Chapter Thirty-Eight
"Oh yes- Joseph!" Clarisse exclaimed as she found her release.
Joseph groaned as he felt her muscles tighten around him, triggering his own release as he kept on bucking his hips, pushing deeper inside her as he rode his own orgasm.
"Clarisse!" he roared as he shot his loads inside her, collapsing beside her as he tried to catch his breath.
Clarisse rolled beside him, lifting her head up to his chest and placed her hands to his other side. Feeling to his shallow breathing and listening to his heartbeat.
Closing her eyes, she inhaled and closed her eyes.
The smell of their previous activities surrounds them as she can't help but blush.
Would their suite at the palace smell like his once they come back?
Then the thought of leaving enters her mind again.
This is their last day here in Paris.
The last day of the days they planned on shotgun and now she's feeling a bit unprepared.
She have no idea what will happen once they got back to Genovia.
Sure she might spend time with Mia, Pierre, if he's there, Vicky and the others but what about Joseph?
What if he got bored of me… she thought as she opened her eyes, feeling his hand caressing her back.
"Something's bothering you, mon amour.." he mumbled as his other hand run across her hair, "What is it?"
Clarisse blush as she suddenly felt so foolish. Maybe because she's been thinking of things she know deep inside will never happen.
Just days ago, I'm wondering about competing for his attention… Now I'm afraid I'll bore him.. What on earth is happening to me? she mused as she looked at him.
His eyes looking down at her as waited for her to speak.
She gave him a smiled breath, "I can't really hide anything from you, can't I?"
He shook his head as leaned down to kiss her forehead, making her close her eyes and smile.
"Now are you going to tell me, my darling? Or I'll just lie here admiring you while sensing something funny on you at the same time?" he asked as he continue massaging her scalp and running his fingers across her back.
Clarisse closed her eyes and smiled, "No need to worry, dear. I am just being foolish."
"There's no such thing as foolish to you, Clarisse. You have to know that." he said as he slightly straightened them up and looked at her, "Why do I feel like I should know this?"
Clarisse chewed her bottom lip as she tried to decide whether to tell him or not.
Joseph observe her carefully as she do one of her habits that never make it through her thick facade of perfection. Only in private moments but still, rare.
Clarisse sighed as she looked at him, "Oh Joseph.. I- I felt so foolish. I don't know why."
"If you insist on your foolishness, my darling. Then please do enlighten me of this so that I'll see if you really are being, as you say, foolish." he said as he caress her hair, loving it smooth.
Clarisse slightly smiled at him as she leaned to kiss his nose, "Promise not to laugh at me?"
"I'll never laugh at you, mon amour. If I do, then I'll do it with you." he said as he scooped his patience and waited.
Clarisse felt slightly relieved with his reassurance as she scooped her confidence and said, "Have you ever felt bored on woman's company?"
Joseph looked at her confused at the moment before he said, "It depends on who's the woman, mon cheri."
"No Joseph- uh… Have you ever have former lovers? Like- oh god- I don't know how to say this.." she groaned as she rolled back, feeling so embarrassed as Joseph automatically rolled to her direction and hug her from the back.
"I have some exes on the past, if that's what you want to know, my darling. And yes I got bored on some company but if you're worried that I will be on yours then I'll correct you right away, Clarisse." he said as he planted a kiss on the side of her exposed neck, "I'll never get bored on you."
Clarisse closed her eyes as continue giving butterfly kisses on her neck, to the side of her forehead, to her cheeks and to her shoulders as she said in a muffled voice, "I'm sorry for being so foolish."
"You don't need to apologize for worrying, my love. Now where did that come from?" he asked as she suddenly looked at him.
He sighed as he caress her shoulder as she rolled again, facing him.
"How long have you know Rupert?" she asked.
Without skipping a beat, he said, "More than what an average person knows about him but not that much."
Clarisse sighed as she said, "Do you know the real reason why I reacted that way when you told me that you love me?"
He didn't answer that as he just waited for her to continue.
"You know Joseph- I- You see after we married, and for the first fifteen years of our marriage, Rupert used to tell me that he loves me. I was naive then and I'm incredibly new to love so I took him seriously and really thought that he really- loves me.." she took a very deep breath as she looked at him and go one, "Until our fifteenth anniversary. You were away to your training then and I guess you heard some gossips."
"I only heard that you and His Majesty are not sharing suites anymore. The rest that I heard are very- let's say vulgar. Most staffs used to twist stories you wouldn't know the what really happened then. I presumed he cheated and you found him." Joseph said as he brushed away the tears coming down her eyes as he leaned to kiss her lips, "I wouldn't dare to do that, Clarisse. I'm too old to screw up on my life and I'm satisfied with my wife now."
Clarisse looked at him as she shook her head, "You are not old, my darling. If you are then what am I?"
"A beautiful woman who turned my life upside down and changed my whole perspective of love, life and everything." Joseph said as he leaned in to kiss her again.
Clarisse smiled as she put his hands on his lips and looked at him sternly, "Do you want me to finish my story or shall we just forget it?"
Joseph looked at her as his curiosity won against his ignorance, "So he really did… you know."
"It's a harsh way to break my innocence about those things but yes. Though I didn't find them doing -you know. I just got a call and I heard them doing- you know." Clarisse sighed as she snuggled to him, "After that- I- I never answered a telephone call . I have someone to pick it up for me before I have it on my hands."
Joseph nodded as he observed that thing on her as well. Though he never asked why then, now he knows why.
"I- you see… I'm new to this, Joseph. I don't know what happened after two people 'in love' got married and I don't know who people on our age do. And I'm just… I'm having these- you know- fears that you might get bored of me, that you might desire a more fresh and young woman, that someday you'll realize that I'm just a- you know- temporary thing or somethi-"
"Oh hold on there, Clarisse. Do you really expect me to see you as those things?" he asked as he looked at her.
Clarisse shook her head, "I didn't said that- I said.. I'm having these fears. You see- I told you it's foolish of me to think. I don't know what's happening to me these day, I'm having these unlikely ideas and I don't know why."
She, again, hid herself from him by curling herself like a ball. Joseph looked at her for a moment of admiration and caress her hair.
"You don't have to feel foolish about these things, my darling." he said as he continue his ministration, "I have to admit, I understand my darling."
Clarisse looked up him as she snuggle back to him, "What do you mean?"
Joseph sighed as he kissed her forehead, "You see- remember the time someone tried to shoot you at New Year's Day Parade?"
"And the bullet ended up on your knees so need to have a knee replacement? Of course, Joseph. I'm so worried I can barely have my head around." she said as she unconsciously looked to his knees that are fully recovered, or she presume they are judging their activities for the past weeks.
"Yes well… after that- you see I got myself to recover fast-"
"-or you insisted them that you're already recovered three days after the surgery." Clarisse teased as he groaned:
"Well I am."
Clarisse chuckled on his stubbornness as she said, "It should take you at least a month or more to recover. Anyways, darling- you were saying.."
"Ah yes.. uh-you see, where are we again? Oh yeah. You see, after that, with Mia around, I became more- I don't know how to say this- paranoid I guess? When it comes to security measures. Even in the most safe place, I still worry. Even when I left, I felt I've done my biggest mistake on life. That bullet is the closest one, we usually caught the snippers on act or we stopped them before they shoot but that one clearly triggers my paranioa." He sighed as he looked at Clarisse, "You get what I wanted to say right?"
Clarisse nodded as she lifted her head and rested it on his shoulder as she said, "So I guess I learned something now.."
"First times on unwanted experiences triggers unwanted ideas." he stated as he kissed her forehead.
"I would rather say; paranoia than unwanted ideas but still.. the same." she smiled as she turned and leaned in to kiss his lips.
They looked at each other as he said, "But you know what? No matter how heavy and serious those thoughts are, they always disappear when I'm wih you."
"Same here," she said as she tried to stiffle a yawn but failed miserably.
Joseph found her face cute as he hugged her, "Let's sleep now, mon cheri. We have a plane to catch in the morning."
Clarisse smiled as she nodded, "Good night, my Joseph."
"Good night, my darling, my Clarisse, my life."
A/N: I'm planning on finishing this book after two more chapters….. but I think I'm going to write a prequel or smth. What do you think? Should I? Or should I not? Jhfuf anyways, what do you think? I mean- I'm not that really good at writing serious talk stuff or any fluff *or idk yet since I'm so new to this.* I hoped you enjoy and please leave some thoughts. I need them (⊙_⊙).
