist and look at it.
"I'll get something to bandage you up and clean it, since you still don't want to tell me things." Sonic says spitefully and his words makes me shut up.
He walks away from me and I bring my hands to the pants that didn't fit me.
"Atleast he is not closing up to me."
Sonic comes back and he touches my back.
"Come sit over here." He says and pushes me forward a bit.
I walk and I sit down on the single couch chair I was once being pulled from and I notice a container of food. The smell hits my nose and my stomach grumbles as Sonic bends down in front of me.
"Seems like you are pretty hungry." Sonic says and I blush.
He takes my hand and looks at it. I watch him as he picks up an alcohol wipe and then he looks at me.
"This might hurt." He says and I shrug my shoulder as his comment about me not telling him nothing, runs in my head.
He places it on my hand, and I wince a bit as he cleans it. As he cleans it, I look over his face and seems stressed. I shift my legs back a bit as he continues to clean my hand and then he moves down to grab the bandages he brought.
"Sorry for… what I said about Sally and also now not telling you about my hand." I say softly and he Sonic nods his head and wraps my hand.
I swallow hard and I feel tears come in my eyes as I watch him help me over and over again, even though I continue to do bad things.
"I want him to stop being nice to me… I haven't changed one bit."
"This is why I don't want you to help me. I haven't learned anything." I say and Sonic stops wrapping my hand.
A single tear runs down my face and I wipe it with the back of my free hand but then I feel myself overflow with a wave of guilt and sadness.
"I'm s-sorry for everything… I just wanted to get back with you and I am practically making it worse… why do you even like me?" I say and Sonic sits down on the floor and continues to hold my bandaged hand.
He then brings his head down and sighs heavily.
"Amy… it's okay. Really. I'm not even really mad about you and Scourge. It kind of bothers me from time to time but it's not that big of a deal. Or what you said about Sally. I just wish you would tell me things and be a lot more open to me… that's it. I know you are a bit unexperienced and a tad bit slow to understanding things but I know you never meant to hurt anyone that day." He says and then leans his head up.
"Also, I'm sorry too… for breaking your bracelet. If you were wondering what's really been on my mind, it was your face when I ripped your bracelet off." Sonic rubs his fingers on my wrist, and he lays his head on my knees.
"No… it's okay. I still-"
"It's not. You really loved that bracelet and I broke it, out of anger. I'm not trying to be like that… anymore. But I did so you aren't the only one who hasn't learned anything." Sonic says and then he blushes.
"It looks like we both aren't that great at relationships."
"Is there anything else you wanted to ask or talk about. I would like it if you shared with me your thoughts and feelings."
Sonic looks over my face and then he looks off as he tries to think of what to say.
"It still bothers me a little, that I haven't had what Scourge got. The entire time after the incident, I just kept thinking if I wasn't enough for you, maybe I rushed things to fast or if you even liked me in the first place, because just like you said. You never had a reason to lie to me and I figured that out weeks ago." Sonic says and I start to feel more remorseful for what I did. "I didn't do anything to throw you off, did I?"
"No. Sonic of course not. I promise you, you didn't do anything which is why it took me so long to confront you… sorry that it took me so long. It probably seemed like I didn't care- "
"Heh, no I knew it was beating you up inside." Sonic says as he stares at my bandaged hand." Every day you would run out of our first class so quickly and at one moment, seeing you seem so unhappy and quiet started to get to me."
"Oh… he saw that."
"I was actually relieved when I saw you at my door because I was wondering how you were doing. Seeing you act like that for so long really made me worry because of how you usually act and seeing that switch just change in you was concerning."
Sonic lets go of my hand and looks at me, like he was studying a painting in an art museum.
"I was… afraid too. I didn't think I was actually going to even apologize to you after my first attempt- "
"Your first attempt?" Sonic says and I blush immediately
"Shit. Now I have to tell him about what I saw him and Blaze- Wait. I still don't know if he kissed her or not…"
"Um…" My nerves rush into me and I feel like passing out as I think about how the situation actually went.
"What if he tells me he likes Blaze… WHAT IF HE IS ALREADY DATING HER. Oh .no. I can't bring it up. I'll actually die if he says that."
Sonic is still looking at me as I try to figure out if I want to tell him or not. I clear my throat and I feel my heart pound through my chest.
"Um, so I saw you and you… well- You walked away far and I followed you- " Sonic face makes me blush and I wave my hand back and forth. "NOT LIKE STALKING YOU BUT- I was t-t-trying to talk to you but you were talking to someone else and I just left." I say and Sonic still looks confused.
"Where did you follow me too?" Sonic asks.
"Behind the library…" I say trying to let Sonic in on what I was struggling to say.
"Behind the library?... I don't even remember being behind there…" Sonic thinks for a moment and then he looks at me shocked. "Wait, when I was talking to Blaze? Wow, I really didn't even see you."
"Y-yeah…" I say patting my leg and then Sonic pokes my shin.
"You sound worried." Sonic says and I jump.
"N-N-No! I just… ah- I didn't want to hear you guys- "
"You didn't want to hear us talk?" Sonic asks and I nod my head softly.
"Ah… I'm sure something happened. My stomach is starting to hurt from all this stress of not knowing what happened."
"She told me she liked me, and she gave me her number… if you wanted to know that." Sonic says and my ears start to pulsate as he tells me.
Sonic notices I am still not at ease and he turns around reaching for something and then he hands me the warm coffee cup, full of warm tea. I take gently and I stare at it.
"… That's all that happened? Why are you acting so stiff and then what made you not just come up and talk to me?" Sonic asks
"Um… I thought something else was happening, so I freaked out and left…you guys were really close, and I saw you lean down towards her…" I say as I slightly feel relieved, but I still feel sad about what if they really would have done something. "Um…"
"Well, Amy nothing happened. Honestly, I was really shocked she even told me that. But I did get her number because I thought she just wanted to be friends… I actually forgot that even happened." Sonic says and I nod my head.
My nose runs a bit and I sniff making Sonic sit up straighter and moves the warm coffee mug closer to me.
"You should drink some of that… I hope you aren't getting a cold." Sonic says quietly as he stares at the mug.
"I'm sure I am fine.
I take of a sip of the warm tea a few times and then I look back to my hands.
"Ahh right- and then I tried to pull you out of here. I don't know what got over me. I'm really sorry. That's why I have been thinking."
Sonic sits up a bit more and my head comes back up.
"I think we should take a break." He says.
"…like a break up?" I ask and he shakes his head.
"No… I mean like, take a break from dating each other. I feel like we both need to grow a bit more… if we decide to do this again- "
"I want to date you again." I say and Sonic chuckles at me.
"I know you want too but… I need more time… if that's okay. I don't want to hold you forever so, if you don't want to wait for me then I understand- "
"I'LL WAIT FOR YOU!" I say scooting closer to him.
Sonic blushes and shakes his head.
"Amy… you really don't need to do that, because what if- "
"HOWEVER LONG IT TAKES!" I say scooting closer to Sonic.
Sonic looks at me in disbelief and then I grab his hand.
"I'm- I'm not really sure how a break works but if you need time to heal than we can do that. I'll give you your space and I'll make sure you continue to get it until you tell me you are ready." I say and Sonic nods his head.
"Okay. I'd love that." He says.
"And since we are… reserved I want to bring something else up." I say and Sonic looks at me curiously.
"Okay, I'm listening but you need to eat." He says as he turns around and hands me a container of food as he switches out the tea that I was holding prior.
"Hear me out first." I say and he sighs and nod his head. "Join the band again."
Sonic looks surprised as he looks over my face.
"Why?... I thought everyone quit- "
"I got them all back together and now I just need you." I say
"I have a plan to get us in the competition again!" I say but Sonic hands me a fork.
"Eat first then tell me about it."
I smile at him as he is willing to still try the band and I open the container and I eat the delicious food and I start going on about our new plan, to get back in the Tokyo Summer Jam festival.
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