I went through this and made changes based on comments. I hope it is better.thank you all for reading.--‐

5 years later

It has been 5 years since we left Seattle. We have been staying at each of Christian's properties for weeks or months at a time.

We are currently in Aspen, Colorado. Our next stop is Seattle. It has been long enough that I think I can handle being back there. I will try at the very least.

Penny and Piper are now 7 and James and Teddy are almost 6. Our daughter, Phoebe is close to 5. She was born while we were in Italy.

They are amazing children, truly.

Over the last 5 years, we have traveled all over the world and stayed at every one of Christian's properties. Now that all of the kids need to start school, we are heading back to Seattle.

I cut off the Greys because I feel that since Christian was my link to this family and that since he was gone, I didn't feel that I fit into their family.

I feel bad that I cut them off from the kids for so long so that was another deciding factor in going home to Seattle.

I had left them a note to ask them not to look for me and that I will be back someday.

We all board the jet and once we touch down in Seattle, Gibson is waiting for us with our SUVs.

We all get in and we head out to our home on the sound.

When we get home, we put the kids to bed because it is so late. I have a couple glasses of wine and I go to bed myself. I strip down to my bra and panties and I get into bed myself.

When I wake up in the morning, I smell my husband on my pillow and I savor it for a little bit and then I get up and shower. I go into my closet and get dressed.

I go downstairs and find the kids eating breakfast. "Your plate is in the warmer, Ana."

"Thank you, Gail."

I grab my plate and I sit down and eat with the kids. After we finish eating, I have the kids get ready and then we load up and head to the Grey's manor with Sawyer and Taylor.

The kids get out with me and we approach the door. They should be surprised. I didn't warn even Kate that we were coming home.

I knock on the door and Grace opens it and her mouth opens but nothing comes out. "Surprise! We're home!"

She finally snaps out of it and she engulfs me in a warm, welcoming embrace. I introduce her to our 5 kids and only Penny and Piper recognize her. She hugs them all and she invites us in. Whenever we get to the family room, Carrick and Mia are there. They look shocked as well. I introduce the kids to them and I give them hugs myself.

They dote on our children and I talk to them about what has happened for the last 5 years.

They seem understanding. "I'm going to call the rest of the family over. You're return is something to celebrate." Grace says.

I nod and smile. They seem like they're hiding something from me and I have no idea what it is.

When someone knocks, Grace goes to answer the door. She comes back into the room with Kate and Elliot, who look equally as shocked.

I get up and approach Kate and I wrap my arms around her.. "I've missed you."

"I've missed you, too, Ana. Are these the kids?" I nod. "They've gotten so big."

"They're amazing kids."

Elliot hugs me as well.

We all sit and talk. I tell them why I ran away and they are understanding, and I respect that they gave me my much needed space. There is another knock on the door. Who else could they possibly be expecting?

Grace goes to answer it and Kate and Elliot sit on either side of me. What is going on here?

"Ana, there is something I haven't had the chance to tell you." Kate says.

"What is it?" I look at her curiously.

"Ana…" I hear from a painfully familiar voice behind me.

I carefully turn around, not believing my ears. Then I see him. "Christian?"

"It's me, baby."

I lose my breath and everything goes black.

When I wake back up, I'm laying in Christian's childhood bedroom. I look around and I see him sitting in a chair on the opposite side of the bed. "Is it really you?"

"In the flesh. I've missed you, Ana."

"I've missed you, too. Where have you been?"

"Elena's submissive who looks like me was put onto my helicopter before it exploded and they even put my wedding band on his finger. 2 of my former submissives and a man, who I didn't recognize took me to a home in Chehalis and since I had lost most of my memories, they told me I was married to Elizabeth and I believed it for a couple of years. I suddenly started to get my memories back so they felt the need to restrain me to keep me from going back to my life. They kept me in a basement restrained. It took me a while but I escaped from them 4 months ago."

"So how long have you been back and why the fuck did no one inform me?"

"I've been back for 3 months. My family told me that you moved away and I assumed that you had moved on since you didn't come back."

I Have tears running down my cheeks at this point. "I didn't move on, Christian. I couldn't imagine being with anyone else after you."

"I'm sorry, Ana."

"Why are you sorry?"

"For not trying to contact you. I told the family not to let you know that I'm back. I've been staying at Escala, trying to remember more about my life before I contacted you."

"Have you had sex with anyone else?"

He looks down. "Not in the last 2 years."

I stand up and I walk around the bed to where he is sitting. "Stand, please."

He nods and stands in front of me. I place my hands gently on his and I run my hands up his arms slowly all the way to his shoulders and I lightly cup his face in my hands. I step on my tip toes and I kiss him sweetly and I feel that electrical pull that I've only ever felt with him and I gasp.

I look up at him. "You're alive."

"I am alive." He pulls my body flush up against his own and I can feel his obvious erection against my stomach.

His lips crash back into mine and he kisses me passionately. It is one of the most passionate kisses that we have ever shared. "Love me, Christian? I need you." I whisper against his lips.

His lips crash back into mine as he rips my clothes off of my body. This is so hot! I unbutton his shirt and undo his pants. I push his shirt off of his shoulders and it falls to the ground. I run my fingers through his smattering of chest hair and I pull his pants and boxers down, freeing his magnificent erection.

He picks me up by my ass and my lips crash back into his as he lays me down on the bed and he takes off my bra and panties and throws them onto the floor along with the rest of our clothes. He lays kisses down my chest and stomach. "Can we please skip the foreplay this time. I need to be connected to you again, now!"

He smiles against my skin and he works his way back up to my mouth again and he kisses me feverishly as he gently penetrates my core causing me to gasp. "You okay?"

"I'm great!! I'm finally home with YOU!!" he smiles down at me and his lips crash back into mine as he thrusts into me at a punishing rhythm. "Faster and harder please?"

"I need this slow, baby. I'm finally home."

I nod and he continues to thrust and I come undone under his sexual expertise 3 times before he joins me, grunting my name, as he finds his own release. "Fuck. Ana I have missed you so damn much."

"I have missed you so damn much as well. I love you, Christian Grey." I start crying tears of relief that he is finally home. "I am so happy that you're alive."

"I love you, too, Anastasia Grey. I'm happy to be home."

He kisses me sweetly as he pulls out and lays down beside me. He pulls me up against his chest and holds me. "We better get up so you can go spend time with our kids."

"Let's go home and spend time with them."

"sounds like an excellent plan, Mr. Grey."

We get up and try to get dressed when I realize that he ripped my clothes off of me and I laugh, showing him my ripped clothing.

"Wear one of my t-shirts and a pair of my sweat pants."

I nod and he gets some out of the drawer and tosses them on the bed for me.

We finish getting dressed and he takes my hand and we go down the stairs and to the family room, where our family is all doting on our children. "We need to go home and spend some time as a family and then we will come back to visit soon." Christian says.

"That's fine. Can we keep them tomorrow night? It will give you two some time to get reacquainted."

I look at Christian and he nods. "That sounds good. Thank you."

"No need to thank me. These are our grandbabies and until today we haven't seen them for 5 years."

I start crying. I neglected their desire to be with our children."I'm so sorry about that."

"No need to apologize. We understand why you left."

I wipe away my tears. "Thank you."

"Not a problem, Ana. Go spend time with your family and we will see you all tomorrow." I nod.

We tell them all goodbye and we load up into the SUV and Christian holds my hand the whole way home.

Whenever we arrive, we all go into our house and we spend the rest of the day with our kids. Once they go to bed, we go to bed ourselves and worship each other's bodies until we finally succumb to sleep, safe and sated, in each other's arms.