Anger Management
Chapter 29th
Once Leroy Jethro Gibbs left his house probably for the last time and moving into his grey truck. He slammed his hand onto the steering wheel angry at his wife and himself for this entire situation. He was going to be losing his wife and child along with himself.
Doctor Grace had mention this was going to happened to him and he didn't want to listen to her at all. "Look Gibbs I am warning you now. There is no way you're going to come back out of that black void unless you're strong enough to do so. However you will be destroying yourself along with Loreile and the rest of your friends."
"I don't understand what the hell you're talking about Doc?" He said with standing up to leave her office a few weeks back.
"Of course you don't Gibbs. Because you have a set of rules that you live by. Even though having burnt up rules ten and Twelve. One by one those rules are being removed and you don't know how to deal with life right now. And this terrorist Jose Juan Hernandez knows this on how to push your buttons."
"I am not listening to any more of this Doctor Grace. I have a job that needs to be done now with three cases. So if you will excuse me I have to go. I have already said enough for now." He announced with Doctor Grace shaking her head to wait for her next patient to arrive.
As Gibbs drives off thinking about the two letters in his coat pocket. He had no choice but to wait until he was abroad the transport flight with the rest of the NCIS team, Leon, the marines and seals. He had remembered something about his wife talking one day about the death of her daughter from a previous marriage...
They were sitting in the kitchen of their house after having made love earlier upstairs in the bedroom. She had started to cry thinking about her daughter Elizabeth.
"What's wrong Loreile?" He asked with placing his callous hands onto hers feeling her pain as well.
"I don't know why I was thinking of my daughter Elizabeth. There was nothing I was able to do with saving her once the brakes had went on the car and hitting the tree hard. I remember the pain of the impact and seeing my daughter being thrown into the glass in spite the safety belt breaking.
Investigators had found with the rain snow and ice had worn the brakes to cause the accident along with a faulty safety belt. I was able to sue the company to win the judgement. Even though it didn't help with the lost of my daughter."
"How did you decide to get out of your darkness for the year?" He asked with removing his hand to take a sip of his coffee.
Friends were telling me about making the change with talking to a therapist and other groups to help me finally. I made the decision to transfer to the Evergreen safehous with help from Leon. I was happier afterwards Jethro until the day I met you at the celebration."
"I know it wasn't easy for you to make that decision with living all of the ghosts behind you?" He quipped with the question.
"True. But once I made it everything else was a piece of cake." She said with a smile and Gibbs holding her hands.
Leroy Jethro Gibbs came back to reality with stopping at the entrance of the airport to head for the airfield for where everyone else was waiting for him. Parking his jeep into a space with grabbing his gear and making sure that his two letters were still in his coat pocket to read.
Walking over to the group. He saw Doctor Cyril Taft and another doctor coming along for the trip. "Hey Doc! I didn't know you were coming along?"
"I didn't know until six hours ago when I had gotten the call. Catherine wasn't all too pleased when I came home to pack." He said with anger.
"Join the crowd Doc!" Gibbs said with anger before walking past him to speak with Leon on the side from everyone ears. " I am making this damn clear now. This is going to be the very last time I go to Paraguay or any country? If and when I come home from this trip. I am going to use all of my vacation time to take Loreile and my son on a second honeymoon. Do I make myself clear Leon?"
"Very clear. Now let's get on board the flight now before they leave without us." Vance said with a tone that had Gibbs moving quicker with his gear and Doctor Taft to give everyone shots on board before they reach Paraguay and something special for Gibbs arms to help keep track in case he's taken by Hernandez and his regime.
After all of the shots were finished. Leroy jethro Gibbs went to sit down to read the two letters that he found.
Sitting by himself in the corner he took out the both letters to read the first one dated a week ago.
Dear Jethro
The reason I am writing this letter is to let you know I am fed up with you and our marriage. I am tired of always fighting with you on the one subject that has destroyed us both. I am going to let you go and get yourself killed because of your obsession. My emotions are so mixed up right now from this pregnancy.
This is another matter. Once I leave you while your gone. I don't want you to have any rights to our son. I know this is crude to say. But your life needs to be free of us once you're in Paraguay searching for this monster Hernandez. I just hope to god that you don't come back alive with body parts missing.
In spite all this Jethro in a role reversal I still do love you no matter how you see it. Do what you must to do and hopefully be alive and well.
Love,
Loreile
Placing the first letter into his pocket. He begins to read the second letter...
Dear Jethro
After writing the first letter I found myself disgusted with writing it in the first place. I just can't believe I wrote it with all of my anger. Look! Burn the letter and I hope to god that you don't think that I am a monster like Hernandez. But I do love you and I am going to be supporting you in all of your endeavor with finding Hernandez and taking him down for good.
I would like to say that I will never stop you from seeing your son Shane. He matters the most for you and my sanity after losing my daughter Elizabeth. Yeah like you I do have my ghosts like you have over the years. Shane is going to grow up looking like you and will no doubt become a marine or even an NCIS agent to be the best. I can't believe I am saying this already.
I love you, Leroy Jethro Gibbs and I hope we both make it for our second honeymoon or vacation. Good luck with the search...
Love,
Loreile
Special Agent Gibbs placed back the two letters into his pocket to lay down with getting some sleep...
