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Pure silence is all that's heard aside from the birds chirping outside the window. That's how it's been for the past week; no laughter, no joking, no music or no conversation, just pure silence. Not just silence but distance as well. For the past week Beca has been in bed only getting up to use the bathroom. Stacie on the other hand has been sleeping in one of the guest's room crying nonstop. To say things were tense and depressing in the house would be an understatement.

Today marked exactly one week since the unfortunate night that saw Beca being rushed to the hospital.

One week ago

"Stacie! Somethings wrong." Beca shouted in fear shaking her fiancé awake.

Stacie quickly sat up and turned on the light "Baby what's wrong?" She asked frantically.

Beca threw the sheets off her and looked down at the blood-stained sheets "Stacie." Beca said as tears filled her vision.

"Shit." Stacie said quietly as got up and grabbed her wallet and keys before slipping on some sandals. She made her way over to Beca's side "Come on baby, we need to get you to the hospital."

Beca nodded and grabbed Stacie's hand slipping on some shoes and slowly making her way to the car. They stopped to grab a towel and placed the towel on the passenger seat. Stacie quickly got in and sped all the to the hospital.

Once there Beca was rushed into a room while Stacie was told to wait in the waiting room. Time seemed to slow for the two as Stacie spent the next twenty minutes, which felt like an eternity, while Beca laid on the table staring at the ceiling quietly praying.

After the twenty minutes Stacie was ushered into the room and sat down next to Beca holding her hand trying to whisper comforting words to her fiancé. They were interrupted by the doctor who had a solemn look on his face.

That's when their world seemed to crash around them.

Beca doesn't remember much after the word's "miscarriage" and "endometriosis".

And since that day Beca has isolated herself and seemed to shut off. She wouldn't talk or eat, she seemed to be on auto pilot. After the first two days of Stacie trying to break through, Beca made it known she wanted to be alone. It broke Stacie's heart to see Beca like this and not being able to really do much. After six months of carrying their child, to have it just taken away like this, shattered Beca beyond belief.

What made it worse was her being diagnosed with endometriosis. The fact that she may never be able to carry a child only intensified her broken state.

Stacie who was lounging around in the kitchen stopped when the doorbell rang. She made her way to the door and opened it revealing their two best friends.

"Hey girls." Stacie smiled sadly.

"How's it going?" Emily asked sadly embracing Stacie.

"Same." Stacie replied breaking the embrace and hugging Amy.

"We came because we got worried. Neither of you have been responding to any messages." Amy mentioned.

"Sorry. I haven't even touched my phone and I'm not sure Beca has even bothered to see if hers has battery." Stacie said.

The three made their way towards the kitchen and Emily sat there observing Stacie while she talked to Amy. Emily studied Stacie and noticed how exhausted she was and how she was trying so hard to keep it together while they were there. Emily knew Beca most likely had locked herself away from everyone and everything. Emily knew how much that probably affected Stacie. Emily also figured the taller girl spent many nights crying in the guest room and probably blamed herself for not being able to help Beca. Everyone knew how Beca and Stacie were and how much the other hated seeing the other sad. How much pain it's brought to see the other hurting.

Emily knew she had to do something "Stace, do you mind?" Emily asked as she nodded her head towards the stairs.

Stacie knew what she was asking and shook her head "Go ahead."

Emily nodded and made her way up towards the master bedroom. She knocks three times and entered the room. She closed the door behind her and looked towards the bed. Emily saw the girl she looked up to, the girl she considered her older sister laying there staring at nothing with red puffy eyes, hair that looked like it hasn't been touched in forever, her skin more pale then normal and a face that showed pure and utter heartbreak. Emily took a deep breath and knew she had to step up and play the role that Beca often played throughout the years. Emily knew she had to step up and talk Beca out of this like Beca had done to Emily all those times in Barden and once they graduated.

"Hey Bec." Emily said softly "I'm going to sit next to you if that's fine." Emily announced sitting on the bed facing Beca. Emily tentatively reached over and gently placed a hand on Beca arm. Noticing Beca didn't pull back or flinch, Emily slowly began to stroke Beca's arm.

"Amy and I got so worried that we dropped by. Amy is downstairs talking to Stacie and Bec, Stacie's hurt as well. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through but please remember you're not alone in this." Emily said softly.

She saw that Beca didn't give any response, so she figured she'd keep talking until Beca gave some type of response.

"Listen I know you're hurting but you have to remember that you're not the only one that lost a kid, Stacie did as well. You both lost your child. But the thing is Beca, Stacie didn't just lose her child, she also lost you. She's hurt that she can't be in the same room as you, she's hurt that she can't hold you, she's hurt that she can't talk to you, she's hurt that she's lost you. She's trying so hard to not completely lose it but she's reaching her breaking point Beca and I know that deep down that's the last thing you want. You need to snap out of this and get it together. I know that seems harsh but for years you were the one that gave me the tough love I needed to bounce back. You were the one always there to keep it real with me while being my shoulder to cry on or the person who lay there and cuddle me till I felt better. This is me paying that back and getting you out of this." Emily said as she reached for the all too familiar book on the nightstand. She grabbed it along with the pen and placed it next to Beca on the bed.

"Do what you do best, music. Write whatever it is your feeling or thinking. Music has always been your muse and your reliever. This is the same thing you told me back in Barden, that sometimes you need to write your shit out until your good to go." Emily said sternly channeling some of that tough love she talked about.

"Don't shut Stacie out anymore Beca. She's your fiancé and your other half. She's also the only one who can remotely relate to this and you need her. Don't shut out the one person who will give you the strength to overcome this tough time. The two of you are a team and you guys are undefeated in tough situations. You guys always bounce back stronger and this is no exception." Emily said.

"We love you and we always will. You're not alone but we can't help if you keep us locked out. We're family Bec and when one of us hurts, we all hurt. Please come back to us and to Stacie." Emily said returning to her soft tone.

She noticed Beca's eyes move to look at her. Emily sat there staring back with a small smile and moved Beca's hair behind her ear gently.

"Please." Emily said softly.

Beca blinked twice and Emily had gotten her response. To anyone other than Emily that wouldn't have seemed like a response of any kind but for these two, two blinks meant something.

Emily nodded and got up giving Beca a soft par on the cheek before making her way out of the room and downstairs.

"So?" Amy asked as she noticed her first.

Emily smiled and nodded "We'll be good."

Shortly after the two girls left, Stacie went back to making something to eat. Beca meanwhile let everything Emily had said sink in.

After staring at the book for close to five minutes she grabbed it and sat up. She opened to an empty page and let her heart take over as her hand seemed to just move.

Two hours later Stacie had just finished brushing her teeth and did one last sweep of the house making sure nothing was left on that shouldn't be. As she made her way back upstairs where the guest room, she was staying in was, she heard the door of the master bedroom open.

"Baby?" Stacie asked softly.

Beca stepped aside and Stacie entered the room.

She looked towards Beca who simply walked over to the bed and sat down looking towards Stacie.

The taller girl nodded and sat down next to Beca as she waited for Beca to start.

"I'm sorry." Beca said quietly.

Stacie looked towards her fiancé at the broken tone she spoke with. She reached over grabbing her hand before interlocking their fingers.

"It's okay baby. I understand how hard this has been on you." Stacie said.

Beca shook her head "It's been just as hard on you and I haven't been the best for just shutting you out. I shouldn't have done that; I should have welcomed you and try to be there for you as well. What I did wasn't right and I'm sorry." Beca said still looking down.

"I'm not going to lie; it did hurt when you shut me out but like I said I understand. I love you and nothing is going to change that. We will get through this together like always. I promise you that." Stacie said reassuringly.

Beca nodded and curled into Stacie's side "I love you too."

Two weeks later

Beca had invited Emily and Amy over to the house saying she had a surprise she wanted them to witness together. They were all gathered around the kitchen with the speakers on tuned into a radio station.

"Alright folks, now we have a new song from a special person. We're honored to have the chance to debut this meaningful song that will hopefully help some of you out there. Here is "More" by non-other than Beca Mitchell." The host said.

The three girls all turned to face Beca who had her head down and playing with her fingers.

"Baby?" Stacie asked slowly placing a hand on Beca's.

Beca just shook her head and nodded towards the speakers.

Stacie nodded and the three tuned into the song.

"They told me once, nothing grows
When a house ain't a home
Is it true, honestly
When it'salla part ofme?
A couple years of waiting rooms
FindingGod, and lose Him too
Wanna scream, but what's the use?

Lyin' awake, and I stare at the door
I just can't take it no more
They told me it's useless, there's no hope in store
But somehow I just want you more

I want you more
Somehow, I just want you more
I want you more
Somehow, I just want you more."

The girls all listened intently, and each knew exactly what Beca was talking about. They now realized why Beca had her head down and fidgeted with her hands.

Stacie squeezed Beca's hand lovingly.

"Wooden floors and little feet
A flower bud in concrete
Feelin' so incomplete
Wonder will we ever meet?
And would you know it right away
How hard I tried to see your face?
A little screen, a photograph, mine to take

I sit and I stare at your clothes in the drawer
I cry and my knuckles get sore
'Cause I still believe it won't be like before
And now, somehow, I just want you more

I want you more
Somehow, I just want you more
I want you more
Somehow, I just want you more."

Stacie who had started to cry when the realization hit, was now in full tears knowing how hard this time has been on both of them. She felt more pain at the thought of Beca trying to write this song.

Emily who felt like Beca wrote this after their talk couldn't help but cry as well. She glanced over at Beca who wiped her nose clearly crying. She reached over and placed a gentle hand on her shoulder giving it a squeeze of reassurance.

Amy who sat across from all of them simply shook her head in disbelief at how strong Beca is just for writing this and releasing it. She wanted nothing more than to go over there and give the smaller girl a bone crushing hug before giving one to Stacie as well.

"And when you decide it's your time to arrive
I've loved you for all of my life
And nothing could stop me from giving a try
I've loved you for all of my life

Loved you more
Somehow, I still love you more
Love you more
Somehow, I still love you more."

The song ended with the beat slowly fading out. Once the host said his outro, Stacie turned off the speakers and looked towards Beca.

"That was beautiful baby. I'm proud of you for doing that." Stacie said softly

"Thank you." Beca said before facing Emily.

Emily gave Beca a smile.

"Thank you Em. Thank you for being there and giving me exactly what I needed. Thank you for snapping me out of my funk." Beca said.

"Of course Bec. Like I said you spent all these years giving me the tough love pep talks and I felt like I owed you one." Emily smiled.

"You owe me more than one." Beca joked.

Emily rolled her eyes "Yeah yeah." She said dismissively.

Amy got up and decided on one big bone crushing group hug.

"I love you guys." Beca said.

More- Halsey